I've Missed You

Okay. So, this is a one-shot that I wrote and published on my old account. I've always really loved it, and so I've re-written some parts :) I hope you enjoy it!

'Behind you' I screamed loudly, my voice breaking. But it was too late. Too late for her to react and too late for me to help. She spun around at my warning, her eyes wide with battle fury blazing within them, but the strigoi reached out his hands before she could make a move to stop his. His speed was something I'd never seen before. We knew there were some old strigoi here, but no-one had expected the age of some of them. Some were older than records even described.

He reached out his hands and snapped her neck with little effort, before moving from her and onto the next guardian. Her eyes went even wider, before the spark within them faded in front of me. She fell to the floor, hair that had escaped from her tight bin flailing around her, and landed on the floor in an unnatural position. Her still opened eyes stared out lifelessly at nothing, and I felt a sharp, strong pain in my chest. I looked around, expecting a Strigoi to be the cause, but there was nothing. Truthfully, I would have welcomed death without a fight, knowing that life without Roza was nothing. There was no way I could live without my Roza.

My vision was hazy, and I wondered whether this was in fact all just a dream, or rather nightmare, but no. She really was gone.

A group of the elite guardians at court was formed when we got intel of a small group of Strigoi living in an abandoned house not far from court. Guardians and even some moroi had been striking out more in these past few years, finally deciding that it was better to start a fight when you knew you had overwhelming force, rather than wait for it to come to you. We'd believed we had overwhelming force today, but the Strigoi had been older and smarter than intel had suggested. Had that been the only difference, we would have coped, but there had been more strigoi than estimated, and so the losses were going to be significant.

As I stared at her lifeless body, events of our lives ran through my head. It had been 10 years since Rose and I had truly begun our lives together after we had returned to court. We had married in a small ceremony in Russia, with Lissa and Christian marrying the year after. They had two children now, with another on the way. Rose and I had been due to retire to part-time desk jobs next year, with the hope of starting a family. That would never happen now. She would never get to hold her child in her arms. I would never get to be a father.

I walked slowly towards her body. It felt like my legs were in thick mud, and the rest of my body was on auto-pilot. I fell down to the floor where she was and gently cradled her lifeless body against mine, tears running down my face. The battle was coming to an end around us, the last remaining Strigoi being picked off, but I didn't notice, or care. All I cared about was her. And now she was gone.

I closed my eyes and breathed in the scent of her hair

'Hey comrade, what happened to that new shampoo I bought?' she asked, stepping out of the bathroom in our house, in only a towel.
'I don't know Roza, it might have disappeared, never to be seen again' I smirked. I had removed it when she wasn't looking, it just didn't smell like her, and the one she normally used, did crazy things to me. I walked up to her, and took the towel off her head, releasing the long dark locks I loved so much. 'Much better' I whispered, taking in the scent. I ran my hands down her shoulders whilst we locked eyes. I ran my fingers around the top of her towel, and quickly pulled that off too. She gave a quick intake of breath. I picked her up and threw her on our bed. 'You're going to need another shower Roza' I said, as I started down at her hungrily.

There were so many moments like that. They were perfect. They would never happen again. Never would she call me comrade again. Never would she tease me. She was the one that grounded me. Now what would I do.

I became conscious of someone putting their hand on my shoulder and I opened my eyes. It was Alberta. She had transferred here to do a desk job last year, having refused to retire, but being deemed too old for field work. She had only been allowed to come today as back-up, but back-up had been needed. Never did I think this was the day I would lose her. The tears were uncontrollable at this point, huge sobs racking my body. I could see the pain in Alberta's face from losing Rose.

I didn't want to live anymore.

It was the day of her funeral today. I dressed in a black suit, leaving my hair down, smiling as I that was her favourite. I had a small rose to wear on my chest. I took a deep breath, readying myself for the hours to come. All I had to do was keep it together then. Just survive. The coffin was black with red roses painted up the sides. It was exquisite, but not as beautiful as the girl inside. I felt the tears ready to fall, but closed my eyes and took a deep breath. I would get through this, even if it killed me. Hopefully it would.

The service was beautiful too, not that I paid any attention. Lissa spoke, and I was asked to but refused, unable to control myself if I did. I hoped she wouldn't mind. Her parents came over and hugged me afterwards, and so did many other people that I didn't notice. When people started to leave, I went to sit at the front of the church, next to Lissa. We sat in silence as she held my hand. She understood the pain I was in. 'I can't' I whispered, more to Roza than Lissa.
She looked at me. 'Just survive Dimitri.' She whispered. 'That's all you can do at the moment, and she would have wanted you to live your life'. I hung my head. She was right. I honestly didn't know how I would get through this.

This was it. The moment I would get to see my Roza again. It had been 2 painful years since we lost her. I was defending Christian, but I knew he would be ok. He had the royal guard with him. I had never been the fighter I had been when Roza was alive. I had died with her, except now I really would. The Strigoi came towards me and I knew he had me. I put my arms to my side, and closed my eyes. I had a small smile on my face. It came quicker than I thought it would. When I opened them again, she was there, standing next to me, holding her arms out. I ran into her embrace and I got my world back. The smell of her hair was still how I remembered it would be. I rested my hand on her cheek, and my forehead on hers. 'I've missed you' I whispered, smiling for the first time since I lost her.

I tried to not edit too much of it, keeping some of the original text, because I like it :) My writing has changed a lot since this though, (I wrote it only a year and a half ago, but I've written A LOT more since then!). I know it's pretty depressing lol, but I hope you enjoyed!

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