You
Disclaimer: If I owned the WWE, or any of these people, do you think I'd be
writing this fan fiction? I don't own them, I wished I owned them though...
But doesn't everybody! And I don't own the poem, if you read who it's by
you'll know.
Author's note: It's really bad, I know it is, and if you don't like Jeff/
Trish, don't read.
Amy = Lita
You comfort me better than any chair, bed, room, or house---
You amaze me more than any facts, stories, truths, or lies---
You enhance me more than any drug, drink, pill, or powder---
You predict me better than any parent, coach, counselor, or teacher---
You season me better than any salt, pepper, winter, or summer---
You entertain me more than any movie, show, song, or competition---
You control me better than any school, job, jail, or prison---
You love me more than any person, God, business, or existence---
In my existence..............Believe............I do
In our existence.............I live...........for you
~ " You" Jeffrey Nero Hardy
Jeff rolled over to the other side off his empty cold bed. It had been one month, three weeks, four days, 6 hours, 24 minutes, since Beth left Jeff. It was 3:24 in the morning. He couldn't sleep. He kept remembering the night. It was exactly 9:00. Jeff was dressed up in his nicest suit. It was gray without a tie and he had on a white button up shirt. He had dyed his hair completely blond for her, and combed it back into a nice ponytail. He took her to a nice Italian resturant. He had also brought her a diamond bracelet. She walked into the resturant, and walked out of his life. He was devestated. It was like he was stabbed a million times in his heart. He didn't want her to see him break down and cry. He didn't want her to see that she hurt him, that was what she wanted. At least that's what it seemed like. He couldn't hold most of it in though. Once one tear fell out, others followed staining his red face. She didn't even wipe a tear away. She didn't even try. It was as if she didn't care at all, as if there wasn't an ounce of care for him, or hope for them. She didn't care at all for him. Jeff then threw up his head. He didn't bother wipe away his tears.
" Fine! I'll be better without you!" He yelled. She turned. She heard his words. She wasn't sure if he ment it or not. She walked back. She looked up into his greenish-reddish eyes.
" Jeffrey, don't get me wrong, I still love you, we just aren't ment to be. It doesn't work at all and you knew it, I knew it, everyone knew it from the start. Everyone knew that we wouldn't last." She tried to touch Jeff's face, but he moved away her hand.
" We've gotten this far, why stop now. Why?" Jeff asked. He voice sounded choaked up from holding in his tears. She didn't answer she just walked away. She never came back. Jeff left soon after she did and went back to his own empty home. There he let out everything. His sorrow, his hate, his pain, his anger, his suffering. Everything had unleashed from his body. After it happened he felt empty. Emotionless. He felt as if he was a dead body. He used to belive his life was perfect. He used to think nothing could make things bad. He used to think he lived for someone. But now, he lived for no one, so all his dreams of a perfect life were gone and Jeff knew, they were never coming back.
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" Jeff, you can't let this hurt you." Amy said trying to cheer the sad Jeff Hardy that lay before her. She couldn't bear to see him this way.
" Yeah, Amy's right. This is probably what she wants. Anyway, how long has it been-"
" One month, three weeks, four days, twelve hours, and nineteen minutes." Jeff said, cutting off his older brother Matt. Matt rolled his eyes at how pathetic his brother Jeff was. Jeff didn't care though, because he couldn't agree more.
" Why are you going to keep track of something like this. I thought you forgot about her a long time ago." Amy said wondering why now he would start to act this way. Jeff leaned over his bed to his nightstand. He opened a drawer with a bunch of paper in it. He showed them an invitation.
" Because she's getting married. Why did she invite me?" Jeff asked. Amy shrugged giving Matt his cue to jump in and give an answer.
" Maybe she thought you two were still friends. Maybe she thought you two could still talk and come to each other's weddings and stuff?" Matt said trying to help with his very stupid words of wisdom. Jeff looked at him with a raised eyebrow.
" That was a lame answer Matt," Jeff said lifting his head from the pillow he was lying on. He smiled a little.
" See Jeff? You're smiling! You don't need her! You guys can be friends. Now are you going to the wedding, cause we are." Amy said with her arms crossed over her chest.
" You guys were invited too?" Jeff asked.
" Actually I was asked to be one of her bridesmaids." Amy said nervously.
" You accepted?" Jeff asked.
" Of course! It's her wedding. It's a happy day of her life. Of course I going to say yes." Amy said matter of factly. Jeff sighed. A happy day of her life. A dreaded day of his life.
" Fine, I call today and tell her I'm coming." Jeff said sighing heavily. He didn't really didn't want to go, but he would never hear the end of it from Amy, if he refused.
" With who exactly?" Matt asked.
" Matt..." Amy said through her teeth.
" I guess... I don't know," Jeff said trying to think of all the people he could go with. There weren't exactly many people to choose from.
" You know what, we'll leave and you try and think of someone to bring to the wedding. Come on Matt." Amy said pulling Matt out of the room. Jeff sat back and thought. Who would he bring to an ex-girlfriend's wedding?
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" This inter- gender tag-team match is scheduled for one fall, making his way to the ring, weighing in at 215 pounds, from Cameron, North Carolina JEFF HARDY!" Jeff came out to his music. This was only his third match since he had returned from his long deserved vacation that he spent sulking around in his house. He though he was going to be spending that whole vacation with Beth when he scheduled it, but the break up lead to a vacation of nothing to take his mind off the pain. " And introducing his partner, from Toronto, Canada, Trish Stratus!" Patricia came down the ramp to where Jeff was. Jeff sat on the ropes so it would be easier for Patricia to get in the ring. She smiled and got into the ring.
" A real gentleman that Jeff Hardy," J.R. said.
" Just the kind of man a diva like Trish would want! He's nice, loyal, willing to do anything. Basically a man slave for Trish to play with!" King commented.
" Well Jeff knows when the line is crossed, I think." J.R. commented.
" Now making their way to the ring Steven Richards and Victoria!" They got into the ring and as usual Steven hugged Victoria's legs.
