The day I found it wont be the same ch5

Sam just looked at Jason. He was so sure she was lying, did he know the truth? She wondered. There was nothing more she wanted then to tell him but she couldn't, she simply couldn't. It was too scary; all the possibilities of how bad it could go made her pulse race. She knew Jason wasn't cold and hurtful but she didn't want to find out how he would react if he knew she kept the one thing he always wanted, his child. But on the other hand, what if he didn't get mad? What if it would just be perfect? No, that was just wishful thinking.

"Jason I don't know what you're talking about." Sam said in a tone that said his statement was outrageous. With a shrug she walked over to Catalina's crib and looked at her.

"Fine. I guess it's just me." Jason said. He didn't want to let it go but he did. He wanted Sam to tell him when she was ready, when she trusted him enough. He wondered in that moment how well Sam knew him. Clearly not well enough because if she did, she would've told him a long time ago. "Moving?"

Sam saw that he was pointing out the paper across her bed. "Yes. I can't raise a child here so I was looking for a place when Brenda walked in and suggested we move in together. I said yes and she said she'd take care of all the details. She likes that kind of thing." She explained.

"Yeah she does. I guess you guys are pretty close, huh?" Jason asked.

"We are. Ever since we met we became close. She's goofy most of the time but when you need her, she's there in a heartbeat. I've always been able to count on her. And her on me. I've missed her, I'm glad she's back. Lately I've just felt so alone, it'll be good for us to live together." Sam explained as she kept busy around the room. Picking up the paper, cleaning off Catalina's changing table and picking up her toys. She couldn't look at Jason.

"I hope it works out for you guys. I didn't know you felt alone." Jason softly said.

Sam hated when he talked to her like that. Just so understanding and caring. Like everything was well with the world. Like she could just relax and fall into his arms. "I have Catalina and I love her more then anything. But sometimes I just want to talk to someone. Pour out my soul and someone make everything ok. I guess that's always been my problem, I want someone else to fix it." She explained.

"What is 'it'?" Her back was facing him, she was folding clothes. She didn't see him slowly walk up behind her.

"'It' is nothing. Sometimes it gets to me, being all alone." Sam confessed.

"I told you I'd be there whenever you needed me. That you weren't alone, you'd always have me."

His words were so light and soft; she only heard them because he was standing right beside her. Sam was scared to turn around because of how close they'd be. Her breathing became ragged but she didn't let that fact on. "Jason—you don't understand what I mean."

Jason placed his hands on her shoulders. "Then make me understand."

To feel his strong hands on her shoulders, his hot breath on her skin. Her body flew over the edge, all her sense became alert. She snapped out of it, turned around and walked away from him. "Jase, what are you doing?"

"What do you mean?" Jason asked, his eyes never leaving her face.

"This." Sam said as she brushed a hand between them. "You're touching me and saying these really nice things. Why?" Sam asked. She crossed her arms and looked at him. She wanted to understand and the more she tried, the more she failed.

"I wanted to. I want you to understand I'm here for you no matter what. That you can trust me with whatever. Sam give me some credit, we're friends, I know you're hiding something form me. Just tell me." Jason explained.

The way he was looking at her. His tone of voice. She felt tears sting her eyes. "You know." She softly said as she realized it.

They locked eyes as silence took control of the room.

Isabelle A.