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Here I am. Is this what the world has brought me to? A tower? I look over the side, trying not to cry. The rain washes over me, trying to rid my body of all the pain. But it doesn't work for the pain is inside. I'm so lonely. Would you believe it? Probably.

God, I want to get out of here!! Rid myself of theses nameless shackles!! Unleash myself, break free, feel life! But I can't here, it's impossible. Thunder booms in the distance, almost in tune with my slowly breaking heart. Harry. I thought him of all people would help me. He knows what it's like to be lonely. He was for 10 years of his life with those muggles. But no, as soon as he found friends, he wasn't lonley. He didn't care who was lonely. He didn't care that I was lonely.

'You could have helped me Harry!' I screamed into the silence 'But now it's too late!!!' Tears poured from my eyes, like the rain around me. I wanted to die. To feel peace after years of pain. To sleep forever. it sounded so blisful. Which is why I'm here tonight. getting ready to jump into the silky darkness.

And as I looked up into the heavens, waiting for God to open his arms to me, I heard a noise.

'Gin! What are you doing?' It was him. Harry.

'Go away, Harry! Leave me be!' I said climbing up onto the edge. 'I just want to sleep, to feel peace for once. But you can't even give me that, can you?'

'Gin! Don't jump, you have so much to live for!' He said, running to me, offering his hand.

'No, I don't!!! I can't live with the pain anymore!! I can't! I'm so lonely, it's unbearable!' I screamed at him, refusing to take his hand. I stood up on the ledge, and turned around so that my back is facing him, my wet eyes looking into the blissful black.

'How can you be lonely? You are surrounded by people who love you!' I refused to answer him. 'Gin!' He said, his voice panicky 'I -i love you! Please don't leave me. You're my escape to the loneliness too!' I turned around and looked into his green eyes. He looked so sincere and scared. Maybe he did understande me. maybe I wasn't alone after all. Maybe he was right there with me all along, knew what I was going through.

Maybe.

I couldn't speak, as relization dawned on me. Memories were flashing back to me. The long days and nights we would talk, just talk about anything. The time we had danced at the ball. I thought he was doing that to be nice to me, or for Ron, Was it something more for him? For me? Nodding my head, I started to climb down.

But the rain, the rain, had made it so slippery!

My foot slipped and I fell into the inky darkness. As I fell through the darkness I could hear Harry's anguished scream, the last thing I heard, the last thing I would ever hear.

It's too late to do anything, but somehow, I think it was never too early. And as I fell through the darkness, I wondered.

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