Title: The Heart Says in Silence, What It Fears To Speak Aloud
Chapter One: Whispered Like Prayers
Summary: Kagome sees Inu-yasha with Kikyo and runs off. When she comes back she decides that she will remain with Inu and the gang but keeps herself sealed off from the half-demon so as not to get hurt anymore. But when obstacles overcome them and it looks like the end is near things don't go as planned. Kagome and Inu-yasha must find themselves before they can be together but what if one of them is too late?
Kagome ran through the forest of Inu-yasha, tears springing freely from her face. "No! Inu-yasha please! This can't be happening!"
The miko ran without any destination in mind. All she knew was that if she didn't stop she would die, or at least that's how it felt. That if she stopped all of her emotions would drown her and she wouldn't be saved.
At one point she choked on her sobs and fell to the cold earth. It was all too much. How could she have been such a fool?! After all this time with him hadn't she known he would never really love her? Of course not, she'd been too blinded with her own love and hope that one day he would see............see her.
Kagome couldn't go home; couldn't let her mother see her like that. She wouldn't allow herself to go back that way.
"I'll stay here in the Feudal era...until I can go home to Mom, Sota, & Grandpa, but I won't go back to Kaede's. He'll be there, I can't see him."
Kagome looked around and saw nothing. She had no where else to go. Her tears fell helplessly as she thought her only option was to sleep on the ground with no one to protect her.
"You're my woman now."
Koga, the wolf-demon's image came to her mind and she set off for the demon's den.
It had taken a lot out of her to make her way to the den of the wolf-demons and she knew that Inu-yasha might see it as betrayal to go to Koga, but where else could she turn?
"Sis, what happened? Are you here to see Koga? Are you alright?" one of Koga's men questioned her in front of the den's opening.
"Can you take me to Koga?" it was a soft-spoken statement, uttered like a plea. She lowered her head as tears once more filled her eyes.
The wolf-demon simply nodded, noting her despair.
Once Koga saw her, his eyes filled with laughter then in the moment he noticed her eyes were focused on the cave floor, fighting back the waves of emotion that crossed her features.
"Kagome?"
"Can I stay with you for awhile Koga? I can't go home right now........., and I've got......nowhere......nowhere to go."
Confusion marred the demon's brow as he gave 'his woman' a once over.
"What about the mutt-face? Are we giving you all a place to-"he stopped mid sentence when he noticed how tense the miko's body had become when he'd mentioned Inu-yasha.
He nodded. "Yeah, Kagome of course you can stay."
"Why did I have to be the one to fall through the well? The one to fall in love with him..........Inu-yasha?"
Three days had passed since the night she'd seen Inu-yasha with......Kikyo. She hadn't done much of anything while staying with Koga; he seemed to understand that she was too caught up in her own thoughts to do much of anything else.
Half the time he came to bring her food he found her in a trance, lost to the world.
"Inu-yasha you have to go and get Kagome!" the little fox-demon pleaded with his hands tugging on the hanyou's sleeve.
"Forget I'm not going back there!"
He pulled his sleeve back and pushed his hands up his sleeves.
"You're just a jerk no wonder Kagome left!" Shippo ranted.
Inu-yasha remained deaf to the kitsune's pleas and insults.
"It has to be this way. I can't be with Kagome anymore. It wouldn't be right."
He turned his head to face the sun and sighed as her face came back to cloud his thoughts.
"You should go to see her Inu-Yasha, for her sake if nothing else. She saw you with KIkyou didn't she?" the monk had stumbled upon this conclusion when he saw the dead miko's soul catchers flying about.
Inu-yasha didn't turn to face the lecherous monk but didn't lie to him by saying that it wasn't true. That was enough for Miroku.
"You know how she cares for you and yet you would let her part from this world without telling her good bye, or without telling her the truth?"
"She saw what she needed to know, words aren't needed, lecher." The hanyou spoke harshly.
"So, I was right then, she did see you two together." The monk sighed and scratched his head while holding his staff.
"Did you tell her how you really feel for her? No, of course not. You haven't told her before so why would this time matter?"
Then Inu-yasha turned to face his friend, with a look of anger etched on his face.
"My feelings are none of your damn business monk!"
Miroku looked his hangout companion in the eye with a serious demeanor, "So you do care for her then?"
Being the way he was Inu-yasha merely shrugged and gave Miroku a "feh."
"If you really care for her at all, then you should speak to her. She deserves that much, in the very least."
Then the brunette male turned and left back to Kaede's hut, leaving the half-demon to ponder the words they'd just shared.
Kagome sat in a dark corner of the wolf-den cave and stared at the same spot for what seemed like an eternity.
In all the time that she had been there her mind hadn't ceased in her thoughts of Inu-yasha. She had contemplated on what to do and couldn't find an answer.
She wanted to go back home; to her time a hundred years into the future. Kagome had wondered as to whether or not she should have stayed home the first time she left the Feudal Era, but that didn't matter because that was too long ago to change.
The miko was too far in the game to turn back now, but she felt as though she'd never be happy staying with her friends every day, knowing she could never be the love in Inu-yasha life. Yet, she knew that she'd rather die a thousand times than leave him either.
Oh Kami, why did I have to fall in love with someone who could never love me back?!
She laid down on the mat that Koga had given her to use as a bed and closed her eyes to hold back the tears.
I'll wake up and this will all have been a dream. I'll be in my bed and it won't hurt anymore. It won't hurt anymore.
Disclaimer:
I do not own any of the characters from the hit show Inu-Yasha, all rights go to Rumiko Takahashi along with other respective persons unless indicated otherwise. This goes for all the following chapters of The Heart Says in Silence.