Title: How to be
Genre: Romance/Angst
Summary: Sakura is Sasuke's happy ending. –SasuSaku.
Song: She's got you high.


Sasuke wonders how Sakura could be so alive-

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"Come on, Sasuke-kun!"

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-and he can't help but…

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"…Don't worry, I'm right here."

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Be drawn to her.

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He wonders how she could even like him, since he's so…

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"My goal is to kill a certain someone-"

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Dark, so tainted and full of hatred, of revenge-

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"S-Sasuke…kun?"

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Of ambition that he knows will make him lose his humanity-

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"Sasuke-kun, s-stop it!"

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But he's thankful she became a part of his life.

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"Wow, Sasuke-kun! Look at this flower! It's so pretty, ne?"

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because-

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"Hn."

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Sakura is Sasuke's happy ending.

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How to BE

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howtobreathe

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"Just breathe, Sasuke-kun."

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Bright green eyes and

Bright pink hair

Inhale

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He wonders how she could possibly be so…so vibrant-

Full of happiness that overwhelms him

To the point where he's left breathless

He always forgets

To breathe

When he's around her

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"I know."

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howtofeel

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"Come on, we'll be late!"

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She grabs his hands and he feels.

He's too aware of her touch

He feels her calloused fingers

He feels her

He feels his heart race

He feels light-headed, dizzy, like her touch

Is lightning and he's been struck and-

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"Let go."

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howtolaugh

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Her eyes would crinkle and

She looks infinitely more beautiful

Than when she just smiles

Because, this is when she's truly alive

And he feels her presence, too aware of it

He feels his heart pound, race

Because he's feeling and for once,

He didn't mind.

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howtodream

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"I'll take first watch."

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She wraps herself in her sleeping bag and twists

To face him, like she can't help it;

He glances at her, heart pounding, eyes impassive.

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"What do you dream about, Sasuke-kun?"

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"…I don't dream."

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"Everyone dreams of something."

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"Then what do you dream of, Sakura?"

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"You, of course."

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howtosmile

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"Just smile…like this."

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He doesn't say anything, because he's too busy-

Memorizing her, everything about her

He knows he won't be here long

And besides, she smiles enough

For the both of them.

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howtoneed

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"I need you, Sasuke-kun."

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He wishes she'd stop crying

Crying for him

Crying because of him

The tears fall down her face

Unending

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"P-Please don't go!"

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And he wants to make her feel better, but

He's scared, he's already so

Attached, so deeply –

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"I-I…love you, Sasuke-kun!"

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Fallen to her, and he wants to let go before-

Before he hits the ground

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"Thank you."

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Her body collapses in his arms

And he catches her

For the first time-

For the last time-

He wonders how long he'll

Last without her

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howtoregret

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He sees her again and she's changed.

She's stronger, more capable-

He wonders when it happened but it must have been

When he wasn't looking

She grew up and so did he

And he feels…regret because

He blinked and

He lost her.

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howtoblink

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"If you close your eyes, I'll come closer."

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She closes them quickly

Squeezes them shut

Her long lashes brush her skin

And he wishes he could touch her but it's too late

He's tainted.

He appears behind her as close

As he dares

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"Do you miss me?"

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"Always."

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howtoremember

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He's losing control and he feels so

Lost and out of it, like he's losing grip on

Reality- he clings on the grass as the world

Slips from his fingers

But then he sees a flash of pink and

He looks up, memories flashing at the back of his eyes

He wants to see her

He wants to remember what it was like to be

Alive

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howtohope

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"Sasuke-kun? Is that you? What are you doin-"

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"I don't know."

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She hugs him before he can

Push her away

Like he usually does

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"Come back…please…!"

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"I…I can't. I have to kill Itachi first-"

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"Then I'll wait, Sasuke-kun-"

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He felt his heart constrict

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"-I'll wait for you."

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For the first time, he hopes

He hopes that she will.

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-Fin.

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Author's Notes: I've written this ages ago (2008)- I guess you can probably tell? Haha. I recently found it again while cleaning my old computer. Damn if SasuSaku have the best angst tho, amirite? Just realised that even back then I'm a sucker for writing within the canon!verse, haha. Anywya, thank you very much for reading!