"And if the music stops,
There's only the sound of the rain.
All the hope and glory,
All the sacrifice in vain.
If love remains
Though everything is lost,
We will pay the price,
But we will not count the cost."
- Paradigm Blue, "Bravado"
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Unbreakable
A Sailor Moon Fanfiction
Written by Kate "SuperKate" Butler
Chapter One: "Bravado"
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Despite the fact that it was raining, a dull, hazy drizzle spitting
down out of dark, looming, heavy clouds, Aino Emi found herself smiling.
She had smiled almost all of the day, actually. Since awaking
to the crackling sound of the captain's announcement that they were
cruising somewhere over Poland, she had been unable to contain her
child-like mirth. Even as they hit a patch of terrible turbulence and
the stewardesses all bustled about nervously, she grinned into the seat
in front of her, her tray table supporting her drumming, impatient fingers.
The baggage claim personnel had frowned at her heavily accented, broken
English as she waved after them and called "Have a good day!", and her
taxi driver asked her to repeat their destination at leave four times
before understanding what she meant, but still, her legs bounced in
uncontrollable excitement. And, even after her pockets were significantly
lightened by the exorbitant cab fee and she was standing, in the rain,
beneath the wide-mouthed, towering titan that was London's famous Ritz
hotel, her face warmed with the light of a smile. She was just that happy.
As she grasped the handle to her suitcase with a firm grip and
began to pull it along the sodden green outdoor rug and into the hotel
lobby, she realized that she should be at least a bit intimidated. The back
of her mind implored her to be nervous rather than excited, but she was
unable to heed the warning.
Emi was, after all, no stranger to intimidation. Her recently-
widowed school-teaching mother, Aino Natsumi, had sternly reminded her of
this fact two evenings before as, together, they packed for the girl's
three-week modeling stint in London, England.
'And to think, that nasty Michiko was the one saying that you would
never be half the model SHE is!' her mother chortled, folding her
daughter's t-shirts with a tender, motherly care. The phone call that
afternoon had brought wonderful news the one of the more senior models
had fallen ill and needed a replacement sent to London to walk in her
place. 'Kami-sama strike me down for ever speaking ill of another,
especially an ailing young woman such as Michiko-chan, but you very nearly
quit last year because of all the trouble she made for you, and now look!
You're her replacement for the World Design Summit, and only at 17!' She
dropped the laundry to grab her only child into a brief, tight hug. 'You
make your old okaa-san so proud, Emi!'
Sighing, the young blonde girl took all the talk of pride and the
possessive cuddling patiently and with a grain of salt, focusing more
attentively on gathering up her belongings than on her mother's endless
ramblings. As rude and self-possessed as Hiro Michiko could be, she would
never wish ill upon her, especially in the light of what had really
happened. Her boss, the up-and-coming Tomizawa Ai, had told her a morsel
of the story that she'd left out when relating the affair to her mother,
and that was that Michiko, the popular idol-model, had not fallen ill at
all but rather fallen pregnant. It appeared, at least to Tomizawa-sama,
that the rumors were all true and Michiko had gotten into a torrid love
affair with a man old enough to be her father. And now, with morning sickness
raging and leaving her pale and over-tired, the senior model was out of the
competition.
Emi shuddered in anticipation as the gold-rimmed glass doors
of the hotel slid shut behind her, closing her into the spacious posh
lobby. Deep, rich colors - mostly dark crimsons and tawny browns -
reflected on gleaming floor tiles, and soft strains of piano music touched
her ears before fading off, replaced by the quiet whisper of a fountain.
Green plants fought for prominence in planters surrounding the fountain and
also surrounding the sitting area. The wheels of her suitcase clicked
along the tiles as she neared the polished, red-brown countertop. A
young man in a suit glanced questioningly at her as she approached, and
she swallowed hard.
Perhaps she was intimidated, after all.
"May I help you?" questioned the man coolly, his accent unfamiliar
and almost hard-to-understand in the ears of the Japanese girl. "Or are
you, perhaps, lost?"
Her cheeks burned as he said this, and suddenly, she was cognizant
of her surroundings. Her blonde waves were heavy with rainwater, straggly
and unkempt, and her chic navy raincoat hung open and untied, revealing
her sloppy travel clothes of a sweater and blue jeans. Her grip on her
suitcase tightened. "A-actually, I am here for the... Ara, the modeling
summit..." The words were clumsy on her tongue, and the young man's dubious
glance and cock of his eyebrow just further proved this as fact. "My name
is Ai - Emi Aino. I am replacing Michiko. Uh..."
Smiling indulgently, the young man leaned forward on his
elbows. "I realize that you probably do want to be a model, miss," he
replied, his tone one of a father speaking to his child. Emi scowled,
wrinkling her petite nose. "But the design summit is a very serious event,
and I'm afraid we can't just let little girls in. In fact - "
"Terrence, thank goodness you found her!" Both the teen and the
young man glanced up to see someone jogging down the hallway and in the
direction of the lobby, waving frantically. He was an older man, perhaps
in his mid- to late-thirties, and his chic business suit and clip-on
name badge registered him as someone at least mildly important. "Ms.
Tomizawa just realized about three minutes ago that Miss Aino would be
arriving, and she's all tied up dealing with stage preparations." He
was panting lightly by the time he reached the countertop, but that didn't
stop him from offering a hand towards the girl. "Watashi no namae wa
Roger Hughes desu," he introduced with a charming smile, his attempt at her
familiar language heavy with his Anglicized mispronunciation. "Welcome to
London."
Emi stared blankly at his hand, taking it with some hesitation.
"A-aino Emi desu," she responded softly, giving it a careful shake. "I am
replacing Hiro Michiko in T - in Ms. Tomizawa's portion of the
presentation." His navy blue eyes met hers without hesitation, and she
couldn't help but smile back up at him as he squeezed her hand and then
released it. With his neatly-trimmed, slightly-graying goatee, light laugh
lines, and wide-mouthed grin, he reminded her of the father in an anime
series she had once watched. "Thank you for coming to get me. I was
afraid that I would be turned away."
He chuckled, quickly switching from Japanese to English. "Terrence
is trained to get rid of the troublemaking interlopers that try to poke
around and get autographs of their favorite models," he teased, winking at
the now-blushing young man behind the counter. "Don't take it personally."
Before the blonde teen could protest, he reached down and helped himself to
the handle of her bag, which had been ignored since their handshake. "Now,
allow me to show you to your room. You can get washed up and then come down
and talk to Ms. Tomizawa." She froze, staring at him as he started off
towards the elevators with her suitcase, causing Roger to stop and, after a
long moment, turn around and glance back at her. "Emi-san? Are you coming?"
Smiling, she nodded and trotted up next to him, following him down
the wide, crimson-carpeted hallway towards the elevators, all intimidation
washed away and replaced, once again, by eagerness and joy.
===
Washing up proved harder than expected, and by time Emi had
showered, dried her wavy mass of blonde tresses, and changed into something
a bit more presentable to meet with Tomizawa-sama, an hour and a half had
passed. The girl blamed it on the enormous hotel room she had been
assigned. It was obvious that they had simply assigned her to the room
originally reserved for Michiko, rather than reworking the room setup to
couple her - the most junior model on the trip - with a more appropriate
room. An enormous king-size bed stretched out against the far wall, its
high pine bedposts stretching almost all the way to the ceiling before
being topped with a white canopy. A small sitting area, complete with
ornate, Victorian-era furniture, overtook one corner of the remaining area,
and a bureau filled with snacks and a miniature refrigerator overtook
another corner. A wooden door with a gold handle - completely different
from the gray metal doors she was used to seeing at hotels - separated
the bathroom from the rest of the space, and that bathroom was enormous.
A full whirlpool bath with a dual-sink vanity and a separate little
room for the toilet and a more practical, upright shower... She hardly
knew what to do with herself! It was a room almost as big as the apartment
she shared with her mother, and it was hers for a full three weeks?
Emi smiled charmingly at the guests she passed in the main corridor
of the hotel, her identification badge bobbing around her neck as she
went. A few people - judging by their dress, they were well-to-do
vacationers to the city - glanced wearily in her direction, uncertain
what to think. The bright yellow badge never lied; the girl was a model.
Somehow, the blonde remained oblivious to the sneers even as the guards
outside the hotel's enormous ballroom double- and then triple-checked
her name on the list before letting her in.
"Left, Umi! No, your OTHER left!" Tomizawa Ai's figure loomed at
the back of the ballroom's makeshift risers as she slammed her clipboard
against a chair. Known for her ravenous, dog-eat-dog attitude and stunning
beauty, she was an imposing woman in her late twenties, standing nearly
six feet tall. Her long, dark ponytail bobbed as she glided down the
steps on the risers and towards the young woman on the runway, who had
frozen in her final pose. From her spot just inside the doorway, Emi
recognized the short, skinny redhead as Hataru Umi, one Tomizawa-sama's
favorites. That, however, did not stop the business-suited designer from
grabbing the young woman's arm and pulling her into the "right" location
on the runway. "Aino-san is going to end up RIGHT next to you on this
run, Umi, which means you have to be PERFECTLY aligned. Otherwise, the
girl will have nowhere to stand. Understand?"
Umi nodded, frowning slightly. From her spot in the back of the
room, Emi frowned, too. In all her experiences - small photo shoots for
Tomizawa-sama's line of teen clothing and the occasional swimsuit ad - she
had never worked directly with her stubborn, hot-headed boss. Sighing,
Ai turned away from the runway-bound model and allowed her brown eyes
to meet blue. "Emi-chan, there you are!" she announced, her tone nearly
scolding. "I sent Hughes-san to hunt you down at least an hour ago! Where
have you been?"
Glancing at her shoes, the girl proceeded across the ballroom,
zigzagging to avoid entanglements with half-finished decorations and
other trappings of the show. "I needed to shower and change," she
apologized, watching as Umi made a face and then stormed off. "It's
raining out, and I was soaking wet."
"Is it now?" The designer's gaze had dropped away from the
teen's face and focused on the clipboard she was armed with, her dark
eyes peering at sheets and numbers that Emi could hardly make out over
the edge of the board, let alone comprehend. "Well, it's good you're
finally here. The summit starts in two days, and you don't have half the
training Michiko does." She sighed and shook her head, dropping her arms
and allowing them to rest at her sides. "I told her three weeks ago to
get this problem taken care of, and now she's under a doctor's order to
wait until the morning sickness goes away to finally get rid of it." She
shrugged. "Come on, I'll show you the dressing rooms and introduce you
to the hairdressers." A quick once-over brought a sneer. "You'll need a
trim on that hair of yours."
The blonde nodded and followed obediently in her boss' footsteps,
her eyes darting about in a feeble attempt to take in her surroundings. "Is
Michiko-san alright?" she questioned carefully, ducking out of the way of
two blue-jumpered men carrying long blocks of plywood. "She must be awfully
ill to miss this event, and I'd hate to think that - "
"Hai, hai, she's fine." Ai gave a brief wave of her free hand,
dismissing the girl's concern as they pushed through a back door to the
ballroom and came upon a small corridor with three or four attached rooms.
"Just foolish, but she'll return to the circuit soon enough." She shouldered
through one of the doors in the small hall, revealing a simple, nearly-
empty room. Three girls, hardly older than Emi, glanced up from a glossy-
paged magazine, staring intently at the dark-haired woman. "This is dressing
room four, which you will be sharing with Sarah Morton, Josephina Martinez,
Florinda Gambino, and our own Umi-chan." Without smiling, she glanced down
at her watch. "We'll be running through the full show in street clothes
within the hour," she informed all four of the models in English, scowling
as she realized the three who had already been in the room had turned back
to their magazine. "Emi-chan, I'll send in a crew member in about 10 minutes
to double-check your measurements and get you to hairdresser." She frowned
again at the mass of blonde waves that hung limply down the teen's back.
"Ja."
The door shut heavily behind her.
As soon as Tomizawa-sama's presence disappeared from the room,
one of the three girls flipped shut the magazine and slyly produced a
packet of cigarettes from the neckline of her low-cut sweater. Brown eyes
gleamed proudly as she flicked one from the packet and passed it on. "Make
yourself comfortable," she instructed the gaping blonde in the doorway
with a toss of her head. "You look like a statue, standing there and
staring."
"Oh, Florinda, be nice." Striking a match, the second girl - an
impressively busty woman with heavily-layered blonde hair - sucked hard
on her cigarette, exhaling heavily into the air. Her English was spoken
deeply and with a hard-to-understand drawl that reminded Emi vaguely of her
favorite American movie, "Gone with the Wind." "She's replacing that diva.
What was her name again? Michelle or something?"
"Michiko." Emi ignored the way her voice trembled as she drew one
of the five chairs away from the vanity and pulled it into the center of
the room to join the others. She hesitantly accepted a cigarette from the
busty blonde. "She is very famous. You would be surprised."
The third girl, with dark skin and darker hair and eyes, snorted
quietly. "I don't think I would be surprised," she responded, tossing a
lighter. The newcomer caught it cleanly. "I'm Josephina, but you can call me
Jo if you want. I'm with the Spanish design group."
Cigarette smoke wafted into the air, and Emi found herself
struggling not to cough. And here, she had always wondered why her mother
discouraged the habit. "Emi Aino," she introduced, flicking her ashes into
a soda bottle as she watched the others doing. "From Tom - Ms. Tomizawa's
group. There are four of us in all."
"Yes, yes, we know," snorted Florinda, leaning back on her chair.