" Now this guy's a man slave. He's willing to go to hell for this crazed woman." J.R. said as Steven wrapped his arms around Victoria as if he was protecting her from something. The match took up about ten minutes before Jazz, Rodney Mack, and Theodore Long decided to come out and beat the shit out of Patricia, Jeff, Victoria and Steven. They didn't quite get to Victoria and Steven. Jazz had gone straight for Patricia and Rodney straight for Jeff. Rodney slammed Jeff onto the floor, and Jazz had used the chicken wing on Patricia causing her a lot of pain, and slamming her down on to the mat.
" I'm the BITCH!" Jazz screamed once she was done with Patricia. Jeff ran into the ring to help his on-screen "girlfriend". They were left in the ring alone. Jeff helped Patricia out the ring and when they got to the ramp he kissed her forehead as if he was trying to heal her pain. Once they got backstage Patricia quickly walked away, but Jeff wanted to speak to her, so he used something that would annoy her to get her attention.
" Hey Pat," Jeff called. She turned to him and walked over.
" Jeff you know I hate it when people call me that," She said smiling at him and playfully pushing him. Jeff smiled at her as he stepped closer to her.
" Exactly why I used it. Hey, I was wondering would you do me a huge favor?" He asked.
" Depends Jeff, what is it?"
" Well my ex is having a wedding and..."
" You want me to be your date to this wedding right?" Jeff shook his head up and down. To indicate that she was right. " No Jeff, I'm not going to interfere. Amy told me all about how you and this Beth girl broke up, how you mope about her and everything, and how now, she invites you to her wedding. Sorry Jeff but I'm not going to do it."
" But Patricia, I need a date and I think you're the only eligible woman, and the only available woman who is worth going out with! To the wedding at least. I mean you're attractive, smart, funny," Jeff said complementing her.
" Jeff your flattery isn't going to work this time. Not going and that's it... Jeff, I can't do it. It's just wrong." Patricia said not giving in.
" What's wrong I just want you to come to the wedding with me!" Jeff complained.
" Hello? Jeff I'm not stupid. Obviously you're gonna use me to possibly get Beth back." Trish said using common sense.
" I know, but... Please?" Jeff asked.
" No." She said simply.
" Come on! Please!" Jeff was practically begging now. Patricia rolled her eyes as Jeff got on one knee. People were staring now, thinking that maybe Jeff had proposed to Trish.
" Fine Jeff, I know I'm going to regret this later, but if you're that desperate, fine I'll go with you." She said quietly. Jeff smiled and got off his knee. He then kissed and hugged her.
" No Patricia, you won't regret it I promise. Come to my house tonight okay? Bye!" Patricia rolled her eyes once again as Jeff ran off.
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Patricia knocked on Jeff's door. Jeff rushed down the stairs. He opened the door. He smiled. He kissed her on her cheek as a welcome and hugged her. He took her bags and put them into the guestroom. Patricia sat on the couch.
" Okay, this is the plan tomorrow we pick out a dress, and make-up and-"
" Jeff, Jeff, slow down. We should get comfortable first. Get to know each other better then we do now." She said, putting a finger to Jeff's lips. Jeff's eyes opened wide at her statement.
" How, what do you mean by get to know each other better?" Jeff asked.
" We're going to be staying with each other for a while... The wedding's this weekend and we're leaving Wednesday. We should get to know each other better then we already do." Patricia smiled sweetly.
" Well, I uh, I um..." Jeff was lost for words. Patricia moved closer to him as he moved back.
" Okay, Jeff. How much do you love Beth?" She asked.
" More then life, more then anything." Jeff said as she moved back.
" Okay, then we should get to know each other. I Know women, I am one so I know how they think. I dated you so this should be a little easier. I have a plan to get you Beth back so you can be happy again." Patricia said getting up. " Okay Jeff, stand up."
" Why?"
" Just stand up!"
" What are you gonna do to me?" He asked curiously.
" STAND UP GOD DAMMIT BEFORE I HAVE TO KICK YOUR ASS!" She yelled. Jeff immediately jumped up, in fear that if he didn't; her head might start to spin. She was such a small lady, but she had a lot of energy and power in her. Personally, Jeff was afraid of her and actually, she terrified him. " Okay Jeff, now I'm going to be a random person at the wedding, and you're going to be yourself. Pretend that we're at the wedding. Someone asks you who I am. Okay, what do you say?"
" My friend-"
" Ok stop right there. You want Beth back right? So, you say something else! Like girlfriend or whatever. Okay let's start again. Hey Jeff, who is this lady you're with?" Patricia asked.
" What lady?"
" Jeffrey!" Patricia said, " stop kidding around this isn't funny!"
" Alright, this is my new stripper, porn star girlfriend." Jeff said smirking. He obviously knew he was pissing her off.
" No I'm not! Jeff stop it!" Patricia complained.
" I know your not, you're the random person at the wedding." Jeff said being a pain in the neck.
" Jeffrey Nero Hardy! I wrestle, not strip!" Patricia said putting her hands on her hips.
" I just think a stripper girlfriend is a lot more interesting." Jeff said truthfully. Patricia pounced on Jeff. He was on the floor. She sat on his stomach.
" Oh really Jeff? You want a stripper for a girlfriend?" Patricia said taking off her sweater. She stood over him slowly taking off every piece of clothing until she was in her pink underwear. She danced around the room. Jeff's eyes went wherever she did. She then pushed him down into a chair and sat on his lap. Then Jeff's mouth dropped.
" Don't turn around. Whatever you do don't you dare turn around." Jeff whispered. He held her head so she wouldn't turn.
" Why?" Patricia asked trying to loosen her head from Jeff's grip.
" Amy, Matt, right behind us," Jeff said. Patricia's laughed.
" Jeff stop kidding," she said shaking her head vigorously.
" No we're really here." Patricia turned around to see Matt with his arms crossed over his chest. Amy was laughing. It was Matt's voice that alarmed Patricia. She jumped off of Jeff's lap.
" I uh, excuse me... I'm very sorry, please for give me!" And Patricia immediately went up to Jeff's room. Jeff sat there with his mouth wide open. He didn't know what to say.
