Title: Changes
Author: Seadragon
Characters: Sirius Black
Type: Monologue, One-shot
Genre: Angst
Pairings: Implied S/J
Warning: Slash, denial.
Summary: Everything changes. No question about it. But are these changes really good, or do you just make yourself believe that? Sometimes denial is easier to deal with than the truth.
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Different. Everything was different now. But I don't understand it. It shouldn't have changed, what we had was good. It was right. But now its gone, never going to be coming back.
But I don't miss it.
I know you think I'm crazy to say that, I think so too. But now, its almost over, and it would have been worse to end a life before. Now, we aren't quite the same. There is almost respect for the distance.
But we are drifting apart, never to come back. But I'm happy.
Happy. Imagine that. Happy. Me, Sirius Black, happy that I can finally grow up. There is too much danger as a kid. I can escape from it all. And I'm happy.
I love them all, even Lily, despite what she stole from me. What did she steal? You ask. I'll tell you. My youth, my love, and my hope. You may wonder why or how, but it isn't that simple. I'm sure you have heard of James Potter? Well, it begins and ends with him.
Its all different. We've all changed. But you know what? I'm happy damn it.
Author: Seadragon
Characters: Sirius Black
Type: Monologue, One-shot
Genre: Angst
Pairings: Implied S/J
Warning: Slash, denial.
Summary: Everything changes. No question about it. But are these changes really good, or do you just make yourself believe that? Sometimes denial is easier to deal with than the truth.
~
Different. Everything was different now. But I don't understand it. It shouldn't have changed, what we had was good. It was right. But now its gone, never going to be coming back.
But I don't miss it.
I know you think I'm crazy to say that, I think so too. But now, its almost over, and it would have been worse to end a life before. Now, we aren't quite the same. There is almost respect for the distance.
But we are drifting apart, never to come back. But I'm happy.
Happy. Imagine that. Happy. Me, Sirius Black, happy that I can finally grow up. There is too much danger as a kid. I can escape from it all. And I'm happy.
I love them all, even Lily, despite what she stole from me. What did she steal? You ask. I'll tell you. My youth, my love, and my hope. You may wonder why or how, but it isn't that simple. I'm sure you have heard of James Potter? Well, it begins and ends with him.
Its all different. We've all changed. But you know what? I'm happy damn it.