a/n: have you ever heard of Dylan Conrique? She was in Brat TV's Chicken Girls as Kayla. She recently released a bunch of new songs and I love them! I just thought Not so Secretly was a brilliant 7th year Jily song.

Disclaimer: I don't own the song or the characters.

"Hey Lil," said Mary Macdonald, coming into the Heads Dorm with Marlene McKinnon close behind her.

"Hey guys," said Lily Evans, quietly.

"Whatcha thinkin bout?" asked Marlene.

"Oh nothing." came the airy response.

In reality, Lily was thinking. She was thinking a lot. It had been 200 days. 200 days since a certain messy haired, glasses wearing, chaser Head Boy had asked her out.

Exactly 200 days.

But who was counting?

She had this realisation when she came across a piece of parchment in the Transfiguration classroom this morning.

It had in Sirius Black's messy handwriting "Prongs mate, it's been 200 days!"

She did the Math and discovered that Black was in fact right. She was now doubting how she walked away without telling James why she said no.

And she knew! She knew that she ended things, but now she wasn't sure if that was the best for her. She'd been on a low all day, just sitting in the dorm second guessing things.

"Was it a big mistake?" she asked her friends.

"To let him slip away?" asked Mary, kindly

"How'd you know?" said, lily, shocked.

"Remus told me it was the 200th day."

"Well yeah.." said lily.

"Lily don't you see it?" exclaimed Marlene "you're not so secretly in love with him!"

"I don't know about love!" sputtered lily.

Mary looked at her sympathetically. "You can't get him out of your mind?" she said.

"You think of him ALL the time" shouted Marlene.

"Marlene has a point." continued Mary.

"You are not so secretly still in love with him!" Yelled Marlene.

"STILL? LOVE?" coughed out Lily. "i don't think-"

"Oh shut up lily." Said Mary. "All three of us know it's true."

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It was a Saturday, a Hogsmead weekend. And here she was going on another date. Well not really date per say. They were just sitting in the Three Broomsticks.

But it didn't feel the same with someone new. Because she was thinking about him.

And yes, she knew that she had ended things. But she wasn't sure how that was the best for her. She'd been on a low for a long time, second guessing. And all that time moping, had finally led to something. She could admit it.

She took a sip of her Butterbeer, and continued trying to listen to Conrad McLaggen drone on about what his father, uncle and brother were upto. She continued politely nodding until she saw a familiar head of immaculate black locks. She excused herself from McLaggen and ran to him.

"Black!" she panted.

"Evans! To what do I owe this pleasure?" he said.

"Black have you seen James?" she asked.

"Of course I have." said Sirius. "He's right outside."

Lily sprinted out the door. She looked around and spotted a head of messy black hair and ran toward it.

"James!" she said, as soon as she got near him.

"Lily," she grinned at seeing her, discreetly extracting himself from the death grip of Cardonna Chang.

"James, I have something to tell you." Lily said.

"Go on Lily."

"I have been second guessing things ever since I found out it had been 200 days. I know that i ended things, but i don't know if that was the best for me!"

"Lily that's not exactly fair.." muttered James.

"I've been wondering whether it was a big mistake, to let you slip away. I don't know, but this feeling won't seem to fade!"

"Lily…" James whispered.

"It's because i'm not so secretly in love with you." she whispered.

"Lily, i love you too!" shouted James, grabbing her in his arms, and crashing his lips to hers.

Not so secretly, I'm not so secretly in love with you.

a/n: love it? Hate it? Thought it was good but could be better? Suggestions? Please review.

Anyway my exams are over and i'm FREE!

With Love

A newly liberated

Marva.