" You had a good time tonight, didn't you Jeff?" Amy said smirking at him. Matt rolled his eyes.
" What happened to the super depressed, sorry, can't go on living, little brother from yesterday?" Matt asked. Amy glared at Matt.
" Matt he got over it. We should be happy for him!" Amy said trying to make happy vibes, instead of the angry ones Matt was sending out.
" That quickly? I know Jeff, that's not how things are." Matt said explaining things to Amy.
" Maybe Patricia was exactly what he was looking for. We should at least be happy for him and not upset that he's happy." Amy said making a point.
" Did you not just see the same thing I did?" Matt asked. They were now fighting.
" I saw Jeff having a good time! You can't run his life Matt! You can't choose who he falls in love with!" Amy said getting in Matt's face.
" I'm not trying to run his life! I know my brother and he doesn't like her! He doesn't get over things that quickly Amy!" Matt yelled. Jeff was getting tired of them fighting so much, so he went upstairs to his room. Patricia was on his bed crying.
" P-Patricia?" He said nervously. She looked up at him. Her eyes were red. He smiled at her and sat on the bed next to her. She hugged him. " Patricia why are you crying?" He asked.
" I don't know. I just got so nervous when I got up here I started crying." She said as Jeff wiped away her tears. He smiled at her. Patricia smiled a little. " Um, Jeff? Could you get my clothes from downstairs?" She asked.
" Sure." Jeff went downstairs. Matt and Amy were no longer fighting, now they were hugging. Jeff picked up Patricia's clothes from the floor and gave them a weird look.
" Hey, little bro, could I talk to you for a second?" Matt said as he released himself from Amy. Jeff looked at the clothes in his arms and then upstairs.
" I have to get these to Patricia." Jeff said trying to leave, but Matt gripped his shoulder so he couldn't leave.
" Just a quick talk. Come on." Jeff followed his older brother outside. Once the door was closed, Matt hugged Jeff. Jeff tried to escape his brother's embrace.
" MATT! Lemme go! I don't wanna hug my brother! Get offa me!" Jeff yelled bringing out the inner-child in him ( well the one who doesn't like getting hugged by his big brother anyway).
" I'm sorry dude, I'm just so happy for you!" Matt said almost crying he was so happy.
" Matt, stop it. You're scaring me." Jeff said backing away afraid that the next thing he was gonna do was kiss him.
" You're finally over it lil' bro! You got Pat now! She can cook, she's beautiful, she's intelligent, did I mention she can cook! You're doing well now Jeff. You finally have someone that you might stay with for awhile. Someone that will care for you no matter what and knows you really well. Someone that I know will stay by your side and someone that will stay true. She's not perfect, but she's close. Jeff you're really lucky. You should be thankful for having Pat in your life. Again anyway." Matt said putting a hand on his younger brother's shoulder.
" That's a great speech Matt, but right now, I have to attend to some unfinished business so um, bye." Jeff said turning around to leave.
" Unfinished business eh lil' bro? Protection, protection, protection." Matt said smirking
" Gr! Whatever Matt!" Jeff went back up stairs. Oh great. Now Matt thought Patricia was his girlfriend, so now he was going to tell Amy. And Amy would tell Lillian, Lillian would tell Terri, and Terri would tell every living soul...
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Patricia woke up next to Jeff. He looked so cute sleeping. She was wearing his Jeremy McGrath T-shirt. She then decided to sit on Jeff. So, she sat on him and then pinched his cheek as hard as she could. He woke up yelling at her.
" PAT!" He yelled annoyed, "what'd you do that for?"
" You just looked so cute, I couldn't resist! And don't call me Pat!" She laughed. Jeff smiled rubbing his cheeks. He wasn't the only cute one around here. Patricia got off of him to let him take control of himself again. She laid on her side of the bed as Jeff got up.
" We have to leave at about 1:30. We have to look for a dress for you to wear to the wedding." Jeff said taking out a shirt and pants.
" A dress? We have to look for a dress? How about I look for a dress." She said getting out of the bed also. She walked over to Jeff to wait for him to answer.
" Well, I thought we could do this together as a get to know each other thing. Also if I'm paying for it, I don't trust that you will come back with just a dress." Jeff suggested nicely. Patricia smiled.
" We know each other Jeff." She said smiling.
" Yeah, but we don't know each other." Jeff said nervously.
"Oh!" Patricia said finally noticing what he meant. " I guess we don't know each other... Like that anyway." She said sitting on the bed.
" Patricia, to make this work, I have to pretend that I'm with you, pretend that I'm in love with you. I love you but, not that way which we should, and but, it's hard cause I love Beth, but I love you too, just not that way even though I have too and..." Patricia put a finger to his lips. She kissed him on the cheek.
" I'm going in the shower now ok?" Jeff nodded his head and Patricia went into the shower. He then went downstairs. God, she was beautiful. Maybe Matt had a point, but then again, Patricia was like Jeff's best friend! He wouldn't go out with her! That'd be disgusting!
" Hey, are you going shopping today?" Jeff turned around to see Matt.
" Uh, yeah." Jeff replied knowing Matt was gonna ask for something.
" Maybe me and Amy could go with you?" Matt asked hopping Jeff would say yes.
" But, we..." Jeff complained.
" I know, but it was Amy's idea. She said her and Patricia need to talk. Girl stuff and that they needed to be in a certain 'environment'." Matt said intruding and biting his lip. Jeff sighed.
" Fine! But Right after Amy does what she has to do, you guys leave!" Jeff said upset that he and Patricia wouldn't have a lot of alone time..
" Thanks," Matt said smiling. He then left. What was Jeff doing?
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" Ooo! Amy! Look at these!" Patricia said pointing to a dress in one of the windows. They ran over to a nice dress in the window.
" You wanna go in here now?" Jeff asked.
" Uh huh!" Patricia and Amy went in. Matt and Jeff went inside after. A woman greeted them.
" Hi, can I help you?" She asked.
