Disclaimer: I don't own Teen Titans.
This story popped up in my head when I was writing But I'm Only Human, so I thought I would write it. I hope you enjoy it. By the way, my best friend helped me with a little of this so give her some credit also.
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Robin left. After a big fight with Slade, he just decided he was going to leave. But little did he know, he changed the life of a young girl. As they watched Starfire hit her knees sobbing, hate rose in their minds. How could he do this to her? She had loved him so much, depended on him to be there for her and he just left because he thought it was best. He had always thought only of himself, not of others.
Raven felt anger rise as she watched the girl's shoulder shake. She wasn't one for touching, but she kneeled down on the floor, touching Starfire's shoulder. Without thinking, Starfire lunged, crying into Raven's shoulder, blaming herself for Robin's departure. She blamed herself for Robin's weakness. Raven glanced at the three titans watching. Beast Boy got the message and knelt down next to Raven, soothing her the best he could.
Raven watched him comfort her, telling her it would be okay, but she saw hate flash in his eyes as he said Robin's name. But Star didn't believe him. She stood up, with help from Beast Boy and Raven, and walked toward the roof door. It slammed behind her and not long after, a scream of sorrow and pain filled the air of Jump city.
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One year later
Raven hit the wall, knocking the breath out of her. Cinderblock was at it again, stealing from a high tech factory. And the titans were getting their butt kicked. Beast Boy crouched in front of her, helping her up. Raven stared wide eyed as Starfire took over, bolts of power shooting out of her eyes and hands, more powerful than they had ever seen. She had become stronger since he left. And she had changed. She never smiled, laughed, or did anything, just stayed in the weight room or in her room, never talking unless she had to.
Cinderblock cracked under the pressure, screaming in pain. But Star didn't stop. If anything, the bolts of green became stronger, until he busted into tiny pieces, cement falling around them. Raven covered Beast Boy and herself with her powers while Cyborg protected his head with his hands and Terra threw the rocks with her powers. Starfire just watched as the rocks fell. When all was quite, she glanced at them with dull green eyes that no longer held any joy. "Shall we head home? We are done here."
They watched her walk away. She had barley flown since he had left them, walking most places. Raven was the only one who knew why. She could not feel the joy of flight anymore. And their hate for Robin grew. Beast Boy scratched his head in sorrow. "I know why she is so mad." They all glanced at him, waiting for an answer. Beast Boy looked at the way Starfire had left. "Robin left one year ago today."
Cyborg slammed a hand down, scaring them all. "I hate him! He did this! And all because he was too weak to handle it. He couldn't handle the pressure so he left. I hope he rots. I can't believe I ever thought of him as a leader or a friend." Beast Boy nodded. "I just can't believe he would leave Starfire like that, all alone. She was more close to him than any of us and he knew that, but he still chose to leave. Do you think it was for the better?" Raven scowled. "Maybe, but to Starfire, she would give anything to get him back, though she tells herself she hates him."
Beast Boy sighed. "I just wish he would come back and get Starfire to become, well, Starfire. We already have enough Ravens." Raven glared, stepping closer to him so she was right in front of him. "What?" She said, her voice practically a growl.
Beast Boy gulped. "I . . .uh . . . I didn't mean it like that. I just
meant I miss her being so happy and joyful. I miss being annoyed by
it. I just miss the old her." Raven doused her temper, nodding in
agreement.
"I wonder where he is. I could try to track him, but he probably took his old uniform off, so that won't work. I just don't think he would come back at all, even if he knew he was doing this to her." Raven said, looking around the factory.
"You're wrong. If I would have known I did this to her, I would have stayed." All teens looked in the direction of the voice, but Cyborg found him, glaring hatefully. "You knew you would do this to her. You knew she looked up to you and depended on you. You knew how much she used to care but you were too weak to stay. And now Starfire is never happy. She never smiles or laughs or greets us with love anymore. She's become like Raven, heartless and dreary," Raven glared at Cyborg, but she had to agree, "and all because you left. You don't deserve to see her, but maybe it would be better on her, maybe not."
Robin stepped out of the shadows, his masked eyes drawn together. "She's not like she used to be? She isn't . . ."