"We've all met Umi. Tell me, are all Japanese models as self-possessed
as Michiko and Umi? Because I am certainly unimpressed."
Blue eyes widened, and Emi shook her head vehemently. "Iie, not
at all!" she protested. "Umi and Michiko are the two most senior models in
Ms. Tomizawa's agency. They are as popular as...what is her name? Cindy
Crawford?"
The busty one snorted. "Cindy Crawford ain't half the model I'm
going to be!" she announced, her large chest bobbing as she sat up straight
in her chair, chin high with pride. "Someday, people'll sit on their
couches, eating their TV dinners, and - on commercials - discuss how
beautiful the great Sarah Morton is!" Her two friends chuckled, and she
scowled, slumping down in her seat. "Laugh all you want," she pouted,
helping herself to a second cigarette. "You'll see."
"The only work American models can become famous for is being on
the cover of Playboy," snickered Josephina. She ducked as the half-empty
packet of cigarettes flew towards her head, laughing aloud. "Sarah, I tease!
I want to dance the Fandango in contests and model for billboards." Her dark
eyes flitted towards Emi. "Do you have any high aspirations?"
She frowned, shrinking a bit into her seat. "Honestly, I have not
really thought about it," she admitted, the smoke curling slowly from the
tip of her cigarette. She had not yet taken a second drag. "I only started
modeling part-time to help my mother pay for the household expenses. I
never thought I'd end up out here."
"You're obviously doing something right," put in Florinda, raking
a hand through her short tresses. "I would have loved to get this far
without trying..."
"No kidding." The other two nodded sagely.
Emi opened her mouth to speak, but before any sound could escape,
a light knock thumped against the door. The girls scrambled over themselves
to extinguish their cigarettes and once again crack open the magazine,
pouring over bright pictures that the newly-arrived model recognized as
the center photography insert from the previous month's "Fashion World."
"C'mon in!" called Sarah plainly, glancing up with feigned interest as
the door cracked open.
A dirty-faced, greasy-haired boy - most likely younger than any
of the four girls in the room - grinned broadly at the models. Sarah
snarled. "What, Peter?" she demanded in a low tone. "We're BUSY."
Peter, as he had been called, continued to grin. "I'm here to get
Miss Aino," he justified, his voice twanged with an indignant annoyance. "She's
gotta get measured and then go for a haircut."
Sarah muttered something nasty under her breath.
Frowning, Emi gazed reluctantly at the trio, replacing her chair
carefully beneath the vanity counter. What in the world had Florinda
meant about not "trying"?
But the greasy boy still hovered in the doorway, and so she shrugged
and bid the others goodbye, slipping out the door and down the corridor.
===
Before she even knew what had happened, Emi found that she was
swept into the glamour and lights of the modeling circuit, and, deep down,
she realized that there would never be a real escape from it.
The few final days before the beginning of the World Modeling
Summit flew by, and the blonde teen found herself moving through life
at such a pace that made her wonder if the world around her wasn't just
one enormous blur. Practice sessions with Ai and the other models from her
agency woke her up at dawn and kept her busy until the street lamps in
front of the hotel flickered on. She was a caterpillar bursting forth
from out her cocoon, spreading her colorful wings for everyone to see.
Thanks to her boss' training and the aid of the other models at the
show, she transformed from a girl who dangled her feet from the edge of a
pool and smiled charmingly to a full-out diva. She fawned, she flaunted,
she floated, flattered, and fluttered. She dazzled, she daunted, she
delighted... She was everything that she had admired in Hiro Michiko
and still more.
But beyond the transformation in attitude came a transformation
in appearance. Her previously "girlish" blonde waves - blunt-cut and waist-
length - now bobbed just above her shoulders in curt little layers,
highlighted slightly with reddish tints that shone under the lights of
the ballroom's silver-carpeted runway. Tomizawa-sama - concerned that her
junior model still thought of herself as a girl - had sent three beauticians
to teach her the way of makeup, and now purple eye shadow highlighted large
blue eyes. Her eyebrows had been shaped, her skin treated, her legs
smoothed and waxed and smoothed again. Her legs, unfortunately, had not
been the only part of her body to fall victim to the hot wax; as she
lounged on the couch in Josephina's room and listened to one of Florinda's
long and involved Mafia tails, she still swore that her armpits (and
other, far more intimate areas) ached from that morning's "treatment."
Her one relaxation and joy, Emi found, laid in spending time with
the three girls she'd met so soon after her London debut. Umi considered
herself exclusive to spend much time around four laughing, smoking
teenagers, but Emi strived in the situation that her comrade so despised,
and her time away from the runway and Tomizawa-sama was spent instead with
the other three teens, smiling and sharing stories of life in their
separate countries. No one mentioned or worried about the summit, at least
not in a group; there were more important things to their young lives than
modeling, after all.
"So, now that I have degraded such high-class ladies with tales
of the black sheep of my family, let's chat about something
more...civilized." Florinda collapsed onto the couch beside the blonde,
lighting a cigarette and, after a few drags, offering it forth. Emi
accepted it and sucked hesitantly on it, forcing herself to bite back her
cough; despite spending so much time with the others, she still wasn't
quite used to the smell and taste of cigarette smoke. A small smirk began
to touch the Italian's olive complexion as she settled into her seat,
kicking her feet up on the coffee table. "Care to take bets on what
big British agents will be at the opening tomorrow night to sweep up all
the cute foreign girls?"
No one noticed blue eyes blinking as Sarah glanced up from her
battered romance novel, arching an eyebrow. "Really, Florinda," she
scolded with an exaggerated wag of her finger, "you should know better. The
agents usually come to the CLOSING, when the girls are so sick of their
current agents and designers that working for Hitler sounds appealing."
"Not Roger Hughes," chortled the would-be bookie, drawing three
confused glances in her direction. "From what I've heard, he always comes
to the openings and snatches up girls THEN. Young, fresh faces."
"Hughes-san?" The Japanese honorific slipped from her tongue
before she could stop it, and Emi flushed slightly, glancing at her
lap. "I mean, uhm.... Mr. Hughes came to get me at the front desk when I
first arrived here a few days ago." She looked up to find the three others
staring. "Ms. Tomizawa sent him to... Is something wrong?"
Sighing, Josephina flipped her long ponytail over her shoulder.
"Nothing, for you," she mumbled dejectedly. "You've met one of the biggest
names in the industry. He probably knows your name and everything!" She
crossed her arms over her chest. "I wish Catalina had gotten sick and I
could have come on as her replacement and met Roger Hughes!"
"Jo," protested the blonde with a wave of her hand, "it's nothing.
I'm just a silly junior model from Tokyo. After this event is over, I will
get on a plane and go back to learning in high school. I'm not very good.
Michiko and Umi and the other senior models will pat me on the back and
tell me I was helpful before taking over the runway again." She shrugged,
smiling slightly. "And I'll do like Mother says and attend nursing school."
Sarah frowned, closing her book for the first time that evening.
"Emi... Don't you want to be a model?" she questioned softly, her expression
riddled with concern for her friend. "Isn't it your dream?"
"Eeeh, I don't know if I have a real dream." All three of her
friends were staring, and somehow, that made Emi immediately self-
conscious; she toyed idly with a strand of hair that had slipped out of the
blue ribbon that held back her tresses in a ponytail. "Modeling is just
a job to help my mother pay for things. I never much expected it to go
further than it already went. Being here is like a miracle!"
The other girls fell silent for a long, long moment before anyone
dared speak. And that someone came in the form of Florinda. She raked a
hand through her short tresses, a soft smile touching her plump lips.
"Emi, you're too innocent for this line of work," she chuckled, shaking
her head. "But you will certainly make a charming nurse."
Emi later regretted asking what her friend meant.
===
Her heart trembled in her chest, beating faster than a hummingbird
flaps its wings, every beat short and surprisingly painful. She stared
at her reflection in the mirror, her blue eyes roving over every inch
of her body, tucking in a hair here and smoothing a fabric fold there; the
only acceptable standard was perfection.
The dress was elaborate, almost silly, but still beautiful, its
orange muslin fabric and decorative navy-blue ribbons clashing and matching
at the exact same time. Her hands trembled as she toyed with the end of a
ribbon, her fingers smoothing over the intentionally frayed strand. Umi's
dress would be similar, a red-on-blue ensemble that miraculously avoided
clashing with her naturally bright red hair. She would start halfway down
the runway, turn, and begin down again before the younger model was invited
to join her, three steps behind and slightly to the right. Always behind.
Always less, the junior, lagging.
"Ms. Tomizawa wants you ready to go, Emi," called a voice, and she
spun on her high-heeled foot to see Peter looming in the open doorway to
the dressing room, his greasy hair slicked back and messy jumpsuit replaced
with an equally-messy dress shirt and suit coat. Hoshi and Yumeko just
started their run."
She nodded, glancing back in the mirror. One more strand to tuck up,
one more slight smear of base to even out with a hasty forefinger. Her
heels clicked on the stone floor of the small corridor as she slipped
through the shadows and towards the stage. A black curtain, thick and
flowing, hid the backstage models and designers from the crowd of agents,
designers, and photographers attending the summit. The presence of the
crowd, however, overwhelmed. Emi heard every click of a shutter on a
camera, every whispered comment, every polite clap. Even with the upbeat
techno music that served as a background to every step, she could hear it.
The air was heavy with the presence of bodies, the heat of the onlookers.
She joined Umi reluctantly, hesitant, her palms slick with sweat.
'Count yourself lucky, Emi-chan,' Tomizawa had warned her only
moments before shooing the girl off to get dressed for her debut, her
eyes buried in her clipboard, studying something unseen. 'This summit
was created for designers and their senior staff models. You're seventeen,
still in high school, part time... You're very lucky to be here.' She
glanced up, dark gaze sharp. 'Ganbatte yo, Emi-chan. I am expecting the
best from you.'
The best. Applause boomed in her ears as Hoshi and Yumeko appeared
backstage, both beaming and shooting one another proud looks. The stage
manager gave Umi a nod and, before Emi could even draw in a nervous,
shaking breath, her head of red hair disappeared out of sight. Applause
boomed, shutters snapped, and her stomach knotted. The steps counted
out in her mind, perfectly timed... Seven, eight... Turn for three...
Four towards the stage...
Her feet moved without thought. The runway carpet cushioned every
familiar, trained step of her high-heeled shoes as she appeared in public
view for the first time. Four days of drilling, practicing, perfection...
Every word from Ai's mouth echoed in her head, every step fell just as
it should, everything was perfect.
Blue eyes recognized, yes, that there were people cluttering the
risers and stuffing the ballroom, but then recognized the fact with a
calm demeanor, every sweeping glance of the crowd as fluid as her
long, brisk strides down the runway. Her ears registered the noise of
the techno track, the applause, the camera's shutters, the mutters of
the agents sitting nearest the stage, but her mind refused to process
them. She was focused, poised, ready for anything.
Anyone besides the single-minded model would have noticed a man
in the front row, furiously scribbling notes on a clipboard as Emi arrived
at the end of the runway. They would have noticed his slightly-graying
brown hair and goatee, his chic, dark-rimmed glasses and fitted gray
suit. They would have noticed the careful once-over his navy blue eyes
gave her, and the tender smile that touched his lips as she started down
the runway towards the stage.
But Emi Aino didn't see him, and it didn't matter. Because, while
she didn't see him scribbling and studying her, he didn't see HER go
running into her dressing room and, once she arrived, screaming at the
top of her lungs three fateful words:
"I DID IT!"
===
The backstage and corridor was a hub of bustling activity by time
that evening's show was ever, and Emi found herself trying to shoulder
through designers, models, and members of the media in a feeble attempt
to go to her room and to bed. No one noticed a five-foot-six blonde teen
with a ponytail, however, and none of the exclamations of "Fabulous!"
were aimed in her direction. She sighed as she finally squeezed through the
sardine-packed hall and turned to stare back at the crowd, a lone figure
standing on the steps up to the stage.
She shrugged. "I'm a junior model," she reminded herself sternly,
straightening her shirt before hopping down the stairs the rest of the way.
"I'm going back to Japan without anyone knowing my name. That's the way its
SUPPOSED to be."
The lobby of the Ritz stood ominously empty, the fountain's
whisper soothing to her tired ears. She wandered slowly through the plush
area, running her fingers on leather couches and dark, rich wooden tables,
toying with a leaf here or a flower there. Finally, she came to the
fountain itself, a small, round spraying of cool water that tickled
her hand as she reached out to touch it. She smiled.
"Miss Aino." The accent was heavy and, from what she knew of
accents, typical of a London-dweller, and she turned around to see a man
in a chic gray suit standing behind her, smiling. She, however, frowned,
arching an eyebrow. "You must not remember me. Roger Hughes desu." His
eyes twinkled as he switched to her native tongue, warm and proud, as though
they were sharing a special secret.
"Ah! Gomen nasai!" She bowed quickly, realizing only after that
she'd fallen into the old familiar pleasantries of her native land. She
flushed. "I mean, ano... It is nice to see you again." Her mouth stumbled
over the words but managed to pronounce them clearly; even after four days
in the country, she was learning. "Did you enjoy the show this evening?"
"Very much, thank you," he nodded. Emi nodded as well and turned
back away, her fingers flitting over and through the fountain water. "Do
you like it?"
She blinked, glancing up at him. "Like what?" Roger smirked and
gestured towards the fountain, and she felt her cheeks warm again as she
nodded her assertion. "It's very pretty."
