Cat: Woot! The first chapter is up!!! For all of you who don't know, this
sort of the sequel to Hoping For the Future. People kept asking for a
second chapter, but I felt the story was more powerful on its own. So this
story is a present to all of my dedicated readers!!! Thanks to anyone and
everyone whose ever reviewed any of my writing!!! Without you I would
definitely had given up by now.
Disclaimer: I DO NOT OWN TEEN TITANS!!! That being said, please don't sue me for I am a poor otaku just trying to save enough money to go to an anime con. Don't take this chance away from me!!!
This story is written from Robin's point of view. Future chapters may be written from Nightwing's point of view, if so they will be marked. Enjoy the story and don't forget to REVIEW!!!!
So Many Secrets
A warm breeze enveloped me as I stepped out onto the roof. I strolled over to the edge, and gazed down at the water below. My favorite spot. It was late, and yet again sleep has evaded me. Usually it was Slade that kept my eyes from shutting, but tonight was different. This time it was a pair of emerald eyes that pushed sleep from my eyes. I had almost lost her today. It had only been for a minute, but it had felt like forever. A smirk crossed my face. Life was ironic like that. But the feelings I had felt today, they were haunting me. My hand drifted over my heart. I shook my head reproachfully. Impossible.
"Robin?" It was her.
"Hey Star. What are you doing up so late?" She glided over to me, and seated herself on the edge of the building.
"I could not sleep." Her answer was simple.
"Same here," I muttered. I could feel her eyes on me; I did my best to ignore them.
"I wanted to thank you, Robin."
"Thank me? For what?" She was smiling up at me. God that smile.
"For celebrating with me!" I almost forgot about her holiday. I gave her a small smile. She turned her eyes to the stars.
"I am sure that no matter what our friendship will last forever, just like you promised Robin! The future that I saw will not come true."
"It was bad, huh?" I sat down next to her, my eyes grazing the horizon.
"It was not what I had imagined. Except. . . . " She bit on her bottom lip, her eyes avoiding mine. I knew what she wanted to say.
"Nightwing," I said, almost to myself. She heard me. She always hears me. The silence that followed was unbearable. I thought that perhaps Starfire wanted to end the conversation there, but then her voice broke through, soft and unsure.
"You are very kind Robin. You are patient, and brave, and strong." A smile passed over her face as she spoke. "But that is all that I know about you. I guess it was hard for me to picture you any differently from the way you are now. That is why I was not surprised by Nightwing."
I remained silent. Her fingers touched my cheek, urging me to look at her. I turned slowly, but kept my eyes pointed at the water below. Her fingers brushed softly against my skin, tracing the outline of my mask.
"So many secrets."
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She had said no more to me. She pulled her hand back and went back inside, leaving me with my thoughts. Secrets. What did Starfire know of secrets? Her touch still lingered, her scent still hung in the air. The same feeling returned.
"No!" I shouted out to the dark night, my fist connecting with the roof. She was just a friend, a teammate, nothing more. And then, visions from that day came flooding back to me. I knew what Star was going to do; I had seen the look of anger in her eyes. I had even tried to stop her, missing by only a mere inch or two. But even after she had returned, gone for only a minute, the fear that I had lost her did not subside.
I pushed myself off the ground and headed inside. The idea of sleep a tempting one. Once in my room, I kicked off my boots and tossed my belt onto a nearby chair. The bed was warm and soft, and I was soon fast asleep, a pair of emerald eyes taunting my dreams.
"I do not wish to yell, merely to understand."
"Slade did not trust you, and you did not trust us."
"You promised."
"But that is all that I know about you."
"So many secrets."
I jerked from my sleep, my brow covered in sweat. Her voice haunted me throughout the night; sweet torture. I buried my head in my hands, trying to push her words away. Why do I recall what she says so easily? I didn't care about Starfire. I don't need her! I don't need anybody!
"I don't need you!" My scream shattered the silence of the early morning, my fist connecting with the cold metal wall. I continued my barrage, ignoring the pain, shouting the same words again and again.
"I don't need you! I don't need you! I don't!"
I sunk to my knees watching a crimson puddle form, the warm liquid dripping slowly from my hand. The pain was intense but I welcomed it, a bitter distraction from the torment of my mind. I sat there a few moments longer allowing my breath to even out. The others, no doubt, heard my yelling. They'll know it's best to leave me alone for the time being, save her.
"Robin?" Right on cue.
"Robin, I heard you yell. Are you undamaged?" I glanced at my hand, before answering.
"I'm fine Star, thanks for checking on me." She didn't say anything more. I was certain she had gone to bed until I felt her hand cover my own. How did she get in without me noticing? I was losing my edge.
"Your hand." I couldn't bear to look at her; I knew what I would see in her eyes. Forgiveness. Forgiveness for lying to her about my injury. I hated that look. How many times had I gotten it before? I wasn't worthy of Starfire's forgiveness.
She didn't speak as she tore the bottom of her nightshirt into strips, wrapping my hand tightly in the violet fabric. I watched intently as my blood slowly changed the soft color to a murky brown.
"You should be more careful while working out, Robin." I didn't move as she stood and floated out of the room with graceful ease. The feeling returned again, stronger now. Her hands were so soft and reassuring, working to cover my wound; her scent so intoxicating, clogging all of my senses.
