Just A Shadow
Hiei squeezed his crimson eyes tightly closed, fighting the urge to cry. Leaning back harder agaisnt the wall he let his head rest agasint it, his hands balled tightly at his sides.
'I am nothing to them' he thought, his mind angry 'I am just a shadow, just something that they needed for awhile then cast away like a worn pair of shoes. They used me...they hated me..' tears began to spill from his eyes running down his flushed cheeks, sliding down his neck and disappearing into his black clothing. 'I know you hate me Kurama...' He opened his eyes glaring at the grass that stretched far and wide, until, in the distance a forest was seen. 'I was distined to die! Why couldn't it just happened there and then...? Why must you keep tourturing me!' He laughed suddenly a sneer curling on his lips 'I hate you, I hate you all, I hate everything that I've seen, all of them! I thought them as....friends? Friends? Hiei you are such a fool! They are humans...they can't befriend a Fire Demon..who would want to anyway...?' Hiei looked down at his sword that laid inches from his balled right hand. Slowly, hesitantly he reached for it until his fingers wrapped tightly about it, he drug it over until it laid across his lap. 'I should just end it..end it now... I should correct the mistake...of..'
"Hiei?" called a voice, gentle and friendly.
'Kurama. No not him!' Hiei struggled to his feet, using the wall as support, his crimson eyes shooting around wildly, looking for the fox spirit. 'No, I must...' he looked to his left, seeing no one then to his right, his eyes turned dead ahead. 'The forest...I..can go there..they'll never find me!'
"Hiei?" Kurama called, as he rounded the building, he stared dumbly at the Fire Demon who stood leaning agasint the wall, tears staining his cheeks. "Hiei, are you okay?" Kurama walked faster. "Hiei, whats wrong?"
"Leave me alone, kitsune." Hiei hissed pushing away from the wall and turning his back to the forest, eyes narrowing onto the red-head.
"Hiei..?" Kurama said quietly, emerald eyes confused. "Hiei, whats wrong, why are you crying?"
'Just leave Hiei, leave now. They won't care...no one will..no one.' Hiei took a few steps back, shaking with rage, his teeth clenched togeather and fresh tears began to spring at the ends of his eyes. Hiei turned to spring away with his lightening fast speed but found he couldnt, a strong hand had grasped his wrist, preventing his escape. Hiei tried to wrench his arm away, but he couldn't free himself. The fire demon turned to glare at Kurama, but instead of seeing a wicked grin as he expected, he saw soft emerald eyes, full of hurt and sadness on the kitsune's face.
"Hiei, tell me what is wrong with you." Kurama whispered. Hiei's eyes strayed down, until they fell upon Kurama's hand that was holding his wrist tightly.
"You hate me," Hiei whispered threw clenched teeth, "You all hate me."
"No!" Kurama cried. "No," he said, more sternly. "we don't hate you Hiei, what makes you think that?"
'Why do I think that?' Hiei asked himself, blinking. 'Why do they hate me?'
"I.." the Fire Demon started, but found he couldn't find any words to back up his story. He looked up, meeting Kurama's eyes. There was so much hurt there, that Hiei cringed.
"We don't hate you Hiei." Kurama whispred, pulling Hiei into a tight embrace. "We don't hate you, don't you ever think that."
A/N: lol that was so pointless and stupid that I am actully feeling quite embrassed..lol..how stupid was that? THERE WAS NO POINT IN THAT LITTLE STORY I WROTE!! If you can even call it a story...well I just was brousing threw all my writings and saw the title 'just a shadow' and I'm like 'Oooh I started that a LONG time ago..' So I just put up a quick ending...if you WANT I can probally put some more to it..like more chapters and actully make it into a story..but if not..if you think it sucks..do tell..flames are welcomed! *Snuggles all the flames* They keep me nice and warm!! But I also like good reviews *hint hint* anyone who reviews gets a cookie!! *Holds up a cookie and waves it around*
Thanks for reading.
.~*~:....Shea....:~*~.
