I wanted to write something for Alexa and Katie and have it to do with the cancer. I came up with this so I hope you like it.

"Mum, I'm fine."

If I had just known what I would remember from this afternoon…

"I'm not so sure." Mum took the thermometer out of my ear. "Your temperature's still high…"

"I'm only going over to see Katie." I tried. "I don't even have to go by car. They're only next door and we can literally go from one window to the other and…"

"Okay, okay." Mum gave in at last. "But I want you back here within an hour." I moaned. "I could keep you from going all along today. And tell you that no matter the infection, you can't go until it's over…"

And Gosh would know how long that would take. My temperature had been going up and down for weeks…

"Thank you mum." I stood up and threw my arms around her neck. "Ow…"

When I hugged her suddenly lightnings of pain went through my elbows and I gasped and froze.

"Alexa?" Mum tried to sit down again. "What happened?"

"Nothing." I forced myself to smile and pull away from her. "I'll be back in less than an hour."

As I span around my back ached, and as I went upstairs I forced myself not to limp because of aches in my knees and in my ancles.

I could have screamed out loud, that was how bad it hurt. I hated these cramps, which was why I hated it when mum made me stay in bed all day.

The thought passed by of that I hadn't had these kinds of pains until less than a year ago. But I forced the thought away and forced the whimpering away when I stepped up into the window seal and went towards Katie's.

But suddenly, one step from my bedroom- right in the middle towards Katie's my whole world suddenly span around and twisted so to the point I collapsed right where I was…

Then for a moment, I couldn't even open my eyes, my knees had buckled on me and were aching worse than ever- I felt like shouting for someone… my mum, but I didn't want to worry anyone.

"Alexa?"

Before I had the chance to open my eyes even I heard Katie's voice from inside and I heard her voice and her footsteps.

"Alexa? What's wrong?"

"Nothing." I tried to keep myself from whimpering. "My calf just started cramping. Can you help me to get up again."

Katie gave a short laugh.

"You've been so clumsy late…"

"OW!"

I tried to reach my arms up to let Katie help me up. Only for pain to shoot through my arms and back again. And before I had had the time to stop it I had yelped out and laid again.

"Alexa?" I heard Katie. "What is it? Where does it hurt?"

"Nothing." I tried but couldn't completely hide the shiver in my voice. "Cramps…"

I was ready for the pain when it came again. And I bit my lip hard when Katie helped me up, through the window and down into her room.

"I can't believe you left me alone at school today." Katie moaned. "You've been sick so many times lately."

"I know. I'd be fine but mum won't let me OW…"

This time I wasn't ready for the pain that ran through my body as I stepped down on the floor in her room and quickly fell to my knees.

"Alexa…" Katie's voice sounded more worried than I had ever heard it before. "…What's wrong? And don't tell me you're fine. You're obviously in pain."

"I'm fine." I slowly made my way back onto my feet. "I…I have a headache. Maybe you have an Aspirin?"

"Yes of course. They're in the kitchen. You can just wait here…"

"I'm fine." I followed Katie to try and seem like I really was fine. "I can come…"

Out of the room and down the stairs my legs and my head pounded worse than ever for every step- especially as we came down the stairs. And before we came into the kitchen I collapsed on the couch in the living room.

"Alexa?" Katie sounded even more worried this time around and shoo'ed away her brother that were playing video games. "What's wrong? What can I do?..." I tried to answer but I couldn't get as much as a sound out. "MUM?"

I couldn't help but whimper at the noise of her shouting escelating in my head and sending lightnings of pain through it.

"You look like a ghost." Jack suddenly said. "You're pale white."

"Jack!" Katie tried. "Go away or shut up."

I could hear Jack sit down but he didn't go anywhere. And soon I heard Mrs. Cooper coming into the room.

"Jack. Go and get Lori. Tell her that Alexa's ill."

I didn't get this. Just a couple of minutes ago I had been feeling fine despite a slight fever. Now I could barely even breathe and felt pain growing in every single part of my body.

"Alexa? Baby?" Mum came and kneeled by me and ran her hand through my fringe. "You're burning up…"

I couldn't be. I had only been home and let her check my temperature and it wasn't too high.

"My head hurts." I tried as steadily as I could, I tried to sit up but fell back with another whimper. "I just need an Aspirin and I'll be fine.

"I think you need more than an Aspirin right now baby. Your father's coming soon. We'll take you to the hospital."

Wait? No? Dad had been gone for days flying to and from China. He couldn't come home to this.

I couldn't worry him upon worrying the Cooper's.

And I didn't need the hospital.

Dad and Lucas suddenly came into the room.

"Lucas showed me that you were all here… Come on. I haven't seen any of you for days. Someone here's got to be happy to see me."

I could almost hear the way dad's smile faded and turned into a frown. And I would roll my eyes at him and his stupid jokes but where I laid I couldn't even look at him when I wrapped my arms around my stomach.

"Does your stomach hurt?" Mum ran her hand over my forehead again. "It's just been a little while. It might be just me but it's like I can feel your temperature rising higher and higher by the minute… You just said it was your head?"

There was no longer any point with hiding anything of what I felt and as my stomach hurt worse and worse tears were rising in my eyes.

"Everything hurts. It hurts everywhere. My head, my stomach, my body…"

I realized what I had just said, and how much it would be worrying my mum, dad and even my brother and our friends. But why stop now anyway?

"Mum help." I hugged my stomach and couldn't help but to roll back and forth- if I could only roll away from the pain. "Mum help. Make it stop. It hurts mum… It hurts."

"I know." I couldn't help but hear the shiver in mum's voice, "I know baby." She stroke my forehad. "I just wish there was something I could do about it."