" I um, were ah, dress." Jeff said tripping over his words. He was looking at Amy and Patricia trying on veils. Matt rolled his eyes.
" What he's trying to say is he needs to find a dress for his ahem, girlfriend..." Matt said smirking. Jeff pushed him.
" Which one... The red head or the blond one?" The lady asked.
" Blond." Matt replied.
" I have the perfect dress you guys wait here in the waiting room. She'll be out in a few minutes." The lady went to talk to Patricia while Matt and Jeff waited.
" God, there's sure a lot of wedding dresses in here." Matt said looking around.
" Yeah, what did Amy want to talk to Patricia about?" Jeff asked.
" All Amy said was that it was an update on what each Jeff-girlfriend should know. I know, It's crazy." Matt said laughing.
" Jeff-girlfriend? What the hell is that?" Jeff asked.
" Someone who's your girlfriend, doh! I'm happy for you Jeff, you've finally grown up." Matt said punching his shoulder. Jeff rubbed his shoulder and looked away from Matt. Matt was really proud of his little brother, Jeff knew that, but when Matt was proud of him, he took it so far where he wouldn't miss a moment to mention it.
He wished he'd miss a moment, that way, there was less pain and hugging.
" Dude, Jeff you won't believe what I'm lookin' at." Matt stated. Jeff lifted his head up. Patricia looked absolutely stunning. She had on a white wedding dress and a veil on her head. The dress was designed so there were white sewn on fabric lines and Jeff could tell she had a corset on. The neck was really low and was sleeveless. She had on white gloves that were embroidered with flowers.
" She's, she's, beautiful." Jeff said without thinking. The lady smiled.
" Can't wait to see her walk down the isle in this one huh?" The lady said fixing the dress a little to make it seem more appealing. Jeff couldn't say a word. He wanted to say they weren't getting married and that this was for a wedding to attend, but Jeff was speechless. Matt nudge hum but it was no use! Jeff was stunned. He was thinking about marriage and it wasn't exactly as beautiful as Patricia was now. Finally, Matt spoke up for his little brother.
" I'm sorry Miss, they aren't getting married, we're going to a wedding, they're looking for a dress for her to wear to the wedding." Matt explained.
" Oh! Then I'll go find another dress..."
" No! I mean I really like the dress Jeff! Please can we use this dress! It's beautiful!" Patricia begged. Jeff snapped out of it.
" But the dress is so expensive and we don't need the veil and it looks too much like a wedding dress." Jeff said examining the dress. Matt sighed and pulled Jeff aside.
" Jeff, Jeff, Jeff... Get her the dress! Look at how happy she is in it. You know how disappointed she'd be without it?" Matt said putting a hand on Jeff's shoulder. Jeff sighed.
" Fine! Get the dress Patricia, but you should know this is your birthday/Christmas gift!" Jeff said upset that he was spending so much money. She did look great in it though, and it gave Jeff the chills how beautiful she was in it. Patricia was thrilled. Jeff could tell that she was because she wouldn't stop talking about the dress.
" Jeff! Look over here!" Patricia brought him over to a Candy store.
" What?" Jeff asked walking over. Patricia put on puppy dog eyes.
" Pretty Please Jeff?" Patricia begged.
" We have enough sweets back home to last you the rest of the week you don't need that! I'm not getting that for you Patricia." Jeff said crossing his arms over his chest. He wasn't going to give in this time. He was going to stand his ground and not be tricked into getting her the lollypop.
" Yeah but look at that huge lollypop! Isn't it pretty?" Patricia said begging. Jeff sighed he looked over at Matt who was giving him a look of disapproval. Jeff had to give in he had no choice.
" Fine!" Jeff said groaning.
" I promise Jeff, this will be the last thing!" Patricia said squealing.
Jeff had a feeling this wasn't.
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By the time Jeff had gotten home he had spent over 500 dollars on Patricia not counting the dress. Jeff didn't even want to think of how much the dress was. He sat on the bed as Patricia tried on the clothes that Jeff had got her. She was now wearing a White mini skirt with a black short sleeve top.
" What do you think Jeff?" Patricia asked turning so he could see.
" I still think you should wear the Jean skirt, the white shirt with the definition of blond and the Jean jacket." Jeff said smiling. " But, anything would look fine. You look great in all the clothes Patricia. And you should after all the money I spent on you."
" Yeah, I guess, but I want to make a good impression. I'm meeting your ex- girlfriend." Patricia said changing out of the clothes to put on Jeff's jersey once again.
" You look fine just the way you are. Why should you worry?" Jeff asked. Patricia shrugged.
" I guess I wanna look good so you can be happy again." Patricia smiled. Jeff smiled back.
" Thanks. That's really nice of you to think that." Patricia blushed.
" That's what friends are for Jeff! Didn't you know that? I only want the best for you Jeff. And if you want, if you need someone, if you need Beth to be happy, then that's what you should have." Patricia was tripping over her words, but she tried to hide it from Jeff.
" Patricia can I ask you a question?" Jeff asked.
" Of course Jeff." Patricia said glad he made no comment about what she had said.
" Are you happy?" Patricia was stunned. She had never thought about it before.
" What do you mean?" She asked.
" You try so hard to make everyone else is happy, you make sure everything's ok, you help them out of problems, you do so much, you do too much. I can see it Trish, and no one ever knows how you feel. Are you truly happy? Can you say that you're happy and believe it?" Jeff asked. Patricia thought. Jeff was right she did do a lot.
" I can't say that I'm happy and believe it. Making people happy makes me happy most of the time but, the happiness is only temporary and sometimes it makes me think of how happy I might not be." Patricia paused, " what I'm trying to say is, that I help people with a lot of problems with love because some people think I'm an expert, but I wonder if I am, because it's been so long since I truly felt that I was in love. One of the last people I was ever in love with was you, and I don't even know if that was really love. How can I be able to have other people in love, when I can't even be in love myself?" Patricia's eyes almost filled with tears, but she didn't want Jeff to feel bad or to become sad because of her. She laid her head on Jeff's shoulder to hide her tears from him, but he still knew she was crying, and he didn't want her to cry so he held her until they both fell asleep
********** Patricia, I want you to be happy, I want you to truly be happy. **********
Argg! It's horrible it's horrible! But anyway please read and review, flame me praise me, whatever. Two reviews gets more story!
