It's Not Fair
This entire story is based on random thoughts that I had after the end of the 1st series. I haven't written before and this story happens to be my first attempt. I've spent a lot of time online (not good, cause I use vsnl. Sigh! How I long for cable net………) reading other stories and trying to decide what I wanted to do with a story when I ultimately wrote it. I generally prefer not to write fan fiction cause it's much harder to go along set patterns of a story than come up with something completely new and off the top of your head. I read a bunch of stories and I have to admit to worshipping some of the authors I've found. I wanted to wait to write so that when I ultimately came up with a story it would be original and not just a repeat of something that someone else wrote. So, this is my effort. Try not to be too harsh with me… I'm new (puppy dog eyes). If this story is a repeat of what anyone else has written, I'm sorry but I can't think of anything else so I'm going ahead with it anyway.
Disclaimer: - I do not own any of these characters. Don't sue me cause my Dad's a really mean lawyer and I'll sic him on you.
Chapter one
It's been two years since I met him again. My warrior… my protector. I almost can't believe that our love was actually strong enough to re-unite us outside the book. I knew that we loved each other with all our hearts but I didn't really think we would be given the chance that was denied the Byakko no miko and her love. I mean, what made us so different? Suzaku may be the God of love but I don't really think that Byakko would be mean enough to just stand by and make them suffer through all those years apart if it was possible to reunite them. And they surely suffered just as much as we did, if not more. So, the question is..… Why us? Why did we get the chance to be united in the real world?
Two years and I still haven't figured out the answer. I guess I'm afraid to look too deeply, to find out that it may have just been a mistake and that he's going to be taken away from me, back into the book. I don't think I'd survive being separated from him this time round. I know that I'm strong enough to survive anything but I don't think I would come out of that disaster whole. I know that he's not worried. He barely remembers that life. His memories center more on me – protecting me, loving me. When I tried to remind him of the others with subtle hints he looked at me like I was crazy. Of course claiming that I was scared of the water and then trying to set him on fire would have made anyone think I was a little insane. Or the time that I spent three hours in front of the mirror on one of our dates exclaiming over my beauty. To be fair though, he didn't get much of a chance to voice his reaction over Keisuke's laughter. I still have to get him back for that one…
So what makes us so different? I guess I'll never know. At one time I would have asked Yui but our friendship still seems strained. While I don't blame her at all, I get the feeling that she's still afraid that one day I'll turn around and lash out at her. And her scars don't help at all. I tried pretending like nothing had happened but all she would do then was sit in the corner of the room quietly and rub at her wrists or touch her ear where that little blue stud still sits. That blue-eyed bastard really did a number or her. I wish I could go back and change all of that. I'd never have taken my uniform off, never! But I can't change the past. I know that seeing me with Taka can't be easy either. I mean, I came out of that book whole, with my best friend and the love of my life by my side. What did she get? Not much other than bad memories. Still, at least she's making some progress. She smiles more now and she's finally agreed to go out with Tetsuya. Maybe it'll all be better soon.
I can't help wondering though… why were we so different? I guess I'll never know…