AUTHOR'S NOTE:

Hi! So I love Gilmore Girls and have decided to start a fanfic of it, there is another amazing fan fic by RhiaReed which you should check out. Mine will be similar, but NOT identical. In the beginning you might see some parallels but that's just still I get the groove of this. ALso RhiaReed thank you for your amazing fan fic! I loved it.

"Mom?"

"Yeah?"

"I'm pregnant"

My mum turned her face in shock, she just sat there staring at me. I could tell she was trying to think of something to say. She opened her mouth a few times, but nothing came out, it was like she was frozen in time.

The silence broke when she finally spoke, "but….but how?" she stuttered. I chuckled, "Seriously? Do I need to tell you how it happened Mum?"

She scrunched up her face and quickly refused, "no, no, no, I don't need the gory details, but I thought you and, what's his name? Jake, Mike, Oh! Paul hadn't seen each other in a while." She tried to meet my eyes, but I had already dug my head into my hands.I was so embarrassed.

I finally took a deep breath and looked up at her, "it's not Pauls" I answered.

"Then who's?" mum asked remorsefully. I sighed from exhaustion and looked up at the rest of the town. I wanted to hold off explaining this, but I knew it was impossible. Mum quickly followed along, she only murmed out a quick "Oh!" when she had a sudden realisation.

"When did it happen? I thought it was over with him." She replicated my position and looked out onto the town as well. I could tell she was trying not to judge, but it was obvious she had already started.

"Well I don't exactly have a date", I sighed and rubbed my palms together trying to collect my thoughts before continuing my story. " It's been on and off throughout this year, but It started a few weeks after grandpa's funeral. We had still stayed in touch after college, but we just started talking more frequently this year." I paused for a split second, I looked up at mum, she was still facing the town.

"Anyways, I called him one night, we talked, it was like we just picked up where we left off. I told him about the book with Naomi Shropshire and I was going to be in London from time to time. He offered me his place to stay when I was there and I agreed. Then things moved quickly, I mean he did have his girlfriend, Odette and I had Paul at the time, but it felt right to just be together. So then we manifested this weird vegas agreement, where when we were together we were and when we weren't,we weren't." I stopped for a few seconds, I needed some air, saying everything out loud made it seem so stupid, I mean what was I thinking. I decided to just shake out every thought inside my head and continued with the story.

"It went on like that for a while before his and Odette's relationship got a bit more serious. He got engaged, then she moved in, which made it harder for us to see each other. After we were apart for awhile i realised that what we were doing was wrong. Then over summer a bunch of stuff happened and I realised I couldn't rely on him to be my support system anymore. It was like I was programmed to call him the second something went wrong. So, then I just decided to end it, even though there really wasn't anything to end in the first place. But then he showed up out of the blue a few weeks ago here at Stars Hollow, with the boys. He didn't like how we ended things, he did this whole extravagant stunt thing. We went around town in costumes, we shot golf balls off the roofs and-"

"That was you?!" Mum interrupted me, she turned around and chuckled.

I laughed, "Yeah, it was" I confirmed.

"You know Taylor's still looking for the "vandals who committed that atrocious crime", his words, not mine." She formed a small smile.

"Yeah, I know."

"You gonna come forward?"

I looked at her confused and laughed. "Are you crazy? Of course not"

"That's my girl." She smiled at me, I smiled back. It felt like we had gone back to normal, that chilly feeling i had since we started this conversation was gone, though I thought. Then she went serious again. "So how did you get from shooting golf balls off the roof to being pregnant?"

I sighed, "We weren't in town for long. We watched Kirk's movie and then hit the road. We went to this Tango Club, which Colin eventually ended up buying. We danced for awhile…."

"You tangoed?" My mum asked with a surprised look on her face.

"God No! But would you stop interrupting?" I asked jokingly.

She chuckled, "Sorry, you can continue". I smiled at her, "Thanks".

"As I was saying, we danced for awhile, we drank, we talked. Then Logan gave me a key to his family's house in Maine, to go write the book,but I didn't accept.

"We didn't stay at the club for long, we then drove to this Inn up in New Hampshire." I could tell my mum had a betrayed look on her face, I mean I had just stayed at a possible rival Inn. I gave her a remorseful smile.

"Logan and the boys bought out the whole place so it was just us. He got us separate rooms, but I couldn't be away from him. So we spent the last magical night together. The next morning I realised a lot of things, I knew if I didn't leave then I probably wouldn't. So I said my goodbyes quickly and went home."

Saying all of that felt like I had just blurted out my whole life, but In a way Logan was my whole life. I quickly planted my head into my hands, I was trying to fight back tears. Saying everything just made me feel worse about this situation, it reminded me that I might be doing this alone.

I felt my mum's hand stroking my back. It felt good, soothing. I took a deep breath and looked away from her before admitting the obvious. "I could see the tears well up in his eyes when he realised that was it, it was the end. There was no going back." Slowly a tear came down my cheek, I quickly wiped it away,I wanted to be strong.

"You love him, don't you?" she pointed out the obvious.