What she said only made me feel worse and tears started streaming down my cheeks…

I had never been as mortified as right then when I, barely even knowing it through my aching stomach started heaving and vomitting. I hated throwing up but I still barely even felt it..

"Oh, baby…" mum helped pulling away my hair from my face while I heaved again. "Poor thing… Does that make your stomach feel any better?" I waited for just one second, then nodded. "That's good. Come here. I'll get that off you…"

For just one second I could have started crying even more. How was I supposed to get up in this?"

"You don't have to get up. Just let me take this." A blanket had been laid over my legs and mum took it, and arms up, I lifted my arms so she pulled my shirt off me. "There we go. Jen, can you put this in the wash?"

For just one second I'd forgotten that we weren't even at home but at the Cooper's…

If my stomach didn't hurt so bad I could have gotten up and went home at least…

"Alexa…" I heard Katie's voice and felt her sitting down next to me. "Here. Some water?"

I did wait for another few seconds, then at last finally forced myself to sit up and lift my hands to the glass Katie held me.

The water didn't help me feel any better but at least it took some of the sour taste in my mouth.

"Thank you." I said at last and forced a smile that must have looked more like a grimace. "That was nice… I don't get what's wrong with me…" I snivelled. "…I've never had a bug like this one before." I laid my head towards Katie's shoulder.

"I'd guess that you'd eaten something really bad…" Katie said. "…But I haven't seen you eating for days."

"What?" Dad came over to us. "You haven't eaten? Honey. That's no good. Maybe that is what has been making you sick." I just glared at him, low blood sugar making me this sick? From practically nowhere? "I know… Jack's right. You look very pale and you've defenitily lost weight- maybe I just didn't notice because I saw you every day. I think something's wrong."

I did my best to glare at dad, tried to ignore him and the knowledge that it really did seem like something was wrong with me.

"Your dad's right Alexa." Mum said with a shiver in her voice. "And you've been getting cold's and even the flu a lot. Before just a couple of months ago you barely ever got sick at all."

"I'm fine." I tried and acted like I was too. Then put my feet to the floor and stood up…

…only to fall back with a moan.

"You're not fine." Katie told me. "And I know you know it too. I know we all know it. Even Jack."

I sighed- I just didn't know what to say.

"This isn't going to go away by ignoring it." Mum told me the very worst. "But it doesn't even have to be anything bad. I started getting these symtoms…" Mum hesitated. "Have you been bleeding more than normally during your period lately? It could be something as simple as aneamia?"

"Mum!" I moaned. "I really don't want to share that with everyone."

No matter how sick I felt I still knew both dad, Lucas and Jack were in the room…

"No. Of course…"

It was quiet for just a couple of moments.

Then came what was about to change everything forever…

I felt something running from my nose and down into my mouth, I knew what it was from the taste already before I wiped it with my hand and looked at it.

"Yuk." Jack moaned. "So much blood…" He turned his face, I would have blamed him for it but he was just a little kid. A little kid that fainted at the look of blood and his mum led him to sit on the stairs before he was the one who collapsed.

I forced myself to sit up, blood was scattering from my nose onto my shirt and my hands and everywhere…

"Here." Mum had gotten a grocery bag from the kitchen and I buried my face in it just as swallowing blood made me gag. "Okay, that's it. Dave, go and start the car. We're taking you to the hospital whether you like it or not."

"But mum…"

My own voice sounded weirdly weak. And even I didn't find anything that could have explained this.

"Get up."

"Ah…"

I couldn't help but let a whimper escape my throat from the aching in my legs and feet as I got up…

"Come on… I'm sure they can make it better."

There was no way I could move my hands from the plastic bag I held over my face, but I felt mum leading me to stand up and over the hallway…

Suddenly Lucas was on my other side. And I could have cried with gratefulness only that at least I didn't have to be alone in this as mum and Lucas led me on either side and Katie and her mum and brother followed us but stopped in the driveway while mum led me to our driveway and got into the back seat of dad's car and led me after her.

Lucas took a few steps back and I heard as dad turned the motor on. Meanwhile I wasn't so sure if I should have been relieved or not.

I had the feeling that whatever met us at the ER would have something to do about this. And whatever it would be I would only have to be there and then return home as healthy as a horse.

While I didn't move the bag from under my face and blood still scattered from my nose I leaned my forehead against the window, the glass cool against my warm skin it felt like it should at least make me feel a little bit better…

It felt nice of course. But it didn't help me feel any better.

I could open my eyes just a little bit while dad started his car and geared to back out of our driveway. And what I saw were Mrs. Cooper, Katie, Jack and Lucas standing on the driveway and watching as we disappeared out of their sight.

I had probably never seen anyone look so worried and concerned before. Even little Jack had lost his usual childish ways and frowned…

And I wouldn't ever see anyone so worried and distressed again…

Well, at least not on my parents' faces tomorrow when the doctor would come back into my hospital room with a concerned look on his face.

"Don't you worry." Mum tried when I swallowed blood, choked and more blood ran from my mouth and into the plastic bag. "I'm sure this is nothing to worry about. You're healthy and that's the way you shall stay."

I couldn't help but hear that not even mum believed her own words.

And I had a feeling we all knew she was very, very wrong.

Random fact (I always leave at the end of chapters)

I'm not sure if it could happen like this and Alexa being a bit half- sick for a while only to get terribly sick one afternoon and suddenly everything coming at once. I think I heard somewhere, from someone who had cancer or something that it suddenly got worse like that. And besides. Cancer can just get weirdly different only from one person to the other. Anyway, I decided to keep it like this.

So… I'm thinking of making a part two of this. About when she finds out she has cancer… and then maybe one part three where she has her first chemo. Should I? Tell me what you think in a review or a PM.