Before she could say anything else on the matter, however, her
companion was digging through his pockets, smiling slightly. The tell-tale
jingle of keys and change sounded as he finally removed his hands and
produced a small copper coin. "It's called a penny," he explained, offering
it to her. "There is an old legend that states that throwing a coin into
a fountain and wishing on it will make that wish come true." She glanced
away from him and down, noticing for the first time that the mosaic-tiled floor
of the fountain glimmered from a handful of coins resting there. "Why don't
you try it, hmm?"
Smiling slightly, she accepted the coin, her blue eyes studying his
face. A kind expression shone down at her. It was almost as foreign to her
as his clumsy Japanese was to him; Tomizawa-sama and the other models from
her group always scowled and scolded, never beaming in the sweet way that
Roger managed to. The coin flashed in the lobby lights as she stared
down at it. What could she wish for?
Her friends' words echoed half-heartedly in the back of her mind,
cluttering her thoughts. 'Emi... Don't you want to be a model? Isn't it
your dream?'
"Well, I need to be going," Roger addressed her, stumbling briefly
over the Japanese words. A hand clapped her shoulder, friendly to the
point of being almost fatherly. "I'll see you in Ms. Tomizawa's other
showings, I'm most certain. So long!"
She watched him leave, trotting down the hallway with his clipboard
still in hand. Roger Hughes. One of the most well-known names in the
industry, and - if she was to believe the rumors - extremely exclusive.
'He probably knows your name and everything!' Jo had exclaimed the night
before, thick ponytail bobbing. But she was a junior model... A future
nursing student... Not...
The coin sparkled in the palm of her hand.
'Isn't it your dream?'
Emi wondered if she even had a dream as she pocketed the coin and
started back towards her room, the fountain whispering behind her, the
sound comforting even as it faded out of range.
===
"Okaa-san, please!" Emi fell back on her bed, laughing, as her
mother continued to bemoan the amount of housework that she was stuck
doing on her own. The familiar voice in her ear was broken occasionally
by static, but otherwise, she counted the sound as a small blessing,
something familiar in a foreign world.
Five days had passed since the beginning of the summit, and there
had been no word from any of the local agencies about contract bids. The
agents present at the summit - Tomizawa Ai had estimated that there were
a total of fifteen independent agents coming nightly, with another thirty
or thirty-five who had come once or twice - appeared wholly uninterested in
the models that walked the runway every night, and, despite high reviews
in the newspapers, the World Design Summit seemed to only hold value for
the designers, rather than their models. Emi chewed thoughtfully on a
carrot stick as her mother rambled on in her ear. Just as she told the
others time and again, she was simply a junior model, a Japanese high
school student who would have three weeks in the sun before being forgotten.
She settled into her pillows with a sigh. Perhaps her low hopes had still
be too high, after all.
"So, Emi-ko, tell me," her mother pressed, the tone that signified
an oncoming prying session suddenly pervading her tone, "are all those
agents out there falling over you, yet?"
Sighing, Emi rolled her eyes up at the canopy that stretched above
her. "Okaa-san..." she sighed, tucking her free hand behind her head. "You
know that I'm only here as Michiko's replacement. In a few weeks, I'll
be home and life will be the same as always. There are no agents interested
in a seventeen-year-old Japanese girl."
"Nonsense!" protested Natsumi so loudly that her daughter had to
pull the receiver away from her ear to prevent permanent hearing loss.
"You are beginning your first steps towards the life of a model! I believe
firmly in you reaching out and becoming a real model. The next Hiro Michiko!"
In her hotel room bed, half a world away, the blonde teen curled
up in a ball, picking the lint from her pajama pants as she allowed her
mother's excitement to die down. "Please, Mama," she insisted, dropping the
more mature, honorific name for her mother. "I'm just a girl. I'm still
in high school, and I'm certainly the farthest thing from Michiko that
the world has to offer." She rolled onto her back again, sighing heavily.
"Truth is, all the girls here... For them, this is their dream. For me,
it's just a part-time job."
Her mother started to say something, but as she did, a knock at
the door cut her off. "Hang on, okaa-san," Emi interjected, relieved that
she could break away from the inevitable rant about believing in herself.
"There's someone at the door."
Not three seconds after she said this, phone sitting on the
comforter and her feet dangling over the edge of the bed in preparation to
slide on her slippers and answer the door that the door flew open and
Umi, clad in a pair of running shorts and a t-shirt, entered, her bright
eyes lowered dangerously. "Tomizawa-sama asked me to give you a message,"
she shot, "and - since I'm on the way down to the gym - I really don't
have time to wait for you and give it to you at your leisure." She flipped
her ponytail smugly. "Tomizawa-sama wants to see you in her room tomorrow
morning BEFORE we run rehearsal. Understand?"
"Hai, Umi," she sighed. The redhead's dark eyes flashed, and she
flinched. "Umi-san," she corrected herself quickly, not surprised when
the older female stormed out of the door, slamming it hard behind her.
Emi grimaced as she picked up the phone, apologizing to her mother and
completely unsurprised when the immediate question greeted her:
"Who was that?"
"Oh, just Umi," she replied causally, twirling the phone cord
between her fingers distractedly. "Ms. Tomizawa wants to see me in the
morning, and I guess that Umi was sent as the messenger."
Her mother chuckled, her laugh sweet and clear across the telephone
lines. "Whatever happened to 'Umi-san' and 'Tomizawa-sensei'?" she asked
teasingly, causing Emi to redden slightly. "You are certainly becoming
very English, even if you are still speaking Japanese."
"Well, the other girls all speak very good English," she explained,
pursing her lips together, "and they don't know or understand why we use
the titles the way we do. Besides, isn't there a popular saying that
states, 'When in Rome, do not go against the wishes of the Romans'?"
"If there is, I have never heard it," her mother replied, her tone
riddled with confusion. "And I'm only teasing, Emi-ko. I think it's good
that you're trying to act like the other girls." She paused for a moment,
a heavy but companionable silence overtaking the airwaves.
Staring into the half-open bathroom, the blonde girl leaned back
on her elbows. What in the world could Tomizawa-sama want with her,
especially before rehearsal in the morning?
Not that the question she was busily asking herself mattered too
much, because it was then that her mother started talking once again,
chattering pleasantly about the happenings at her office and leaving
Emi no choice but to ball up on the comforter and listen to the soothing
tones of her mother's voice until late into the night.
===
The next morning came only after a night of fretful, broken sleep,
and every time Emi woke up the only thing she could think of was her mother's
familiar voice and heartfelt good wishes. She missed the old trappings of
home - the bed, the wood floors, the homemade, authentic Japanese dishes -
but, at the same time, she reveled in the feel of the strange, soft
sheets against her legs, the canopy above her head, and the soft sunlight
that glimmered through the half-translucent draperies and into her hotel
room. She dragged herself out of bed, going through the motions as she
did every morning - shower, dry hair, do makeup, get dressed, have a cup of
coffee with a quick cigarette (a tried-and-true wake-up method that Sarah
had taught her) - before locking up, slipping on her World Design Summit
identification badge, and riding up the elevator to Tomizawa-sama's eighth
floor room. Here, the hallway was a bit more narrow but the doors spread
further apart, signifying that there were fewer, larger rooms. She wandered
amongst the rows of closed doors for several minutes before she was able
to find her employer's, her heart fluttering in her stomach. Why in the world
was she so nervous, anyway?
"Hai!" called Tomizawa Ai's strong voice, and, despite the gnawing
feeling in her gut, the blonde girl opened the door to her boss' hotel
room.
Her jaw nearly dropped.
The front room held no bed at all; rather, it was home to a desk,
couch, mirrored dresser, television chest, and a truly enormous marble
fireplace. Everything in the room declared boldly that this room belonged
to someone important - from the rich golds, blues, and pinks of the
fabric decorating the draperies and couches to the subtle, pale-yellow
color of the wallpaper, the room was truly exquisite. A half-opened door
at the other end of the sitting room revealed the bedroom of the suite,
and - despite the fact that Emi could only see the end of the bed and
what appeared to be another enormous marble fireplace - the bedroom
obviously challenged its sitting-room partner in elegance and taste.
Waving a hand at the girl, Ai - seated on the couch in a robe
with a 'Ritz Hotel' emblem embroidered on the front and curlers still in
her long hair - shouldered the phone as she dashed something down on a
piece of paper. "That is entirely too much money," she argued in crisp,
clear English, her dark eyes meeting her employee's before rolling
back, as if to say, 'I have had well enough of this call.' "No. That is
my final answer. Yes, you do that. Goodbye."
She set the phone back into the cradle gracefully, all signs of
exasperation draining from her smooth, tan complexion as she leaned back
into the couch. She sighed heavily. "Gomen nasai, Emi-chan," she apologized,
her native language rolling off her lips as easily as the English did. "I
didn't realize that American ad companies were such money-grubbers. Next
time, I look elsewhere."
"H-hai," the girl stammered, crossing and uncrossing her legs at
the ankles as she watched her employer take a long swig of coffee from a
Ritz Hotel coffee mug. The entire situation smacked of a strange dream or
a scene from a television movie; the tale of the junior model who, barely
recognizing her boss' face, ended up sitting in an armchair in her
enormous hotel suite, listening to her prattle on about American
business or something else of the sort. "Ano... Umi-san said you wanted
to talk to me about something?"
Nodding, Ai leaned forward and, from a stack of papers on the coffee
table, withdrew a stapled stack of pages. She handed them to the blonde
girl. "Now, I know that you're still working with your English," she
explained, leaning back into the couch cushions as she spoke, "so I'm going
to explain this to you before you get called by some bumbling secretary
who doesn't realize 'Aino Emi' is a Japanese name. Do you know what that
sheet of paper is, Emi-chan?"
For a moment, Emi considered lying and claiming that she knew,
uncertain of whether or not her ignorance would be looked down upon. But
the designer's dark eyes focused sharply on her, so she shook her head
of wavy hair. "No."
"I didn't think you did." The coffee cup thumped dully on the
marble-topped coffee table as she set it down. "This is what we in the
modeling world call a contract bid, Emi. When an agent is interested in a
model, he or she will place a bid on the model. The model's current agent
can, then, offer that model more money to keep them there. Otherwise, that
model is free to accept the bid if they so choose. Do you understand?"
The teen nodded dully, staring, uncomprehending, at the strange
English characters on the page.
"Normally, agents will wait until the end of events like this one
to put in a bid, but not this time." She sighed, chuckling slightly. "I have
to admit, for all the rumors that he does not hold up to, Roger Hughes
really is about as straight-forward and go-getting as an agent can get. I
respect that about him. I respect a great deal about him, actually. Which
is why I didn't respond to this bid as badly as many of the other agents
and designers would have."
Blue eyes blinked. "Nani?" questioned Emi after a long moment's
pause, her eyebrows pulling close together as she creased her brow in
thought. "What do you mean?"
Ai smiled softly. "Emi-chan, I am not planning on taking in any
more senior models any time soon," she continued on, almost as if the
girl had never asked the question. "And, even if I did, I don't think
you would be the one I would choose. You are good, but you're still...raw.
Untrained. A few years ago, I took a girl like you under my wing. And yes,
she became wonderful, but with the amount of design I do now, I no longer
have the time and energy to devote to teaching a new model."
The blonde nodded weakly, setting the contract bid down on the table.
"I understand completely," she admitted, straightening her spine as she
shifted her weight in the armchair. Her heart ached and her hands trembled
in her lap, but she could not place why. "I am, after all, just a high school
girl. I model to help my mother pay for my expensive schooling. I - "
"You'd like to think that, Emi, but that's just not true." Ai's
voice was compassionate, touched with affection that could almost be
counted as motherly as she leaned forward, her elbows on her knees. The
air in the room suddenly jumped from business-like to companionable, and
Emi found herself unable to hide her surprise. "You are far more graceful
and poised than Michiko was when I took her under my wing, five years ago,
and started training her as a senior model. You have everything that it
takes, but I do not have the capability of cultivating that in you. That is
why I called you here." Once again, she reached for the stapled papers,
handing them to her model. "This is a contract bid for you, Emi-chan.
From Roger Hughes' agency. It's a relatively large agency, with much
room for growth and improvement, and you can receive the attention you
deserve, there." She sat back up on the couch, her arms stretched wide
along the back of it. "You can be Michiko, Emi. You can be BIGGER than
Michiko. It just depends on if you want to or not." Her long fingernails
drummed into the upholstery in what the wide-eyed teen assumed to be an
offhanded impatience, her dark eyes fixated on a pale, confusion-torn face.
"So, Emi-chan, what is it you want?"
Her mouth opened and then shut again, pink lips forming neither a
smile nor a frown but rather a thin, tight line cutting across her soft
cheeks. Silence swept across the room as she stared at her hands, neatly
folded in her lap, and considered the designer's words. Bigger than Hiro
Michiko? Was that even possible? And if it was, could she really carry such
a bright torch?
"I - I really don't know, Tomizawa-sama," she answered after a long
moment, her baby blue eyes meeting dark brown in a powerful gaze. Somehow,
the compassion in her boss' expression surprised her, and she had to smile
politely to avoid looking altogether shocked. "Can I... Can I think about
this for a bit? Please?"
Ai waved a hand casually. "I'm not the one you have to answer to,"
she replied with a half-shrug, once again opting for her coffee as she
spoke. "If I know Hughes-san - and I do - he'll be contacting you soon
enough. You'll have to take that up with him."
