Ch.4 Decision
Rated PG13
Disclaimer: Is it just me or is it cold in here?...Why am I worried abouttemperature? Maybe I'll make it somehow cold in here...Um, that has nothingto do with InuYasha.n.n' I don't own InuYasha like I don't have the power tochange the weather...
A/N: I was a little hyper when I had wrote this chapter and disclaimer. I hadhad a bunch of candy before deciding to write chapter four so if it seems badthem I'm sorry and if it seems good then I should eat a bunch of candy everytime I feel like writing. . By the way, the curse words are written outin this chapter...
Kagura flew back to the castle as the sun started to set, knowing that she would be in trouble. She knew that Naraku knew that she was leaving almost everyday to go somewhere. She wasn't sure though, if he knew that it was to go see Sesshoumaru or not. She was hoping that the answer was 'no.'
Kagura walked down the hall to her and her sister's room. Kanna was in there, gazing out the window, looking at nothing. Kagura stared at her for a moment then walked over towards her futon and sat on it. She then curled up into a ball and buried her head into her knees. Kanna looked over at her.
"What is wrong...Kagura?" Kanna asked. Kagura looked up at her. She wasn't sure how to respond. Kanna continued talking. "Is...it Sesshoumaru?" Kagura twitched at the name.
"I am not sure what's wrong with me...I guess I wanted an answer," Kagura explained. "He just let me leave; didn't even try to stop me..." Kanna walked over towards her.
"I...do not understand... myself." she said. Kagura laughed.
"That is because you are 'nothingness'...You still should have emotions though. I at least think you do," Kagura said teasingly. She stood up and sighed, then sat back down quickly. Kanna smiled faintly. She knew her sister was unsure of what to do and was also unsure of what was annoying her.
"Naraku...will want to speak to you," Kanna whispered. "You are in trouble, dear sister..." Kagura shrugged then layed down on the futon and fell into a deep slumber.
Sesshoumaru looked up at the stars in the sky. He was alone; neither Rin nor Jaken had returned. He was pondering on what Kagura had said. Obviously, what had happened there was a misunderstanding. He had understood Kagura's feelings, he just had wanted to make sure that was what it was. By what he said he had made her angry, making her leave. He had wanted to go after her but that was not his style. Sesshoumaru sighed. I should have answered her...but then she would have wanted me to defeat Naraku for her and that I will not do. Kagura needs to learn how to fight for herself...unless...' Sesshoumaru thought about what Kagura had said. She was planning to escape yet she cannot? What hold does Naraku have on her?' He walked over to a tree and sat down under it. For some reason... I want to see her now...'
Jaken had found Rin who was indeed, with Kohaku. They had gone to a cottage in the woods. Apparently, Kohaku had been staying there. "Jaken-sama, Rin-chan is not leaving!" Rin yelled at the toad, pouting.
"So you're never coming back?" Jaken asked, delighted.
"Rin-chan did not say that," she said. "Rin does not want to leave Kohaku-chan yet." Jaken frowned.
"Well then, I will tell that to Sesshoumaru-sama." he said, turning towards the door. "Come back whatever time you like, I don't care." He opened the door and left. Kohaku looked at Rin who was frowning.
"Rin-chan?" Kohaku said. Rin cocked her head in his direction. "I think you better leave now so you won't get in trouble." Rin shook her head quickly then started talking.
"Don't worry Kohaku-chan. Rin-chan will be okay, Sesshoumaru-sama won't worry. When Rin thinks its time to leave Rin will leave," she explained. She walked over to him and grabbed his arm. "Come on, let's go outside." She dragged Kohaku outside with her. Clutching onto his arm she took him some feet away from the cabin and into a clearing. There, the whole sky was visble, letting them see the stars that lit it up.
"Wow, wow!" Rin exclaimed, flopping to the ground and bringing Kohaku down with her.
"Rin!" Kohaku yelled. Rin giggled and sat up. She then looked down at Kohaku, who was frowning. He then smiled and sat up also. "Thank you, Rin-chan."
"For what?" she asked. "What did Rin do?" She looked at him, puzzled. Kohaku smiled.
"Being my friend; thank you for that, Rin-chan," he said. Rin smiled at him.
"Welcome." She flopped down once again and looked up at the stars. There was silence between them for at least a minute. "Kohaku-chan?"
"Hm?"
"Why haven't you gone to see your sister?" she asked. Kohaku didn't answer right away making Rin speak again. "Kohaku-chan?" Kohaku sighed then looked at her.
"It's not that easy Rin," he muttered.
"What'cha mean?"
