It's officially Rokushi Week! Throughout the week (June 14th to June 20th), I'll be posting drabble prompts based on the pairing between Roxas and Xion!
Hope you enjoy these little works throughout the week!
Day 1: Confession
Prompt 1 takes place in my KH AU series, "The Soldier of Darkness", although it is not canon to that series of stories.
"Nope." He said, crumbling up the next page on his notebook and tossing it into the trash bin in the corner.
He clicked his pen and started writing again, but after a few minutes, he huffed angrily and crumpled that one up as well.
Roxas slammed his head lightly on the desk, "Darn it. Nothing. No ideas. Stupid useless brain."
"Wow," someone said from the bed, "From someone who was so confident earlier, you sure are giving up early."
"You're really not helping, Kirux."
Kirux looked up from the book he was reading, "How on earth do you expect me to help in this situation?"
"I dunno. Suggestions or something? You just sitting on the bed while I suffer through this should explain a lot."
His friend shrugged, "Hey, I'm not the one who decided that he wants to confess feelings that he doesn't understand."
Roxas grabbed a crumpled ball of paper and threw it at Kirux, who caught it without even looking up from his book. He then went back to his notebook, and stared at the blank page again.
"Why is it so hard to come up with something to say?" He said to no one in particular.
It had only been about two weeks since Roxas had learned about love. Even after getting the explanation from Xaldin and Axel, reading about it in books at the library, and just thinking it over randomly, he had determined that he still really didn't understand.
And yet, he had somehow come to the conclusion that whatever the heck he felt about Xion was either love or pretty darn close to it. He didn't really know how that conclusion had even come up, but it just...did. Somehow, someway. But Roxas knew for a fact that he at least liked Xion more than just a friend, despite her being one of her best and only friends. Sure, he was friends with Axel and Kirux too, but he didn't like them in the same way that he liked Xion.
So, Roxas found himself in the predicament of finding the best way to tell Xion about what he was feeling, even if he didn't truly understand those feelings completely himself.
Kirux closed his book and said, "Alright, admit it. You have no idea what you're doing."
"Well...it's not that I-,"
"Dude, don't lie to me and yourself. Just say it."
Roxas wanted to object, but he just sighed and said, "Alright...I have no idea what I'm doing."
"Good. Now that that's out of the way."
Kirux stood up off of his bed, and reached for Roxas's notebook. He grabbed it, and said, "Step One," before tossing it across the room towards the door.
"Hey, I need that!"
"No you don't, man. Listen, you wanna know the best way that you can tell Xion how you feel? Just go up to her and tell her. Don't write some stupid note and not talk to her face to face."
"How am I gonna do that?"
Kirux facepalmed, and just said, "Just speak from the heart that you don't have, dude. You're making it way harder than it needs to be."
"Speak from the heart…"
"Yeah, or something like that. I know just as much as you do when it comes to this stuff."
Kirux walked back towards his bed, "It's getting late though. You can just tell her tomorrow after work. You gonna crash here? Cuz I kinda only have one bed, y'know."
Roxas didn't respond initially, so Kirux spoke louder, "Yo, you listening?"
"Huh? Oh yeah, I'll leave. See you tomorrow, man."
Roxas got up and left Kirux's room, his mind still racing.
"Just speak from the heart that you don't have."
Roxas thought to himself, "He had better hope this works, or else he's buying me ice cream for a week."
He approached the clock tower ledge, two ice creams in his hand.
"Please let her be here. Please let her be here."
Roxas peaked around the corner, and thankfully saw Xion there alone.
"Yes! This is perfect."
He walked around the corner, "Hey Xion."
Xion saw him and smiled, "Hey Roxas!"
Her smile almost knocked his composure off, but he kept it up and said, "I brought you ice cream, if you hadn't had some already."
"Oh, thanks! I was so focused on getting up here I forgot to grab some for myself."
She took it enthusiastically when Roxas sat down next to her, and the two of them enjoyed their ice cream while making casual conversation.
After finishing both of their bars, Xion said while looking back, "I guess Axel and Kirux won't be joining us."
"Doesn't look like it."
What Xion didn't know was that Roxas had told the two of them to show up late deliberately so that he could tell this stuff to Xion. Axel had teased him about it, but Roxas was glad that he had done what he had asked.
"Welp...here goes nothing."
…
"Hey Xion…"
She looked back at Roxas, "Yeah?"
"I don't know if you were here for it or not, but…a little while back, I went to Beasts' Castle and learned about some human emotion that I had never known about. Xaldin told me about something called…"love"."
""Love"?"
"Yeah. It's a feeling where...you share a very special bond with someone else. A bond that lasts forever."
"Wow," she said, "Y'know, I think I read about that once, but I never really understood it that well."
Xion looked back up at Roxas, who was just about ready to disappear, "What are you saying all of this for? Is there...something else you wanna tell me?"
Roxas felt like a balloon that was being overfilled with air, and just let out a "...yeah" before looking down at his feet.
"Come on, you can do this! You didn't go through all of this to NOT tell her!"
So, he began, "I've been thinking a lot lately, and…well, you and I are best friends, right?"
"Yeah, of course we are."
"Well...do you ever think that...maybe…"
Xion was growing really concerned, "Maybe...what?"
Roxas exhaled heavily, "Ah, screw it. Xion, I-think-that-I-might-love-you-but-I-don't-have-a-heart-so-I-don't-really-know."
He took a few deep breaths, after having said all of that at once.
When he looked back up at Xion, she had...an expression. One that Roxas really couldn't read. It was a mix of shock/embarrassment/fluster or something else.
"Roxas, I…" she said, but didn't say anything else. She was starting to get more embarrassed.
He looked away from her, his cheeks as red as Axel's hair, "I'm sorry, but I just...feel different whenever I'm with you than when I'm with Axel or Kirux. All of us are best friends, but...you're the one I'm closest with, the one I think understands me the most, and...the one I care about the most."
He then looked back up at her, "Even if you don't feel the-,"
"It's not that I don't feel the same way, Roxas. But...it was just sudden, is all."
She was trying to hide the blush on her face, but it was very noticeable.
"Y'know," she said, "I...had actually asked Axel about this and asked about how...I should tell you…"
He gasped, "You did?"
"Yes, but...I was just too nervous, and too afraid that...you wouldn't want to have me as a friend if I admitted."
"Are you kidding? I would NEVER not want you as a friend, Xion. But,"
He reached over, grabbing her hand and holding it with his, "But I'd like to be more, and to learn more about this...with you…"
…
"I...would love to." Xion said, looking up at Roxas and giving him that smile, the one that crushed him almost every time he saw it.
And even if he didn't think he had a heart, she sure did make him feel like he had one.