"Maybe I do need you," I whispered looking down at my now pain free hand.
TBC
So whatcha think? Did it suck horribly? Please be kind whilst reviewing!!! Please Review!!!
Disclaimer: I DO NOT OWN TEEN TITANS!!! That being said, please don't sue me for I am a poor otaku just trying to save enough money to go to an anime con. Don't take this chance away from me!!!
This story is written from Robin's point of view. Future chapters may be written from Nightwing's point of view, if so they will be marked. Enjoy the story and don't forget to REVIEW!!!!
So Many Secrets
A warm breeze enveloped me as I stepped out onto the roof. I strolled over to the edge, and gazed down at the water below. My favorite spot. It was late, and yet again sleep has evaded me. Usually it was Slade that kept my eyes from shutting, but tonight was different. This time it was a pair of emerald eyes that pushed sleep from my eyes. I had almost lost her today. It had only been for a minute, but it had felt like forever. A smirk crossed my face. Life was ironic like that. But the feelings I had felt today, they were haunting me. My hand drifted over my heart. I shook my head reproachfully. Impossible.
"Robin?" It was her.
"Hey Star. What are you doing up so late?" She glided over to me, and seated herself on the edge of the building.
"I could not sleep." Her answer was simple.
"Same here," I muttered. I could feel her eyes on me; I did my best to ignore them.
"I wanted to thank you, Robin."
"Thank me? For what?" She was smiling up at me. God that smile.
"For celebrating with me!" I almost forgot about her holiday. I gave her a small smile. She turned her eyes to the stars.
"I am sure that no matter what our friendship will last forever, just like you promised Robin! The future that I saw will not come true."
"It was bad, huh?" I sat down next to her, my eyes grazing the horizon.
"It was not what I had imagined. Except. . . . " She bit on her bottom lip, her eyes avoiding mine. I knew what she wanted to say.
"Nightwing," I said, almost to myself. She heard me. She always hears me. The silence that followed was unbearable. I thought that perhaps Starfire wanted to end the conversation there, but then her voice broke through, soft and unsure.
"You are very kind Robin. You are patient, and brave, and strong." A smile passed over her face as she spoke. "But that is all that I know about you. I guess it was hard for me to picture you any differently from the way you are now. That is why I was not surprised by Nightwing."
I remained silent. Her fingers touched my cheek, urging me to look at her. I turned slowly, but kept my eyes pointed at the water below. Her fingers brushed softly against my skin, tracing the outline of my mask.
"So many secrets."
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She had said no more to me. She pulled her hand back and went back inside, leaving me with my thoughts. Secrets. What did Starfire know of secrets? Her touch still lingered, her scent still hung in the air. The same feeling returned.
"No!" I shouted out to the dark night, my fist connecting with the roof. She was just a friend, a teammate, nothing more. And then, visions from that day came flooding back to me. I knew what Star was going to do; I had seen the look of anger in her eyes. I had even tried to stop her, missing by only a mere inch or two. But even after she had returned, gone for only a minute, the fear that I had lost her did not subside.
I pushed myself off the ground and headed inside. The idea of sleep a tempting one. Once in my room, I kicked off my boots and tossed my belt onto a nearby chair. The bed was warm and soft, and I was soon fast asleep, a pair of emerald eyes taunting my dreams.
"I do not wish to yell, merely to understand."
"Slade did not trust you, and you did not trust us."
"You promised."
"But that is all that I know about you."
"So many secrets."
I jerked from my sleep, my brow covered in sweat. Her voice haunted me throughout the night; sweet torture. I buried my head in my hands, trying to push her words away. Why do I recall what she says so easily? I didn't care about Starfire. I don't need her! I don't need anybody!
"I don't need you!" My scream shattered the silence of the early morning, my fist connecting with the cold metal wall. I continued my barrage, ignoring the pain, shouting the same words again and again.
"I don't need you! I don't need you! I don't!"
I sunk to my knees watching a crimson puddle form, the warm liquid dripping slowly from my hand. The pain was intense but I welcomed it, a bitter distraction from the torment of my mind. I sat there a few moments longer allowing my breath to even out. The others, no doubt, heard my yelling. They'll know it's best to leave me alone for the time being, save her.
"Robin?" Right on cue.
"Robin, I heard you yell. Are you undamaged?" I glanced at my hand, before answering.
"I'm fine Star, thanks for checking on me." She didn't say anything more. I was certain she had gone to bed until I felt her hand cover my own. How did she get in without me noticing? I was losing my edge.
"Your hand." I couldn't bear to look at her; I knew what I would see in her eyes. Forgiveness. Forgiveness for lying to her about my injury. I hated that look. How many times had I gotten it before? I wasn't worthy of Starfire's forgiveness.
She didn't speak as she tore the bottom of her nightshirt into strips, wrapping my hand tightly in the violet fabric. I watched intently as my blood slowly changed the soft color to a murky brown.
"You should be more careful while working out, Robin." I didn't move as she stood and floated out of the room with graceful ease. The feeling returned again, stronger now. Her hands were so soft and reassuring, working to cover my wound; her scent so intoxicating, clogging all of my senses.
"Maybe I do need you," I whispered looking down at my now pain free hand.
TBC
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