She nodded and bowed, walking herself to the door and letting herself
out before she even realized that she'd failed to say goodbye. Once the door
closed softly behind her and she was left to the empty, quiet corridor, she
sighed, leaning against the wall.
Maybe Tomizawa-sama was wrong. Yes, yes, that was it. Tomizawa-sama
had heard the wrong name, read the wrong contract, or...
...or it really was her contract.
Her eyes lulled shut.
It couldn't it?
===
The multicolored lights flickered and shifted from side to side,
a rainbow spectrum against black-painted cinderblock walls and a sea of
pale European bodies as she struggled through the crowd, the deep bass line
of a popular techno track rattling her teeth in the back of her mouth. A
drunken young man grabbed her posterior hard, the square fingers biting
through her short nylon skirt and into her skin. She ignored it, elbowing
aside a couple who were too busy dirty dancing to notice her and, with a
groan of effort, freed herself from the tangle of people on the dance floor,
followed closely by her three friends. They exchanged glances of exasperation
before sighing in unison and throwing up their hands.
Emi collapsed onto one of the several empty stools that lined the
long, black-painted bar that stretched along one of the walls and,
unhesitatingly, flagged the black-garbed bartender and ordered a club soda.
Behind her, the throng of dancers, all visitors to London's premiere
nightclub, pulsed to the beat, bumping and grinding as the techno track
wore on. "Some reward for the end of our second week," she mumbled to
herself as she flicked a cigarette out of the half-empty pack she kept
tucked in the top of her knee-high boots and lighting it hastily. "I have
a splitting headache..."
"What was that?" She blinked and gave a start as Sarah leaned
forward and snatched the pack of cigarettes from her grip. Her large
breasts nearly bounced right out of her low-cut green-sequined tank, and she
tugged idly at the neckline as she, too, struck a match. "Somethin' wrong?"
"Nothing..." The younger blonde shrugged and glanced away, barely
noticing as the bartender set her glass down in front of her. Her fingers
squeezed the bridge of her nose softly, her eyes watering from the throbbing
pain in her head. "I just have a headache."
Florinda chuckled, leaning an elbow on the bar. Her short hair
sparkled in the ever-moving spectrum of colored light as she rested her
chin in her hand. "I'm not surprised," she retorted, her red-painted lips
curving into an almost vicious smile. "You've been working three times harder
than any of us. You'd think that Tomizawa was trying to drive you into the
ground like a stake or something!"
Laughing, Emi shook her head and took a long drag of her cigarette.
As much as the teasing could be counted only as meaningless chatter, the
Italian did have a point. Since calling her up to the eighth floor to
discuss the supposed contract bid from Roger Hughes, Ai had spent countless
hours with all four of her models, running their order and steps again and
again until every step was perfectly measured out and every turn a brief
but amazing bolt of inspired motion. "Eh, she just wants us to look good
for the next few nights," she shrugged, stirring her drink idly with the
cherry-topped toothpick that had been dropped into it. "A lot of the
Western designers are really starting to pay attention to her, so she wants
Umi, Yumeko, Hoshi and I to be absolutely flawless."
"Well, from what I've heard here and there, you are already pretty
flawless." Jo's dark eyes flashed as she innocently drummed her deep blue
fingernails on the bar top. "The other girls in my troupe are all abuzz
with the news that a Miss Emi Aino is on Roger Hughes' bid list."
"What?!" Sarah's chest heaved another time as she nearly tumbled
off her stool. A long stream of smoke snorted out her nose as she hacked
and struggled to breathe. "Emi, are you kidding me? Why didn't you tell us?!"
The Japanese girl felt her cheeks redden and her eyes drop to focus
on the ever-bubbling liquid in her smudged, chipped bar glass. "I think it's
probably just a rumor," she responded half-heartedly. Her blonde waves
bobbed as flipped them and the many orange ribbons she had tied into them
over her shoulder. "And besides, I think I'm going to turn down an offer
if I do get it. I'm not even done with high school, you know, and to be
a full-time model all the way here, in England... That's an undertaking
that I don't know if I'm ready for."
Out of the corner of her eye, she could see both Jo and Sarah nodding
thoughtfully, but it was the ever-passionate Florinda who responded with
the most fury, slamming her fist onto the bar and rattling their glasses.
"Emi!" she scolded, her tone high and stressed. "What are you thinking?"
The busty American bit her lip. "Florinda..." she warned, coolly.
"You might get a chance to live a DREAM, and you say no?" Brown
eyes rolled as she crossed her arms over her purple peasant-style blouse.
"This is something all of us have wanted since we were little girls, Emi.
A dream that we've grown up with. A dream to be graceful and famous...and
beautiful. And you're going to throw it away because you're not quite
sure? You're going to give that up? Why did you come, then, if you're not
going to take the one opportunity you're given?"
Emi attempted to protest, but her friend waved the comment away,
disappearing into the crowd before the clumsy English words sprang to her
befuddled mind. Her shoulders slumped as she watched Florinda's sleek
body fade into the sea of strangers, another tan-tinted fleck against the
flickering lights.
"Florinda means well," sighed Sarah, her hand landing, reassuringly,
on the smaller girl's shoulder. She smiled softly as blue eyes peered up
at her, tears shining in the ever-moving lights of the dance floor. "She's
fought a long battle to get here, and so it's hard for her. But Emi, you
can't always fall back on the fact that you're still in high school, and
an 'average girl.'" The hand on her shoulder contracted, tightening in a
friendly squeeze. "If you want it, Emi, then do it. It's your life, and
it's your dream. Or maybe it's not your dream. That's not for me to say. But
if it IS your dream, and what you want to do, then no one can take that
away from you." She leaned over and rested her head lightly against her
friend's head. "And if you do want it, then live it."
The Japanese girl nodded slightly, and tried hard to smile. But
somehow, with the throbbing in her head and the throbbing of the music
around her, the only reaction she could produce was a weak, hopeless sigh.
===
"Mr. Hughes will see you in a few moments." The secretary was a
small, dark-haired woman with a large nose and thick glasses that magnified
her equally dark eyes to twice their normal sizes. Still, despite all this,
her voice sang, sweet and soothing, and her small hands gestured towards
the few waiting-room style couches with the same grace as a princess would
demonstrate while gesturing to her visitors. "Feel free to make yourself
at home. There's coffee in the back room, if you're interested."
"Thank you." Aino Emi struggled to resist her customary urge to bow
her thanks towards the strange secretary and turned slowly, marveling in her
surroundings. Somehow, coming home to a telephone message requesting her
presence at a meeting with Roger Hughes had been expected, unimpressive.
But his offices, with their magnificent, wine-colored carpets and large,
black-and-white photos of models striking poses, were an entirely different
story.
Not that it mattered. The blonde selected, carefully, a small
white armchair nestled in a corner, beside a small coffee table and a large
floor lamp. She glanced dully at the magazines that cluttered the table -
Cosmopolitan, Redbook, People, and Seventeen - and selected the final title
with an ironic smirk. The bright pink cover contrasted greatly with the
navy blue business suit that Sarah had practically thrown in her direction
the night before, and, as she paged through it with a nominal amount of
interest, she wondered exactly what the point of all the pomp and
circumstance was. She'd decided, after all, that the answer would be "no."
She hadn't told Sarah, of course, not even as the taller, bustier
blonde had dragged her across the Ritz that morning, introducing her to
various models - American, Polish, Russian, German, Argentinean, Chinese -
and then proceeded to dig through their wardrobes. There was no reason to
pop the American's fantasies, and so she went through the routine of
feigning genuine excitement, raising her arms and faux-modeling skirts
and blouses until one of Sarah's own outfits had been deemed worthy of
being "the ensemble that the great Emi Aino wore the day she became a
real, full-time model."
The English words on the glossy magazine pages swam about in her
head, mixing with the familiar Japanese words that had clogged her every
thought since she'd heard the secretary's sing-song voice the night before.
Modeling. Dreams. Hopes. Fears. Okaa-san. Seventeen. Fame. Fortune. High
school. Nursing school. Roger Hughes. Life. Living. Frustrated, she tossed
the magazine back down on the tabletop. The answer was no. No. N -
"Aino-san?"
A low, gentle voice speaking her native tongue caused her to
start, and she whipped her head around to see Roger Hughes himself standing
beside her, one hand resting on the back of her armchair. His well-tailored
suit - navy blue, reflected Emi with a slight blush - complemented his
adult-but-not-old form as he leaned forward to shake her hand. "I'm sorry
about that. I had to take a personal call."
She nodded slightly, following him towards his half-closed office
door so closely that she feared she would inadvertently step on the back
of his shoes. "And, by the way, I like your suit," he smirked, glancing back
at her just long enough to wink a blue eye. She flushed, muttering something
about borrowing it from a friend, certain that he didn't hear.
Roger Hughes' personal office was actually quite bare when compared
to his posh waiting room. Decorated with only a few small photographs of
young women dressed in casual clothes and casual poses, it felt more like
a personal den in a home than a business office, with simple furniture,
a few sparse bookshelves, and two small armchairs. Emi attempted to settle
into one of the chairs but found her ease only tentative, her spine
straightening stiffly. The blond man, on the contrary, sat down on the
front edge of the desk, his arms crossed over his broad chest as he
glanced down at her - pale-faced, straight-backed, and staring.
"You're terrified, aren't you?" The question, spoken in English
and asked quite plainly, caught her off guard, and she blinked. Roger
chuckled slightly, shaking his head. "I have to compliment you, Emi. The
entire time you've been here in London, you have handled yourself very
well. I've been at all the nightly shows, and every night, you walk up and
down that runway without even an inkling of fear. It makes me wonder if you
even know what stage fright is."
He crossed his legs at the ankles, an almost painfully casual foil
to her proper posture and folded hands. "But I see it now," he continued,
nodding in her direction. "The straight back, the pale face, the darting
gaze. You're really scared. And I respect that more, I think, than any amount
of bravado."
The gentle spell that was his friendly tone shattered as he reached
behind him into a stack of papers and drew out a thick, stapled packet,
offering it forward. She accepted it gently, flinching as her eyes fell on
the words at the top of the page; they were exactly the same as the ones on
the page that Tomizawa-sama had handed her, four days earlier. "I have
Ms. Tomizawa a copy of this so she could review it with you," he explained,
helping himself to a second packet of the same sheets. "I don't think I need
to repeat that this is a contract bid, so I won't. I just want to explain
why."
"Why?" she echoed, her voice shockingly loud in the bare office.
"But... Why would you want to explain yourself?"
"Everyone deserves an explanation," he smiled in response,
shrugging. "I wouldn't sign a contract if I didn't know why someone wanted
me to, and I'm giving you the same courtesy I would expect. I'm a bit old-
fashioned in that respect, you could say." His large fingers flipped idly
through his copy of the contract as he spoke, but his dark eyes never left
her face, not even as she glanced away and shifted her attention onto the
floor. "The truth is, Aino-san, that I want younger, fresher models here at
my agency. It's all well and good to have old pros, people like
Tomizawa-sama's famous Michiko, but it's time that the industry integrated
some new faces into the mix." He tossed the papers onto the top of the
stack behind him. "You're good. I don't know if you realize it or not, but
you have everything I've been looking for in a new model. And I know asking
you to leave Japan and your old job is a big request, but I really want to
see you go further than being a junior model for a designer who doubles as
an agent." She flinched slightly, but Roger didn't seem to notice. "I want
to see you be the next Michiko."
Emi's heart shuddered in her chest as, slowly, she raised her head,
her vision shifting from her high-heeled shoes and climbing up, up Roger's
long legs and flat chest until she came to meet his face. The fatherly
smile she had first more than two weeks earlier, when he'd rushed down
the hallway, calling out her name. Even through his glasses, his eyes were
bright, supportive, and somehow, she knew that - whatever she chose - he
would understand and be supportive. Whatever she chose, he would accept as
the final word and send her on her path.
Her path. The path that had lead her to the Ritz hotel, to London,
away from her home...
'You can be Michiko, Emi. You can be BIGGER than Michiko.'
Aino Emi. Seventeen years old. A third-year high school student. High
aspirations to attend nursing school as her mother had. A junior model
for Tomizawa Ai's design agency. Slated to, someday in the future, marry a
salary man and pop out a few children.
'A dream to be graceful and famous...and beautiful. And you're going
to throw it away because you're not quite sure? You're going to give that
up? Why did you come, then, if you're not going to take the one opportunity
you're given?'
A girl without a dream. She dropped her eyes, staring at the words
and phrases in front of her on the contract, words and phrases in a foreign
language that she could hardly speak, let alone read. Words and phrases
that meant so very little, and yet still meant so much.
'It's your life, and it's your dream. Or maybe it's not your dream.
That's not for me to say. But if it IS your dream, and what you want to do,
then no one can take that away from you.'
Sarah's dream. Florinda's dream. Jo's dream. Everyone's dreams.
'And if you do want it, then live it.'
Aino Emi's head popped up and blue eyes shone as she smiled, the same
brilliant smile that had overtaken her face weeks ago when she'd first
arrived in the strange and wonderful city of London, England.
"As they say in our industry," she replied cheerily, the English
words rolling off her tongue slowly, but accurately, "where do I sign?"
DISCLAIMER: Sailor Moon and all trappings thereof belong to Naoko
Takeuchi. This particular storyline belongs to Kate Butler, (c) 2003-2004.
