Okay, okay, I'm really, really sorry this didn't come out sooner, I've been real busy with exams n that lot so I hope all you reviewers haven't left me although I wouldn't blame you…….. anyway, on with the story, this is dedicated to shadow, oh and by the way it's goin to be all Yoai soon, sorry m8…..oh and to let u no you'll find out in this chapter right near the beginning who sapphire angel is……..
Confessions chapter 5:-Confused
Kaiba sank down against the hard brick wall outside the cafeteria; 'What just
happened here?' Kaiba pondered as leant more heavily against the wall. 'What was I
thinking, wanting the blond back here a couple of seconds ago, I hate him don't I?' 'Then
why would you bother trying to give back his work, why didn't you just leave it on the floor
where he'd dropped it? - if you could even call it work!' Kaiba glanced down at the piece of
paper he was holding in his left hand; It certainly wasn't what Kaiba would call work, the
only useful things were his name; Katsuya Jounouchi written in the left hand corner and
the date and title. But then Kaiba looked just below the title and he found an intricate
drawing of an angel with chestnut brown hair, not unlike his own, blue eyes and blue
wings, wait, no, Sapphire wings!!! Kaiba froze for a second just staring in horror at the
piece of paper in front of him, the picture, his username!
Kaiba swiftly pulled his sleek silver laptop out of his bullet-proof aluminium
briefcase and placed it on his knees. He hesitated before he dialled up his wireless
internet connection; 'Did he really want to know?'. When he'd successfully dialled up and
hacked into the internet mainframe he scrolled down to find what he was looking for;
FallenDragon;
CPU: 674963012763#6293763
Registered: Domino, Japan
It was here Kaiba thought to himself; 'Well he was telling the truth about that after
all…I wonder about the rest…' So he continued to scroll down through the information to
see who the computer was registered to… Finally he found it;
Registered to: Katsuya Jounouchi
Kaiba froze. He just sat there for a second thinking about the blond; 'so it was
him after all, the little carefree blond always so happy and full of life, but at home he's
probably thrown about, starved, raped….Kaiba didn't dare to think any further. How could
the blond be so carefree after all that's happened to him? 'I've cut myself off from
everyone but Mokuba, I give them cold looks when they smile at me, I ignore them when
they ask me things, I accuse them of things they haven't done to get them riled
up…actually I've only done that to one person…and his name's in front of me…..' Kaiba
decided that he'd better get off the internet before he got tracked down, not that they'd
do anything to him as the CEO of KaibaCorp but still, he had his reputation to keep; as
the invisible hacker, so he decided to close his computer and think for a while.
Unfortunately that was when the bell rang for class.
"Kaiba Sama, you're late!" the teacher exclaimed but was quickly silenced by a
cold gaze form the direction of a certain blue-eyed CEO. 'How could I have done this, I'm
late for the first time ever and it's all because of that……that…that blond!' Kaiba slammed
his fist on the desk and everyone turned round at Kaiba's unusual behaviour. Jou turned
around, surprised to come face to face with the person he was just thinking about; 'Why
was he late, for the first time ever, is something wrong or is he just slipping? Or better yet
was it me, when I ran away after punching him, but he's never usually bothered, he'd just
get back up and sneer at me, I wonder what's wrong with him…' Jou pondered as he
looked into Kaiba's eyes now in front of him. Funny how he'd rarely noticed Kaiba only sat
two chairs behind him with an empty chair in between. "Katsuya Jounouchi!" the teacher
cried. "Yes!" Jounouchi replied assuming it was the register and continued to stare back at
Kaiba, willing those blue eyes to show some kind of emotion. "Katsuya!!!" Jou sighed, he
knew he'd already replied, even so he did it again; "Yes!" he replied, slightly louder this
time. "Katsuya Jounouchi, don't you dare raise your voice to me……first you don't answer
the first 3 times I ask you and then you murmur something and then on top of that you
have the nerve to raise your voice to ,me!!!" Again Jou sighed before turning around to
face her; "Look I'm clearly not interested and I did reply to your stupid register, you just
weren't listening, just give me a detention for Christ's sake!" Jou yelled, storming down
the hall to the principal as hastily as always. The teacher stood shocked for a few seconds
as she always did, but then quickly re-gained her ability to speak; "Kaiba, as your so far
ahead…." She started but Kaiba was already out the door, following Jou as fast as his long
legs would carry him. "So mutt….where do you think you're going?" Kaiba asked as he
caught up with the blond at a gentle stroll where the smaller of the two had given up
running and had settled for sulking instead.
