Need

Italics are Bonnie's "inner voice"

'Quote within a quote'

* Author's note at end

Disclaimer: I do not own the characters of Bonnie, her mother, Kim Possible, or the concept of denial. Disney Channel owns the rights to these three characters, and the entire human race owns denial.

I stormed into the house, flinging my bag onto the sofa. A wordless snarl of indignation twisted my features.

"Bon-Bon? Honey, what's wrong?"

"Nothing, Mom," I called, affecting a sweet tone*. "Just had a rough practice."

My mother appeared in the doorway holding a plate. "Do you want a cookie? It'll make you feel better."

I smiled brightly. Falsely, a voice whispered in my head. I ignored it. "No thanks, I wouldn't want to spoil my dinner. I'll just go up to my room and take a shower, maybe have a little nap later."

'Just had a rough practice.' There'd be a lot of those for me now. But I would stay squad captain, and I would show Kim Possible. 'Two weeks' ha! She'd be doing what I told her soon enough, singing my praises like she had today, just like I wanted.

            But why did I want her specifically to sing my praises? That stupid blond kid she hangs out with… Don*? didn't like me either, but it didn't bother me like it did with Kim. Even the seniors respected me, so why did it matter if some green-eyed redhead didn't jump to do my bidding, if her pretty face didn't light up when I deigned to talk to her….no. I did  not  just have that thought, I did not just think Kim Possible was pretty. Even though she really was… NO!

            So why did her praise stay in your head? 'The fundraiser, the fantastic new uniforms, the new cheer!' Why did her respect mean so much?

            I shook my head defiantly. These questions were so stupid! I just needed a nap and a hot shower and they'd go away. And that bitch Kim Possible needed to get her long red hair and big, scornful green eyes out of my head. Yeah, that was all I needed.

*I don't think Bonnie has a good relationship with her mother. I think Bonnie just tries to keep her mother from embarrassing her or really knowing anything about her, and Bonnie's mom is just clueless.

* I also don't think Bonnie pays much attention to Ron; all she knows is he's a blond guy who hangs with Kim. I doubt his name is top on her list of necessary information.