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A/N: This is one of my favorite fics and I hope you like it as much as I do... Big thanks to my beta, piña colada, love you... Read and review, please....

Oh, by the way, this is slash and the song is For my pain's Sea of emotions.

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Lost in you dark eyes

I have seen the shadow world

Moments of madness

Slowly drowning in your love

I can't believe this! He cursed in his mind. How could I be so goddamn stupid?!

I actually thought he loved me! Shit... He shook his head. This is not going well...

The man who walked in the rain had beautiful hazel eyes and brown hair. He gave a short bitter laugh as he noticed it was raining.

It always rains when a heart breaks, he thought bitterly. He had a broken heart now. He had loved his boyfriend. And he had thought that his boyfriend had loved him. But no. It didn't work that way.

Apparently he doesn't love me, he told himself as he opened the door of his apartment. He tried to turn the lights on but they were already on.

"Odd." He muttered. "I thought I turned them off before I left."

"You did." A male voice said. The brown eyed man turned to the voice.

"Oh. It's you."

The black haired man grinned. "Hell yeah it's me! I haven't seen you for months and this is how you welcome me? Saying 'oh it's you' like you would never want to see me again." The man tried to sound serious but his dark blue eyes sparkled as he would've been laughing.

The smaller man sighed. "I'm sorry, Sirius. I'm just... I'm not feeling well right now."

Sirius Black stopped smiling. "Oh. What's wrong, Remmie?"

Remus Lupin shook his head. "Nothing, I'm just being tired, that's all."

Sirius looked like he doubted. "Are you sure? I can come again later, if you want."

"No, it's okay. Really, I'm... I'm fine." Remus took off his coat. "So, what have you been doing lately? I haven't seen you for a while."

Sirius followed his friend into the kitchen. "Well, I was abroad so-"

"Again?"

"Yes, again. I got a really good reason this time."

"And what would that be?" Remus glanced at the taller man and started to make some tea.

"Tyler." Sirius said simply. Remus sighed.

"You've got to be kidding me? Tyler? Shit, Sirius... When are you gonna learn that the guy means nothing but troubles to you?"

"Hey, I didn't come here to hear you lecturing. Again." Sirius sat on the table. "Tyler had to move to Italy because of his job in the ministry and he asked me to go with him."

Remus gave Sirius a meaningful look.

"Yeah yeah, I know. He always ends up hurting me. But I was madly in love!"

"Blindly is more like it." Remus muttered. Sirius ignored him.

"So I went with him. It was okay for a week or so, but then he-"

"Cheated on you? Again." Remus guessed. Sirius nodded.

"Yeah. But it was okay. Kind of. You should see the men in Italy, Rem! They're gorgeous! I still stayed in Italy for a while after our break up and... Well, the Italian men kind of... Helped me forget Tyler." Sirius smirked.

"Why you didn't tell me about your leaving? I thought you were mad at me or something." Remus asked then, ignoring Sirius's last comment.

"'Cause I knew what you would've said. It was something like this: 'You've got to be kidding me? Tyler? When are you gonna learn that the guy means nothing but troubles to you?'"

"Funny." Remus replied sarcastically and looked for bread.

"So, what have you been doing?" Sirius asked. "You got married?"

Remus glared at him. "I don't think so, Siri."

"You're still with that Aaron or whatever his name was?"

"It was Andrew. And no, I'm not with him anymore. I... I fell in love with someone else." He whispered.

Sirius nodded. "Okay. Who did you fall in love with then?"

Remus's eyes filled with tears. Shit, he cursed. Don't cry now. Don't cry in front of him.

"Remus you okay?" Sirius asked.

Remus sat on the floor and leaned on one of the cupboards. Sirius came to sit next to him.

"What's wrong, Remmie?"

Remus sighed. "I... I fell in love with this guy, Nate. He was... He was amazing, I was so happy with him."

"Was? You mean you're not with him anymore?"

