BONUS CHAPTER::: I COULDN"T STAY AWAY FROM IT

After supper Jack went back to his room. He was sitting in the bed thinking about Jesse when she waked in Jack (THE DOG) following behind her. She smiled at Jack who sat up and smiled back. She grabbed his acoustic guitar from the corner and walked over to the bed. She sat down next to him and said, "I heard you could play this."

"Yeah." Jack answered taking it from her.

"Than play me something." She said.

"I haven't played in awhile so be patient." HE said trying to remember any song possible. Than he remembered one of the songs Kim use to have him play all of the time she had heard it on 90210, the worst TV series ever in his opinion but they did have a pretty good musician Jamie Walters on it so he didn't have a problem playing the song. He had remembered it so well from playing it so long he started to play a few chords and a minute into it she stopped him, "You have to sing too Bauer. If you don't it's just stupid. Come on now serenade me properly."

So he cleared his throat and in the best voice he could muster, as he felt more nervous than ever trying to play for her. He wanted to make the moment right.

I don't wanna see you ever sad

And everything that I've got you can have

When it's all too much

You need some human touch

To see that it's really not so bad

Did you call on every saint you know

But still you feel like you're on your own

Can you see through your tears

I will always be here

And you're not out there all alone

Jesse's heart almost melted hearing his voice as he played. She thought that this probably was the best moment in her life. Most men never took the time to do something like this and while she had to force him he still did it. She closed her eyes and lay back on the bed listening to him play and sing.

Hold On, 'till you feel a little stronger

Hold On to me

Hold On, everything's gonna be alright

Just Hold On to me tonight

Anything that hurts you,hurts me too

I´m not gonna let your world turn blue

Will you take my hand

And feel how close I am

There ain't nothin'I won't do for you

I know the world

Can drive you to your knees

But when you need to cry,baby

Cry to me

She got up and looked at him as he continued on with the song not missing a beat she had never heard it herself but she loved it already. She watched him his eyes far away as he played, but still there with her at the same time. She wanted to kiss him, but she didn't want him to stop so she sat there looking at him as he finished the song.

Hold On,'till you feel a little stronger

Hold On to me

Hold On,everything's gonna be alright

When he finished he saw the tears in her eyes. He lifted his hand up and wiped them out, "Was I really that bad?" He asked making her laugh.

"I think that was the single most nicest thing any man has ever done for me." She kissed him on the cheek and he turned and kissed her on the lips. She kissed him back hungrily. She pulled away from him saying, "Let's not start something we can't finish."

Jack looked at her ready for her, wanting her, even if it hurt him. He tried to pull her over and she got up and walked out.

"I don't want to hurt you or get hurt Jack." She said walking out of the room.

Jack got up and followed her, "Jesse." He called after her. He followed her into the living room. He sat on the couch by her and said, "I probably should tell you something's."

"No Jack. I don't care what you did in the past or what happened. Just promise me something don't hurt me."

"I won't." Jack said brushing the hair out of her face. "I think I'm falling in love with you, and it scares me." He paused he had to tell her, "My wife you heard Teddy or Seth talk about her. Well a few years ago I went on this mission in Kosovo and it didn't go right. I was the only survivor when I came back I was distant and Teri, my wife, couldn't handle it. She asked me to move out and I did. But while we were separated I had a thing with a fellow agent. Well you know about what happened during the primaries a few years ago. The woman I had a fling with she was a mole. We still don't know who she had worked for. But Teri had got caught in it, she was just trying to get more information about where Kim and I were. She killed her and my unborn child."

Jesse put her hand to her mouth in shock not knowing his past, but she felt so sorry for him. She could see the pain he felt relieving this. She went to hug him but he held her off continuing.

"After that I was a mess and one day they asked me to come back to help them with something. I did, part of the time I had to work with this woman because she knew about the nuclear bomb. And that went fine I hated her and myself so much. I meant Kate that day. She and I were doing pretty good for awhile I had myself convinced that I could do it all over again. Than I was asked on day to go undercover with this cartel. Kate and I had been having a few problems and the past was back to haunt me again. I jumped on the chance. As a part of my cover and a major part of me wanted to I became addicted to heroin. It helped dull the pain of living I couldn't stand anymore. When I came back I came back with a lot of demons of things I had done during my time away. I checked into a clinic after we stopped the cordellia virus and I'm fine now. But I thought you should know all of this before you got into this to much." Jack said looking at her expecting her to call Kim to come get him now because she wanted nothing to do with him now.

Jesse had tears in her eyes. She kissed him gently saying, "That's all in the past Jack. I don't care what you did in the past, as long as you are here now and you want to be here now."

Jack smiled at her wiping the tears out of her eyes, again, "Are you sure?"

"Yes." She kissed him again and gently pushed him down on the couch. She pulled away quickly, "But we can't do this now." She got up and walked to the kitchen to put some distance between them she wanted to console him and be with him. She knew at that moment she had fallen and there was no way of getting out without getting hurt. She walked back out to the living room to see him staring at the floor.

"Let's go to bed Jack." She said walking over and grabbing his arm leading him to her bedroom. The dog, Jack, jumped on the bed and curled up at the end. Jesse gently laid next to Jack her arm over him holding him. She looked at him and watched as he fell asleep she stayed awake an hour watching him sleep until she fell asleep with her head in the crick of his neck.