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Author's notes: I don't know what to write. Uhmmm, it's my first time to post a fan fiction here. That's all and pls. reviews I need it badly to inspire me!

WHY?

Chapter 1: Past will wait

But no one knows what fate brings. No one can predict the future. Life is a sorrow. So it does.

"Spicy Marmalade..." It was afternoon then. Shindou Shuichi was singing his newly composed song inspired by his beloved Yuki Eiri. The song is already fading as Shuichi put his best on it.

"Yeah! Great job guys." Sakano-san said. (CLAPS)

"Nyahaha, it's because you have the best singer in town." Shuichi said.

"Whatever you say, Shuichi." Hiro said.

"You're hurting me Hiro-kun. Well, better hurry or Yuki might be angry... sayonara." He said as he bid goodbye to his friends.

A sudden change of emotion was reflected from Sakano when he heard the name Yuki.

"Yuki, huh?" He murmured.

In Yuki's house;

"Yuki! Why can't we go to the zoo?"

"Urasai, doa'ho, you're such a childish guy!"

"Yuki Onegai?"

Shuichi said as he put his best in convincing Yuki.

"Don't disturb me, you jerk!"

"Yuki...Yuki...Yuki... why are you always like that to me huh? You're always ignoring me... Why?" Shuichi asked then Yuki sees the tears forming in Shuichi's eyes.

"I said Shut up!" Yuki, giving up gave Shuichi a reassuring kiss. It is a promise.

Morning came...

"Ohayo!" Shuichi said.

"Oh! Seems ENERGETIC!" Hiro said.

"HAI!" Yuki and I are going for a date." He replied.

"Can't you stop saying the name of that bitch?" Sakano said.

Everyone was shocked. They can't believe that a man like him can say those words.

"Anooo, gomenasai I didn't mean it. It's just from a drama series that I've watched yesterday." He said.

"Well, Sakano-san I forgive you. You shouldn't watch those kind of dramas." He replied.

"Alright, chatting is over. We're going to be late on our interview."

Kei, there manager said. Sakano sighed. After a long time of weary interview, Shuichi went to the zoo as fast as he could and waited for Yuki.

"AHHHHHH! YUKIIIII! Where are you?" "He's late...latee...lateeee..." Shuichi said. "I'm hungry." He continued.

Meanwhile Yuki is on the other side of the road then he saw Shuichi. Shuichi saw Yuki.

"YUKIIII!"... YUKI! Why are you late? How could you let me wait for 5 long hours?"

"Damare, important is I'm here." Yuki said.

"Because you let me wait for so long... uhmmm... you should treat me some ice cream, ne?"

"Alright, I'll treat you." "YEAH! 8 scoops would be enough" Shuichi replied.

"Yeah, right!" Yuki almost slip because of shock.

"I want chocolate, mango, melon, vanilla, cheese, watermelon, blueberry, strawberry flavors. I also want sushi, is there a sushi flavors in ice creams?" Shuichi said.

Yuki seeing his love in his stupidity gently laughs. "Wait for me here, I'll buy you're ice cream."

"Hai!" Shuichi said.

"Yuki really loves me... (Laughs) Better follow him or he might see another GUY!" he continued. As he walks in the street he was in his fantasy coma again...

"I won't ignore you anymore...aishiteru!" Yuki said (FANTASY COMA) "hihihi". Shuichi said.

Shuichi back in the real world laughs.

Shuichi walks.

Traffic light signals go.

Rushing car comes.

Yuki looked back.

Yuki runs.

Shuichi screams.

"NNNNNNNOOOO!"

"Doctor, call a doctor, an ambulance, an ambulance, HELP!"

"Paging doctor Tooya to ER pls, doctor Tooya to ER please..."

Meanwhile the most popular band in Japan, the nettle grasper is practicing for their concert for the benefit of Childcare 888."

But no one knows what fate brings... No one can predict the future...

KRNGGG...KKKRRRNNNGGG...

"Moshi-moshi." Seguchi Tohma answered.

"Seguchi- san, Seguchi-san." Shuichi said nervously.

"Calm down Shindou-san, why did you call?"

"Yuki-kun, Yuki-kun." Shuichi said.

"What happened to Eiri?" Tohma asked.

"Car...Yuki...Hit...hospital...blood..." Shuichi said

. "Say it Shindou-san."

"YUKI WAS HIT BY A CAR!" Shuichi blurted out.

"What? Where is he? What hospital?"

"The hospital that is near the park." Shuichi said.

"Wait for me there I'll inform Mika-san" Tohma said.

"hai" Shuichi replied.

All the while Ryuichi, the lead singer of the band was listening to their conversation.

"Yuki? Accident?" Ryuichi muttered then he rushed to the others and tells what happened.

"What? How? Why? But..." Sakano said. "Calm down Sakano-san." Hiro said. "Let's go to the hospital." Kei said... "Yuki got accident? Yuki, my Yuki?" Sakano whispered.

After several hours of operation

The doctor went out of the ER as well as the nurses bringing with them the gadgets used.

Shuichi immediately asked, "How's Yuki doc.? Is he safe?"

"I'm sorry but..."

"But what?" Mika-san asked.

"There's a blood clot in his brain which is a big problem..." the doctor replied.

"What's the problem? Pls. say it directly."

"He's got amnesia." The doctor replied.

"What? Can you cure him?" Shuichi asked.