"Tommorrow I must return to Naraku...sama. I have to pretend that I don't have my memories back or he'll remove the shard from my back that is keeping me alive,"Kohaku explained. "I'll be free one day, so will Kagura..."
"Why can't Kagura-sama be freed?"
"Because...she is bound to Naraku," he said.
"Huh?"
"I'll explain later..."
Kagura woke up in the middle of the night. She looked around the room to see Kanna sleeping on her own futon. Looking out the window, she saw a sky full of stars. She sat up and grabbed her fan which she had placed beside her futon. I have to leave now. I can't stay cooped up in here any longer...' She knew she had just returned and to leave now would definetly put her life in more danger than it already was.
Kagura tiptoed down the hallway silently. She started to walk past the room Naraku always sat in but was stopped by the sound of a voice.
"My dear Kagura...where do you think you are heading this time of night?" Naraku asked. Kagura turned towards the room.
"I am leaving. Kill me if you must to stop me," Kagura said. "If I can't be free, I'll use every chance I get to sneak away." Naraku frowned.
"So...you are disobeying me, eh, Kagura?" Kagura twitched. She knew what was coming. "I guess I will have to teach you a lesson." In Naraku's hand appeared a beating heart. He closed his hand, squeezing it tightly. Kagura fell to the floor, gasping for air.
"N-...Na-ra...-ku... Damn... ba-stard" She clutched her chest, feeling the pain in her lungs. Naraku smirked.
"You seem to always forget my dear...that I hold your heart in the palm of my hand," he said. "You may go if you wish, but... retrieve Kohaku while you are away." He lets go of the heart and it disappeared. Shaking, Kagura stood up and walked away, leaving the castle.
Feeling sort of shaken up, Kagura decided to walk. It wasn't her style, but at the time she did not care. She was angry and she knew there was nothing she could do about it. I can't be freed from Naraku can I? Sesshoumaru won't help me and there's no way I can fight Naraku if he decides to do that...He holds my life in his hands and there is no way I can be free! I am the wind and I should be free!' She shakes away the thoughts and decides to ponder on what she was supposed to be doing. Naraku told her to do one thing, but she wasn't in the mood for looking for Kohaku. She wanted to go find Sesshoumaru, she needed to find Sesshoumaru. She wanted to go find him even if he did not answer her. He was her comfort…
To her surprise she found Sesshoumaru. She had been walking for some time and somehow ran into him. Sesshoumaru looked up at her when she came into view. He was going to speak but didn't because she spoke first.
"I am glad...to have found you,"she said quietly. Sesshoumaru stood up.
"Kagura, what-"
"You have to free me from Naraku!" Kagura yelled in an outburst. She ran up to a startled Sesshoumaru. He backed up to the tree for she had gotten very close to him. "Please, Sesshoumaru, I beg you to fight Naraku for me!" Kagura wasn't her usual self. She was pleading rather than ordering. Something had happened and he knew it. Sesshoumaru wasn't sure how to respond.
"Why did you choose me?" he simply asked. Kagura opened her mouth to answer but didn't. She shook her head from side to side, confusing Sesshoumaru even more. "Kagura?" Kagura turned away and started to walk but Sesshoumaru grabbed her arm. She stopped and turned to face him. Her scarlet red eyes seem clouded. He let go of her arm then tilted her head up so he could see her eyes. She looked up at him and stared into his eyes, in a daze.
"Sesshoumaru..." Kagura placed her hand against his left cheek. "I am guessing that words are not needed for you." She took her hand away and looked down at the ground then sighed. "I am sorry..." She turned away once more.
"What has happened, Kagura? Why suddenly plead for my help?" Sesshoumaru asked. Kagura did not respond. "Why can you not fight for yourself?" Kagura sighed. She faced him once more. She then took Sesshoumaru's hand and placed it to her chest. "Kagura, what-" He stopped talking.
"I know that you are confused right now, right?" Kagura said. "You hear nothing, no heart beating, not even faintly...That is because there is no heart there to beat." When Kagura said that he pulled his hand away quickly. Sesshoumaru looked away from her. Kagura sighed. "Naraku holds my heart in the palm of his hand. Because of this, I can never be free..."
"That is why you ask me for help...You want me to defeat Naraku so you can be free?" Sesshoumaru asked. "It that the only reason you come to me?" Kagura caught on to what Sesshoumaru meant.
"No! Sesshoumaru, I told you yesterday... You did not answer." Kagura closed her eyes. She let out a loud, long sigh then pulled a feather from her hair.
"So you are just going to leave?" Kagura did not look at him as she got onto the feather. He looked up at her as she started to fly away. I am not letting you get away this time Kagura,' he thought. He started to follow her from below. Kagura looked down and noticed that. She simply ignored him and sped up. Sesshoumaru sped up also.
