I'm a frustrated writer, but I've never ever in my life thought of writing an anime fanfic.
The truth is, I got so frustrated and hurled up over this anime. I don't think it should end that way!
Anyway, just read it please. I'm open to criticisms. Promise!!!
Just enjoy...whatever!
It's been three days since I last saw him...
I wonder where he is.
Maybe in Never land... Oz... Wonderland.
He might be laughing with her now...
Julia.
While there are persons missing his annoying existence..
While there's me... not even knowing why these silly tears are streaking down my cheeks,
and why am I in his room, hugging his pillow.
Why am I even thinking of him?
Why am I thinking of you Spike?
You're so stupid... so stupid...
"Faye..."
I thought I heard Spike. I wish it's him but when I turned to see, it's Jet.
I hurriedly put my composure back and lost it all at once, realizing Jet knows what I've been trying to hide... And I guess, I can't hide it.
"What?"
He walked across the room and I found him sitting beside me taking spike's pillow away from my grasp.
"You don't need this. Why not do that to the man soundly sleeping outside?"
There was that strange look on his face. And it took a moment before his words were registered to my consciousness.
I didn't know what exactly took over me that I ran... faster than I've ever run before in my entire existence.
He's back... It's like I'm rooted on the floor and I can't take a step.
I don't what to do... Spike...On a split second I'm on his side....
Crying...
Damn, stupid me!
I don't even know why I'm doing this.
I feel so numb...
I can't move... even if I can, I know I won't.
Hell, where am I.
Stupid! All I have to do is open my eyes to find out.
But what if I do?
There's nothing out there worth to live for...
I hear somebody's voice.
Julia?
Heavily, I opened my eyes... Just to find another pair of them looking at me. Worried.
Those eyes... I've seen them before.
They're not Julia's.
The humming stopped. Or maybe no one's been doing that at all. I could have just remembered it from a dream.
I can't even diminish a dream from reality...
Who are you? I wanted to voice out but my own memory did the answering before I could even ask the pale figure looking down at me.
Faye..."You're back." I heard her say.
"Jet's been worried. Nobody else's going to help him with Beebop. Good thing you're conscience still ticks!"
I don't even know if she meant what she said.
She's still crying while letting those words out.
I've never really seen her cry before.
I had to say something...
"Faye..."
She looked eagerly at me, waiting.
"Am I in hell?"
I know what to expect. I know I'll be feeling the pressure of her palm right in my cheek. Left? Or Right? I couldn't care less... Strange, I miss being slapped.
However...
Damn you, Spike! But I don't know why I can't give you the pain you deserve... instead... Damn it!
"Hey! What the-"
I don't even understand why I'm doing this, so just shut up! I think I'm crazy!
"Jet missed you... I-I'm doing this for him."
If I'm doing this for Jet, why won't I break up already? I can feel how hot my cheeks flush.
At the same time... I can feel strange electric shivers running up and down my spine.
"Ehem! Well, go ahead take your time."
Out of moral intuition maybe, I forced myself away from him. I don't even remember having moral intuition until now. What would he think of me?
Temporary amnesia or selective amnesia? Damn!
"I see you've finished dreaming, Faye," And glanced at me, with a devious grin.
I can't bear this! That was just temporary insanity! And my worst mental block.
"Jet just missed you so much! I just did a favor for him. Why don't stand up already, so the old man won't worry that much."
He just looked at me, now, smiling from ear to ear. As if he didn't hear me and as though he's innocent of any crime I'm gonna accuse him of.
"You're such a pain!"
I had to get out of here. Now, that I regained my sanity, I couldn't let myself be driven by abnormal brain processing again.
But feet won't move.
I have to tell him something... I hate myself! This is really hard.
"Hmm... Spike... I-I'm glad you came back."
I stood up abruptly. I don't wanna see his reaction anymore.
And stammered away.
Damn you, Spike... Damn you...
What a girl! Unpredictable brat...
I expected a slap and got a hug.
But... that felt ...uhmm...good.
Wonder when will I be held that way again?
I can't believe that immature gambler has a soft spot. I almost thought she's more of a
man than those with bounties on their heads.
My thoughts were cut when she stood up. I can feel she's tensed.
Where are you going? I'm not done yet?"Faye Valentine."
She stopped. Success!
There's a frustrated look on her face, as though she's struggling with something.
What could she be thinking?
"What?" She snobbishly retorted.
She's her old self again.
"Can you do me a favor?" She raised an eyebrow at me. Looks like she's gonna hit me as soon as something fishy comes out.
"I miss Jet, too."
She turned around after letting out an exasperated sigh. "I'll tell him."
"No! You don't get it. I love the guy as my brother, so I... can you come here."
At that, she eyed me suspiciously.
"As you can see I'm battered. I'm not fit for any nasty things. Ok? So, why won't you just come here. Think of it as a get-well-soon gift."
Faye took the few steps between us. I know she can sense something... she's hesitating.
But I sense better than her. Maybe she's expecting a serious talk.
The moment she's within reach, I opened my arms.
"I want to hug Jet, too. I wanna make him feel how I missed beebop, Faye."
She's coming... yeah, come closer.
What's this man up to? Just try your luck Spike!
We'll what's the harm anyway. If he does something dirty, I'll send him back to slumber.
I came closer. A one-second embrace won't hurt. But...
"I changed my mind." He grabbed my hand and I landed on top of him... He's warm breath fanning over my face... I can hear my own heart beat increasing speed, as if wanting to jump out
Push him away. I can't...
I don't know why
His face drawing near...
He's gonna kiss me!
"Jet missed me. You? Did you miss me, Faye?" His voice husky... almost like a whisper. I can see a strange glaze in his eyes.
A split second, his lips met mine.
Oh, God! He blocked the world.
"Eherm! I love romantic movies. I'm kinda mushy sometimes, you know."
I stiffened.
"Hey, Jet! It's been a while. Faye told me you missed me." The magical moment suddenly came to an end.
Talking about wrong timing!
"Ouch! What the-"
"Go to hell!" and Faye marched away without a second glance.
Jet was delighted, I guess. He's laughing his way out of this! Laughing out loud with his hand on his belly, he's even pointing his finger on me.
The dumb ass!
"You know Jet, you just blew up my consolation for ill health. Why do you need to bark at the wrong time?" I'm not really angry. Things are just funny.
One second, I had Faye in my arms.
The next thing I knew, I had her palm on my face!
It's all because of Jet. Now, he's just laughing at me!
"I did miss you Spike. But I guess you didn't miss me as much as you miss her, eh?"
There's a peculiar thing playing in his mind, I just know. Uh-oh!