You amaze me more than any facts, stories, truths, or lies---
You enhance me more than any drug, drink, pill, or powder---
You predict me better than any parent, coach, counselor, or teacher---
You season me better than any salt, pepper, winter, or summer---
You entertain me more than any movie, show, song, or competition---
You control me better than any school, job, jail, or prison---
You love me more than any person, God, business, or existence---
In my existence..............Believe............I do
In our existence.............I live...........for you
~ " You" Jeffrey Nero Hardy
Jeff rolled over to the other side off his empty cold bed. It had been one month, three weeks, four days, 6 hours, 24 minutes, since Beth left Jeff. It was 3:24 in the morning. He couldn't sleep. He kept remembering the night. It was exactly 9:00. Jeff was dressed up in his nicest suit. It was gray without a tie and he had on a white button up shirt. He had dyed his hair completely blond for her, and combed it back into a nice ponytail. He took her to a nice Italian resturant. He had also brought her a diamond bracelet. She walked into the resturant, and walked out of his life. He was devestated. It was like he was stabbed a million times in his heart. He didn't want her to see him break down and cry. He didn't want her to see that she hurt him, that was what she wanted. At least that's what it seemed like. He couldn't hold most of it in though. Once one tear fell out, others followed staining his red face. She didn't even wipe a tear away. She didn't even try. It was as if she didn't care at all, as if there wasn't an ounce of care for him, or hope for them. She didn't care at all for him. Jeff then threw up his head. He didn't bother wipe away his tears.
" Fine! I'll be better without you!" He yelled. She turned. She heard his words. She wasn't sure if he ment it or not. She walked back. She looked up into his greenish-reddish eyes.
" Jeffrey, don't get me wrong, I still love you, we just aren't ment to be. It doesn't work at all and you knew it, I knew it, everyone knew it from the start. Everyone knew that we wouldn't last." She tried to touch Jeff's face, but he moved away her hand.
" We've gotten this far, why stop now. Why?" Jeff asked. He voice sounded choaked up from holding in his tears. She didn't answer she just walked away. She never came back. Jeff left soon after she did and went back to his own empty home. There he let out everything. His sorrow, his hate, his pain, his anger, his suffering. Everything had unleashed from his body. After it happened he felt empty. Emotionless. He felt as if he was a dead body. He used to belive his life was perfect. He used to think nothing could make things bad. He used to think he lived for someone. But now, he lived for no one, so all his dreams of a perfect life were gone and Jeff knew, they were never coming back.
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" Jeff, you can't let this hurt you." Amy said trying to cheer the sad Jeff Hardy that lay before her. She couldn't bear to see him this way.
" Yeah, Amy's right. This is probably what she wants. Anyway, how long has it been-"
" One month, three weeks, four days, twelve hours, and nineteen minutes." Jeff said, cutting off his older brother Matt. Matt rolled his eyes at how pathetic his brother Jeff was. Jeff didn't care though, because he couldn't agree more.
" Why are you going to keep track of something like this. I thought you forgot about her a long time ago." Amy said wondering why now he would start to act this way. Jeff leaned over his bed to his nightstand. He opened a drawer with a bunch of paper in it. He showed them an invitation.
" Because she's getting married. Why did she invite me?" Jeff asked. Amy shrugged giving Matt his cue to jump in and give an answer.
" Maybe she thought you two were still friends. Maybe she thought you two could still talk and come to each other's weddings and stuff?" Matt said trying to help with his very stupid words of wisdom. Jeff looked at him with a raised eyebrow.
" That was a lame answer Matt," Jeff said lifting his head from the pillow he was lying on. He smiled a little.
" See Jeff? You're smiling! You don't need her! You guys can be friends. Now are you going to the wedding, cause we are." Amy said with her arms crossed over her chest.
" You guys were invited too?" Jeff asked.
" Actually I was asked to be one of her bridesmaids." Amy said nervously.
" You accepted?" Jeff asked.
" Of course! It's her wedding. It's a happy day of her life. Of course I going to say yes." Amy said matter of factly. Jeff sighed. A happy day of her life. A dreaded day of his life.
" Fine, I call today and tell her I'm coming." Jeff said sighing heavily. He didn't really didn't want to go, but he would never hear the end of it from Amy, if he refused.
" With who exactly?" Matt asked.
" Matt..." Amy said through her teeth.
" I guess... I don't know," Jeff said trying to think of all the people he could go with. There weren't exactly many people to choose from.
" You know what, we'll leave and you try and think of someone to bring to the wedding. Come on Matt." Amy said pulling Matt out of the room. Jeff sat back and thought. Who would he bring to an ex-girlfriend's wedding?
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" This inter- gender tag-team match is scheduled for one fall, making his way to the ring, weighing in at 215 pounds, from Cameron, North Carolina JEFF HARDY!" Jeff came out to his music. This was only his third match since he had returned from his long deserved vacation that he spent sulking around in his house. He though he was going to be spending that whole vacation with Beth when he scheduled it, but the break up lead to a vacation of nothing to take his mind off the pain. " And introducing his partner, from Toronto, Canada, Trish Stratus!" Patricia came down the ramp to where Jeff was. Jeff sat on the ropes so it would be easier for Patricia to get in the ring. She smiled and got into the ring.
" A real gentleman that Jeff Hardy," J.R. said.
" Just the kind of man a diva like Trish would want! He's nice, loyal, willing to do anything. Basically a man slave for Trish to play with!" King commented.
" Well Jeff knows when the line is crossed, I think." J.R. commented.
" Now making their way to the ring Steven Richards and Victoria!" They got into the ring and as usual Steven hugged Victoria's legs.
