Lily's POV – 31st October 1981
"Lily!" April screamed as she saw me. I grinned as I faced Harry, who was standing on the kitchen counter.
"Ape!" Harry said pointing over my shoulder. I turned and hugged April tightly.
"April!" I said. "You look so much happier then you've been in a while." I said. It was true, last time I'd seen April, yesterday, she'd been sulking. She shrugged.
"I'm just in a good mood I guess," April let go of me and saw Harry. "Harry." Harry held his hands out and wanted April to carry him.
"Oh, sorry I can't Harry, look Aunty April's gotten fat!" She said putting her hands on her ever growing belly. Harry looked at her belly absolutely fascinated.
"I touch." He said. He looked at me to see if that would be ok. I smiled and lifted him off the counter and he walked up to April.
"Where's James?" April asked.
"It seems he's become reckless again, he's gone to play quidditch with Sirius." I said with a sigh. April looked outside.
"But it's pouring with rain!" She said.
"I know. I just hope James doesn't go and kill himself." I said looking out of the window. I wasn't joking either, every moment he spent outside my anxiousness increased. April started laughing and I looked at April.
"Sorry, I know you're feeling all upset but Harry's tickling me." She said. "Stop it." She said batting away my son's hands. He was standing in front of April prodding her belly like it was a big sponge. I sat down on a chair tiredly and Harry came over to me. I picked him up and put him on my lap. I just felt like all my energy was being drained slowly from my body.
"Hey, you don't have anything I can eat do you? This baby is making me soo hungry." April said. I laughed and pointed to the fridge. April turned and opened the fridge as the back door opened. James trudged in covered in mud and soaked to the bone. He was followed by Sirius, who looked at April and grinned. I didn't have the energy to tell Sirius off as he turned into a dog and went sniffing around April. She started in surprise and hit the dog playfully.
"Leave me alone Padfoot" She said with a smile. I looked away and at James, he came over sopping wet.
"Hi James." I said with a smile.
"Hi" He said. He gave me a quick kiss. He offered to take Harry with him but Harry clung to me, seeming to want to stay dry like a sensible boy. Of course, I knew he would grow into anything but a rather sensible boy, I mean, what do you expect from the child of James Potter? Harry put his head on my shoulder and I got up slowly.
"I'm going to go and dry off." He said. I nodded and he gave me a soft kiss on the lips.
"Ok, Dinner will be ready soon." I told him. James grinned.
"Is it Pasta Bake?" He asked eagerly. I rolled my eyes.
"Yes it is, what else would it be?" I asked him with a slight laugh. James grinned and seemed to hop out of the room. Harry laughed and his laugh was joined by a deeper more a mused laugh. I turned to Sirius.
"Lily's a house witch, Lily's a house witch" He chanted. I got my wand out.
"Shut it Sirius." I said playfully.
"Or what?" He asked. April rolled her eyes and sat down, her back was no doubt hurting.
"Do you want to see Uncle Sirius turn into a Weasel?" I asked gently to Harry.
"Piggy!" Harry said. I laughed and April looked rather amused at the suggestion.
"Ok," I flicked my wrist while Sirius tried to get away but instead of a human running for cover a large pink pig ran under the table grunting and snorting. Harry laughed and seemed to be in hysterics. April was laughing.
"Why didn't I do that when he got me pregnant!" She said. The pig emerged from under the table and looked at me pleadingly. I shook my head and flicked my wand. Sirius stood in front of us again but dry. He put his hands to his body
"I did you an extra favour." I said to him. Sirius grinned.
"Anyway, did I hear something about Pasta Bake?" Sirius asked sitting at the table and summoning a knife and fork.
"What about the rest of us?" I said as I put Harry into his seat. Sirius shrugged and waited patiently.
"I can't believe I'm having your child!" April said trying to drop her head on the table but her belly prevented her from bending over so much. "Oh for crying out loud!" April looked at Sirius dangerously. "I hate you! I hate you so much!" She said pointing at Sirius. He looked at her innocently.
"What did I do?" Sirius asked. April pointed at her belly.
"Hello! Are you blind!" April asked. I rolled my eyes and turned to get the pasta out of the oven. "You got me pregnant, you knew that I didn't want to get pregnant!"
"Merlin April, that was six months ago." Sirius said. "There's nothing we can do now." I could feel my temper rising slowly, stupid hormones.
"Lily, do you want to adopt another child?" April asked, turning around.