A few minutes later Kaiba was steering Jou out of the school building on to a bench
under a cherry blossom tree near the basketball court where Kaiba sat them down. The
flustered blond sat down and peered at Kaiba curiously, his hair effectively rumpled from
being roughly shoved onto the bench but someone far taller than himself. Kaiba simply
glared at Jou, waiting for a scowl or a rash comment of some kind but it didn't come, at
this Kaiba scowled herder as the blond looked at the floor. If Kaiba hadn't known better he
would have been sure that Jou was talking to girl he had a crush on.
Slowly Jou lifted his head to speak to Kaiba; "Wa D'ya wan' Kaiba?" Jou asked in
his rough accent. For a second the blond thought that Kaiba was ignoring him but after a
moment the taller boy responded; "I wanted to return this..." with that Kaiba dropped
Jou's paper with the angel on and walked away swiftly. Jou sat still for a moment, not
daring to pick up the mysterious paper on the floor, gradually Jou bent over, his sunshine
hair falling in front of his eyes. H e reached down to the wet grass and retrieved his paper.
He picked it up wondering why Kaiba had something of his in the first place and why he'd
bother to return was a mystery, then again Kaiba had been acting weird today, being late
for class, not saying anything when he got punched, walking away from Jounouchi….. Jou
looked at his paper and gasped, it was his picture he'd lost earlier, oh well it wouldn't
mean anything to anyone apart from himself or his mystery friend, who was definitely NOT
Kaiba, he'd never act that sensitive, even over a computer. But where did Kaiba get it
from, Jou didn't even remember leaving it anywhere, he'd only realised he'd lost it ten
minutes ago. All this thinking was making him feel tired '…maybe I'll just rest my eyes' Jou
leant his head back and started breathing heavily. There he stayed under the cherry
blossom tree until he was rudely awoken a couple of hours later.
"Jou, Jou!!!!" Yugi yelled, Jou's eyes fluttered open for a second and then closed
just the same way. Jou was awoken by a large heavy weight falling on his sore chest that
he woke with a very large bruise forming on top of the one that was already there from his
father a few nights previous. "Arghhhh!!! Honda get the hell off me!!!" Jou hissed shoving
Honda roughly to the floor, rubbing his now very sore stomach. "Jeeze man I didn't mean
to hurt you, I was just doing you a favour, Anzu's coming!" Honda whispered the last part
so the girl approaching wouldn't hear him; "Hiya guys….You no I was thinking..." Anzu was
swiftly cut of by Jou; "Sorry guys I gotta get home early for dinner tonight, see ya!" Jou
said purposefully leaving before Anzu could continue. Even as Jou left he could hear the
others also making rapid excuses before leaving Anzu on her own in the empty basketball
court still trying to figure out what happened. Jou usually hated lying to his friends but
Anzu wasn't one of them, he didn't even know why she hung out with the boys…oh wait
yes he did, she had a crush on Yami and as she'd told Jou and Honda many times before
she was convinced that he liked her back when Jou saw it was plainly obvious he had a
thing for his hikari. However Yami no Yugi wasn't who Jou was thinking about, he was
thinking about Yugi and what he'd told him the day before;
/Flashback/
"So Yug' what do ya wanna talk 'bout?" Jou questioned now standing outside in the
cool summer air with Yugi. "Well…um…I want to tell you that, well you have noticed I've
been avoiding you lately…" Yugi stammered, now blushing and looking anywhere apart
from Jou. Jou pondered for a second before answering; "Well ya but I figured you'd jus'
been busy wit' Yami or summat, I didn't think you'd been avoiding me.." Jou trailed off the
thought again; "Look Yug' I'm not jus' about to demand that you spend your every waking
hour with me for the rest of your life!" Jou tried to reassure Yugi, but the smaller boy was
having none of it; "No Jou, you don't understand, I want to!" Yugi said rather load now