" Now this guy's a man slave. He's willing to go to hell for this crazed woman." J.R. said as Steven wrapped his arms around Victoria as if he was protecting her from something. The match took up about ten minutes before Jazz, Rodney Mack, and Theodore Long decided to come out and beat the shit out of Patricia, Jeff, Victoria and Steven. They didn't quite get to Victoria and Steven. Jazz had gone straight for Patricia and Rodney straight for Jeff. Rodney slammed Jeff onto the floor, and Jazz had used the chicken wing on Patricia causing her a lot of pain, and slamming her down on to the mat.
" I'm the BITCH!" Jazz screamed once she was done with Patricia. Jeff ran into the ring to help his on-screen "girlfriend". They were left in the ring alone. Jeff helped Patricia out the ring and when they got to the ramp he kissed her forehead as if he was trying to heal her pain. Once they got backstage Patricia quickly walked away, but Jeff wanted to speak to her, so he used something that would annoy her to get her attention.
" Hey Pat," Jeff called. She turned to him and walked over.
" Jeff you know I hate it when people call me that," She said smiling at him and playfully pushing him. Jeff smiled at her as he stepped closer to her.
" Exactly why I used it. Hey, I was wondering would you do me a huge favor?" He asked.
" Depends Jeff, what is it?"
" Well my ex is having a wedding and..."
" You want me to be your date to this wedding right?" Jeff shook his head up and down. To indicate that she was right. " No Jeff, I'm not going to interfere. Amy told me all about how you and this Beth girl broke up, how you mope about her and everything, and how now, she invites you to her wedding. Sorry Jeff but I'm not going to do it."
" But Patricia, I need a date and I think you're the only eligible woman, and the only available woman who is worth going out with! To the wedding at least. I mean you're attractive, smart, funny," Jeff said complementing her.
" Jeff your flattery isn't going to work this time. Not going and that's it... Jeff, I can't do it. It's just wrong." Patricia said not giving in.
" What's wrong I just want you to come to the wedding with me!" Jeff complained.
" Hello? Jeff I'm not stupid. Obviously you're gonna use me to possibly get Beth back." Trish said using common sense.
" I know, but... Please?" Jeff asked.
" No." She said simply.
" Come on! Please!" Jeff was practically begging now. Patricia rolled her eyes as Jeff got on one knee. People were staring now, thinking that maybe Jeff had proposed to Trish.
" Fine Jeff, I know I'm going to regret this later, but if you're that desperate, fine I'll go with you." She said quietly. Jeff smiled and got off his knee. He then kissed and hugged her.
" No Patricia, you won't regret it I promise. Come to my house tonight okay? Bye!" Patricia rolled her eyes once again as Jeff ran off.
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Patricia knocked on Jeff's door. Jeff rushed down the stairs. He opened the door. He smiled. He kissed her on her cheek as a welcome and hugged her. He took her bags and put them into the guestroom. Patricia sat on the couch.
" Okay, this is the plan tomorrow we pick out a dress, and make-up and-"
" Jeff, Jeff, slow down. We should get comfortable first. Get to know each other better then we do now." She said, putting a finger to Jeff's lips. Jeff's eyes opened wide at her statement.
" How, what do you mean by get to know each other better?" Jeff asked.
" We're going to be staying with each other for a while... The wedding's this weekend and we're leaving Wednesday. We should get to know each other better then we already do." Patricia smiled sweetly.
" Well, I uh, I um..." Jeff was lost for words. Patricia moved closer to him as he moved back.
" Okay, Jeff. How much do you love Beth?" She asked.
" More then life, more then anything." Jeff said as she moved back.
" Okay, then we should get to know each other. I Know women, I am one so I know how they think. I dated you so this should be a little easier. I have a plan to get you Beth back so you can be happy again." Patricia said getting up. " Okay Jeff, stand up."
" Why?"
" Just stand up!"
" What are you gonna do to me?" He asked curiously.
" STAND UP GOD DAMMIT BEFORE I HAVE TO KICK YOUR ASS!" She yelled. Jeff immediately jumped up, in fear that if he didn't; her head might start to spin. She was such a small lady, but she had a lot of energy and power in her. Personally, Jeff was afraid of her and actually, she terrified him. " Okay Jeff, now I'm going to be a random person at the wedding, and you're going to be yourself. Pretend that we're at the wedding. Someone asks you who I am. Okay, what do you say?"
" My friend-"
" Ok stop right there. You want Beth back right? So, you say something else! Like girlfriend or whatever. Okay let's start again. Hey Jeff, who is this lady you're with?" Patricia asked.
" What lady?"
" Jeffrey!" Patricia said, " stop kidding around this isn't funny!"
" Alright, this is my new stripper, porn star girlfriend." Jeff said smirking. He obviously knew he was pissing her off.
" No I'm not! Jeff stop it!" Patricia complained.
" I know your not, you're the random person at the wedding." Jeff said being a pain in the neck.
" Jeffrey Nero Hardy! I wrestle, not strip!" Patricia said putting her hands on her hips.
" I just think a stripper girlfriend is a lot more interesting." Jeff said truthfully. Patricia pounced on Jeff. He was on the floor. She sat on his stomach.
" Oh really Jeff? You want a stripper for a girlfriend?" Patricia said taking off her sweater. She stood over him slowly taking off every piece of clothing until she was in her pink underwear. She danced around the room. Jeff's eyes went wherever she did. She then pushed him down into a chair and sat on his lap. Then Jeff's mouth dropped.
" Don't turn around. Whatever you do don't you dare turn around." Jeff whispered. He held her head so she wouldn't turn.
" Why?" Patricia asked trying to loosen her head from Jeff's grip.
" Amy, Matt, right behind us," Jeff said. Patricia's laughed.
" Jeff stop kidding," she said shaking her head vigorously.
" No we're really here." Patricia turned around to see Matt with his arms crossed over his chest. Amy was laughing. It was Matt's voice that alarmed Patricia. She jumped off of Jeff's lap.
" I uh, excuse me... I'm very sorry, please for give me!" And Patricia immediately went up to Jeff's room. Jeff sat there with his mouth wide open. He didn't know what to say.
" You had a good time tonight, didn't you Jeff?" Amy said smirking at him. Matt rolled his eyes.