Raven glanced at him, disgust flashing in her violet eyes. "No. And you are the cause. She will probably never be the same. Beast Boy tries to get her to smile but she won't. When one of us falls or gets hurt, she doesn't ask if we are okay, she just kills off what ever hurt us, leaving when she's through. She destroyed Cinderblock, Robin. Without regret or compassion. She just kept on until he was destroyed. If anything...she's worse than I am." Said Raven.
Robin swallowed the lump in his throat. His Star was gone. "Could I see her?" Beast Boy kicked at a piece of Cinderblock, glancing up to answer. "If you think it's best then go ahead. But don't be surprised if she kicks you out." The teens headed out, leaving Robin behind. He glanced at the rubble, then followed them out, dreading at what he was going to find.
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After he left, Starfire had taken up cleaning. It helped get her mind off him, but she would never go near his room. It hurt too much. On her hands and knees, she scrubbed the kitchen floor. She had done it yesterday, but with Beast Boy and Cyborg, it needed to be cleaned everyday. The lemon scent filled the air, mixing with the floral sent of the carpet fresh she used when she vacuumed. She was still scrubbing when she heard the door open, but she didn't pay attention. She stopped paying attention to the door when she knew he wasn't coming back. Tears filled her eyes, but she blinked them back. She hadn't cried over him in a year and she didn't plan to succumb to it now.
Beast Boy called out her name, and she sat up, only her head visible. And then she saw him. All she could do was stare. Robin watched her, surprise filling his features. She was different. Her bright green eyes were dull, and her red hair was limp, not the vibrant red he remembered. Starfire glanced at the teens, asking calmly, "What is he doing here?" He expected her to scream at him, to throw things at him, but not to be so calm. Cyborg wouldn't even look at him. "He wanted to see you, Star." She stood up, throwing her hip-length hair over her shoulder. She looked him up and down, crossing her arms over her chest. "He has seen me now, he can leave. I have no wish to see him now or ever again." She walked out, her heart breaking at the sight of him. He had grown so much since she last saw him. He had become Nightwing.
Someone touched her shoulder and she expected to see Raven or Beast Boy, but it was Robin who touched her. She wanted to jerk her arm away from his warm grasp, but she would not give him the satisfaction. "What do you want, Robin?" Her voice broke when she said his name, but she swallowed the tears. "Starfire, I . . .I didn't mean to hurt you when I left. I would do anything to take it back. I was stupid and young and wasn't thinking straight when I left."
Starfire took deep breaths, willing the tears to go away. "That was the past of which you cannot change so there is no use wishing for the impossible. You left and that is it. When you leave again, I will feel no different." She gnawed on her bottom lip, staring into the dark hallway, her eyes blank.
Beast Boy, Raven, Terra, and Cyborg stepped outside, though Raven had to drag Beast Boy and Cyborg out by their ears, kicking and screaming.
Back in the tower, Robin turned her around, looking straight into her eyes. He was taller, so he had to look down instead of up. "Starfire, I am so sorry. I've thought about you so much since I left and I will never forgive myself for doing this to you. I thought if I left, I could take Slade down myself but I was wrong. I just made it worse."
"You deserve to feel guilty, but do not expect sympathy from me. I blocked out every feeling I had for you when you left, Robin, so do not expect any response from me." Her eyes were hard, the wall she built around her heart becoming stronger than before. "Now, I wish for you to leave and never come back. If you do not leave, than I will."
He grabbed her shoulder as she walked away and turned, the back of her hand connecting with his jaw and sent him into the wall. Blood filled his mouth but he ignored it.
"Starfire, I'm sorry..."
"As you should be. Your empty words will not change anything, Robin. I am tired of blaming myself for your weakness, and I'm tired of thinking that you will come back. Now that you are here, I see what you have become. You're not the Robin I used to love. Now, I despise you. You are now what you feared. You are what Slade is. Pathetic and weak. Now leave."
"Starfire, I'm not leaving. I want to make everything better."
"Then I am leaving. "He reached out and she growled. "Do not touch me." He drew his hand back, dropping them carelessly at his side.
"Star, is there any way you will forgive me? Is there anything I can do?"
She was quiet and when she spoke, he barley heard her. "The only way for me to forgive you is if you turned back time. Good bye, Robin." With his head bowed, Robin cried.
