Dangerous Love
By TriGemini
Disclaimer: I do not own the characters of C.C.S. only CLAMP does. Therefore, please do not sue.
A/N: This is my first time in doing a C.C.S. story, so please be nice to me.
Summary: Sakura is trying to start her life over again. Thinking she will be able to live in peace. Her life gets changed when she meets Li Syaoran and his gang the Black Dragons. She has a feeling that he is determined to bring her into his world of partying, rivalry, and other things, as well. Also, he is determined to make Sakura his. She is afraid that he will discover all her secrets, which include her past, as well. Not to mention, she is afraid she will not be able to resist him if he tries to get her, too.
Prologue: Why?
"They say love can be a dangerous feeling." In my case, it was an unexpected one to have. Some people say that I went looking for love in the wrong place.
But they are wrong.
Sure since I had fallen in love with this one guy. I got dragged into some unpleasant situations. Stuck between the rivalries of two gangs, caught in the crossfire, dodging bullets, escaping from the police, losing close ones, partying to the dawn, having sex, and things just got way out of hand for me.
However, I didn't care. This was my life now and this was how I chose to live it.
In any case, I have never been a true innocent before. I had seen this kind of wild behavior previously before moving to Japan to start over and to get away from the memories I was trying so desperately to forget.
Of course, fate would not let me have some peace that easily.
In reality, my life had never been a peaceful one. I was always sneaking out, breaking all the rules, hanging out with my friends, and doing things that most people would find quite scandalous. It finally took a tragedy to change everything.
Especially, me!
I went from being the happy, self-assured, carefree, spirited girl that I once was to a sad, timid, quiet, and self-conscious mouse. It is hard to believe that one could change so much. However, I did and with the change, it brought lots of loneliness, pain, sadness, and a past full of secrets that would be forever buried in the past.
Nevertheless, I tried to move on.
I thought if I changed my ways, my life would get better. I swore to myself that I would never go back to that lifestyle again. Unfortunately, after I was lured back into that lifestyle I realized I couldn't turn my back on it. Nothing mattered anymore. It didn't matter how many people died, who got hurt, the lies, the secrets, and whatever else would happen.
This was the lifestyle that I was meant to live after all it had always been apart of my upbringing. Therefore, it was natural. However, as I said before I swore that I would never go back to that life. Why I won't go back into that way of life is just one of the many reasons.
Although I have to admit in the end, it was worth every sacrifice we all had made. Again, it changed me. I found love, happiness, friends, and a family that cared. That was what truly mattered in the end.
My name is Sakura Kinomoto, I am 18 years old and I now live in Tokyo, Japan. I always figured that my life ran two ways. It was complicated and yet sheltered at the same time. It was complicated because I was always doing things that got me into trouble and sheltered because my older brother always tried to protect me from the unpleasantness of the world that we lived in. However, I learned at a very young age that if you wanted to live, you had to follow certain rules.
I was born in Tokyo, Japan; however, I grew up and lived in Los Angeles with my father, older brother, and aunt. I never knew my mother. She died when I was three years old, thus leaving my father to raise two children by himself. Fortunate for us father's sister, my Aunt Yolei came to live with us afterwards to help. Because my father worked so much someone was needed at home to look after us, aside from the servants, we had of course. Anyway, back as to why I now live in Tokyo, Japan. The reason we moved back was that my older brother Touya died in an accident. Even though the authorities had ruled it as an accident, I knew what really happened. Touya had a great life. He went to one of the best schools in the country, he was a terrific athlete, he was head of his class, but he always had a penchant for trouble. He didn't care that he belonged to one of the riches families in the U.S. he just wanted to live life and have fun. My brother and I always hung out together. To me he was the greatest brother around and for that; I mourned him greatly when he died. That was just one of the reasons why we moved back to Tokyo. However, there was also another reason.
It is a reason that when I remember it only brings me pain. Therefore, I try not to think about it even now. For the remembrance is too much.
My father Fujitaka Kinomoto gained a position as head director in the Archeology and Ancient Studies department of the University of Tokyo. After all, he was a leading figure inn the archeological field and his work was clearly recognized for all the discoveries he had made in the many excavations he had participated in various parts of the world. I suppose my father had expected that when we moved here to Tokyo things would settle down. He also hoped that I would be able to move on with my life and not dwell so much on the past especially after everything that had happened.
However, no such luck.
It seemed that the past was determined to stay in the present. Secrets would be revealed and I would be forced to make choices that would determine my future. I truly never imagined going back into that life again. For I thought it was all behind me.
It only took one night for all of this to start.
I met him and his friends.
I went along with it, until I realized I couldn't resist anymore.
He was right to say this life was for me. However, what he didn't tell me was that I would be losing some things important to me and getting something out of it, as well. Nevertheless, I have to admit it was worth it in the end. I survived and I am alive to tell the tale.
If anybody wants to know how this got started, I will be glad to share this story with you.
A/N: So was it good to read. Please review and tell me.