" What happened to the super depressed, sorry, can't go on living, little brother from yesterday?" Matt asked. Amy glared at Matt.
" Matt he got over it. We should be happy for him!" Amy said trying to make happy vibes, instead of the angry ones Matt was sending out.
" That quickly? I know Jeff, that's not how things are." Matt said explaining things to Amy.
" Maybe Patricia was exactly what he was looking for. We should at least be happy for him and not upset that he's happy." Amy said making a point.
" Did you not just see the same thing I did?" Matt asked. They were now fighting.
" I saw Jeff having a good time! You can't run his life Matt! You can't choose who he falls in love with!" Amy said getting in Matt's face.
" I'm not trying to run his life! I know my brother and he doesn't like her! He doesn't get over things that quickly Amy!" Matt yelled. Jeff was getting tired of them fighting so much, so he went upstairs to his room. Patricia was on his bed crying.
" P-Patricia?" He said nervously. She looked up at him. Her eyes were red. He smiled at her and sat on the bed next to her. She hugged him. " Patricia why are you crying?" He asked.
" I don't know. I just got so nervous when I got up here I started crying." She said as Jeff wiped away her tears. He smiled at her. Patricia smiled a little. " Um, Jeff? Could you get my clothes from downstairs?" She asked.
" Sure." Jeff went downstairs. Matt and Amy were no longer fighting, now they were hugging. Jeff picked up Patricia's clothes from the floor and gave them a weird look.
" Hey, little bro, could I talk to you for a second?" Matt said as he released himself from Amy. Jeff looked at the clothes in his arms and then upstairs.
" I have to get these to Patricia." Jeff said trying to leave, but Matt gripped his shoulder so he couldn't leave.
" Just a quick talk. Come on." Jeff followed his older brother outside. Once the door was closed, Matt hugged Jeff. Jeff tried to escape his brother's embrace.
" MATT! Lemme go! I don't wanna hug my brother! Get offa me!" Jeff yelled bringing out the inner-child in him ( well the one who doesn't like getting hugged by his big brother anyway).
" I'm sorry dude, I'm just so happy for you!" Matt said almost crying he was so happy.
" Matt, stop it. You're scaring me." Jeff said backing away afraid that the next thing he was gonna do was kiss him.
" You're finally over it lil' bro! You got Pat now! She can cook, she's beautiful, she's intelligent, did I mention she can cook! You're doing well now Jeff. You finally have someone that you might stay with for awhile. Someone that will care for you no matter what and knows you really well. Someone that I know will stay by your side and someone that will stay true. She's not perfect, but she's close. Jeff you're really lucky. You should be thankful for having Pat in your life. Again anyway." Matt said putting a hand on his younger brother's shoulder.
" That's a great speech Matt, but right now, I have to attend to some unfinished business so um, bye." Jeff said turning around to leave.
" Unfinished business eh lil' bro? Protection, protection, protection." Matt said smirking
" Gr! Whatever Matt!" Jeff went back up stairs. Oh great. Now Matt thought Patricia was his girlfriend, so now he was going to tell Amy. And Amy would tell Lillian, Lillian would tell Terri, and Terri would tell every living soul...
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Patricia woke up next to Jeff. He looked so cute sleeping. She was wearing his Jeremy McGrath T-shirt. She then decided to sit on Jeff. So, she sat on him and then pinched his cheek as hard as she could. He woke up yelling at her.
" PAT!" He yelled annoyed, "what'd you do that for?"
" You just looked so cute, I couldn't resist! And don't call me Pat!" She laughed. Jeff smiled rubbing his cheeks. He wasn't the only cute one around here. Patricia got off of him to let him take control of himself again. She laid on her side of the bed as Jeff got up.
" We have to leave at about 1:30. We have to look for a dress for you to wear to the wedding." Jeff said taking out a shirt and pants.
" A dress? We have to look for a dress? How about I look for a dress." She said getting out of the bed also. She walked over to Jeff to wait for him to answer.
" Well, I thought we could do this together as a get to know each other thing. Also if I'm paying for it, I don't trust that you will come back with just a dress." Jeff suggested nicely. Patricia smiled.
" We know each other Jeff." She said smiling.
" Yeah, but we don't know each other." Jeff said nervously.
"Oh!" Patricia said finally noticing what he meant. " I guess we don't know each other... Like that anyway." She said sitting on the bed.
" Patricia, to make this work, I have to pretend that I'm with you, pretend that I'm in love with you. I love you but, not that way which we should, and but, it's hard cause I love Beth, but I love you too, just not that way even though I have too and..." Patricia put a finger to his lips. She kissed him on the cheek.
" I'm going in the shower now ok?" Jeff nodded his head and Patricia went into the shower. He then went downstairs. God, she was beautiful. Maybe Matt had a point, but then again, Patricia was like Jeff's best friend! He wouldn't go out with her! That'd be disgusting!
" Hey, are you going shopping today?" Jeff turned around to see Matt.
" Uh, yeah." Jeff replied knowing Matt was gonna ask for something.
" Maybe me and Amy could go with you?" Matt asked hopping Jeff would say yes.
" But, we..." Jeff complained.
" I know, but it was Amy's idea. She said her and Patricia need to talk. Girl stuff and that they needed to be in a certain 'environment'." Matt said intruding and biting his lip. Jeff sighed.
" Fine! But Right after Amy does what she has to do, you guys leave!" Jeff said upset that he and Patricia wouldn't have a lot of alone time..
" Thanks," Matt said smiling. He then left. What was Jeff doing?
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" Ooo! Amy! Look at these!" Patricia said pointing to a dress in one of the windows. They ran over to a nice dress in the window.
" You wanna go in here now?" Jeff asked.
" Uh huh!" Patricia and Amy went in. Matt and Jeff went inside after. A woman greeted them.
" Hi, can I help you?" She asked.
" I um, were ah, dress." Jeff said tripping over his words. He was looking at Amy and Patricia trying on veils. Matt rolled his eyes.