"You're not putting our child up for adoption." Sirius said.
"Oh come on, you think I'm serious. It's just Lily anyway." That was it.
"Be quiet!" I snapped. "Will you both be quiet? I'm this close to cursing both of you!" I put my index finger less then a centimetre away from my thumb. Sirius and April both went quiet. "Thank you." I said. I got out some plates and the room was silent for a while. There was quite a bit of tension in the room, nearly thick enough to slice with a knife.
"Wow" James said coming into the kitchen. "Nice party." He said. "What happened?" April cleared her throat.
"Your wife." Sirius said gently as if scared I would snap again. I was very close to just shouting again. I heard James give a soft sigh and I felt his arms around my waist as I put the pasta onto the plates then got another smaller bowl for Harry. I could feel my anger subsiding and a smile beginning to appear on my face.
"You ok?" James asked.
"Hormones." I said.
"Ah yes. I remember." James said. I looked at him with a look that asked him what he meant. "I'm just saying, I remember last time you were pregnant with him." James said nodding to Harry. Harry was watching some invisible lint, as I like to call it, and looking innocent. Sirius and April were whispering but Sirius soon shut up when he saw me approach with food.
"Yummy, Lily's cooking." Sirius said.
"I don't have much so eat is slowly-" I started to say but almost as soon as I put the plate down in front of him he began eating it at top speed. James, April and I weren't as fast and James took time to feed Harry as we ate.
"So, Lily, have you got anymore?" Sirius said, interrupting a conversation I was having with April. I looked at Sirius.
"No, sorry."
"Hey, I've just noticed you and April had bigger portions!" He said, looking at the food that April and I had barely touched. April gave him a sympathetic look.
"It's because we're pregnant darling." She said.
"Oi, that's Lily's nickname for me." Sirius said, narrowing his eyes.
"Who cares?" April said. "I wonder how early I can get back to Auror training after I've had Jenny."
"Jenny?" I asked April curiously. April grinned. "You're calling your child Jenny?"
"Yeah."
"How do you even know if it's a girl?" James asked.
"She had the Healers tell her." Sirius said, looking rather annoyed. "I didn't want to know but April has to know everything doesn't she?"
"Yeah." I said, "But why Jenny? I mean it's a nice name but won't it get confusing?" I asked April. April shrugged.
"I don't know. I like the name, besides her full name will be Jennifer. I was thinking of calling her Lily but I changed my mind. I also like the name Rhiannon" April said.
"Rhiannon is a pretty name" I said to April. She gave me a smile.
"Why are you calling your daughter after a friend of yours?" James asked, looking rather confused.
"I asked her that!" Sirius said, perking up.
"I don't know. I like the name, besides her full name will be Jennifer. I was thinking of calling her Lily but I changed my mind. I also like the name Rhiannon, well, Sirius likes the name Rhiannon" April said.
"Rhiannon is a pretty name" I said to April. She gave me a smile.
"Why are you calling your daughter after a friend of yours?" James asked, looking rather confused.
"I asked her that!" Sirius said, perking up. "Please call her Rhia" He said to April. I had to laugh.
"Because I like their names, what are you going to name your child?" April asked me. I shrugged. I really hadn't thought about it. I mean, James and I hadn't even really considered names for Harry until about a month before Harry was born. We hadn't known if Harry was going to be a girl or a boy. We didn't want to know, even if the Healers had offered to tell us.
"Probably something like Harry's name." I said.
"Harriet" Sirius said with a grin.
"No." James said instantly. "She means something like the name we considered if Harry was a girl or his, um, alternative names." Sirius nodded, that was completely lost on him. April nodded.
"Makes sense." April said. "Strangely I'm not really hungry." I raised an eyebrow and looked at her curiously.
"You have to eat April."
"Yeah I know." She said putting her knife and fork down. "But I've got a strange feeling in my stomach, almost like when I'm really scared. I have this really weird feeling that something bad is going to happen." I looked at her curiously.
"Like what?" James asked
"I don't know." April said, "Remember that voice I had in my head a few years ago?"
"How can we forget?" I said seriously.
"Well, I think it might have something to do with that. I've had it for a while now. That voice was Voldemort's voice, well, I've been having this really weird feeling for a while now so do you think it could mean that Voldemort is planning something?" April asked me. I shrugged.
"You and James are the aurors." I said. April looked at James. James had a spoon halfway to Harry's mouth. He looked as though he was thinking.