There's only the sound of the rain.
All the hope and glory,
All the sacrifice in vain.
If love remains
Though everything is lost,
We will pay the price,
But we will not count the cost."
- Paradigm Blue, "Bravado"
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Unbreakable
A Sailor Moon Fanfiction
Written by Kate "SuperKate" Butler
Chapter One: "Bravado"
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Despite the fact that it was raining, a dull, hazy drizzle spitting
down out of dark, looming, heavy clouds, Aino Emi found herself smiling.
She had smiled almost all of the day, actually. Since awaking
to the crackling sound of the captain's announcement that they were
cruising somewhere over Poland, she had been unable to contain her
child-like mirth. Even as they hit a patch of terrible turbulence and
the stewardesses all bustled about nervously, she grinned into the seat
in front of her, her tray table supporting her drumming, impatient fingers.
The baggage claim personnel had frowned at her heavily accented, broken
English as she waved after them and called "Have a good day!", and her
taxi driver asked her to repeat their destination at leave four times
before understanding what she meant, but still, her legs bounced in
uncontrollable excitement. And, even after her pockets were significantly
lightened by the exorbitant cab fee and she was standing, in the rain,
beneath the wide-mouthed, towering titan that was London's famous Ritz
hotel, her face warmed with the light of a smile. She was just that happy.
As she grasped the handle to her suitcase with a firm grip and
began to pull it along the sodden green outdoor rug and into the hotel
lobby, she realized that she should be at least a bit intimidated. The back
of her mind implored her to be nervous rather than excited, but she was
unable to heed the warning.
Emi was, after all, no stranger to intimidation. Her recently-
widowed school-teaching mother, Aino Natsumi, had sternly reminded her of
this fact two evenings before as, together, they packed for the girl's
three-week modeling stint in London, England.
'And to think, that nasty Michiko was the one saying that you would
never be half the model SHE is!' her mother chortled, folding her
daughter's t-shirts with a tender, motherly care. The phone call that
afternoon had brought wonderful news the one of the more senior models
had fallen ill and needed a replacement sent to London to walk in her
place. 'Kami-sama strike me down for ever speaking ill of another,
especially an ailing young woman such as Michiko-chan, but you very nearly
quit last year because of all the trouble she made for you, and now look!
You're her replacement for the World Design Summit, and only at 17!' She
dropped the laundry to grab her only child into a brief, tight hug. 'You
make your old okaa-san so proud, Emi!'
Sighing, the young blonde girl took all the talk of pride and the
possessive cuddling patiently and with a grain of salt, focusing more
attentively on gathering up her belongings than on her mother's endless
ramblings. As rude and self-possessed as Hiro Michiko could be, she would
never wish ill upon her, especially in the light of what had really
happened. Her boss, the up-and-coming Tomizawa Ai, had told her a morsel
of the story that she'd left out when relating the affair to her mother,
and that was that Michiko, the popular idol-model, had not fallen ill at
all but rather fallen pregnant. It appeared, at least to Tomizawa-sama,
that the rumors were all true and Michiko had gotten into a torrid love
affair with a man old enough to be her father. And now, with morning sickness
raging and leaving her pale and over-tired, the senior model was out of the
competition.
Emi shuddered in anticipation as the gold-rimmed glass doors
of the hotel slid shut behind her, closing her into the spacious posh
lobby. Deep, rich colors - mostly dark crimsons and tawny browns -
reflected on gleaming floor tiles, and soft strains of piano music touched
her ears before fading off, replaced by the quiet whisper of a fountain.
Green plants fought for prominence in planters surrounding the fountain and
also surrounding the sitting area. The wheels of her suitcase clicked
along the tiles as she neared the polished, red-brown countertop. A
young man in a suit glanced questioningly at her as she approached, and
she swallowed hard.
Perhaps she was intimidated, after all.
"May I help you?" questioned the man coolly, his accent unfamiliar
and almost hard-to-understand in the ears of the Japanese girl. "Or are
you, perhaps, lost?"
Her cheeks burned as he said this, and suddenly, she was cognizant
of her surroundings. Her blonde waves were heavy with rainwater, straggly
and unkempt, and her chic navy raincoat hung open and untied, revealing
her sloppy travel clothes of a sweater and blue jeans. Her grip on her
suitcase tightened. "A-actually, I am here for the... Ara, the modeling
summit..." The words were clumsy on her tongue, and the young man's dubious
glance and cock of his eyebrow just further proved this as fact. "My name
is Ai - Emi Aino. I am replacing Michiko. Uh..."
Smiling indulgently, the young man leaned forward on his
elbows. "I realize that you probably do want to be a model, miss," he
replied, his tone one of a father speaking to his child. Emi scowled,
wrinkling her petite nose. "But the design summit is a very serious event,
and I'm afraid we can't just let little girls in. In fact - "
"Terrence, thank goodness you found her!" Both the teen and the
young man glanced up to see someone jogging down the hallway and in the
direction of the lobby, waving frantically. He was an older man, perhaps
in his mid- to late-thirties, and his chic business suit and clip-on
name badge registered him as someone at least mildly important. "Ms.
Tomizawa just realized about three minutes ago that Miss Aino would be
arriving, and she's all tied up dealing with stage preparations." He
was panting lightly by the time he reached the countertop, but that didn't
stop him from offering a hand towards the girl. "Watashi no namae wa
Roger Hughes desu," he introduced with a charming smile, his attempt at her
familiar language heavy with his Anglicized mispronunciation. "Welcome to
London."
Emi stared blankly at his hand, taking it with some hesitation.
"A-aino Emi desu," she responded softly, giving it a careful shake. "I am
replacing Hiro Michiko in T - in Ms. Tomizawa's portion of the
presentation." His navy blue eyes met hers without hesitation, and she
couldn't help but smile back up at him as he squeezed her hand and then
released it. With his neatly-trimmed, slightly-graying goatee, light laugh
lines, and wide-mouthed grin, he reminded her of the father in an anime
series she had once watched. "Thank you for coming to get me. I was
afraid that I would be turned away."
He chuckled, quickly switching from Japanese to English. "Terrence
is trained to get rid of the troublemaking interlopers that try to poke
around and get autographs of their favorite models," he teased, winking at
the now-blushing young man behind the counter. "Don't take it personally."
Before the blonde teen could protest, he reached down and helped himself to
the handle of her bag, which had been ignored since their handshake. "Now,
allow me to show you to your room. You can get washed up and then come down
and talk to Ms. Tomizawa." She froze, staring at him as he started off
towards the elevators with her suitcase, causing Roger to stop and, after a
long moment, turn around and glance back at her. "Emi-san? Are you coming?"
Smiling, she nodded and trotted up next to him, following him down
the wide, crimson-carpeted hallway towards the elevators, all intimidation
washed away and replaced, once again, by eagerness and joy.
===
Washing up proved harder than expected, and by time Emi had
showered, dried her wavy mass of blonde tresses, and changed into something
a bit more presentable to meet with Tomizawa-sama, an hour and a half had
passed. The girl blamed it on the enormous hotel room she had been
assigned. It was obvious that they had simply assigned her to the room
originally reserved for Michiko, rather than reworking the room setup to
couple her - the most junior model on the trip - with a more appropriate
room. An enormous king-size bed stretched out against the far wall, its
high pine bedposts stretching almost all the way to the ceiling before
being topped with a white canopy. A small sitting area, complete with
ornate, Victorian-era furniture, overtook one corner of the remaining area,
and a bureau filled with snacks and a miniature refrigerator overtook
another corner. A wooden door with a gold handle - completely different
from the gray metal doors she was used to seeing at hotels - separated
the bathroom from the rest of the space, and that bathroom was enormous.
A full whirlpool bath with a dual-sink vanity and a separate little
room for the toilet and a more practical, upright shower... She hardly
knew what to do with herself! It was a room almost as big as the apartment
she shared with her mother, and it was hers for a full three weeks?
Emi smiled charmingly at the guests she passed in the main corridor
of the hotel, her identification badge bobbing around her neck as she
went. A few people - judging by their dress, they were well-to-do
vacationers to the city - glanced wearily in her direction, uncertain
what to think. The bright yellow badge never lied; the girl was a model.
Somehow, the blonde remained oblivious to the sneers even as the guards
outside the hotel's enormous ballroom double- and then triple-checked
her name on the list before letting her in.
"Left, Umi! No, your OTHER left!" Tomizawa Ai's figure loomed at
the back of the ballroom's makeshift risers as she slammed her clipboard
against a chair. Known for her ravenous, dog-eat-dog attitude and stunning
beauty, she was an imposing woman in her late twenties, standing nearly
six feet tall. Her long, dark ponytail bobbed as she glided down the
steps on the risers and towards the young woman on the runway, who had
frozen in her final pose. From her spot just inside the doorway, Emi
recognized the short, skinny redhead as Hataru Umi, one Tomizawa-sama's
favorites. That, however, did not stop the business-suited designer from
grabbing the young woman's arm and pulling her into the "right" location
on the runway. "Aino-san is going to end up RIGHT next to you on this
run, Umi, which means you have to be PERFECTLY aligned. Otherwise, the
girl will have nowhere to stand. Understand?"
Umi nodded, frowning slightly. From her spot in the back of the
room, Emi frowned, too. In all her experiences - small photo shoots for
Tomizawa-sama's line of teen clothing and the occasional swimsuit ad - she
had never worked directly with her stubborn, hot-headed boss. Sighing,
Ai turned away from the runway-bound model and allowed her brown eyes
to meet blue. "Emi-chan, there you are!" she announced, her tone nearly
scolding. "I sent Hughes-san to hunt you down at least an hour ago! Where
have you been?"
Glancing at her shoes, the girl proceeded across the ballroom,
zigzagging to avoid entanglements with half-finished decorations and
other trappings of the show. "I needed to shower and change," she
apologized, watching as Umi made a face and then stormed off. "It's
raining out, and I was soaking wet."
"Is it now?" The designer's gaze had dropped away from the
teen's face and focused on the clipboard she was armed with, her dark
eyes peering at sheets and numbers that Emi could hardly make out over
the edge of the board, let alone comprehend. "Well, it's good you're
finally here. The summit starts in two days, and you don't have half the
training Michiko does." She sighed and shook her head, dropping her arms
and allowing them to rest at her sides. "I told her three weeks ago to
get this problem taken care of, and now she's under a doctor's order to
wait until the morning sickness goes away to finally get rid of it." She
shrugged. "Come on, I'll show you the dressing rooms and introduce you
to the hairdressers." A quick once-over brought a sneer. "You'll need a
trim on that hair of yours."
The blonde nodded and followed obediently in her boss' footsteps,
her eyes darting about in a feeble attempt to take in her surroundings. "Is
Michiko-san alright?" she questioned carefully, ducking out of the way of
two blue-jumpered men carrying long blocks of plywood. "She must be awfully
ill to miss this event, and I'd hate to think that - "
"Hai, hai, she's fine." Ai gave a brief wave of her free hand,
dismissing the girl's concern as they pushed through a back door to the
ballroom and came upon a small corridor with three or four attached rooms.
"Just foolish, but she'll return to the circuit soon enough." She shouldered
through one of the doors in the small hall, revealing a simple, nearly-
empty room. Three girls, hardly older than Emi, glanced up from a glossy-
paged magazine, staring intently at the dark-haired woman. "This is dressing
room four, which you will be sharing with Sarah Morton, Josephina Martinez,
Florinda Gambino, and our own Umi-chan." Without smiling, she glanced down
at her watch. "We'll be running through the full show in street clothes
within the hour," she informed all four of the models in English, scowling
as she realized the three who had already been in the room had turned back
to their magazine. "Emi-chan, I'll send in a crew member in about 10 minutes
to double-check your measurements and get you to hairdresser." She frowned
again at the mass of blonde waves that hung limply down the teen's back.
"Ja."
The door shut heavily behind her.
As soon as Tomizawa-sama's presence disappeared from the room,
one of the three girls flipped shut the magazine and slyly produced a
packet of cigarettes from the neckline of her low-cut sweater. Brown eyes
gleamed proudly as she flicked one from the packet and passed it on. "Make
yourself comfortable," she instructed the gaping blonde in the doorway
with a toss of her head. "You look like a statue, standing there and
staring."
"Oh, Florinda, be nice." Striking a match, the second girl - an
impressively busty woman with heavily-layered blonde hair - sucked hard
on her cigarette, exhaling heavily into the air. Her English was spoken
deeply and with a hard-to-understand drawl that reminded Emi vaguely of her
favorite American movie, "Gone with the Wind." "She's replacing that diva.
What was her name again? Michelle or something?"
"Michiko." Emi ignored the way her voice trembled as she drew one
of the five chairs away from the vanity and pulled it into the center of
the room to join the others. She hesitantly accepted a cigarette from the
busty blonde. "She is very famous. You would be surprised."
The third girl, with dark skin and darker hair and eyes, snorted
quietly. "I don't think I would be surprised," she responded, tossing a
lighter. The newcomer caught it cleanly. "I'm Josephina, but you can call me
Jo if you want. I'm with the Spanish design group."
Cigarette smoke wafted into the air, and Emi found herself
struggling not to cough. And here, she had always wondered why her mother
discouraged the habit. "Emi Aino," she introduced, flicking her ashes into
a soda bottle as she watched the others doing. "From Tom - Ms. Tomizawa's
group. There are four of us in all."
"Yes, yes, we know," snorted Florinda, leaning back on her chair.
