Oh dear oh dear oh dear! Look at stupid ol me, starting yet another fic. At
least summer's coming! I can update them all! *laughs maniacally, this is
gonna be so much fun! Plus there's a fifth or sixth story/stories coming up
too! I just get all these ideas and I have to write them before I forget!
Humor me, please?! I promise to update all of them. I promise!!!! Oh! And
Home Is Where The Hurt Is won the vote polls (was there a doubt?) so it'll
be updated next! ^_^ luv u guys! ~_^ (Thanks for the wink
Rivendellgurl15!)
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"Kagome!" Inuyasha let his frustrations show in his voice. "What is your problem?! I said I was 'sorry'!"
Kagome forced herself to stop running, and turned to face him. "You just don't get it, do you?"
He threw his hands up in exasperation. "Get what?"
"I'm not just your freaking shard detector! How do you think it makes me feel every time you say that? I'm never part of the group, am I? I'm just Kagome, I sense the shards, but other than that I'm useless. My word Inuyasha! I thought we were friends!"
"I SAID I was sorry, wench! How come you're so quick to forgive Shippo when he's a brat, and Miroku for being a perv, but you always take your sweet time forgiving me?!"
"Maybe because it doesn't hurt as bad when they screw up!" The words were out of her mouth before she could stop them.
"Or maybe you're just too sensitive." As soon as he spoke he wished he could take it back. The hurt was evident in her eyes.
"Yeah." She said softly, her eyes hardening. "Stupid me, actually giving a rip what you think." She turned and stomped towards the well.
Inuyasha wanted to follow her, with every fiber of his being, but he couldn't. He knew it was his pride, getting in the way again, but he still couldn't make himself follow her. He had said sorry! Wasn't that enough for her? It was more than the others had learned to expect.
He tried to ignore the echo of her words in his mind, and the guilt that came with them.
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Kagome groaned as she forced herself to get out of bed and start her day. She did NOT feel like going to school today, but she had tests. Stifling a yawn, she forced herself out of bed, and methodically changed into her school uniform and brushed her teeth and hair. She checked her reflection in the mirror before heading downstairs, not that anyone important would see her.
Why did she have to care so much what Inuyasha thought? Why did HE matter so much? Sango, Miroku and all the others were never as rude as he was, yet every put down, every insult, every "If Kikyo were here," made her want to scream in frustration, or even worse, sob uncontrollably. If this was love than why couldn't she have fallen for someone who actually cared about her? She just had to go and fall for the guy who was in love with her past self and had a major attitude problem.
Way to go Kagome.
After breakfast, she walked to school, welcoming the exercise, knowing it could possibly help her endurance for her little 'adventures'. *I'm such a lap dog.* She thought to herself bitterly. *So eager to please.*
Since she had taken so little time with her appearance that day, she arrived early, and found herself a cozy spot against the building, taking in the morning sunshine. Sighing, she pulled out her 'secret' notebook, and began doing the only thing that ever offered comfort from Inuyasha's words. Composing.
'What do you see, When you look at me
When our eyes meet, And the world stops moving
What do you see, When I turn away
When I hide my face, from your searching gaze
What do you see
When you look at me'
Kagome bit the top of her pencil, thinking briefly before continuing in furious scribbles.
Don't you dare stand there, and look at me
With your gaze distant in memories
Don't you dare meet my gaze
And call me by another name
Don't you see the girl who shares your secret smiles
Or do you see she who knew your ever flaw
Don't you see a woman who can be strong for you
Instead of the one who curses your name
Do you see me when you look at my face
Kagome gazed at the last line. She liked that a lot, and the beginning ones too, but something in the middle just didn't work right.
"Do you see a woman who will be strong for you, instead of the one who curses your name" A voice came from behind her. "Will be, is more definite than 'can be'." He stretched out his hand, "My name is Jason, I'm the new exchange student from America, and I've been there."
She instantly felt at ease in his company. "Hi, I'm Kagome, and thanks, I think that really works."
"No problem." He sat next to her, smiling comfortably. "I hope I'm not offending you, but what guy in his right mind would choose another girl over someone so beautiful?"
She flushed. She knew he was just flirting, but it felt nice to be complimented for a change. "A guy who's still in love with his dead girlfriend."
"Ouch." The boy winced. "That's gotta suck for you."
"Yeah." She said softly. "It really does. And to make matters worse, I look almost exactly like her."
"I still think the guy's insane." He wrinkled his nose, making her laugh.