looking Jou in the eye, blushing a very bright red. Jou didn't understand at first but after a
minute he realised what Yugi was saying; "I urmmm…Look Yug' are you trying to say that
you like ME? As in I'm the person you were talking about the other day when you said you
liked someone??!!!" Jou asked, hissing at the thought. Yugi just stood there, blushing
more and more until he could blush no more. "Well…I….Err...Ya Jou it was you I was
talking about the other day, yes Jou it is you….I wanted to ask you…" Yugi was cut off by
Jou who ran his hand through his hair in amazement. "Look Yug' I'm flattered, I really am
but I couldn't Yug'…I dunno how to put this without hurtin' you….I love you Yug' but only
as a brother or a friend…I've never felt that way about you…I'm sorry…..I…I don't know
what to say…I like someone else…" He looked at Yugi, slightly embarrassed by the whole
situation. They both fell silent for a moment before Yugi spoke in barely a whisper;
"Um…Jou..Who is it?..." Jou paused before flushing red and shifting uncomfortably under
Yugi's gaze; "well Yugi…I dunno if I should tell you, it probably wouldn't do much for your
self esteem….sorry Yug' but anyway I'm not the one for you, there's someone else who's
got an eye on you!" Jou finished smiling happily as he watched Yugi's reaction; he looked
upset but then as the news that someone liked him he blushed and turned away from Jou
in embarrassment.
/End Flashback/
Jou continued to walk to his apartment dreading seeing his father, the pavements
getting more and more littered as he continued, the dark alleys becoming more and more
frequent the closer he got to his house. A few blocks down he saw a black limo speed past,
Jou just glimpsed the number plate as it zoomed past bearing the plate; 'Kaiba'. Jou
chuckled, even in his most dreading moments Kaiba managed to taunt him. Jou suddenly
found himself at the foot of his apartment he paused for a moment before climbing the
many stairs until he reached the 12th floor where he came to his door; the 6 on his door
indicating it as apartment 1206 hung upside down so it showed a 9 instead Jou sighed,
he'd been meaning to fix that for years but he'd never made the time to do it. He sighed
again and placed his key n the hole and entered. He walked to the kitchen, shifting several
empty beer and sake bottles on the way, along with several empty crisp packets and
chocolate bar wrappers. Once in the small dingy kitchen he opened the nearly empty fridge
and pulled out a bottle of Bud1 and placed it on the counter. Then he rummaged around in
one of the cupboards; the door hanging from its hinges revealing its contents. Jou
straightened up, now holding a pack of Royals2 and a Hershey's chocolate bar (I love
those!!!!). Slowly he picked up his prizes and returned to his room where he downed the
beer and ate the chocolate bar contentedly. He then logged on to his computer and msn
just to find no-one was online, Jou sighed yet again, 'why did his life suck?' in desperation
Jou returned to the living room, pulling out a black lighter from his pocket and lighting one
of the Royals, he took one large drag before placing the packet and lighter back in his
room, under his mattress. Jou really didn't want his father to find out he'd been smoking,
even though the guy smoked himself he'd still be willing to beat the crap out of his son as
'punishment'. Jou didn't smoke all the time, just occasionally when he was particularly
depressed, he'd never smoked around Yugi, he knew he'd get some kind of huge lecture,
Yugi hated cigarettes more than anything else. Jou had constantly ignored Yugi when he'd
complain after seeing someone with one in their mouths, Jou had even seen yugi grab one
off someone in the middle of the shopping centre when they were in mid drag, Yugi'd then
glared at the guy and he'd run off, of coarse the fact that Yami was standing next to his
hikari also glaring might have helped scare him off. Jou started to clear the floor of the
litter, smoking as he did and slowly Jou was calm and he'd forgotten all about his issues
with Anzu and Yugi and everyone having someone but him.