" What he's trying to say is he needs to find a dress for his ahem, girlfriend..." Matt said smirking. Jeff pushed him.
" Which one... The red head or the blond one?" The lady asked.
" Blond." Matt replied.
" I have the perfect dress you guys wait here in the waiting room. She'll be out in a few minutes." The lady went to talk to Patricia while Matt and Jeff waited.
" God, there's sure a lot of wedding dresses in here." Matt said looking around.
" Yeah, what did Amy want to talk to Patricia about?" Jeff asked.
" All Amy said was that it was an update on what each Jeff-girlfriend should know. I know, It's crazy." Matt said laughing.
" Jeff-girlfriend? What the hell is that?" Jeff asked.
" Someone who's your girlfriend, doh! I'm happy for you Jeff, you've finally grown up." Matt said punching his shoulder. Jeff rubbed his shoulder and looked away from Matt. Matt was really proud of his little brother, Jeff knew that, but when Matt was proud of him, he took it so far where he wouldn't miss a moment to mention it.
He wished he'd miss a moment, that way, there was less pain and hugging.
" Dude, Jeff you won't believe what I'm lookin' at." Matt stated. Jeff lifted his head up. Patricia looked absolutely stunning. She had on a white wedding dress and a veil on her head. The dress was designed so there were white sewn on fabric lines and Jeff could tell she had a corset on. The neck was really low and was sleeveless. She had on white gloves that were embroidered with flowers.
" She's, she's, beautiful." Jeff said without thinking. The lady smiled.
" Can't wait to see her walk down the isle in this one huh?" The lady said fixing the dress a little to make it seem more appealing. Jeff couldn't say a word. He wanted to say they weren't getting married and that this was for a wedding to attend, but Jeff was speechless. Matt nudge hum but it was no use! Jeff was stunned. He was thinking about marriage and it wasn't exactly as beautiful as Patricia was now. Finally, Matt spoke up for his little brother.
" I'm sorry Miss, they aren't getting married, we're going to a wedding, they're looking for a dress for her to wear to the wedding." Matt explained.
" Oh! Then I'll go find another dress..."
" No! I mean I really like the dress Jeff! Please can we use this dress! It's beautiful!" Patricia begged. Jeff snapped out of it.
" But the dress is so expensive and we don't need the veil and it looks too much like a wedding dress." Jeff said examining the dress. Matt sighed and pulled Jeff aside.
" Jeff, Jeff, Jeff... Get her the dress! Look at how happy she is in it. You know how disappointed she'd be without it?" Matt said putting a hand on Jeff's shoulder. Jeff sighed.
" Fine! Get the dress Patricia, but you should know this is your birthday/Christmas gift!" Jeff said upset that he was spending so much money. She did look great in it though, and it gave Jeff the chills how beautiful she was in it. Patricia was thrilled. Jeff could tell that she was because she wouldn't stop talking about the dress.
" Jeff! Look over here!" Patricia brought him over to a Candy store.
" What?" Jeff asked walking over. Patricia put on puppy dog eyes.
" Pretty Please Jeff?" Patricia begged.
" We have enough sweets back home to last you the rest of the week you don't need that! I'm not getting that for you Patricia." Jeff said crossing his arms over his chest. He wasn't going to give in this time. He was going to stand his ground and not be tricked into getting her the lollypop.
" Yeah but look at that huge lollypop! Isn't it pretty?" Patricia said begging. Jeff sighed he looked over at Matt who was giving him a look of disapproval. Jeff had to give in he had no choice.
" Fine!" Jeff said groaning.
" I promise Jeff, this will be the last thing!" Patricia said squealing.
Jeff had a feeling this wasn't.
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By the time Jeff had gotten home he had spent over 500 dollars on Patricia not counting the dress. Jeff didn't even want to think of how much the dress was. He sat on the bed as Patricia tried on the clothes that Jeff had got her. She was now wearing a White mini skirt with a black short sleeve top.
" What do you think Jeff?" Patricia asked turning so he could see.
" I still think you should wear the Jean skirt, the white shirt with the definition of blond and the Jean jacket." Jeff said smiling. " But, anything would look fine. You look great in all the clothes Patricia. And you should after all the money I spent on you."
" Yeah, I guess, but I want to make a good impression. I'm meeting your ex- girlfriend." Patricia said changing out of the clothes to put on Jeff's jersey once again.
" You look fine just the way you are. Why should you worry?" Jeff asked. Patricia shrugged.
" I guess I wanna look good so you can be happy again." Patricia smiled. Jeff smiled back.
" Thanks. That's really nice of you to think that." Patricia blushed.
" That's what friends are for Jeff! Didn't you know that? I only want the best for you Jeff. And if you want, if you need someone, if you need Beth to be happy, then that's what you should have." Patricia was tripping over her words, but she tried to hide it from Jeff.
" Patricia can I ask you a question?" Jeff asked.
" Of course Jeff." Patricia said glad he made no comment about what she had said.
" Are you happy?" Patricia was stunned. She had never thought about it before.
" What do you mean?" She asked.
" You try so hard to make everyone else is happy, you make sure everything's ok, you help them out of problems, you do so much, you do too much. I can see it Trish, and no one ever knows how you feel. Are you truly happy? Can you say that you're happy and believe it?" Jeff asked. Patricia thought. Jeff was right she did do a lot.
" I can't say that I'm happy and believe it. Making people happy makes me happy most of the time but, the happiness is only temporary and sometimes it makes me think of how happy I might not be." Patricia paused, " what I'm trying to say is, that I help people with a lot of problems with love because some people think I'm an expert, but I wonder if I am, because it's been so long since I truly felt that I was in love. One of the last people I was ever in love with was you, and I don't even know if that was really love. How can I be able to have other people in love, when I can't even be in love myself?" Patricia's eyes almost filled with tears, but she didn't want Jeff to feel bad or to become sad because of her. She laid her head on Jeff's shoulder to hide her tears from him, but he still knew she was crying, and he didn't want her to cry so he held her until they both fell asleep
********** Patricia, I want you to be happy, I want you to truly be happy. **********
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