Midnight: I hope you all like it. It's Naruto feeling depressed.
Disclaimer: Naruto belongs to Masashi Kinamoti and "Breaking the Habit" belongs to Linkin Park, not me.
Naruto closed the door as he walked into his apartment, his smile fading as he hid himself from view. Everyone ignored him, unless he did something foolish, then they hated him. That was better then being ignored at least.
Sitting on the couch, he closed his ocean blue eyes as he remembered his day.
Memories consume
Like opening the wound
I'm picking me apart again
You all assume
I'm safe here in my room
Unless I try to start again
"Monster!" Echoed throughout his head. Even though they never said it aloud, for fear of getting into trouble, he could tell that's what they thought whenever he saw them gazing at him. Those malice filled gazes made him cry himself to sleep each night.
"Why me?" He asked aloud as he buried his face in his hands, near the brink of tears.
I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused
Standing up, he walked to the kitchen, and grabbed the knife he used for only one thing. Cutting himself.
Neatly slicing the flesh of his left wrist, he watched as it healed, with a numbness filling him.. 'This is why they hate me. Because of the kyuubi. Why was the kyuubi sealed within me?'
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit Tonight
Setting the knife down, he remembered the fight he had with Sasuke earlier. He had been stupid and said something idiotic, like he usually did. He couldn't remember what, but he remembered the stare that Sasuke had given him right after it. He had been so angry, that for a minute, it had been like the gaze that the villagers gave him. This time he did cry, loudly and without shame.
Clutching my cure
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more
Than anytime before
I had no options left again
He picked up the knife again, furiously cutting his flesh, wishing for the pain that never came. He wanted the pain that made him feel alive. Setting down the knife, he gave up. Through the blurry haze of his tears, he saw the wounds heal. He didn't want them to heal. Walking to his room, he sat down in front of the full length mirror.
I dont want to be the one
The battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused
Smiling, Naruto closed his eyes. Doing this hid how he really felt from the village. It had taken years, but he had finally done it. He had finally perfected a way of hiding himself. It wasn't as good as trying to feel pain, but it was good enough.
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So, I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight
"Why do I even try?" He asked himself as the smile faded and his eyes opened again. "They will never really think of me as an individual. To them I'm just a monster. The fucking kyuubi. They would like it if I just gave up." He started crying again, this time he curled up into a ball as he did so, trying to protect himself from an invisible monster.
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to screamBut now I have some clarity
to show you what I mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So, I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
I''m breaking the habit
Tonight
"I should stop smiling, maybe then they would like me."
End.