"I'm sorry but there's a little possibility for him to recover. Cases like his are very difficult to handle. There's a possibility that he can't be able to recognize at least one of you though he is cured." The doctor replied.

"No. It can't be true. We're just having our date a while ago, it is a joke, and Yuki's playing with me again, right. He's kidding me right, Hiro it's not true, tell me it's not true." Shuichi said tears forming in his eyes.

Hiro seeing his friend in sorrow comforts him. Shuichi started tocry out loud and he went to Yuki's room..

"Yuki wake up, I know you're playing with me again. I'm not gonna be fooled easily. Wake up...Wake up... WAKE UP!" Shuichi said.

All of them saw how hard it is for Shuichi to take what was happening. They understand, they know how much Shuichi's love for Yuki is. It's immeasurable. They know that he can even sacrifice his dreams and ambitions just to be with Yuki. Yet they can't do anything but pity him and share with his sadness. But no one knows that there is also someone who suffers more than Shuichi... Sakano-san. Sakano can't take what was happening so he went out of the hospital and ran as fast as he could to break away from the atmosphere he can't bare.

"Why? Why?" Sakano said. "If only you have chosen me, this would not happened then... Damn you Yuki, damn you for making so in love with you." Sakano said.

Nobody knows that Sakano have feelings for Yuki. But Yuki knows it.

(PAST)

"Sakano where are going?" Yuki asked.

"To a place where we can enjoy ourselves" Sakano said.

After 30 minutes of walk Sakano stopped, "here we are!"

"Karaoke house?" Yuki said.

"Hai! I'm sure we'll going to enjoy this one."

"NEVER MIND! I'm going home. I've got lots to do." Yuki said.

"You sure you don't want to stay?" Sakano asked.

"Yes." "Well then, what can I do. Go home safely ne?" Sakano said.

"Alright, you too.." Yuki said then he went away. Also, it is the night when Yuki first met Shuichi.

(PRESENT)

"IF I had just let you stay then you wouldn't have met Shindou-san, if only? But I will be selfish if I let you stay you wouldn't have found your happiness if I let you stay."

He blurted out. People saw him crying and talking to himself de he doesn't care. His pain is too much and he doesn't care if he's seen crying like a child.

"If only I have admitted my feelings for you, I wouldn't have suffered this much. But I was scared. I was scared that you might reject me. I'm afraid that you will not love me back. If only I have the courage that Shuichi has, I would have say that...that..." he stopped, he didn't realize that he is back in the hospital.

"Yuki." "Oh! It's my fault, it's my entire fault. If only I didn't gave up in convincing Yuki to go home." Mika said and was cut by his tears.

"It's not your fault. It's neither Yuki's fault nor Shindou's fault, nor the driver's fault. No one expected this to happen," Tohma said.

Shuichi is in Yuki's room waiting for him to wake up. Sakano went up to see Yuki. 8 hours had passed and at last Yuki woke up. He moved his eyes and saw Shuichi.

"Yuki, you're awake!" shuichi said.

His voice was clearly heard outside so the others went inside to see if Yuki is really awake.

"Thank God." Mika said.

Yuki observes the people around him. He is trying to recall their names because he know that these people are important to him especially the pink haired man. He continues to observe and saw Sakano.

"Sakano-san?" he said.

"You can remember now Yuki?" Shuichi said.

"I'm sorry but who are you?" he replied.

"But you do know Sakano" Tohma said.

"Yes, but who are you also?" he replied.

"I'm sorry, but I can't remember you all. My mind tells me that all of you are special to me but... AHHH! My head hurts." Yuki said.

"Don't push your self too much Eiri-kun. You just need time and we'll wait."

Mika said. Somehow Yuki is recovering. He recognize his sister, Tohma, all of them except for Shuichi. And this happening brought Shuichi much sorrow.

"Why? Why? Yuki remembers all of you but why not me. Shuichi started to cry. Since the accident Shuichi focused himself on his singing though it is hard for him. And it's even more painful when hw sees Yuki having a very good time with Sakano. Until one day Shuichi decide to confront Yuki. He thought that Yuki, having an amnesia is just a plan made by the others to make him focused more on work and become very popular.

"Yuki, finally I've got your plan, you can lie to me again, hihihi, I now it is just a big joke when you've got amnesia. You're a very good artist Yuki, a very good one. Shuichi said to himself. Half of it is true. Yes, Shuichi became very popular at this stage of being a singer. He even go beyond the popularity rate of Sakuma Ryuichi . and now he's such a fine singer. But the other half are lies, all lies. He went to Yuki's condo. As he knocks on the door he saw that it was open.

"Huh? Yuki should lock his door always, better tell him" he said. As he goes to Yuki's room he heard that Yuki's talking to somebody else. "Who can that be?" he asked himself.

Life is a sorrow...

He saw Yuki talking to Sakano. He wished he haven't heard their conversation but...

"Yuki, I hide this for so long but now I have the courage to tell you that... that... I love you!" Sakano said.

Shuichi wanted to run. He doesn't want to hear what Yuki is going to say. But his feet do not want to move. It's too late. It's really late.

"I love you too." Yuki said to Sakano and kissed him.

"It's not true!" Shuichi stepped back.

"It can't be true!" Shuichi runs.

It started to rain.

Shuichi is wet, really wet.

"Why Yuki? Why Yuki? Why?" there's a dead end. He stops.

So it does...

"WWWWHHHHYYY?" he said as he throw himself in the darkness where can you love but cannot be love back, thus you can't be hurt.