"I don't know, maybe." James said, "But he can't find us. We're completely safe."
"Yeah I suppose." April said, "I just get this really weird feeling that something is going to happen. It's probably nothing." I frowned and nodded.
"Well, as James said, we're completely safe." I said. I felt my stomach give an unpleasant jerking twisting sensation. "Crap." I said putting a hand to my mouth. I got up quickly and tried for the door but I could feel the bile and acid and everything from my stomach coming up my throat. Not enough time to get to the bathroom. I turned and went to the kitchen sink just in time. The moment I opened my mouth the contents of my stomach spilled out into the sink.
"Urgh." I heard Sirius say. I heard a scraping noise and James' comforting hand on my back.
"Sirius, take Harry into the front room and look after him." April said. I threw up again as April came over. I hate morning sickness, I hate morning sickness! I felt someone pulling my hair back.
"Let it all out Lily." James said tiredly. He was as sick of me throwing up as I was.
I was cuddled up against James with my head on his shoulder. Harry was playing on the floor.
"I'm so tired." April yawned.
"Then go home." Sirius said.
"You can't tell me what to do." April said to him. I rolled my eyes then closed them. James put an arm around me and kissed my forehead. I had just finished another bout of throwing up. I knew James was worried for me, he hated seeing me ill but he loved seeing me pregnant. I'm just grateful that this time he's not talking to my stomach every few seconds, now that was the most irritating thing he's ever done, and he's done a lot!
"I so can." Sirius said.
"Oh yeah!" April challenged.
"I will not harm a pregnant woman." Sirius said in a posh voice. I had to laugh. "What? It's true. I would never hurt a pregnant woman." I opened my eyes and saw Sirius moving over to where April was and he hugged her tightly.
"I'm glad you two are going to get married." I said.
"I'm surprised." James said, "I mean, Sirius, tied down to one girl-"
"Don't make my doubts grow any more, please James" April said with a frown.
"I only have eyes for two people." Sirius said. April looked at her harshly.
"Who? It still better not be the-"
"You and little baby Jenny." Sirius said.
"You don't even know what Jenny will look like." April said. Sirius flashed her a smile and I saw April's expression soften from one of annoyance to love. She was so funny sometimes. Sirius could make her melt so easily, and if Sirius ever lied to her, she'd know but I knew she wouldn't read his mind if she could help it.
"Mummy." Harry said in a sort of sing-song voice.
"Harry." I said in the same sort of voice. Harry grinned and climbed onto the sofa. He kept figuring out new things everyday. I think him climbing the sofa was one he was most proud of. He climbed onto my legs and seemed to cuddle up against my stomach, his favourite place to nestle against me, if I wasn't carrying or hugging him. I put a hand on his back and he smiled at me.
"Ok, so plans for tomorrow." Sirius said rubbing his hands.
"What's happening tomorrow?" I asked Sirius.
"I don't know, that's why I said, plans for tomorrow." Sirius said with a cheeky grin.
"You are the most annoying person alive, you know that?" April said.
"Yep." Sirius said.
"I personally want to go out again but it's pouring with rain and it'll probably be muddy tomorrow." James said.
"And we all know what happens when you get mud in the house." I said in a warning voice to James.
"Yep." James said shifting uncomfortably. April and Sirius both started laughing.
"Aw, Does Jamie get bullied by his ickle wife?" Sirius said.
"No, moody wife." James said.
"I am not moody." I said.
"When you're pregnant you are." James said. I looked at him. That wasn't funny. "Because that's when I get punished." I grinned and James kissed the side of my mouth, scared that I might throw up again. He never kissed me properly for up to an hour after I'd thrown up. Made sense though, I wouldn't want to kiss him if he'd just thrown up. He stroked the top of my head and I smiled. I just wanted to sleep and I could feel my eyes closing. James was too comfy. He was fantastic, I loved him I'd die for him if I had to.
"So what are we going to do?" Sirius asked.
"Sleep." I muttered.
"Ok, so Lily's sorted out for the day." Sirius said. "Can I come and play with Harry?"
"If you must." James said. I smiled, I think James was quite tired, the whole stay at home and do nothing was really starting to get to him. James was never meant to be kept away and hidden. He was like a wild animal, you should never lock one up. They can't live in cages. James had to be out there whether it was hunting Death Eaters or playing quidditch. I felt Harry move and pulled him up and hugged him.