"We've all met Umi. Tell me, are all Japanese models as self-possessed
as Michiko and Umi? Because I am certainly unimpressed."
Blue eyes widened, and Emi shook her head vehemently. "Iie, not
at all!" she protested. "Umi and Michiko are the two most senior models in
Ms. Tomizawa's agency. They are as popular as...what is her name? Cindy
Crawford?"
The busty one snorted. "Cindy Crawford ain't half the model I'm
going to be!" she announced, her large chest bobbing as she sat up straight
in her chair, chin high with pride. "Someday, people'll sit on their
couches, eating their TV dinners, and - on commercials - discuss how
beautiful the great Sarah Morton is!" Her two friends chuckled, and she
scowled, slumping down in her seat. "Laugh all you want," she pouted,
helping herself to a second cigarette. "You'll see."
"The only work American models can become famous for is being on
the cover of Playboy," snickered Josephina. She ducked as the half-empty
packet of cigarettes flew towards her head, laughing aloud. "Sarah, I tease!
I want to dance the Fandango in contests and model for billboards." Her dark
eyes flitted towards Emi. "Do you have any high aspirations?"
She frowned, shrinking a bit into her seat. "Honestly, I have not
really thought about it," she admitted, the smoke curling slowly from the
tip of her cigarette. She had not yet taken a second drag. "I only started
modeling part-time to help my mother pay for the household expenses. I
never thought I'd end up out here."
"You're obviously doing something right," put in Florinda, raking
a hand through her short tresses. "I would have loved to get this far
without trying..."
"No kidding." The other two nodded sagely.
Emi opened her mouth to speak, but before any sound could escape,
a light knock thumped against the door. The girls scrambled over themselves
to extinguish their cigarettes and once again crack open the magazine,
pouring over bright pictures that the newly-arrived model recognized as
the center photography insert from the previous month's "Fashion World."
"C'mon in!" called Sarah plainly, glancing up with feigned interest as
the door cracked open.
A dirty-faced, greasy-haired boy - most likely younger than any
of the four girls in the room - grinned broadly at the models. Sarah
snarled. "What, Peter?" she demanded in a low tone. "We're BUSY."
Peter, as he had been called, continued to grin. "I'm here to get
Miss Aino," he justified, his voice twanged with an indignant annoyance. "She's
gotta get measured and then go for a haircut."
Sarah muttered something nasty under her breath.
Frowning, Emi gazed reluctantly at the trio, replacing her chair
carefully beneath the vanity counter. What in the world had Florinda
meant about not "trying"?
But the greasy boy still hovered in the doorway, and so she shrugged
and bid the others goodbye, slipping out the door and down the corridor.
===
Before she even knew what had happened, Emi found that she was
swept into the glamour and lights of the modeling circuit, and, deep down,
she realized that there would never be a real escape from it.
The few final days before the beginning of the World Modeling
Summit flew by, and the blonde teen found herself moving through life
at such a pace that made her wonder if the world around her wasn't just
one enormous blur. Practice sessions with Ai and the other models from her
agency woke her up at dawn and kept her busy until the street lamps in
front of the hotel flickered on. She was a caterpillar bursting forth
from out her cocoon, spreading her colorful wings for everyone to see.
Thanks to her boss' training and the aid of the other models at the
show, she transformed from a girl who dangled her feet from the edge of a
pool and smiled charmingly to a full-out diva. She fawned, she flaunted,
she floated, flattered, and fluttered. She dazzled, she daunted, she
delighted... She was everything that she had admired in Hiro Michiko
and still more.
But beyond the transformation in attitude came a transformation
in appearance. Her previously "girlish" blonde waves - blunt-cut and waist-
length - now bobbed just above her shoulders in curt little layers,
highlighted slightly with reddish tints that shone under the lights of
the ballroom's silver-carpeted runway. Tomizawa-sama - concerned that her
junior model still thought of herself as a girl - had sent three beauticians
to teach her the way of makeup, and now purple eye shadow highlighted large
blue eyes. Her eyebrows had been shaped, her skin treated, her legs
smoothed and waxed and smoothed again. Her legs, unfortunately, had not
been the only part of her body to fall victim to the hot wax; as she
lounged on the couch in Josephina's room and listened to one of Florinda's
long and involved Mafia tails, she still swore that her armpits (and
other, far more intimate areas) ached from that morning's "treatment."
Her one relaxation and joy, Emi found, laid in spending time with
the three girls she'd met so soon after her London debut. Umi considered
herself exclusive to spend much time around four laughing, smoking
teenagers, but Emi strived in the situation that her comrade so despised,
and her time away from the runway and Tomizawa-sama was spent instead with
the other three teens, smiling and sharing stories of life in their
separate countries. No one mentioned or worried about the summit, at least
not in a group; there were more important things to their young lives than
modeling, after all.
"So, now that I have degraded such high-class ladies with tales
of the black sheep of my family, let's chat about something
more...civilized." Florinda collapsed onto the couch beside the blonde,
lighting a cigarette and, after a few drags, offering it forth. Emi
accepted it and sucked hesitantly on it, forcing herself to bite back her
cough; despite spending so much time with the others, she still wasn't
quite used to the smell and taste of cigarette smoke. A small smirk began
to touch the Italian's olive complexion as she settled into her seat,
kicking her feet up on the coffee table. "Care to take bets on what
big British agents will be at the opening tomorrow night to sweep up all
the cute foreign girls?"
No one noticed blue eyes blinking as Sarah glanced up from her
battered romance novel, arching an eyebrow. "Really, Florinda," she
scolded with an exaggerated wag of her finger, "you should know better. The
agents usually come to the CLOSING, when the girls are so sick of their
current agents and designers that working for Hitler sounds appealing."
"Not Roger Hughes," chortled the would-be bookie, drawing three
confused glances in her direction. "From what I've heard, he always comes
to the openings and snatches up girls THEN. Young, fresh faces."
"Hughes-san?" The Japanese honorific slipped from her tongue
before she could stop it, and Emi flushed slightly, glancing at her
lap. "I mean, uhm.... Mr. Hughes came to get me at the front desk when I
first arrived here a few days ago." She looked up to find the three others
staring. "Ms. Tomizawa sent him to... Is something wrong?"
Sighing, Josephina flipped her long ponytail over her shoulder.
"Nothing, for you," she mumbled dejectedly. "You've met one of the biggest
names in the industry. He probably knows your name and everything!" She
crossed her arms over her chest. "I wish Catalina had gotten sick and I
could have come on as her replacement and met Roger Hughes!"
"Jo," protested the blonde with a wave of her hand, "it's nothing.
I'm just a silly junior model from Tokyo. After this event is over, I will
get on a plane and go back to learning in high school. I'm not very good.
Michiko and Umi and the other senior models will pat me on the back and
tell me I was helpful before taking over the runway again." She shrugged,
smiling slightly. "And I'll do like Mother says and attend nursing school."
Sarah frowned, closing her book for the first time that evening.
"Emi... Don't you want to be a model?" she questioned softly, her expression
riddled with concern for her friend. "Isn't it your dream?"
"Eeeh, I don't know if I have a real dream." All three of her
friends were staring, and somehow, that made Emi immediately self-
conscious; she toyed idly with a strand of hair that had slipped out of the
blue ribbon that held back her tresses in a ponytail. "Modeling is just
a job to help my mother pay for things. I never much expected it to go
further than it already went. Being here is like a miracle!"
The other girls fell silent for a long, long moment before anyone
dared speak. And that someone came in the form of Florinda. She raked a
hand through her short tresses, a soft smile touching her plump lips.
"Emi, you're too innocent for this line of work," she chuckled, shaking
her head. "But you will certainly make a charming nurse."
Emi later regretted asking what her friend meant.
===
Her heart trembled in her chest, beating faster than a hummingbird
flaps its wings, every beat short and surprisingly painful. She stared
at her reflection in the mirror, her blue eyes roving over every inch
of her body, tucking in a hair here and smoothing a fabric fold there; the
only acceptable standard was perfection.
The dress was elaborate, almost silly, but still beautiful, its
orange muslin fabric and decorative navy-blue ribbons clashing and matching
at the exact same time. Her hands trembled as she toyed with the end of a
ribbon, her fingers smoothing over the intentionally frayed strand. Umi's
dress would be similar, a red-on-blue ensemble that miraculously avoided
clashing with her naturally bright red hair. She would start halfway down
the runway, turn, and begin down again before the younger model was invited
to join her, three steps behind and slightly to the right. Always behind.
Always less, the junior, lagging.
"Ms. Tomizawa wants you ready to go, Emi," called a voice, and she
spun on her high-heeled foot to see Peter looming in the open doorway to
the dressing room, his greasy hair slicked back and messy jumpsuit replaced
with an equally-messy dress shirt and suit coat. Hoshi and Yumeko just
started their run."
She nodded, glancing back in the mirror. One more strand to tuck up,
one more slight smear of base to even out with a hasty forefinger. Her
heels clicked on the stone floor of the small corridor as she slipped
through the shadows and towards the stage. A black curtain, thick and
flowing, hid the backstage models and designers from the crowd of agents,
designers, and photographers attending the summit. The presence of the
crowd, however, overwhelmed. Emi heard every click of a shutter on a
camera, every whispered comment, every polite clap. Even with the upbeat
techno music that served as a background to every step, she could hear it.
The air was heavy with the presence of bodies, the heat of the onlookers.
She joined Umi reluctantly, hesitant, her palms slick with sweat.
'Count yourself lucky, Emi-chan,' Tomizawa had warned her only
moments before shooing the girl off to get dressed for her debut, her
eyes buried in her clipboard, studying something unseen. 'This summit
was created for designers and their senior staff models. You're seventeen,
still in high school, part time... You're very lucky to be here.' She
glanced up, dark gaze sharp. 'Ganbatte yo, Emi-chan. I am expecting the
best from you.'
The best. Applause boomed in her ears as Hoshi and Yumeko appeared
backstage, both beaming and shooting one another proud looks. The stage
manager gave Umi a nod and, before Emi could even draw in a nervous,
shaking breath, her head of red hair disappeared out of sight. Applause
boomed, shutters snapped, and her stomach knotted. The steps counted
out in her mind, perfectly timed... Seven, eight... Turn for three...
Four towards the stage...
Her feet moved without thought. The runway carpet cushioned every
familiar, trained step of her high-heeled shoes as she appeared in public
view for the first time. Four days of drilling, practicing, perfection...
Every word from Ai's mouth echoed in her head, every step fell just as
it should, everything was perfect.
Blue eyes recognized, yes, that there were people cluttering the
risers and stuffing the ballroom, but then recognized the fact with a
calm demeanor, every sweeping glance of the crowd as fluid as her
long, brisk strides down the runway. Her ears registered the noise of
the techno track, the applause, the camera's shutters, the mutters of
the agents sitting nearest the stage, but her mind refused to process
them. She was focused, poised, ready for anything.
Anyone besides the single-minded model would have noticed a man
in the front row, furiously scribbling notes on a clipboard as Emi arrived
at the end of the runway. They would have noticed his slightly-graying
brown hair and goatee, his chic, dark-rimmed glasses and fitted gray
suit. They would have noticed the careful once-over his navy blue eyes
gave her, and the tender smile that touched his lips as she started down
the runway towards the stage.
But Emi Aino didn't see him, and it didn't matter. Because, while
she didn't see him scribbling and studying her, he didn't see HER go
running into her dressing room and, once she arrived, screaming at the
top of her lungs three fateful words:
"I DID IT!"
===
The backstage and corridor was a hub of bustling activity by time
that evening's show was ever, and Emi found herself trying to shoulder
through designers, models, and members of the media in a feeble attempt
to go to her room and to bed. No one noticed a five-foot-six blonde teen
with a ponytail, however, and none of the exclamations of "Fabulous!"
were aimed in her direction. She sighed as she finally squeezed through the
sardine-packed hall and turned to stare back at the crowd, a lone figure
standing on the steps up to the stage.
She shrugged. "I'm a junior model," she reminded herself sternly,
straightening her shirt before hopping down the stairs the rest of the way.
"I'm going back to Japan without anyone knowing my name. That's the way its
SUPPOSED to be."
The lobby of the Ritz stood ominously empty, the fountain's
whisper soothing to her tired ears. She wandered slowly through the plush
area, running her fingers on leather couches and dark, rich wooden tables,
toying with a leaf here or a flower there. Finally, she came to the
fountain itself, a small, round spraying of cool water that tickled
her hand as she reached out to touch it. She smiled.
"Miss Aino." The accent was heavy and, from what she knew of
accents, typical of a London-dweller, and she turned around to see a man
in a chic gray suit standing behind her, smiling. She, however, frowned,
arching an eyebrow. "You must not remember me. Roger Hughes desu." His
eyes twinkled as he switched to her native tongue, warm and proud, as though
they were sharing a special secret.
"Ah! Gomen nasai!" She bowed quickly, realizing only after that
she'd fallen into the old familiar pleasantries of her native land. She
flushed. "I mean, ano... It is nice to see you again." Her mouth stumbled
over the words but managed to pronounce them clearly; even after four days
in the country, she was learning. "Did you enjoy the show this evening?"
"Very much, thank you," he nodded. Emi nodded as well and turned
back away, her fingers flitting over and through the fountain water. "Do
you like it?"
She blinked, glancing up at him. "Like what?" Roger smirked and
gestured towards the fountain, and she felt her cheeks warm again as she
nodded her assertion. "It's very pretty."