"Why follow me?" she yelled down to him.
"I do not wish for you to get away from me this time, Kagura," he said loudly. "So I will follow after you until you stop." Kagura smiled.
"This is not like you Sesshoumaru!" she replied, smiling a half smile. Sesshoumaru did not answer. Kagura halted on her feather, making Sesshoumaru stop running abruptly. They were once again near trees. Kagura jumped off of her feather and landed on a tree branch.
Sesshoumaru walked over to the tree and looked up at her. He knew that he would have to persuade her to come down. Kagura looked down at the dog demon and wondered what he was going to do.
"Kagura, why do you flea when you acomplish something?" he asked.
"What do you mean? What did I acomplish?" she replied back, puzzled.
"I was going to give you my answer to your sudden outbursts from the other day," Sesshoumaru said. Kagura said nothing. "Come down." She shook her head, acting once again childish. Sessshoumaru found this amusing.
"If you will not come down, I will make you come down," Sesshoumaru informed her. Kagura wasn't sure how to respond. Is he being serious? What side of Sesshoumaru am I seeing now?' she wondered. I guess I'll obey to see what he does next.'
Kagura jumped down from the tree then leaned on it. Sesshoumaru walks over more. "I did as you told me, Sesshoumaru-sama," she teased. Sesshoumaru did not reply. "I am waiting for an answer."
"I thought you had said earlier that words were not needed for me, Kagura," Sesshoumaru said. Kagura frowned.
"I did but right now-..." Kagura stopped talking as she noticed how close Sesshoumaru had gotten to her. They were now only a few inches apart. Kagura looked up at his golden-yellow eyes, falling into a trance.
"I will give you the answer now," he whispered. Without warning he kissed her softly on the lips. Surprised, her first reaction was to push him away and had at first tried to. Then she kissed him back, giving in. Sesshoumaru pulled away, but Kagura was not letting him go. The second kiss was longer and more passionate. Kagura took her right hand and ran her fingers through his silver hair. He was so close to her that his armor was pushing at her chest. Their lips parted from each others for breath. Kagura was pleased with the sudden moment they had had but then her reaction changed as she looked down at the ground. Sesshoumaru kissed her lightly on the forehead. She sighed.
'Why...why can I not feel overjoyed at this reaction?' she thought. I should feel happy that he loves me back but...'
"Kagura-dono?" he asks quietly, knowing something was wrong. Kagura did not answer, instead she wrappped her arms around Sesshoumaru's neck and rested her head upon his armor. "Kagura, why will you not answer me?"
"Sesshoumaru..." was all she whispered.
"Yes, Kagura?"
"I'm sorry...You- you've made-I'm...I-I just don't know..." Kagura started to cry though she tried hard not to. "I still need to be freed. If I am not-...then...I can not be with you."
Sesshoumaru sighed. He knew what Kagura said was true. If someone did not defeat Naraku soon, she would never be free. Free to be with the one person who cared for her, the one person she cared about. "If you tell me where the castle is, Kagura-dono, I will gladly fight for you." Kagura looked up at him. Several different answers came to mind and she wasn't sure of which one to say. She tried to push him away but Sesshoumaru would not budge.
"It would put your life in danger, my love. I don't want that." She grabbed the sleeve of his kimono. "I should leave, the sun will be rising soon."
"Will Naraku punish you?" he asked.
"Kagura-dono?"
"...Yes, Sesshoumaru. I'm sorry, but if I stay, something far worse will happen. Please understand," Kagura explained. Sesshoumaru took two steps back, giving her space. Kagura grabbed a feather from her hair and left. As she left she said something though."If I do not see you soon...Do not worry, my dear Sesshoumaru..." Sesshoumaru watched her leave, feeling furious with Naraku for the first time.
'I will free you, Kagura. It is a promise...'
Translations to Japanese words
sama - Lord, Lady, Mr., Mrs., Ms. (formal)
chan - friend
dono - respect towards a lady
Tasogare: Well that was an interesting turn of events. I'm not sure if it turned out this way because I was hyper or did it turn out this way because it just did. I wasn't hyper when I typed up the ending ideas though... I do wonder what my betas and you readers are going to say about this chapter...Please review!
Kaze: Also, I'd like to help my stupid hikari on one of the Japanese words. Technically 'chan' is used after a person's name whom you have known for some time. It's like 'san' but in a closer friendlier way... Yeah.
Tasa: Thank you my dear yami. being sarcastic... Don't forget to review!
Ryuu: AND I DID THE PAINSTAKING EDITING :D