"I'm going to put Harry to bed." I said, opening my eyes and slowly getting to my feet.
"Alright" James said. He kept his hand on my back, helping me to stand up, I didn't need the help but he's sweet like that.
"I'll come and help you." April said starting to get up.
"No, you're staying on your ar-rump." Sirius said. He glanced at me nervously.
"You're safe. I can allow you to use that word." I said. Sirius sighed and relaxed.
"Oh good." He said. I shook my head and rocked Harry slightly as he started to fall asleep on my shoulder. I rubbed his back slightly to try and get him to sleep quicker. I wasn't feeling very well again. I went to his room and pushed it open. This room was actually quite a bit bigger then the spare room. The spare room would have to be my next child's room but that would mean having to get Harry a proper bed and moving the cot, too much physical work. Wait a minute, I'm thinking like a muggle again. I'm a witch god dammit and a good one at that. Straight Os for OWLs and NEWTs.
I lowered Harry into his cot, yep, regardless of whether I was having another baby or not, I would have to get Harry a new bed anyway. I pulled the blanket over his body, the house was strangely cold. I shivered, I didn't like this and even I was getting a feeling something bad was going to happen, like I was about to freefall from a plane about fifty thousand feet in the air, or like I was on the edge of a cliff. One of those tingling sensations that you get. That was enough to cause me to want to be sick again but I'd already emptied my stomach about five times that evening. Why the hell is it called morning sickness when you're ill all times of the day?! Honestly! I headed downstairs, steeling a look at Harry before leaving his room. I had a strange sense of foreboding that I couldn't shake off.
I don't know why but I felt so strange. As I walked down the stairs I looked at the many photos of Harry that we had lining the walls in small picture frames. They were all of him laughing, smiling, playing with me or James. There was a wedding photo of me and James. There, one I'd taken of April and Harry fast asleep together last year. I crossed my arms and hugged myself as if to comfort myself. What was wrong with me? Could this be mood swings again, it probably was. My eyes went, again, to mine and James wedding photo. It was a special one we'd had done, we were standing at the end of the ship we'd gotten married on and the wind was blowing through my hair and we just both looked generally windswept, but it was a very good picture. I heard someone approach and I turned around. April looked at me and smiled.
"Why are you looking so depressed, you weren't the one who got kidnapped when you were two months pregnant." She said,
"I know." I said with a sigh. "I just feel weird." I looked at April and hugged myself tighter
"I would hug you but stomach." April said sympathetically. "I think it's the thing with not going outside. I can only imagine what it must be like." April said. I nodded and headed for the kitchen, April followed me. I think the Kitchen gave me some sense of security when I felt a bit weird. April sat down.
"I do miss going out. I want to go to Diagon alley again, or to see Hogsmeade again." I said, leaning against the counter. "It's been two years." I said. April frowned slightly.
"Merlin, really?" She asked, "I can't believe you're still sane." I let out a small smile. True, I can't believe I was still smiling and joking a lot of the time. "I hope you don't mind but I have to get home. Dad wants me home before ten." April said. I laughed gently.
"Daddy's girl." I said.
"Always." April said with a grin. "See you tomorrow." She said. I nodded as she kissed my cheek and apparated away. I sighed and turned to where I had three vials on the counter, three vials of Wolfsbane potion. I'd have to get Sirius to take them to Remus for me. Remus and Jenny were going to try and get Bo to take some Wolfsbane potion, hence the three vials. I'm not sure why there's three but they asked for it and I made potion.
"Lily?" I heard James call worriedly.
"I'm here." I said. I headed out of the kitchen and into the living room. Still not feeling very well. James smiled and moved up slightly. I lay on the sofa with my head on his lap. His hand seemed to automatically go to my hair.
"Sirius, could you drop off the Wolfsbane potion off at Remus'" I asked him. Sirius nodded.
"Of course, anything for you." He said with a grin. I smiled and made myself more comfortable.
"So what are you boys up to tomorrow?" I asked.
"We're going to just hang out, play with Harry." James said.
"That's what you do everyday." I said.
"No reason to change habit." Sirius said with a smile.
"Well I'm off." Sirius said getting up. He put his hands in his pockets and got out a set of keys. He twirled his keys around his fingers. I had been dozing on James while he had been talking to Sirius. Strange and boring quidditch talk but it was somehow comforting and calming. James began to move and I got up tiredly and rubbed my eyes.
"What? What time is it?" I asked tiredly. James laughed slightly amused.