"I went to his flat... Today and I kind of found him in bed with his ex."

Sirius looked at his friend eyes wide. "Today? I'm so sorry, Remmie. I keep talking about Italian men when your heart is broken, I-"

"Its okay, Sirius, you didn't know."

"No, because you didn't tell me-"

"Sirius, I'm really glad that you're here but can you just shut up for a second?"

Sirius shut his mouth and just looked at Remus. Tears shone in his beautiful hazel brown eyes as he stared the open door in front of him. This was the first time when Sirius actually realized how beautiful Remus really was.

For all those years they have known each other this was the first time Sirius really looked his friend. And he wasn't so sure if he wanted to be just a friend with the man next to him anymore.

"Remus..." He whispered softly. Remus turned to face him.

Someone knocked on the door. "Remus, you home?!"

Remus wiped his tears away and stood up. "It's James." He told Sirius before he went to open the door.

"I'm the happiest man alive!" James Potter announced as he stepped in the kitchen. Then he noticed Sirius.

"Sirius! You're back!" They hugged quickly and then Remus asked why James was the happiest man alive.

"Lily is pregnant." James announced and waited for the reactions. When he didn't get one he cleared his throat. "Lily, you know, my wife. That girl with green eyes and red hair."

"We know who she is, Prongs." Sirius snapped and then hugged James again. "This is awesome. You're gonna be a dad!" Then he thought for a moment. "Oh no, James's gonna be a dad! I'm feeling sorry for that kid already."

James slapped him on the arm. "Shut up, you git! This is supposed to be a good thing! Finally, I will have a son named Harry."

"What if it's a girl?" Remus asked.

"Then I will have a daughter named Harry."

"Poor baby..." Sirius muttered shaking his head. James slapped him and told him to shut up again.

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"Are you serious? You're really thinking that I will sleep on your couch?" Sirius looked Remus like he was a mad man.

"It's the only place, Sirius. Or were you going to sleep next to me?" Remus asked smiling a bit.

"Actually yes. I mean, your bed is big enough for both of us."

Now it was Remus's turn to look his friend like he was a mad man. Then he shook his head. "I- I don't think so, Sirius."

"Why not? What are you afraid of? That I will eat you when you're asleep? Don't worry, I don't do that kind of stuff. Anymore." He added grinning and earning a dirty look from the other man.

"I was just kidding, Rem. C'mon, give me a one good reason why I can't sleep with you." Sirius was silent for a while. "Okay, that sounded weird and I didn't mean it like that."

Remus laughed. "Fine, you can sleep with me."

Sirius grinned. "Excellent. Now, if you excuse me, I'm going to bed."

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"Remus?" Sirius asked carefully.

"Yeah?" Remus replied without turning around.

"Can I ask you something? About you and... Nate?"

Remus took a deep breath. "Okay."

"Um... How serious was it? I mean, did you say him you love him?"

"No. No, I didn't tell him that. I don't think it was so serious after all. We just... I dunno."

"Did you love him?"

"I dunno, Sirius. Maybe."

"So, if you would meet someone, let's say tomorrow, you wouldn't be ready to do anything...?"

"Tomorrow is pretty soon."

"Yeah, I know. But if it would be someone you've known for a while."

"Like who? Snape?"

Sirius smiled at the thought. "No, not Snape. Someone else. Someone like-"

"You?"

Sirius felt his heart beat like a drum. He slowly nodded although Remus couldn't see it.

"Yeah..." He whispered. "Me."

They didn't say a word after that. But they both were awake for a long time.

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"So, you stayed with Moony last night? You could have come to us."

"I know, but I didn't want to leave Remmie alone." Sirius answered. James gave him a puzzled look. "His boyfriend cheated on him yesterday. He found out about it yesterday." Sirius explained.

James nodded. "Oh. Well, it's good that you were there. And-"

"James?!"

James sighed. "Yes, honey?!"

"Where's the floopowder?!"