This story popped up in my head when I was writing But I'm Only Human, so I thought I would write it. I hope you enjoy it. By the way, my best friend helped me with a little of this so give her some credit also.
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Robin left. After a big fight with Slade, he just decided he was going to leave. But little did he know, he changed the life of a young girl. As they watched Starfire hit her knees sobbing, hate rose in their minds. How could he do this to her? She had loved him so much, depended on him to be there for her and he just left because he thought it was best. He had always thought only of himself, not of others.
Raven felt anger rise as she watched the girl's shoulder shake. She wasn't one for touching, but she kneeled down on the floor, touching Starfire's shoulder. Without thinking, Starfire lunged, crying into Raven's shoulder, blaming herself for Robin's departure. She blamed herself for Robin's weakness. Raven glanced at the three titans watching. Beast Boy got the message and knelt down next to Raven, soothing her the best he could.
Raven watched him comfort her, telling her it would be okay, but she saw hate flash in his eyes as he said Robin's name. But Star didn't believe him. She stood up, with help from Beast Boy and Raven, and walked toward the roof door. It slammed behind her and not long after, a scream of sorrow and pain filled the air of Jump city.
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One year later
Raven hit the wall, knocking the breath out of her. Cinderblock was at it again, stealing from a high tech factory. And the titans were getting their butt kicked. Beast Boy crouched in front of her, helping her up. Raven stared wide eyed as Starfire took over, bolts of power shooting out of her eyes and hands, more powerful than they had ever seen. She had become stronger since he left. And she had changed. She never smiled, laughed, or did anything, just stayed in the weight room or in her room, never talking unless she had to.
Cinderblock cracked under the pressure, screaming in pain. But Star didn't stop. If anything, the bolts of green became stronger, until he busted into tiny pieces, cement falling around them. Raven covered Beast Boy and herself with her powers while Cyborg protected his head with his hands and Terra threw the rocks with her powers. Starfire just watched as the rocks fell. When all was quite, she glanced at them with dull green eyes that no longer held any joy. "Shall we head home? We are done here."
They watched her walk away. She had barley flown since he had left them, walking most places. Raven was the only one who knew why. She could not feel the joy of flight anymore. And their hate for Robin grew. Beast Boy scratched his head in sorrow. "I know why she is so mad." They all glanced at him, waiting for an answer. Beast Boy looked at the way Starfire had left. "Robin left one year ago today."
Cyborg slammed a hand down, scaring them all. "I hate him! He did this! And all because he was too weak to handle it. He couldn't handle the pressure so he left. I hope he rots. I can't believe I ever thought of him as a leader or a friend." Beast Boy nodded. "I just can't believe he would leave Starfire like that, all alone. She was more close to him than any of us and he knew that, but he still chose to leave. Do you think it was for the better?" Raven scowled. "Maybe, but to Starfire, she would give anything to get him back, though she tells herself she hates him."
Beast Boy sighed. "I just wish he would come back and get Starfire to become, well, Starfire. We already have enough Ravens." Raven glared, stepping closer to him so she was right in front of him. "What?" She said, her voice practically a growl.
Beast Boy gulped. "I . . .uh . . . I didn't mean it like that. I just
meant I miss her being so happy and joyful. I miss being annoyed by
it. I just miss the old her." Raven doused her temper, nodding in
agreement.
"I wonder where he is. I could try to track him, but he probably took his old uniform off, so that won't work. I just don't think he would come back at all, even if he knew he was doing this to her." Raven said, looking around the factory.
"You're wrong. If I would have known I did this to her, I would have stayed." All teens looked in the direction of the voice, but Cyborg found him, glaring hatefully. "You knew you would do this to her. You knew she looked up to you and depended on you. You knew how much she used to care but you were too weak to stay. And now Starfire is never happy. She never smiles or laughs or greets us with love anymore. She's become like Raven, heartless and dreary," Raven glared at Cyborg, but she had to agree, "and all because you left. You don't deserve to see her, but maybe it would be better on her, maybe not."
Robin stepped out of the shadows, his masked eyes drawn together. "She's not like she used to be? She isn't . . ."