Hiei squeezed his crimson eyes tightly closed, fighting the urge to cry. Leaning back harder agaisnt the wall he let his head rest agasint it, his hands balled tightly at his sides.
'I am nothing to them' he thought, his mind angry 'I am just a shadow, just something that they needed for awhile then cast away like a worn pair of shoes. They used me...they hated me..' tears began to spill from his eyes running down his flushed cheeks, sliding down his neck and disappearing into his black clothing. 'I know you hate me Kurama...' He opened his eyes glaring at the grass that stretched far and wide, until, in the distance a forest was seen. 'I was distined to die! Why couldn't it just happened there and then...? Why must you keep tourturing me!' He laughed suddenly a sneer curling on his lips 'I hate you, I hate you all, I hate everything that I've seen, all of them! I thought them as....friends? Friends? Hiei you are such a fool! They are humans...they can't befriend a Fire Demon..who would want to anyway...?' Hiei looked down at his sword that laid inches from his balled right hand. Slowly, hesitantly he reached for it until his fingers wrapped tightly about it, he drug it over until it laid across his lap. 'I should just end it..end it now... I should correct the mistake...of..'
"Hiei?" called a voice, gentle and friendly.
'Kurama. No not him!' Hiei struggled to his feet, using the wall as support, his crimson eyes shooting around wildly, looking for the fox spirit. 'No, I must...' he looked to his left, seeing no one then to his right, his eyes turned dead ahead. 'The forest...I..can go there..they'll never find me!'
"Hiei?" Kurama called, as he rounded the building, he stared dumbly at the Fire Demon who stood leaning agasint the wall, tears staining his cheeks. "Hiei, are you okay?" Kurama walked faster. "Hiei, whats wrong?"
"Leave me alone, kitsune." Hiei hissed pushing away from the wall and turning his back to the forest, eyes narrowing onto the red-head.
"Hiei..?" Kurama said quietly, emerald eyes confused. "Hiei, whats wrong, why are you crying?"
'Just leave Hiei, leave now. They won't care...no one will..no one.' Hiei took a few steps back, shaking with rage, his teeth clenched togeather and fresh tears began to spring at the ends of his eyes. Hiei turned to spring away with his lightening fast speed but found he couldnt, a strong hand had grasped his wrist, preventing his escape. Hiei tried to wrench his arm away, but he couldn't free himself. The fire demon turned to glare at Kurama, but instead of seeing a wicked grin as he expected, he saw soft emerald eyes, full of hurt and sadness on the kitsune's face.
"Hiei, tell me what is wrong with you." Kurama whispered. Hiei's eyes strayed down, until they fell upon Kurama's hand that was holding his wrist tightly.
"You hate me," Hiei whispered threw clenched teeth, "You all hate me."
"No!" Kurama cried. "No," he said, more sternly. "we don't hate you Hiei, what makes you think that?"
'Why do I think that?' Hiei asked himself, blinking. 'Why do they hate me?'
"I.." the Fire Demon started, but found he couldn't find any words to back up his story. He looked up, meeting Kurama's eyes. There was so much hurt there, that Hiei cringed.
"We don't hate you Hiei." Kurama whispred, pulling Hiei into a tight embrace. "We don't hate you, don't you ever think that."
A/N: lol that was so pointless and stupid that I am actully feeling quite embrassed..lol..how stupid was that? THERE WAS NO POINT IN THAT LITTLE STORY I WROTE!! If you can even call it a story...well I just was brousing threw all my writings and saw the title 'just a shadow' and I'm like 'Oooh I started that a LONG time ago..' So I just put up a quick ending...if you WANT I can probally put some more to it..like more chapters and actully make it into a story..but if not..if you think it sucks..do tell..flames are welcomed! *Snuggles all the flames* They keep me nice and warm!! But I also like good reviews *hint hint* anyone who reviews gets a cookie!! *Holds up a cookie and waves it around*
Thanks for reading.
.~*~:....Shea....:~*~.