"Well that makes two of us." She closed the notebook, and slid it back into her backpack. "Do you write songs, or did the sight of me suddenly inspire you?"
He grinned. "I do write sometimes, but that doesn't mean you don't inspire me." He laughed, and she joined in.
"And what did you mean by 'I've been there'?" She couldn't help but ask. "You don't have to answer if you don't want to."
"No, it's fine. If anyone can understand, it's a girl who writes like you do. I had a girlfriend, back in America, who ended up leaving me for my best friend. I really thought I loved her too. Now I wonder if she just dated me to get closer to him." His eyes darkened a little, and Kagome placed a hand on his shoulder.
"I'm really sorry." And she meant it. He had to feel like she did every time Inuyasha was caught kissing Kikyo instead of killing her. Betrayed.
"It's not your fault." He said briskly, as if pushing the pain away. "But hey, since I'm new here, do you wanna show me around?"
"Sure! Not a problem!" For the first time, Kagome realized just how good looking he was. *I wonder what my friends are going to say. . .*
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They had a lot to say, and a lot of people to say to. By lunch, everyone wanted to know just how good of 'friends' Kagome and the new guy were. By the end of the week, the answer was more satisfactory.
"You're going on a date with him!" Her friends all but shrieked.
She rolled her eyes. "Can you scream any louder? I don't think they heard you over in 'his' country!"
Instantly she was bombarded with questions.
"Where are you going?"
"Are you an official couple?"
"Are you gonna blow him off, like you did Hojo?"
"Speaking of Hojo, how do you think HE'LL feel about this?"
A calm, but slightly sad, voice interrupted them. "Hojo's just fine with it." He strode over to stand by Kagome. "Kagome, you are a great girl. All I want is for you to be happy."
Her friends all swooned.
*How could she turn down a guy like that!* Flashed through all they're minds.
"Thanks Hojo, it means a lot that you said that."
"Hojo?" A hard voice cut him off before he could answer. "How are you doing?" The question was simple, but even Hojo could tell that Jason wasn't very happy.
"Uh. . . good?" He looked at Kagome confused.
"Good." The boy's voice was cold. "Now be good somewhere else, so I can talk to Kagome." Hojo looked a little bit lost for a second, but than left.
"That was mean." She punched his shoulder playfully. "But you're cute when you're jealous."
"Really?" A smile played at the corner of his lips. "Than I must be cute ALL the time, because there's no way I WOULDN'T be jealous over you. You're a treasure, Kagome."
She blushed. He said things like that a lot, and she really wasn't used to hearing them. "And you're the sweetest person on earth."
He bowed. "I try. Can I walk you to your next class?"
"Like you even have to ask!" She grinned, and linked arms with him as they headed down the hall.
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"Hey guys! I'm back!" Kagome smiled happily as she climbed through the well.
"Took you long enough." Inuyasha grumbled not sure how to handle the situation after she had run off like she did.
"Oh, you just like to complain!" She laughed, and hugged everyone. "I've missed you guys! And forget about last time Inuyasha, I'm totally over it. In fact, you could even say it was a good thing."
"What do you mean by that?" He asked suspiciously. Miroku, Sango, and the others looked intrigued. What could be making her so happy.
"I don't know if I should tell you. So I won't. Let's go shard hunting!"
"What kind of an answer is that, wench!"
"SIT! Don't call me wench!"
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"So Kagome, you want to tell me what you're so happy about?" Sango sighed comfortably as they slid into the Hot Springs.
"Yes!" She could barely stop herself from squealing. "But you have to promise not to tell Inuyasha!"
"I promise!" Sango agreed quickly, leaning forward eagerly.
"I met a guy, in my time, and he is really really great!" She paused for a second, a dreamy look on her face. "And believe it or not, he likes me too! We're OFFICIALLY dating!"
Sango's mouth dropped open. "But I thought you had a thing going for Inuyasha."
Kagome stopped smiling, and stared at the water. "I did, but he can be so. . . frustrating sometimes! And Jason. . . Jason knows just what to say to make me feel better. He's sweet and nice and caring, and funny, and romantic, and he really cares about me. I need that Sango. I really need someone to love 'me'. I can only play the 'lovesick reincarnation' for so long. You have no idea how nice it is to feel special after all that. After always being the 'copy'."
"If this guy can really make you forget all that Kag, he has my vote!" She patted her friend on the shoulder. "I'm really happy for you."
"Thanks!" Kagome smiled contentedly and sank deeper into the bubbling water.