Before she could say anything else on the matter, however, her
companion was digging through his pockets, smiling slightly. The tell-tale
jingle of keys and change sounded as he finally removed his hands and
produced a small copper coin. "It's called a penny," he explained, offering
it to her. "There is an old legend that states that throwing a coin into
a fountain and wishing on it will make that wish come true." She glanced
away from him and down, noticing for the first time that the mosaic-tiled floor
of the fountain glimmered from a handful of coins resting there. "Why don't
you try it, hmm?"
Smiling slightly, she accepted the coin, her blue eyes studying his
face. A kind expression shone down at her. It was almost as foreign to her
as his clumsy Japanese was to him; Tomizawa-sama and the other models from
her group always scowled and scolded, never beaming in the sweet way that
Roger managed to. The coin flashed in the lobby lights as she stared
down at it. What could she wish for?
Her friends' words echoed half-heartedly in the back of her mind,
cluttering her thoughts. 'Emi... Don't you want to be a model? Isn't it
your dream?'
"Well, I need to be going," Roger addressed her, stumbling briefly
over the Japanese words. A hand clapped her shoulder, friendly to the
point of being almost fatherly. "I'll see you in Ms. Tomizawa's other
showings, I'm most certain. So long!"
She watched him leave, trotting down the hallway with his clipboard
still in hand. Roger Hughes. One of the most well-known names in the
industry, and - if she was to believe the rumors - extremely exclusive.
'He probably knows your name and everything!' Jo had exclaimed the night
before, thick ponytail bobbing. But she was a junior model... A future
nursing student... Not...
The coin sparkled in the palm of her hand.
'Isn't it your dream?'
Emi wondered if she even had a dream as she pocketed the coin and
started back towards her room, the fountain whispering behind her, the
sound comforting even as it faded out of range.
===
"Okaa-san, please!" Emi fell back on her bed, laughing, as her
mother continued to bemoan the amount of housework that she was stuck
doing on her own. The familiar voice in her ear was broken occasionally
by static, but otherwise, she counted the sound as a small blessing,
something familiar in a foreign world.
Five days had passed since the beginning of the summit, and there
had been no word from any of the local agencies about contract bids. The
agents present at the summit - Tomizawa Ai had estimated that there were
a total of fifteen independent agents coming nightly, with another thirty
or thirty-five who had come once or twice - appeared wholly uninterested in
the models that walked the runway every night, and, despite high reviews
in the newspapers, the World Design Summit seemed to only hold value for
the designers, rather than their models. Emi chewed thoughtfully on a
carrot stick as her mother rambled on in her ear. Just as she told the
others time and again, she was simply a junior model, a Japanese high
school student who would have three weeks in the sun before being forgotten.
She settled into her pillows with a sigh. Perhaps her low hopes had still
be too high, after all.
"So, Emi-ko, tell me," her mother pressed, the tone that signified
an oncoming prying session suddenly pervading her tone, "are all those
agents out there falling over you, yet?"
Sighing, Emi rolled her eyes up at the canopy that stretched above
her. "Okaa-san..." she sighed, tucking her free hand behind her head. "You
know that I'm only here as Michiko's replacement. In a few weeks, I'll
be home and life will be the same as always. There are no agents interested
in a seventeen-year-old Japanese girl."
"Nonsense!" protested Natsumi so loudly that her daughter had to
pull the receiver away from her ear to prevent permanent hearing loss.
"You are beginning your first steps towards the life of a model! I believe
firmly in you reaching out and becoming a real model. The next Hiro Michiko!"
In her hotel room bed, half a world away, the blonde teen curled
up in a ball, picking the lint from her pajama pants as she allowed her
mother's excitement to die down. "Please, Mama," she insisted, dropping the
more mature, honorific name for her mother. "I'm just a girl. I'm still
in high school, and I'm certainly the farthest thing from Michiko that
the world has to offer." She rolled onto her back again, sighing heavily.
"Truth is, all the girls here... For them, this is their dream. For me,
it's just a part-time job."
Her mother started to say something, but as she did, a knock at
the door cut her off. "Hang on, okaa-san," Emi interjected, relieved that
she could break away from the inevitable rant about believing in herself.
"There's someone at the door."
Not three seconds after she said this, phone sitting on the
comforter and her feet dangling over the edge of the bed in preparation to
slide on her slippers and answer the door that the door flew open and
Umi, clad in a pair of running shorts and a t-shirt, entered, her bright
eyes lowered dangerously. "Tomizawa-sama asked me to give you a message,"
she shot, "and - since I'm on the way down to the gym - I really don't
have time to wait for you and give it to you at your leisure." She flipped
her ponytail smugly. "Tomizawa-sama wants to see you in her room tomorrow
morning BEFORE we run rehearsal. Understand?"
"Hai, Umi," she sighed. The redhead's dark eyes flashed, and she
flinched. "Umi-san," she corrected herself quickly, not surprised when
the older female stormed out of the door, slamming it hard behind her.
Emi grimaced as she picked up the phone, apologizing to her mother and
completely unsurprised when the immediate question greeted her:
"Who was that?"
"Oh, just Umi," she replied causally, twirling the phone cord
between her fingers distractedly. "Ms. Tomizawa wants to see me in the
morning, and I guess that Umi was sent as the messenger."
Her mother chuckled, her laugh sweet and clear across the telephone
lines. "Whatever happened to 'Umi-san' and 'Tomizawa-sensei'?" she asked
teasingly, causing Emi to redden slightly. "You are certainly becoming
very English, even if you are still speaking Japanese."
"Well, the other girls all speak very good English," she explained,
pursing her lips together, "and they don't know or understand why we use
the titles the way we do. Besides, isn't there a popular saying that
states, 'When in Rome, do not go against the wishes of the Romans'?"
"If there is, I have never heard it," her mother replied, her tone
riddled with confusion. "And I'm only teasing, Emi-ko. I think it's good
that you're trying to act like the other girls." She paused for a moment,
a heavy but companionable silence overtaking the airwaves.
Staring into the half-open bathroom, the blonde girl leaned back
on her elbows. What in the world could Tomizawa-sama want with her,
especially before rehearsal in the morning?
Not that the question she was busily asking herself mattered too
much, because it was then that her mother started talking once again,
chattering pleasantly about the happenings at her office and leaving
Emi no choice but to ball up on the comforter and listen to the soothing
tones of her mother's voice until late into the night.
===
The next morning came only after a night of fretful, broken sleep,
and every time Emi woke up the only thing she could think of was her mother's
familiar voice and heartfelt good wishes. She missed the old trappings of
home - the bed, the wood floors, the homemade, authentic Japanese dishes -
but, at the same time, she reveled in the feel of the strange, soft
sheets against her legs, the canopy above her head, and the soft sunlight
that glimmered through the half-translucent draperies and into her hotel
room. She dragged herself out of bed, going through the motions as she
did every morning - shower, dry hair, do makeup, get dressed, have a cup of
coffee with a quick cigarette (a tried-and-true wake-up method that Sarah
had taught her) - before locking up, slipping on her World Design Summit
identification badge, and riding up the elevator to Tomizawa-sama's eighth
floor room. Here, the hallway was a bit more narrow but the doors spread
further apart, signifying that there were fewer, larger rooms. She wandered
amongst the rows of closed doors for several minutes before she was able
to find her employer's, her heart fluttering in her stomach. Why in the world
was she so nervous, anyway?
"Hai!" called Tomizawa Ai's strong voice, and, despite the gnawing
feeling in her gut, the blonde girl opened the door to her boss' hotel
room.
Her jaw nearly dropped.
The front room held no bed at all; rather, it was home to a desk,
couch, mirrored dresser, television chest, and a truly enormous marble
fireplace. Everything in the room declared boldly that this room belonged
to someone important - from the rich golds, blues, and pinks of the
fabric decorating the draperies and couches to the subtle, pale-yellow
color of the wallpaper, the room was truly exquisite. A half-opened door
at the other end of the sitting room revealed the bedroom of the suite,
and - despite the fact that Emi could only see the end of the bed and
what appeared to be another enormous marble fireplace - the bedroom
obviously challenged its sitting-room partner in elegance and taste.
Waving a hand at the girl, Ai - seated on the couch in a robe
with a 'Ritz Hotel' emblem embroidered on the front and curlers still in
her long hair - shouldered the phone as she dashed something down on a
piece of paper. "That is entirely too much money," she argued in crisp,
clear English, her dark eyes meeting her employee's before rolling
back, as if to say, 'I have had well enough of this call.' "No. That is
my final answer. Yes, you do that. Goodbye."
She set the phone back into the cradle gracefully, all signs of
exasperation draining from her smooth, tan complexion as she leaned back
into the couch. She sighed heavily. "Gomen nasai, Emi-chan," she apologized,
her native language rolling off her lips as easily as the English did. "I
didn't realize that American ad companies were such money-grubbers. Next
time, I look elsewhere."
"H-hai," the girl stammered, crossing and uncrossing her legs at
the ankles as she watched her employer take a long swig of coffee from a
Ritz Hotel coffee mug. The entire situation smacked of a strange dream or
a scene from a television movie; the tale of the junior model who, barely
recognizing her boss' face, ended up sitting in an armchair in her
enormous hotel suite, listening to her prattle on about American
business or something else of the sort. "Ano... Umi-san said you wanted
to talk to me about something?"
Nodding, Ai leaned forward and, from a stack of papers on the coffee
table, withdrew a stapled stack of pages. She handed them to the blonde
girl. "Now, I know that you're still working with your English," she
explained, leaning back into the couch cushions as she spoke, "so I'm going
to explain this to you before you get called by some bumbling secretary
who doesn't realize 'Aino Emi' is a Japanese name. Do you know what that
sheet of paper is, Emi-chan?"
For a moment, Emi considered lying and claiming that she knew,
uncertain of whether or not her ignorance would be looked down upon. But
the designer's dark eyes focused sharply on her, so she shook her head
of wavy hair. "No."
"I didn't think you did." The coffee cup thumped dully on the
marble-topped coffee table as she set it down. "This is what we in the
modeling world call a contract bid, Emi. When an agent is interested in a
model, he or she will place a bid on the model. The model's current agent
can, then, offer that model more money to keep them there. Otherwise, that
model is free to accept the bid if they so choose. Do you understand?"
The teen nodded dully, staring, uncomprehending, at the strange
English characters on the page.
"Normally, agents will wait until the end of events like this one
to put in a bid, but not this time." She sighed, chuckling slightly. "I have
to admit, for all the rumors that he does not hold up to, Roger Hughes
really is about as straight-forward and go-getting as an agent can get. I
respect that about him. I respect a great deal about him, actually. Which
is why I didn't respond to this bid as badly as many of the other agents
and designers would have."
Blue eyes blinked. "Nani?" questioned Emi after a long moment's
pause, her eyebrows pulling close together as she creased her brow in
thought. "What do you mean?"
Ai smiled softly. "Emi-chan, I am not planning on taking in any
more senior models any time soon," she continued on, almost as if the
girl had never asked the question. "And, even if I did, I don't think
you would be the one I would choose. You are good, but you're still...raw.
Untrained. A few years ago, I took a girl like you under my wing. And yes,
she became wonderful, but with the amount of design I do now, I no longer
have the time and energy to devote to teaching a new model."
The blonde nodded weakly, setting the contract bid down on the table.
"I understand completely," she admitted, straightening her spine as she
shifted her weight in the armchair. Her heart ached and her hands trembled
in her lap, but she could not place why. "I am, after all, just a high school
girl. I model to help my mother pay for my expensive schooling. I - "
"You'd like to think that, Emi, but that's just not true." Ai's
voice was compassionate, touched with affection that could almost be
counted as motherly as she leaned forward, her elbows on her knees. The
air in the room suddenly jumped from business-like to companionable, and
Emi found herself unable to hide her surprise. "You are far more graceful
and poised than Michiko was when I took her under my wing, five years ago,
and started training her as a senior model. You have everything that it
takes, but I do not have the capability of cultivating that in you. That is
why I called you here." Once again, she reached for the stapled papers,
handing them to her model. "This is a contract bid for you, Emi-chan.
From Roger Hughes' agency. It's a relatively large agency, with much
room for growth and improvement, and you can receive the attention you
deserve, there." She sat back up on the couch, her arms stretched wide
along the back of it. "You can be Michiko, Emi. You can be BIGGER than
Michiko. It just depends on if you want to or not." Her long fingernails
drummed into the upholstery in what the wide-eyed teen assumed to be an
offhanded impatience, her dark eyes fixated on a pale, confusion-torn face.
"So, Emi-chan, what is it you want?"
Her mouth opened and then shut again, pink lips forming neither a
smile nor a frown but rather a thin, tight line cutting across her soft
cheeks. Silence swept across the room as she stared at her hands, neatly
folded in her lap, and considered the designer's words. Bigger than Hiro
Michiko? Was that even possible? And if it was, could she really carry such
a bright torch?
"I - I really don't know, Tomizawa-sama," she answered after a long
moment, her baby blue eyes meeting dark brown in a powerful gaze. Somehow,
the compassion in her boss' expression surprised her, and she had to smile
politely to avoid looking altogether shocked. "Can I... Can I think about
this for a bit? Please?"
Ai waved a hand casually. "I'm not the one you have to answer to,"
she replied with a half-shrug, once again opting for her coffee as she
spoke. "If I know Hughes-san - and I do - he'll be contacting you soon
enough. You'll have to take that up with him."
