RATING: R- rape, sexual situations, language, violence

SUMMARY: Set after series 7 Buffy, during Fellowship- Buffy and Giles are sent to Middle Earth when the vampires and demons find a portal from Sunnydale. Buffy offers her services to Lady Galadriel, and soon starts to feel something for Haldir, but when the Fellowship arrive in Lothlórien, Boromir finds something he wants as much as the Ring.

NOTE: I AM SO SORRY I HAVEN'T POSTED ANY NEW CHAPTERS! *gets on knees and begs!* We've just moved house, like two weeks ago and we're in the middle of nowhere! We've only just got the internet, and it's crap internet, and someone's deleted microsoft word off of the laptop which is the only computer which has internet and all my disks are broken! So I am SO sorry! HEHEHEHE! And this is really hard to write because I have no ideas!

CHAPTER EIGHTEEN: Beg me for forgiveness

Haldir pulled Buffy over to the white tree, sat her on one of the unbroken benches, and stood in front of her. She couldn't bare to look up at him.

"Look at me," he said softly.

She blinked away a tear.

"Look at me," he said a little stronger.

Buffy shook her head, the tears threatening to attack.

He put his hand under her chin and pulled her face up to look at him.

"Why do you run and hide?" he asked wiping away her tears as he knelt in front of her. "Do you not trust me?"

"I was afraid I was going to kill you," she said so quietly if he hadn't been an elf he wouldn't have heard her.

"Why?"

"Because everything I touch breaks," she cried and began to weep.

"Hush my little one," he said pulling her into his arms but she pushed away.

"You don't get it," she cried.

"That's right, I don't. I'm not perfect, I can't read minds. Tell me."

"I thought that I would change after it was over. Galadriel said it would be hard living a new life, I thought that my new life wouldn't be as a slayer..."

"Hush..." he said placing his fingers over her lips and drew close to her. He took her hands in his and said, "You once told me, the hardest thing in this world is to live in it- don't give up because you feel something bad, that's not like you."

"I was so afraid I'd lose you... I was the same with Angel... and he left... I thought I would die. And the thought that I would lose you like everything else was too much... I thought that..."

"You don't need to explain, I understand. Buffy, I would love you no matter what. We are destined, for I have seen it. Galadriel and Gandalf have spoken of it."

"I am so glad I met you, I couldn't have done this without you."

"Don't under estimate yourself."

"I'm being serious," she said placing herself on his lap. "You are so special to me. There's no one else I'd rather by my side for the rest of my life than you."

"Just as well we're living forever."

She laughed and softly kissed him on the lips.

"Come," he said as they stood up, "we should go back and make an appearance."

"Wait," she said, "what is happening to us when Galadriel and Celeborn leave?"

"Aragorn has asked that we serve him here in Gondor."

"Aren't you going to miss Lothlorien?"

"Of course I am, but we must farewell it later, first, we must celebrate with our new king."

"I love you Haldir."

"And I you Buffy."

But wait.... there will be more! I PROMISE!