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Okay, so not much has happened yet, but the good parts coming up! Sure, every thing SEEMS great, but you know how I am. Jason's not gonna be all he's cracked up to be, and he's got some serious issues about being boyfriend and girlfriend. Issues that are gonna make life very difficult for Kagome. How far is she willing to go to be 'loved'? Remember, I update by review averages!
Rogue Pryde
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"Kagome!" Inuyasha let his frustrations show in his voice. "What is your problem?! I said I was 'sorry'!"
Kagome forced herself to stop running, and turned to face him. "You just don't get it, do you?"
He threw his hands up in exasperation. "Get what?"
"I'm not just your freaking shard detector! How do you think it makes me feel every time you say that? I'm never part of the group, am I? I'm just Kagome, I sense the shards, but other than that I'm useless. My word Inuyasha! I thought we were friends!"
"I SAID I was sorry, wench! How come you're so quick to forgive Shippo when he's a brat, and Miroku for being a perv, but you always take your sweet time forgiving me?!"
"Maybe because it doesn't hurt as bad when they screw up!" The words were out of her mouth before she could stop them.
"Or maybe you're just too sensitive." As soon as he spoke he wished he could take it back. The hurt was evident in her eyes.
"Yeah." She said softly, her eyes hardening. "Stupid me, actually giving a rip what you think." She turned and stomped towards the well.
Inuyasha wanted to follow her, with every fiber of his being, but he couldn't. He knew it was his pride, getting in the way again, but he still couldn't make himself follow her. He had said sorry! Wasn't that enough for her? It was more than the others had learned to expect.
He tried to ignore the echo of her words in his mind, and the guilt that came with them.
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Kagome groaned as she forced herself to get out of bed and start her day. She did NOT feel like going to school today, but she had tests. Stifling a yawn, she forced herself out of bed, and methodically changed into her school uniform and brushed her teeth and hair. She checked her reflection in the mirror before heading downstairs, not that anyone important would see her.
Why did she have to care so much what Inuyasha thought? Why did HE matter so much? Sango, Miroku and all the others were never as rude as he was, yet every put down, every insult, every "If Kikyo were here," made her want to scream in frustration, or even worse, sob uncontrollably. If this was love than why couldn't she have fallen for someone who actually cared about her? She just had to go and fall for the guy who was in love with her past self and had a major attitude problem.
Way to go Kagome.
After breakfast, she walked to school, welcoming the exercise, knowing it could possibly help her endurance for her little 'adventures'. *I'm such a lap dog.* She thought to herself bitterly. *So eager to please.*
Since she had taken so little time with her appearance that day, she arrived early, and found herself a cozy spot against the building, taking in the morning sunshine. Sighing, she pulled out her 'secret' notebook, and began doing the only thing that ever offered comfort from Inuyasha's words. Composing.
'What do you see, When you look at me
When our eyes meet, And the world stops moving
What do you see, When I turn away
When I hide my face, from your searching gaze
What do you see
When you look at me'
Kagome bit the top of her pencil, thinking briefly before continuing in furious scribbles.
Don't you dare stand there, and look at me
With your gaze distant in memories
Don't you dare meet my gaze
And call me by another name
Don't you see the girl who shares your secret smiles
Or do you see she who knew your ever flaw
Don't you see a woman who can be strong for you
Instead of the one who curses your name
Do you see me when you look at my face
Kagome gazed at the last line. She liked that a lot, and the beginning ones too, but something in the middle just didn't work right.
"Do you see a woman who will be strong for you, instead of the one who curses your name" A voice came from behind her. "Will be, is more definite than 'can be'." He stretched out his hand, "My name is Jason, I'm the new exchange student from America, and I've been there."
She instantly felt at ease in his company. "Hi, I'm Kagome, and thanks, I think that really works."
"No problem." He sat next to her, smiling comfortably. "I hope I'm not offending you, but what guy in his right mind would choose another girl over someone so beautiful?"
She flushed. She knew he was just flirting, but it felt nice to be complimented for a change. "A guy who's still in love with his dead girlfriend."
"Ouch." The boy winced. "That's gotta suck for you."
"Yeah." She said softly. "It really does. And to make matters worse, I look almost exactly like her."
"I still think the guy's insane." He wrinkled his nose, making her laugh.
"Well that makes two of us." She closed the notebook, and slid it back into her backpack. "Do you write songs, or did the sight of me suddenly inspire you?"
He grinned. "I do write sometimes, but that doesn't mean you don't inspire me." He laughed, and she joined in.
"And what did you mean by 'I've been there'?" She couldn't help but ask. "You don't have to answer if you don't want to."