Jou returned to his room after clearing, hovering and mopping the wooden floor in
the living room, hall and kitchen. Jou daren't go near his father's room or the bathroom in
fear of getting accused of going through his father's belongings or getting trapped in the
bathroom when his father returned. Jou stared at the screen as he paused, wondering
what to write next, as he did sapphireangel logged on to msn. Jou cheered inside, he'd
hoped he'd come online so he'd have someone to talk to about his problems;
FallenDragon says: Hiya, I was hoping you'd been on tonight!
SapphireAngel says: Oh hi, why's that?
FallenDragon says: Just cos I wanted to talk to you is all! What am I not allowed to now?!
SapphireAngel says: No…I was just wondering if you had an ulterior motive for wanting to talk to me…
FallenDragon says Huh?! Like what?!
SapphireAngel says: God! You are so blond!!!
FallenDragon says: Wow how'd you know?!
SapphireAngel says: I…You just act it!
FallenDragon says: Oh. Sorry, so why did you think I wanted to talk to you?
SapphireAngel says: Well….I don't know…maybe you like me…
FallenDragon says: Well ya…I guess I like you, I mean we're friends right?!
SapphireAngel says: Yes, but you like me more than just a friend!
FallenDragon says: Well…that depend, do you think I like you…??
SapphireAngel say: I.I don't know, I was only joking….
FallenDragon says: No, I was just playing along, anyway you're 18 and I'm only 16 and we're both boys and you've probably got a girlfriend or something you're so kind, I'm sure you're really popular….
Suddenly Jou felt slightly depressed, it was quite well known at domino high school
that he was openly gay, he'd always been, the girls just hadn't got the message until he
was seen kissing a guy from the football team a couple of years ago, they went out for a
few weeks, in Jou's book that was quite long. Jou had never been able to maintain a
steady relationship with anyone longer than a few weeks, he didn't really want to commit
to anyone unless he really loved them and so far that list consisted of only one person he
knew would never return his love. For a start he hated Jou's guts, he'd made that obvious,
second he'd never be gay in a million years and thirdly he'd only been seen to go out with
two people and they've said little about what they did except that it wasn't like hey had
imagined. The truth was next this one SapphireAngel was the closest thing he'd found to
love and Jou was almost certain that he'd never got out with him, being 16 and probably
not the same way inclined as Jou.
SapphireAngel says: Actually…about that, I'm not 18, actually I'm only 16…I…Err…well, I needed to be sure of you first, but I trust you now…sorry….
FallenDragon says: It's okay…that means we're in the same grade!! We probably do know each other then….
SapphireAngel says: Yeah…there's a strong possibility that we do….
At that moment Jou heard the door crash so quickly he typed in a message and logged off before his father could come in and find out what he was doing;
FallenDragon says: I've got to go, my fathers in the house, I need to get off before he see! See you in school, well sort of! Anyway, bibi x
Sapphireangel says: ok, see you, gd luck with your father, bibi x
Jou quickly snapped the computer off as he heard his father cry out; "Where are
ya' boy?!" in slurred speech. Jou ran for the door, pushing his chair towards it in the hope
of jamming it, but just then his father ignored the door handle and shoved the battered old
door onto the floor, narrowly missing Jou by an inch. Jou froze, stood back jus waiting for
the fury of punches and kicks that were sure to come….
A/N: thanks and I no many of u were right wen it came to guessing sapphire angel, I didn't think it was that hard to guess either but o well! Hope you enjoyed, please review!!!
1: bud as in Budweiser the beer in case u didn't no/ and/or are alcohol deprived!
2: royals are cigarettes, quite strong ones actually, sorry I used to smoke soo I should no and note smoking and drinking seriously damages your health!!!!! : ) c you all soon I hope, and once again sorry for the long updates!!!