She nodded and bowed, walking herself to the door and letting herself
out before she even realized that she'd failed to say goodbye. Once the door
closed softly behind her and she was left to the empty, quiet corridor, she
sighed, leaning against the wall.
Maybe Tomizawa-sama was wrong. Yes, yes, that was it. Tomizawa-sama
had heard the wrong name, read the wrong contract, or...
...or it really was her contract.
Her eyes lulled shut.
It couldn't it?
===
The multicolored lights flickered and shifted from side to side,
a rainbow spectrum against black-painted cinderblock walls and a sea of
pale European bodies as she struggled through the crowd, the deep bass line
of a popular techno track rattling her teeth in the back of her mouth. A
drunken young man grabbed her posterior hard, the square fingers biting
through her short nylon skirt and into her skin. She ignored it, elbowing
aside a couple who were too busy dirty dancing to notice her and, with a
groan of effort, freed herself from the tangle of people on the dance floor,
followed closely by her three friends. They exchanged glances of exasperation
before sighing in unison and throwing up their hands.
Emi collapsed onto one of the several empty stools that lined the
long, black-painted bar that stretched along one of the walls and,
unhesitatingly, flagged the black-garbed bartender and ordered a club soda.
Behind her, the throng of dancers, all visitors to London's premiere
nightclub, pulsed to the beat, bumping and grinding as the techno track
wore on. "Some reward for the end of our second week," she mumbled to
herself as she flicked a cigarette out of the half-empty pack she kept
tucked in the top of her knee-high boots and lighting it hastily. "I have
a splitting headache..."
"What was that?" She blinked and gave a start as Sarah leaned
forward and snatched the pack of cigarettes from her grip. Her large
breasts nearly bounced right out of her low-cut green-sequined tank, and she
tugged idly at the neckline as she, too, struck a match. "Somethin' wrong?"
"Nothing..." The younger blonde shrugged and glanced away, barely
noticing as the bartender set her glass down in front of her. Her fingers
squeezed the bridge of her nose softly, her eyes watering from the throbbing
pain in her head. "I just have a headache."
Florinda chuckled, leaning an elbow on the bar. Her short hair
sparkled in the ever-moving spectrum of colored light as she rested her
chin in her hand. "I'm not surprised," she retorted, her red-painted lips
curving into an almost vicious smile. "You've been working three times harder
than any of us. You'd think that Tomizawa was trying to drive you into the
ground like a stake or something!"
Laughing, Emi shook her head and took a long drag of her cigarette.
As much as the teasing could be counted only as meaningless chatter, the
Italian did have a point. Since calling her up to the eighth floor to
discuss the supposed contract bid from Roger Hughes, Ai had spent countless
hours with all four of her models, running their order and steps again and
again until every step was perfectly measured out and every turn a brief
but amazing bolt of inspired motion. "Eh, she just wants us to look good
for the next few nights," she shrugged, stirring her drink idly with the
cherry-topped toothpick that had been dropped into it. "A lot of the
Western designers are really starting to pay attention to her, so she wants
Umi, Yumeko, Hoshi and I to be absolutely flawless."
"Well, from what I've heard here and there, you are already pretty
flawless." Jo's dark eyes flashed as she innocently drummed her deep blue
fingernails on the bar top. "The other girls in my troupe are all abuzz
with the news that a Miss Emi Aino is on Roger Hughes' bid list."
"What?!" Sarah's chest heaved another time as she nearly tumbled
off her stool. A long stream of smoke snorted out her nose as she hacked
and struggled to breathe. "Emi, are you kidding me? Why didn't you tell us?!"
The Japanese girl felt her cheeks redden and her eyes drop to focus
on the ever-bubbling liquid in her smudged, chipped bar glass. "I think it's
probably just a rumor," she responded half-heartedly. Her blonde waves
bobbed as flipped them and the many orange ribbons she had tied into them
over her shoulder. "And besides, I think I'm going to turn down an offer
if I do get it. I'm not even done with high school, you know, and to be
a full-time model all the way here, in England... That's an undertaking
that I don't know if I'm ready for."
Out of the corner of her eye, she could see both Jo and Sarah nodding
thoughtfully, but it was the ever-passionate Florinda who responded with
the most fury, slamming her fist onto the bar and rattling their glasses.
"Emi!" she scolded, her tone high and stressed. "What are you thinking?"
The busty American bit her lip. "Florinda..." she warned, coolly.
"You might get a chance to live a DREAM, and you say no?" Brown
eyes rolled as she crossed her arms over her purple peasant-style blouse.
"This is something all of us have wanted since we were little girls, Emi.
A dream that we've grown up with. A dream to be graceful and famous...and
beautiful. And you're going to throw it away because you're not quite
sure? You're going to give that up? Why did you come, then, if you're not
going to take the one opportunity you're given?"
Emi attempted to protest, but her friend waved the comment away,
disappearing into the crowd before the clumsy English words sprang to her
befuddled mind. Her shoulders slumped as she watched Florinda's sleek
body fade into the sea of strangers, another tan-tinted fleck against the
flickering lights.
"Florinda means well," sighed Sarah, her hand landing, reassuringly,
on the smaller girl's shoulder. She smiled softly as blue eyes peered up
at her, tears shining in the ever-moving lights of the dance floor. "She's
fought a long battle to get here, and so it's hard for her. But Emi, you
can't always fall back on the fact that you're still in high school, and
an 'average girl.'" The hand on her shoulder contracted, tightening in a
friendly squeeze. "If you want it, Emi, then do it. It's your life, and
it's your dream. Or maybe it's not your dream. That's not for me to say. But
if it IS your dream, and what you want to do, then no one can take that
away from you." She leaned over and rested her head lightly against her
friend's head. "And if you do want it, then live it."
The Japanese girl nodded slightly, and tried hard to smile. But
somehow, with the throbbing in her head and the throbbing of the music
around her, the only reaction she could produce was a weak, hopeless sigh.
===
"Mr. Hughes will see you in a few moments." The secretary was a
small, dark-haired woman with a large nose and thick glasses that magnified
her equally dark eyes to twice their normal sizes. Still, despite all this,
her voice sang, sweet and soothing, and her small hands gestured towards
the few waiting-room style couches with the same grace as a princess would
demonstrate while gesturing to her visitors. "Feel free to make yourself
at home. There's coffee in the back room, if you're interested."
"Thank you." Aino Emi struggled to resist her customary urge to bow
her thanks towards the strange secretary and turned slowly, marveling in her
surroundings. Somehow, coming home to a telephone message requesting her
presence at a meeting with Roger Hughes had been expected, unimpressive.
But his offices, with their magnificent, wine-colored carpets and large,
black-and-white photos of models striking poses, were an entirely different
story.
Not that it mattered. The blonde selected, carefully, a small
white armchair nestled in a corner, beside a small coffee table and a large
floor lamp. She glanced dully at the magazines that cluttered the table -
Cosmopolitan, Redbook, People, and Seventeen - and selected the final title
with an ironic smirk. The bright pink cover contrasted greatly with the
navy blue business suit that Sarah had practically thrown in her direction
the night before, and, as she paged through it with a nominal amount of
interest, she wondered exactly what the point of all the pomp and
circumstance was. She'd decided, after all, that the answer would be "no."
She hadn't told Sarah, of course, not even as the taller, bustier
blonde had dragged her across the Ritz that morning, introducing her to
various models - American, Polish, Russian, German, Argentinean, Chinese -
and then proceeded to dig through their wardrobes. There was no reason to
pop the American's fantasies, and so she went through the routine of
feigning genuine excitement, raising her arms and faux-modeling skirts
and blouses until one of Sarah's own outfits had been deemed worthy of
being "the ensemble that the great Emi Aino wore the day she became a
real, full-time model."
The English words on the glossy magazine pages swam about in her
head, mixing with the familiar Japanese words that had clogged her every
thought since she'd heard the secretary's sing-song voice the night before.
Modeling. Dreams. Hopes. Fears. Okaa-san. Seventeen. Fame. Fortune. High
school. Nursing school. Roger Hughes. Life. Living. Frustrated, she tossed
the magazine back down on the tabletop. The answer was no. No. N -
"Aino-san?"
A low, gentle voice speaking her native tongue caused her to
start, and she whipped her head around to see Roger Hughes himself standing
beside her, one hand resting on the back of her armchair. His well-tailored
suit - navy blue, reflected Emi with a slight blush - complemented his
adult-but-not-old form as he leaned forward to shake her hand. "I'm sorry
about that. I had to take a personal call."
She nodded slightly, following him towards his half-closed office
door so closely that she feared she would inadvertently step on the back
of his shoes. "And, by the way, I like your suit," he smirked, glancing back
at her just long enough to wink a blue eye. She flushed, muttering something
about borrowing it from a friend, certain that he didn't hear.
Roger Hughes' personal office was actually quite bare when compared
to his posh waiting room. Decorated with only a few small photographs of
young women dressed in casual clothes and casual poses, it felt more like
a personal den in a home than a business office, with simple furniture,
a few sparse bookshelves, and two small armchairs. Emi attempted to settle
into one of the chairs but found her ease only tentative, her spine
straightening stiffly. The blond man, on the contrary, sat down on the
front edge of the desk, his arms crossed over his broad chest as he
glanced down at her - pale-faced, straight-backed, and staring.
"You're terrified, aren't you?" The question, spoken in English
and asked quite plainly, caught her off guard, and she blinked. Roger
chuckled slightly, shaking his head. "I have to compliment you, Emi. The
entire time you've been here in London, you have handled yourself very
well. I've been at all the nightly shows, and every night, you walk up and
down that runway without even an inkling of fear. It makes me wonder if you
even know what stage fright is."
He crossed his legs at the ankles, an almost painfully casual foil
to her proper posture and folded hands. "But I see it now," he continued,
nodding in her direction. "The straight back, the pale face, the darting
gaze. You're really scared. And I respect that more, I think, than any amount
of bravado."
The gentle spell that was his friendly tone shattered as he reached
behind him into a stack of papers and drew out a thick, stapled packet,
offering it forward. She accepted it gently, flinching as her eyes fell on
the words at the top of the page; they were exactly the same as the ones on
the page that Tomizawa-sama had handed her, four days earlier. "I have
Ms. Tomizawa a copy of this so she could review it with you," he explained,
helping himself to a second packet of the same sheets. "I don't think I need
to repeat that this is a contract bid, so I won't. I just want to explain
why."
"Why?" she echoed, her voice shockingly loud in the bare office.
"But... Why would you want to explain yourself?"
"Everyone deserves an explanation," he smiled in response,
shrugging. "I wouldn't sign a contract if I didn't know why someone wanted
me to, and I'm giving you the same courtesy I would expect. I'm a bit old-
fashioned in that respect, you could say." His large fingers flipped idly
through his copy of the contract as he spoke, but his dark eyes never left
her face, not even as she glanced away and shifted her attention onto the
floor. "The truth is, Aino-san, that I want younger, fresher models here at
my agency. It's all well and good to have old pros, people like
Tomizawa-sama's famous Michiko, but it's time that the industry integrated
some new faces into the mix." He tossed the papers onto the top of the
stack behind him. "You're good. I don't know if you realize it or not, but
you have everything I've been looking for in a new model. And I know asking
you to leave Japan and your old job is a big request, but I really want to
see you go further than being a junior model for a designer who doubles as
an agent." She flinched slightly, but Roger didn't seem to notice. "I want
to see you be the next Michiko."
Emi's heart shuddered in her chest as, slowly, she raised her head,
her vision shifting from her high-heeled shoes and climbing up, up Roger's
long legs and flat chest until she came to meet his face. The fatherly
smile she had first more than two weeks earlier, when he'd rushed down
the hallway, calling out her name. Even through his glasses, his eyes were
bright, supportive, and somehow, she knew that - whatever she chose - he
would understand and be supportive. Whatever she chose, he would accept as
the final word and send her on her path.
Her path. The path that had lead her to the Ritz hotel, to London,
away from her home...
'You can be Michiko, Emi. You can be BIGGER than Michiko.'
Aino Emi. Seventeen years old. A third-year high school student. High
aspirations to attend nursing school as her mother had. A junior model
for Tomizawa Ai's design agency. Slated to, someday in the future, marry a
salary man and pop out a few children.
'A dream to be graceful and famous...and beautiful. And you're going
to throw it away because you're not quite sure? You're going to give that
up? Why did you come, then, if you're not going to take the one opportunity
you're given?'
A girl without a dream. She dropped her eyes, staring at the words
and phrases in front of her on the contract, words and phrases in a foreign
language that she could hardly speak, let alone read. Words and phrases
that meant so very little, and yet still meant so much.
'It's your life, and it's your dream. Or maybe it's not your dream.
That's not for me to say. But if it IS your dream, and what you want to do,
then no one can take that away from you.'
Sarah's dream. Florinda's dream. Jo's dream. Everyone's dreams.
'And if you do want it, then live it.'
Aino Emi's head popped up and blue eyes shone as she smiled, the same
brilliant smile that had overtaken her face weeks ago when she'd first
arrived in the strange and wonderful city of London, England.
"As they say in our industry," she replied cheerily, the English
words rolling off her tongue slowly, but accurately, "where do I sign?"
DISCLAIMER: Sailor Moon and all trappings thereof belong to Naoko
Takeuchi. This particular storyline belongs to Kate Butler, (c) 2003-2004.