Raven glanced at him, disgust flashing in her violet eyes. "No. And you are the cause. She will probably never be the same. Beast Boy tries to get her to smile but she won't. When one of us falls or gets hurt, she doesn't ask if we are okay, she just kills off what ever hurt us, leaving when she's through. She destroyed Cinderblock, Robin. Without regret or compassion. She just kept on until he was destroyed. If anything...she's worse than I am." Said Raven.
Robin swallowed the lump in his throat. His Star was gone. "Could I see her?" Beast Boy kicked at a piece of Cinderblock, glancing up to answer. "If you think it's best then go ahead. But don't be surprised if she kicks you out." The teens headed out, leaving Robin behind. He glanced at the rubble, then followed them out, dreading at what he was going to find.
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After he left, Starfire had taken up cleaning. It helped get her mind off him, but she would never go near his room. It hurt too much. On her hands and knees, she scrubbed the kitchen floor. She had done it yesterday, but with Beast Boy and Cyborg, it needed to be cleaned everyday. The lemon scent filled the air, mixing with the floral sent of the carpet fresh she used when she vacuumed. She was still scrubbing when she heard the door open, but she didn't pay attention. She stopped paying attention to the door when she knew he wasn't coming back. Tears filled her eyes, but she blinked them back. She hadn't cried over him in a year and she didn't plan to succumb to it now.
Beast Boy called out her name, and she sat up, only her head visible. And then she saw him. All she could do was stare. Robin watched her, surprise filling his features. She was different. Her bright green eyes were dull, and her red hair was limp, not the vibrant red he remembered. Starfire glanced at the teens, asking calmly, "What is he doing here?" He expected her to scream at him, to throw things at him, but not to be so calm. Cyborg wouldn't even look at him. "He wanted to see you, Star." She stood up, throwing her hip-length hair over her shoulder. She looked him up and down, crossing her arms over her chest. "He has seen me now, he can leave. I have no wish to see him now or ever again." She walked out, her heart breaking at the sight of him. He had grown so much since she last saw him. He had become Nightwing.
Someone touched her shoulder and she expected to see Raven or Beast Boy, but it was Robin who touched her. She wanted to jerk her arm away from his warm grasp, but she would not give him the satisfaction. "What do you want, Robin?" Her voice broke when she said his name, but she swallowed the tears. "Starfire, I . . .I didn't mean to hurt you when I left. I would do anything to take it back. I was stupid and young and wasn't thinking straight when I left."
Starfire took deep breaths, willing the tears to go away. "That was the past of which you cannot change so there is no use wishing for the impossible. You left and that is it. When you leave again, I will feel no different." She gnawed on her bottom lip, staring into the dark hallway, her eyes blank.
Beast Boy, Raven, Terra, and Cyborg stepped outside, though Raven had to drag Beast Boy and Cyborg out by their ears, kicking and screaming.
Back in the tower, Robin turned her around, looking straight into her eyes. He was taller, so he had to look down instead of up. "Starfire, I am so sorry. I've thought about you so much since I left and I will never forgive myself for doing this to you. I thought if I left, I could take Slade down myself but I was wrong. I just made it worse."
"You deserve to feel guilty, but do not expect sympathy from me. I blocked out every feeling I had for you when you left, Robin, so do not expect any response from me." Her eyes were hard, the wall she built around her heart becoming stronger than before. "Now, I wish for you to leave and never come back. If you do not leave, than I will."
He grabbed her shoulder as she walked away and turned, the back of her hand connecting with his jaw and sent him into the wall. Blood filled his mouth but he ignored it.
"Starfire, I'm sorry..."
"As you should be. Your empty words will not change anything, Robin. I am tired of blaming myself for your weakness, and I'm tired of thinking that you will come back. Now that you are here, I see what you have become. You're not the Robin I used to love. Now, I despise you. You are now what you feared. You are what Slade is. Pathetic and weak. Now leave."
"Starfire, I'm not leaving. I want to make everything better."
"Then I am leaving. "He reached out and she growled. "Do not touch me." He drew his hand back, dropping them carelessly at his side.
"Star, is there any way you will forgive me? Is there anything I can do?"
She was quiet and when she spoke, he barley heard her. "The only way for me to forgive you is if you turned back time. Good bye, Robin." With his head bowed, Robin cried.