"Why she needs floopowder?" Sirius asked. "Can't she apparate?"

"She's decided that apparating is dangerous for the baby." James answered. "I dunno, honey!" He shouted to Lily.

The red-haired woman walked into the kitchen. "Well, where have you put it? Oh, hi Sirius." Then she turned back to James. "I thought I told you to put it somewhere I can find it."

"Maybe we don't have it anymore. Why can't you just apparate? It's not gonna hurt the baby." James gave his wife a begging look.

Lily ignored him. "I'll just take the Knight Bus."

"What?! That thing costs like hell!" James cried.

"No, it doesn't. Don't be silly, James." She said.

"My salary isn't that great, you know. We have to save our money for the baby."

"How many times have I told you to get a better job?" Lily asked.

"But I like my job!"

Lily sighed. "You like selling broomsticks?"

Sirius gave a short laugh. James glared at him.

"Honey, Wilson told me that the Hollow's Hounds are looking for new seeker. If I get that place, I can end up in the International Team! Then we will have more money than Sirius!"

Sirius gave hid friend a questioning look. "What'd you mean 'more money than Sirius'? I don't have money. I'm poor as a rat. I'm poorer than you now."

James and Lily ignored him. "If you get that place, James. If!"

"I was the best seeker in Hogwarts, Lil-"

"Hogwarts is not the same thing as the Hollow's Hounds. They are professionals in Hounds. Not schoolboys."

"Okay, now I'm hurt. Merlin's sake, just apparate, woman!"

Sirius stood up, trying to hide his laugh. "Um... I should go now. I'll see you guys later."

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"You got some nerves! You come here and pretend like last night never happened! I saw you, Nate, for Merlin's sake!"

"It wasn't what it looked like!"

"So you weren't fucking your ex-boyfriend?"

"No!"

"What were you doing then?!"

"Hey, what's going on in here?" Sirius leaned on the doorframe and gave a questioning look to both of the men.

The man with Remus was taller than him but smaller than Sirius. He was blond and he had brown eyes. He was nothing like Sirius. He got a great body like Sirius but that was the only common thing.

"Sirius..." Remus breathed. His cheeks were red because of the yelling.

"Who's this?" Sirius pointed the other man. Although he knew very well who he was. Nate.

"Remus's boyfriend. And you?" Nate said arrogantly.

Sirius shook his head. "No, I don't think you're his boyfriend. Remus doesn't date assholes."

"You didn't answer my question." Nate growled.

"Oh, sorry. I'm Sirius. Remus's friend." He made the word 'friend' sound like he was more than a friend, but only Nate noticed it.

"You're the famous Sirius? Well, I suppose I was jealous for nothing."

Sirius smirked. "So would it seem. Now, piss off."

"I will piss off when I feel like it. And besides little Rem wants me to stay. Right, Rem?" Nate turned to Remus who glared at him.

"You heard him, Nate. Piss off. We're through."

Nate gave Sirius the one last angry look and apparated. Sirius walked to Remus.

"You okay, Moony?" He asked and wrapped his arm around him.

Remus nodded. "Yeah, I guess so. I just... I just hate him."

"I know, sweet, I know. He deserves it."

Remus ignored that Sirius called him 'sweet' and wrapped his arms around his waist and buried his face into his shirt. Hot tears rolled down his cheeks. Sirius stroked his brown hair gently.

"Its okay, Moony. He's gone now. He's never gonna hurt you again." Sirius whispered in Remus's ear.

Remus raised his head up and looked Sirius into his eyes. They were so deep and blue. Remus felt like he could get lost in those eyes.

In the next moment Sirius felt soft lips on his owns.

And in the next moment the lips were gone. Remus looked at his friend a panicked look in his eyes. "I'm sorry..." He whispered and left the kitchen. Sirius heard how the bedroom door slammed close.

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A/N: So? What do you think? Tell me! Review! This is an order! Please...