Fractured Dreams
Another fanfic? sigh This story sets a few years after the manga ends. Tsukasa and Tsukushi got married to each other but predictably enough nothing is smooth sailing. All characters belongs to Yoko Kamio sensei. I own nothing. Lyrics of my Happy Ending belongs to Avril Lavigne and co.
In the vast parameters of Doumyouji's mansion, at any given time there was a hundred of housekeeping staff at work, 50 security personnels at guard with a fleet of culinary experts busy whipping up scrumptious cuisine for the Doumyouji family. So many people yet the only Doumyouji family member in the house remained lonely.
" Young mistress.. young master called. He'll be late again today." said Tama. Tsukushi smiled back.
" Then, Tama-chan will be joining me for dinner?" Tama smiled.
Doumyouji Tsukushi is Doumyouji Tsukasa's bride. They got married a year ago but Tsukushi felt it already been years.
We fought so hard to make it.. and we did.
But afterwards..
Tsukushi moved towards the window. Doumyouji insisted that they live here in his family mansion. He wanted to give her everything.
Doumyouji came back for me from New York and together, we married against his family's wishes but to my family's delight. I was happy. Everyone else was also happy for me. I have found my prince and I thought that I found my happily ever after.
But I was wrong. From the first day we got married, everything was fraught with failures. I could not fit in with my new responsibility as the new Doumyouji family mistress. I kept doing mistakes whenever we host parties. As the Doumyouji Corp. CEO, Doumyouji often bring me to receptions but I kept embarrassing him. He kept telling me it was all right. It was okay. But I never felt reassured. I felt so insecure.
I try to act more mature but I only end up being laughed at. It became so unbearable that I refused to follow him altogether. After that, he always go alone.
At the same time, Doumyouji began to drift away from me. He became more and more engrossed with work. He was hardly at home. I tried to talk about it but he refused to listen.
I miss him. I miss the old Doumyouji.
I tried to keep up a happy face but it's becoming increasingly hard to do so.
Rui, if you were here, what would you say?
Doumyouji was at the office. He contemplate on going home early but decided against it.
What's wrong with me? What's wrong with us?
Doumyouji felt that he was a failure. He could feel Tsukushi's suffering in silence. And it was his entire fault. He could not bear looking at her knowing that he was the cause of her misery.
That's why he began avoiding her. Though he knows that it should not be this way, he could not help it.
I love her but loving her only brought her misery. I am such an idiot.
Perhaps we were better off without each other.
At home..
" Okaeri, master." Doumyouji smiled to Tama.
" Tsukushi's asleep? "
" Err.. master that's what I want to talk about. Young Miss.. she.."
" She's mad at me again? Don't worry, she'll get over it."
" It's not that, master." Irritated, he yelled, " Then what?"
" Young Miss has left.."
" What!"
Doumyouji rushed to their bedroom. True enough, the closet was empty and there was a letter on the pillow.
No..
Trembling, Doumyouji slowly read the letter.
My beloved Tsukasa,
Forgive me but I need to get away to think. You know how things been going with the two of us. I am taking my time to get away. Do not try to find me. When I am ready, I'll return to you.
Yours, Tsukushi
He crushed the letter in his hand while shaking his head in disbelief.
Makino would not leave me.
But here he was.. alone. She left him.
How come she did not want to talk about it?
But he realised that he himself make it difficult for her. He was the one avoiding her. He was the one that shut her out.
Is this my most fitting punishment?
Tsukushi was in the train heading north. She was listening to a song on her radio.
Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something you said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
held up so high
On such a breakable thread
You were all the things I thought of you
And I thought we could be
You are everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All that they talk about
All the shit that you do
You were all the things I thought of you
And I thought we could be
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
It's nice to know you were there
Thanks for asking like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done
Yeah.. so much for my happy ending.
Tsukushi opened her diary. She flipped to the back. It read..
To my dear friend Tsukushi,
If you were down and in need of a friend, just come to me.
An address was written below it. A ski lodge in Hokkaido.She does not know whether that person will be there for her but she always turn to him in the past and he never turn her away.
Rui, please let there be you.
It's a short intro because I am not sure whether I want to continue with this idea. Review if you want me to continue, if not I'll just end it this way as a oneshot. Please do not ask whether this is a RxT fic or TxT fic. Because I am not sure myself. R n R onegai.