"It's nearly eleven." He said.
"Oh, ok." I said. "Has it stopped raining?" I asked. Sirius glanced out of the window and peered out into the pitch, black darkness.
"Well it's stopped enough for me to ride home." He said. "I'll see you two tomorrow then." He said. He gave me a quick hug. James left the room with Sirius to go to the back door to see him off. Sirius' motorbike was parked behind our house in the garden.
I stayed in the living room and lay back down on the sofa, it was warm and comfortable, I really couldn't be bothered to move. My eyes had just closed when I heard a crash. I bolted upright. I went to the hallway and looked towards the source of the crash. I headed for the kitchen and I had barely opened the door when James ran out.
"Lily, it's him!" He said. My eyes widened with fear.
"Voldemort?" I asked. James nodded frantically.
"Take Harry, take him and run, get him out of here. Make sure he's safe." James said. He began to push me towards the stairs but I stopped and looked at James.
"What about you?" I asked. My heart was in my throat. If Voldemort was really-
There was another crash.
"Lily, just go!" James said. I looked at James and then at the door.
"Not without you James." I said. James glanced nervously at the door. Time seemed to be slowing down. He turned to me and pressed a fierce and loving kiss on my lips. I returned the kiss as passionately as I could. I was no longer tired, the fatigue that came with being pregnant no longer affected me. For some reason it was like this was our last kiss. It was exactly like our first kiss. Ironic really.
James pulled away first. As he did I was crying. Tears stained my cheeks and James looked like he was ready to cry himself.
"Lily, please just go. Save yourself, Harry and-" His eyes went to my stomach. I stifled a sob and nodded.
"Take care of yourself" I said, it was one of the only things I could think of to say. "I love you." I said. James brushed some of my tears away as the kitchen door was blown apart. I turned and fled up the stairs. I felt like my heart was going to burst. I knew that was the last time I'd ever see James. I cried all the way up the stairs.
"Expelliarmus!" I heard James shout. I stopped, I had to go back and help him. No, I had to save Harry and our second child. But I couldn't live without James, he knew that, everyone did. James' words rang through my head. That was enough to get me to Harry's room. Harry was standing in his cot looking at me nervously.
"Mummy." He said uncertainly.
"Harry, be very very quiet." I said with a shaking voice. I got out my wand and looked around the room. I locked the door magically and moved the heavy bits of furniture in the doorway.
"Mummy." Harry said. He sounded like he was about to cry. I turned and I was right, he looked scared and terrified. I picked him up and held him tightly. I couldn't apparate with Harry and I didn't know how to make Portkeys. Well actually I did but I'd never made one before, I couldn't risk it, even if it was to save myself and Harry. I glanced at the door.
"Reducto!" I heard a voice say behind the door. I was shaking. I tried to control myself. I had to do something. I had never been good at duelling, I tended to freeze up. That's why April and James were the aurors. A thought struck me. That voice was Voldemort's voice, that meant James was dead. A fresh wave of tears and sobs over came me but I tried to stand bravely, if not for Harry's sake but for my own. The door shattered and I turned and put a hand over Harry's head, forcing Harry's face against my breasts so that he wouldn't get hurt. I turned uncertainly, hiding Harry's face the whole time. He was there, standing right in front of us. How did he find us? We had a secret keeper, Peter would never- Peter betrayed us! This was all his fault. I took some steps back as Voldemort approached. I could see smoke in the hallway, from a fire. The house was also hotter then it should be, or I guessed it. I was completely cold inside. I felt dead already.
"I just want the boy. Hand me the child and you can go free." Voldemort said with a hand out stretched.
"No, please let us go." I said, I knew it was hopeless and I wasn't even sure why I said it.
"Give me the child!" Voldemort shouted.
"Never!" I shouted back, "You'll have to kill me if you want him" Bad thing to say, very bad thing!
"Very well." Voldemort said. He held his wand out. My eyes were wide with fear, I was shaking with fear. I turned moments before Voldemort said the curse so that it wouldn't hit Harry "Avada Kedavra!"
A/N:-Next Chapter is Sirius' Chapter and Twelve years. I kinda like that chapter coz it ends in POA. Also, I have a HArry Chapter the summer after Sirius Dies, I'm not sure if i should put that up but if you want me to just tell me and I'll put it up. Hope you liked this chapter. I'll update when I get back from Holiday...so I'll update next tuesday.