Howdy!
A/N: Ok this takes place at the after-the-fight scene in "Keg! Max!" Pretty much starts out with Rory saying 'Jess' and its just what Jess is thinking when they show his face.
Disclaimer: Dont own nothing. Cept my CDs and my books. You CANT have them. They're mine. All mine. Unfortunantly, Jess isnt. -sigh- Oh well. Beggers cant be choosers. Or something like that.
Anyways, on with show! ... erm ... story.
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"Jess"
I looked to Rory, hearing so much more then just the one word as she said my name.
I cant believe just this happened. It seems like all the other people are gone, its just me and Rory, and I cant help but stare into her eyes.
Her emotions right there, dissapointment, confusion, and the one I cant stand.
The one I wished she never had to feel.
Hurt.
I cant stand that I had caused it. I made her hurt.
Of course I didnt want to do 'it'. I wanted it to be ... special. If I was even with her long enough to. I wanted it to be something she would love, remember. Candles, roses, sappy music. The whole deal.
Yet there I was, one step away from having sex with her at a kegger. A fricken kegger.
God I'm an idiot.
I dont know why, but so some reason I just cant look away from her eyes. I cant stop. I want to. Or at least it would make more sense wouldnt it? But the thing is, I dont. Because I know that shes right. She should be feeling this.
I did the stupidest thing, and I cant even appoligize.
I yelled at her.
I yelled at her for not having sex with me. Of course I know thats not true, I'm not that much of a jackass.
Alot on my mind. I cant even take her to the prom, the one thing she wants to do.
Everyone in this damn town is right.
Everythings true.
I should leave.
I shouldnt have even tried to go after the town princess. The one girl who didnt think that I couldnt do anything with myself. The one person who believed in me.
She looks away for the slightest moment, seeing Lane, but thats all I need. I make the quick exit and hope I'm gone before she looks back.
Hope she doesnt see what was on my face.
Hope she didnt see my emotions in my eyes.
Hope she didnt hate me as much as I hate myself.
A/N: Ok this takes place at the after-the-fight scene in "Keg! Max!" Pretty much starts out with Rory saying 'Jess' and its just what Jess is thinking when they show his face.
Disclaimer: Dont own nothing. Cept my CDs and my books. You CANT have them. They're mine. All mine. Unfortunantly, Jess isnt. -sigh- Oh well. Beggers cant be choosers. Or something like that.
Anyways, on with show! ... erm ... story.
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"Jess"
I looked to Rory, hearing so much more then just the one word as she said my name.
I cant believe just this happened. It seems like all the other people are gone, its just me and Rory, and I cant help but stare into her eyes.
Her emotions right there, dissapointment, confusion, and the one I cant stand.
The one I wished she never had to feel.
Hurt.
I cant stand that I had caused it. I made her hurt.
Of course I didnt want to do 'it'. I wanted it to be ... special. If I was even with her long enough to. I wanted it to be something she would love, remember. Candles, roses, sappy music. The whole deal.
Yet there I was, one step away from having sex with her at a kegger. A fricken kegger.
God I'm an idiot.
I dont know why, but so some reason I just cant look away from her eyes. I cant stop. I want to. Or at least it would make more sense wouldnt it? But the thing is, I dont. Because I know that shes right. She should be feeling this.
I did the stupidest thing, and I cant even appoligize.
I yelled at her.
I yelled at her for not having sex with me. Of course I know thats not true, I'm not that much of a jackass.
Alot on my mind. I cant even take her to the prom, the one thing she wants to do.
Everyone in this damn town is right.
Everythings true.
I should leave.
I shouldnt have even tried to go after the town princess. The one girl who didnt think that I couldnt do anything with myself. The one person who believed in me.
She looks away for the slightest moment, seeing Lane, but thats all I need. I make the quick exit and hope I'm gone before she looks back.
Hope she doesnt see what was on my face.
Hope she didnt see my emotions in my eyes.
Hope she didnt hate me as much as I hate myself.