"No, it's fine. If anyone can understand, it's a girl who writes like you do. I had a girlfriend, back in America, who ended up leaving me for my best friend. I really thought I loved her too. Now I wonder if she just dated me to get closer to him." His eyes darkened a little, and Kagome placed a hand on his shoulder.
"I'm really sorry." And she meant it. He had to feel like she did every time Inuyasha was caught kissing Kikyo instead of killing her. Betrayed.
"It's not your fault." He said briskly, as if pushing the pain away. "But hey, since I'm new here, do you wanna show me around?"
"Sure! Not a problem!" For the first time, Kagome realized just how good looking he was. *I wonder what my friends are going to say. . .*
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They had a lot to say, and a lot of people to say to. By lunch, everyone wanted to know just how good of 'friends' Kagome and the new guy were. By the end of the week, the answer was more satisfactory.
"You're going on a date with him!" Her friends all but shrieked.
She rolled her eyes. "Can you scream any louder? I don't think they heard you over in 'his' country!"
Instantly she was bombarded with questions.
"Where are you going?"
"Are you an official couple?"
"Are you gonna blow him off, like you did Hojo?"
"Speaking of Hojo, how do you think HE'LL feel about this?"
A calm, but slightly sad, voice interrupted them. "Hojo's just fine with it." He strode over to stand by Kagome. "Kagome, you are a great girl. All I want is for you to be happy."
Her friends all swooned.
*How could she turn down a guy like that!* Flashed through all they're minds.
"Thanks Hojo, it means a lot that you said that."
"Hojo?" A hard voice cut him off before he could answer. "How are you doing?" The question was simple, but even Hojo could tell that Jason wasn't very happy.
"Uh. . . good?" He looked at Kagome confused.
"Good." The boy's voice was cold. "Now be good somewhere else, so I can talk to Kagome." Hojo looked a little bit lost for a second, but than left.
"That was mean." She punched his shoulder playfully. "But you're cute when you're jealous."
"Really?" A smile played at the corner of his lips. "Than I must be cute ALL the time, because there's no way I WOULDN'T be jealous over you. You're a treasure, Kagome."
She blushed. He said things like that a lot, and she really wasn't used to hearing them. "And you're the sweetest person on earth."
He bowed. "I try. Can I walk you to your next class?"
"Like you even have to ask!" She grinned, and linked arms with him as they headed down the hall.
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"Hey guys! I'm back!" Kagome smiled happily as she climbed through the well.
"Took you long enough." Inuyasha grumbled not sure how to handle the situation after she had run off like she did.
"Oh, you just like to complain!" She laughed, and hugged everyone. "I've missed you guys! And forget about last time Inuyasha, I'm totally over it. In fact, you could even say it was a good thing."
"What do you mean by that?" He asked suspiciously. Miroku, Sango, and the others looked intrigued. What could be making her so happy.
"I don't know if I should tell you. So I won't. Let's go shard hunting!"
"What kind of an answer is that, wench!"
"SIT! Don't call me wench!"
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"So Kagome, you want to tell me what you're so happy about?" Sango sighed comfortably as they slid into the Hot Springs.
"Yes!" She could barely stop herself from squealing. "But you have to promise not to tell Inuyasha!"
"I promise!" Sango agreed quickly, leaning forward eagerly.
"I met a guy, in my time, and he is really really great!" She paused for a second, a dreamy look on her face. "And believe it or not, he likes me too! We're OFFICIALLY dating!"
Sango's mouth dropped open. "But I thought you had a thing going for Inuyasha."
Kagome stopped smiling, and stared at the water. "I did, but he can be so. . . frustrating sometimes! And Jason. . . Jason knows just what to say to make me feel better. He's sweet and nice and caring, and funny, and romantic, and he really cares about me. I need that Sango. I really need someone to love 'me'. I can only play the 'lovesick reincarnation' for so long. You have no idea how nice it is to feel special after all that. After always being the 'copy'."
"If this guy can really make you forget all that Kag, he has my vote!" She patted her friend on the shoulder. "I'm really happy for you."
"Thanks!" Kagome smiled contentedly and sank deeper into the bubbling water.
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Okay, so not much has happened yet, but the good parts coming up! Sure, every thing SEEMS great, but you know how I am. Jason's not gonna be all he's cracked up to be, and he's got some serious issues about being boyfriend and girlfriend. Issues that are gonna make life very difficult for Kagome. How far is she willing to go to be 'loved'? Remember, I update by review averages!
Rogue Pryde