Disclaimer: I don't own Yu gi oh

Warning this is a tearjerker

~~If Tomorrow Never Comes~~

The sky was a bright brilliant blue

The sun shone in all its dazzling glory upon the earth that pulsated with life all around me

It was so beautiful, so alive and so...

wrong

I thought when someone died the world was supposed to mourn with you

The clouds were supposed to be as black as my grief

The rain to pour down from the heavens as fast and as furious as the tears down my face

Everyone else's lives to stop as mine had stopped and comfort me until I was ready to continue in this world

But no

That's not what the world does

The world continues to turn even when I don't want it to

The minutes still tick by as my existents continues. Even if all I want to do is curl up into a ball and join you in the afterlife.

I was so shocked when they told me you had passed away I couldn't move

I kept thinking they had made a mistake, it wasn't you

I waited for someone to tell me it wasn't true

For you to show up and tell me it was all a cruel joke

But you never did

The morning after I woke up and convinced myself it was just a horrible nightmare I went downstairs and was confronted with silence

Deathly silence

I screamed and screamed till my throat was raw I screamed at the unfairness of it all

Why you of all people, one who was so generous and caring and loving.

Then I cried I cried till I felt I shed enough tears to last a lifetime

Cried because you were gone and I hadn't said all that I wanted to say to you

I didn't tell you I loved you enough

Didn't thank you fully for taking me into your home and raising me

I never even got to say goodbye

Now it's too late

I cry for that to, cry for all the things you won't be here to see me do

You won't be there as I become a man as you died two months shy of my eighteenth birthday

You'll never see me graduate or get married or meet my children

I shivered despite the heat of the day, your death leaving a void in my heart

I slowly approach your grave placing three roses on the freshly turned up earth

White, your purity

Red, my love for you

Yellow, our friendship

Two teardrops fall onto the pedals

I brush my sleeve against my eyes to prevent more from falling

I know you wouldn't want me to be like this so depressed, so melancholy

You would want me to be happy

You always said you loved my smile

You said it made the whole room light up like a Christmas tree

I smile a sad half smile at the memories

Memories are all I have of you now

But they are good memories, memories that I won't let die

For if I let them be forgotten then you have lived in vain

I will carry you with me until my dying day

And between now and that day I will live

Live everyday to the fullest so maybe I will one day be half the man you were

Never putting off for tomorrow what I could do today

Because I never know when tomorrow won't come anymore

You're gone

But life goes on

"Goodbye Grandpa"

**End**

This is done in loving memory of my Auntie Anne who passed away on the
night of November 6, 2003

May she find eternal happiness with The Father

And may she know that:

I love you

And

I'll miss you