Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter in any way. All belongs to J.K. Rowling so don't kill me if something weird happens in the real story. :) KIDDING!

A/N: This is my first attempt at a slash fiction. Hope you like it.

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SIRIUS

God, he looks so beautiful.

There's something about him, something so different. I've had my own shares of girls, but they never matched up to him.

He seems like an angel. With his light brown hair and his pretty amber eyes, who wouldn't find him so irresistible?

Remus J. Lupin, the object of my desire... Oh, if only life would've been simpler, and I would've expressed my feelings for him. But it isn't, and it's not... in his nature to be gay.

"Sirius?" Remus waved his hands in front of my face, and grinned slightly. "Are you alright?"

I blushed. "Yeah, sorry, Moony."

"For a minute there, I thought you'd disappeared."

"Very funny," I remarked, making his smile grow wider.

"It's a Marauder thing," he told me, winking.

I felt a blush again at the nape of my neck. God, he makes me feel so... surreal. Hell, if this is love, I'd kill to feel this way forever.

REMUS

Sirius Andrew Black makes my heart sing.

Sounds cheesy, but I don't care. He makes it flutter so badly. When I'm around him it seems so hard to breathe, and my heart... It's like it beats faster yet slower at the same time. (A/N: Yeah, I know... HOT CHICK... Hehehe...)

His bangs falling into his eyes, his hair tied in a ponytail, his eyes always sparkling with mischief... Wow. But he's not gay. He wouldn't want to mate with a werewolf for life... He wouldn't.

"Great, Remus, now you're disappearing," Sirius teased, snapping me out of my reverie. I blushed slightly. He grinned softly.

"Sorry," I said apologetically. He laughed.

"No worries." He ruffled my hair and messed it all up. He's so... oh, great, I can't even say it.

"God, Siri," I said, fixing my hair.

"Hey, it's actually better all messy, thanks." Sirius rolled his eyes and I swatted his arm playfully. He grabbed my arm, which caused an unfamiliar jolt in my veins, and stared straight in my eyes. "Trust me, Moony, it does look better."

"Fine," I said slowly. He was inches apart from my face, and I could feel his breath on my cheeks. I flushed. Sirius, very flustered, released my hand and pulled away.

"Sorry," he muttered. He turned and went up to our dormitories. I sighed and closed my eyes.

God, Sirius... Why do you make me feel this way?

SIRIUS

Why did I do that?! I mentally cursed to myself. I flopped on my bed, closed the curtains and slammed my head on the pillow. James Potter, my best friend opened the curtains in confusion. "Sirius?" he asked me uneasily.

"What?"

"What did you do? It was only Remus and you in the common room tonight." He raised an eyebrow at me, expecting me to spill.

I told him everything. As in EVERYTHING. From my feelings towards Remus until leaving the common room. "It's just different, James, so different." I buried my face in my hands.

"Wow, Sirius... That's so inspiring."

"What?" I looked up, confused.

"I never expected you to be... so in love."

"Ha, whatever." I rolled my eyes.

"Earnestly, Sirius," James said, looking at me with deep seriousness.

"What?"

"Remus would love that."

"What?" I repeated.

"He likes you too, Siri."

"No."

"Yes, he does."

"Stop teasing, James." God... Is what he's saying true?

REMUS

"Remus, you alright?" Lily Evans glanced at me in concern. I nodded, but my mind's drifting somewhere else. "Why can't you tell Sirius you like him?"

"He wouldn't accept," I answered bitterly. "He can't even stick to a girl for two weeks."

"What if he isn't interested in girls?"

"What are you saying, Lil?" I asked. "He's gay?"

"Think about it, Remus. He's stuck through everything with you. He accepted you being a werewolf."

"And if I tell him I'm in love with him, he'll think I'm abnormal," I said stonily. Lily sighed, sounding a bit frustrated. "Sorry, Lily."

"Remus, I don't know what to do with you." She shook her head and ruffled my hair. I smiled slightly. She put a charm on my hair, leaving it messy. I gasped.

"LILY!" I yelled, trying to fix my hair but my efforts were in vain.

Trust me, Moony, it does look better. I blushed at the memory. Lily grinned and nudged me. "Thinking about whom?"

"Shut up, Lil." I swatted her arm playfully. Lily giggled.

"Whatever, Remus Lupin." She embraced me. "Take care; I've got to do my Charms homework."

She stood up and left, leaving me to my thoughts. True... He never did get attached to girls... But that doesn't mean he's gay anyway...

Ugh, stupid brain! Tears fell down my cheeks and a sob escaped through my mouth. I hate this feeling! I HATE YOU, SIRIUS BLACK! I HATE YOU FOR MAKING ME FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU!

"Remus?" Oh, god. Sirius fled to my side. "Remus, what the hell...?"

"Leave me alone!" I yelled. Sirius grabbed my wrists.

"What did I do?" he asked desperately. "Moony, tell me what's wrong."

Here I was, standing up with Sirius's hands on my wrists and his face inches from mine. I buried my face in the tall boy's chest and cried. Sirius released his grip on my hands and moved it to my waist. "Remus..." he whispered.

I looked up at him, tears in my eyes. He brushed away some tears. "Remus... I..." he began.

"I...?"

"I... I got to go." His hands dropped to his sides and he fled. There my heart broke.

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