Finally I met her eyes and admitted the painful truth. "I do, I really do". I just collapsed into her lap. She began stroking her hands through my hair.

For a few minutes it was nothing but silence till my Mum finally spoke up. "Honey, then why aren't you with him?"

I slowly lifted my head from her lap, I looked baffled. Did she not realise that he was with Odette? She could tell I was puzzled. "I don't mean why aren't you with him right now. But why did you agree to that "vegas agreement" when you know that you couldn't be with him? You both clearly have feelings for each other. I mean knowing him, as little as I do, I'm sure the Logan I met almost ten years ago would never agree to this, especially knowing that this might hurt you. So what happened?"

I was speechless, I was trying so hard to wrap my head around everything Mum had just said. "I don't know" I admitted .Then I just babbled out everything else, "when I ran into him three years ago in New York, he wasn't engaged, but true I had Paul and we had just started dating, but we rarely saw each other and I know it's horrible, but let's be honest I never really loved him. Sometimes I don't even know why I dated him in the first place."

My mum sighed with me, "So what now? Are you going to tell him?"

"I don't know, right now I'm still in shock of everything happening, but I know that it's the right thing to tell him. I actually talked to dad about it, I didn't tell him I was pregnant though. I told him that it was for the book, but I just wanted to know how he felt up about you raising me alone." I stood up and turned to face my mum.

"Mum?"

She gave a soothing "Mmm?" with a smile, I insinuated it was a yes.

"I can't do this alone mum. This wasn't how it was supposed to happen." I just broke down in front of her.

"Oh, Honey. You're not alone" She wiped away a tear rolling down my cheek and gave me a hug."

"You have me, Luke, Sookie, Lane and practically everyone in Stars Hollow that all love and support you. Heck! You even have Paris", I couldn't help but laugh at that, we both sat there just bawling from laughter. However, it soon went back to silence.

I sat there looking at the ground before whispering:

"But… I don't have him."

My mum had nothing to say, neither did I. So we both just sat there on the steps of the gazebo, once again in silence, with her hand still stroking my back.

"Hun, you need to tell him". Mum finally said the thing I was most afraid of.

"I know and I will, just not right now. I'm not ready yet." I softly answered and she gave a small nod.

"Mum, I'm just not sure how to tell my almost married, ex-nearly-fiance that I'm pregnant with his baby." My mum and I laughed as I confessed that absurd sentence.

The silence came back as quickly as it broke.

I then decided that this was not how I wanted my mum to remember her wedding day, although she did get married yesterday night.

I stood up and reached my hand out to mum's, "Let's go get ready for your wedding". I smiled and she replied with one too.

Mum and Luke's wedding was beautiful, it went smoothly. Grandma had arrived from Nantucket a few minutes after we got home in the morning. She wanted to do whatever she could to help. I don't know what it was but Grandma just seemed different. I mean she was her usual Emily Gilmore self, but with a hint of something new. I could put my finger on it, but I love her even more.

Anyways the wedding was a blast, everyone was having fun. There was a lot of dancing, a ton of drinking, a lot of delicious food. Sookie had really outdone herself this time. Everything was just too good to not eat. The food was literally devoured within seconds. And the cakes, yes I said cakes. Sookie had made several cakes, each different, better, and deliciouser than the last. Mum couldn't decide so she picked them all. And oh my! Were they all delicious and gorgeous at the same time. Kirk received his much deserved praise for his decorations.

Mum looked radiant than ever in her beautiful white gown, she went for a simple dress, but it was still beautiful. Luke thought so too, he couldn't keep his eyes off her for a second, and neither could she with him. Through the whole wedding they were never apart, not even for a second. The whole evening they were either holding hands, kissing, or within a feet from each other.

I was watching them from afar at my seat, I couldn't help but smile glee at how happy they both were. At the same time I couldn't stop thinking about Logan. I wondered what he was doing right now. Where was he? Was he already married? I mean it had been a month or so since we last saw each other.A lot can happen in a few weeks.

After I said my goodbyes in New Hampshire I disabled my Google alert on him, I couldn't bear seeing all those paparazzi photos of him married to someone else, or tabloids talking about the married couple. But I thought about it for a while, and I think somehow I would have found out. That thought quickly left my head when I looked down at my non-existent baby bump, I placed my hand over my flat stomach. I knew I had to tell Logan, but I mean how do I reveal such a thing to him. I mean I knew that this isn't something you just say over the phone or through text.

I also didn't know what to expect from him, I mean this isn't the news someone in this situation would be happy or thrilled to hear about. I mean it was a baby for god sake! He could be angry, he might blame and resent me. Although I doubted that, Logan wasn't the type of person to be harsh and cold. He was a sweet person, but a girl in this situation never knows what to expect.

The only thing at this point I knew was that I had to tell him and that I needed to make a decision about this baby with Logan. I couldn't do this alone. It wasn't just because this was his baby, but because I always needed him. As much as I Try to deny it, he is my support system.

At that moment I felt a hand on my shoulder, it was mum.

"Are you okay hun?" she asked with a concerned look on her face.

I waited a few seconds, I thought about my options at this current moment, then I made my decision.

"I'm going to London."