This is my first time to post a fanfic! I LOVED Sailor Moon growing up and have continued to hold the beautiful characters created by Naoko Takeuchi close to my heart. Usagi/Mamoru pairing is my jam! Any feedback or thoughts would be much appreciated. Thank you! :)

Disclaimer: I don't own Sailor Moon.

Tears

Usagi tapped her foot impatiently against the bathroom floor as she nervously twirled a strand of fine blonde hair through her fingers. She glanced across the room to Mamoru, who was perched on the edge of the bathtub scrolling through his phone, seemingly nonchalant. Both of them were avoiding looking at the stick that was balanced on the edge of the sink. A pregnancy test.

The couple had been trying for months to get pregnant with their future daughter, Chibiusa. Usagi had always assumed that once they decided to get pregnant it would happen immediately. Both of them were young and healthy. They had saved the world several times for goodness sake. Surely getting pregnant would be easy.

After the first few negative tests, Usagi had become anxious - tracking her ovulation, reading fertility articles on the internet and calling Ami at all hours of the day with random questions about the reproductive system. It was a bit obsessive to be honest, but it made her feel more in control of the situation. Usagi hated to feel out of control.

"Um so how much longer?" she asked, her voice higher than she expected.

"We'll have the results in one minute," Mamoru said, showing Usagi the timer countdown on his phone.

"Okay." She fell silent again, humming restlessly and biting her lip. The minute crawled by and the alarm finally sounded. Mamoru turned the alarm off and shot Usagi a reassuring smile. Even in the midst of her anxiety, the affection on his handsome face caused a simmering heat to spread in her stomach. She let out an almost inaudible whimper.

"Ready?" he asked. Based on the slight smirk on his face it was obvious that he knew the effect that he had on her.

"You look, I'm too nervous!" she exclaimed, closing her eyes tightly, shaking her head. Mamoru chuckled and moved closer to her.

"Give me your hand," he said warmly, taking her hand into his own and stroking it lightly with his thumb. Love flooded Usagi's chest. He was so patient, so kind, so good to her. Mamoru planted a kiss on her forehead and then sat down on the floor beside her and reached up, grabbing the test. There was a long period of silence and Usagi became restless.

"Mamo-chan?" she squeaked.

"I'm sorry honey, it's negative," Mamoru said softly, pulling her down into his lap.

"Oh." Usagi blinked back tears and burning disappointment seeped into her stomach, "Another negative." She let out a shaky exhale.

Mamoru ran his hand up and down her back, sensing her heightened emotions. Letting out a choked sob, Usagi buried her face into her husband's shoulder. He held her for a period of time, murmuring words of love and encouragement into her ear. Usagi's sobs gradually faded into silent tears.

"I really thought I was pregnant this time," she cried.

"I know," Mamoru whispered. Usagi sniffled and looked up at him, hot tears streaming down her cheeks. The emotional toll that this was talking on her was exhausting.

"I'm so embarrassed, Mamo-chan. And scared. What if I'm defective? What if I can't get pregnant? Maybe I injured myself during a battle. Maybe one of the blasts fucked up my uterus. Maybe the future is wrong. Maybe we're doing this wrong." Her words started tumbling out of her mouth as her thoughts spiraled.

"We're doing sex wrong?" Mamoru raised an eyebrow. Usagi met his eyes again and blushed despite herself.

"Fine, you make a good point," she conceded, "We're pretty good at that part."

"Damn right," Mamoru chuckled. He cradled her head, wiping her tears with his thumbs.

"We know that Chibiusa is going to exist. We don't know when, but we'll be ready as soon as she makes her appearance."

"But isn't it hard for you?" Usagi asked, "Waiting?"

"Of course it's hard," Mamoru said, choosing his words carefully, "I can't wait to experience having a baby with you. I can't wait for Chibiusa to be ours. I think what's harder for me right now though is seeing you hurt - seeing you experience disappointment over and over."

Usagi took several deep breaths until her voice was steady. This was just another experience in which she felt thankful for his partnership.

"Thank you Mamo-chan. I love you. There's nobody I'd rather go through this process with than you."

Mamoru lovingly kissed the palm of her hand. "I love you too Usako. It's okay to be sad, but I want you to know that we're going to get through this. I'm not going anywhere."

Usagi tossed the pregnancy test into the trash, appreciatively rubbing her cheek against his chest. Mamoru helped Usagi to her feet. Wrapping her arms around his neck, she pressed her lips to his, trying to convey the intensity of the love that she was experiencing in the moment. Mamoru deepened the kiss, moaning pleasurably into her mouth and Usagi giggled, then shot him an impish look.

"Mamo-chan, I don't think that I'm completely convinced that our sex is up to par."

"Usako," he growled, kissing down her neck, "Trust me, I'm a doctor. We're doing it right."

"Prove it to me?" she asked, sliding her hands underneath his shirt.

Mamoru's eyes darkened and he scooped her up into his arms, bridal style. Usagi screamed in delight as he carried her to their bed, her remaining feelings of despair fading. Mamoru was right - their future would unfold as the universe saw fit.

As Mamoru left searing kisses down her stomach, and began to pull down her pajama bottoms with his teeth (shit, yes please), Usagi realized that, in the meantime, she would make the most of every pre-baby, uninterrupted moment of her marriage.