A/N: Hello again everyone! Welcome to the final chapter of Falling!
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When they walked into the room, Kendall's mouth ran dry and his pulse sped up. He knew what he wanted, he just had to ask for it. He was ready to give himself over to James completely, and although the thought shot straight to his cock and made him harder than he'd ever been, he was so fucking nervous.
James wrapped his arms around Kendall from behind while nibbling on his earlobe. Then he slid his mouth down, kissing his neck and nuzzling against his skin. "You smell so good. Why are you so nervous? It's only been a week." James chuckled.
"Because I want to…" Kendall turned in James' arms and stared right into those hazel eyes. "I want to switch things up. I want to give you something I've never given anyone else, but I'm not gonna lie. I'm nervous as hell."
"You don't have to. I'm perfectly fine keeping things the way they are." James leaned in and kissed Kendall, and his whole body melted. God, how he'd missed this. The thought that he almost threw this away created a lump in his throat.
They hadn't truly kissed since the morning James left for Boston. With that thought, Kendall deepened the kiss, sweeping his tongue inside and tasting his man again for the first time in over a week. They stood there for a long time, wrapped around each other, kissing as if they needed each other to exist.
Finally, Kendall pulled back and whispered, "I really am sorry, James. I hate that I doubted you. You didn't have to forgive me, but you did and-"
James jerked Kendall's face toward his, covering his mouth, and plunged his tongue in, effectively silencing him. When he pulled back, James demanded, "No more apologies."
Kendall nodded, and those nervous butterflies came fluttering back again. He was vaguely aware of James walking him back toward the bed-then completely aware when the mattress bumped the back of his legs. Seriously, what the fuck was he so nervous about? He grabbed the bottom of his shirt and was about to pull it over his head when James stopped him.
He wasn't going to give him another chance to back out, was he? Kendall knew if James kept offering, he'd chicken out.
"I'll do that. I like to unwrap my gifts slowly." James slowly pulled Kendall's shirt up over his head and then kissed his chest, right over his heart.
James placed soft kisses on Kendall's chest, making it harder to breathe. He slid his hands down Kendall's stomach and began to unbutton his pants. Every move Kendall made to relieve James of some piece of clothing was turned down. James took complete control.
Kendall closed his eyes and felt his pants and boxers being pulled down to his feet. James pushed on his chest lightly, and Kendall willingly sat down on the edge of the bed. When he slightly opened his eyes, he saw James kneeling before him, taking off each shoe and sock then completely removing Kendall's pants. He stood back up and guided Kendall completely on the bed, lifting his legs onto the mattress. Kendall had never been taken care of like this before. He felt vulnerable and sexy all at the same time.
James lay on top of Kendall, fully clothed, and began to kiss him. "I can't believe you're mine," James whispered as his hands roamed every inch of Kendall's body.
"James…" He sighed, the rest of the words failing him as James cupped him then began to stroke. Kendall's mind was scrambled. All he knew was how amazing he felt in this moment. The world melted away, only leaving the two of them. James continued his exploration-his domination-still fully clothed, as he pushed his body down until his mouth was even with Kendall's aching cock. Kendall closed his eyes, and when he felt James' hot breath on his cock, he nearly wept.
Very gently, James' tongue traveled up his cock from base to tip, then focused on the head. Kendall clenched his eyes shut, the sensations intensified, not knowing what James was going to do next. He slid into submission, completely allowing James to take control. Soft kisses were placed up and down his hardened shaft, eliciting moans and panting breaths from Kendall.
"This is mine." James licked up Kendall's cock and back down. Kendall felt his legs being spread, and he tried his best not to tense up. He grabbed onto the sheets and allowed James to push his knees up and back toward his chest. "And these are mine." James sucked in one of his balls and then the other. Releasing them, he moved down to that tender spot under his sac. "Look at me, Kendall." Kendall pried his eyes open, grabbing onto the sheets even tighter as James slid his tongue down even further. "And now, finally, this is mine, too."
"Oh, fuck," Kendall moaned, watching James' tongue lick at his entrance. He'd never felt anything like it before. Seeing James between his legs...holy hell. He could come just from that.
Without warning, James released him, and Kendall watched him in a panic as James stood up until he realized James was finally undressing. Their eyes locked as each piece of clothing was removed, but James' eyes were suddenly filled with concern. "I wasn't prepared for company."
"Front pocket of my bag." Kendall pointed to the overnight bag he'd dropped by the door.
"A bit presumptuous, don't you think?" James said with a raised eyebrow.
Kendall laughed, remembering himself saying those exact words their first time together.
"Nah, just fingers-crossed-hopeful." He quoted James, crossing his fingers, and flashing James a big cheesy grin. He'd never had that before. A comfort level of talking and even joking around in bed. It somehow made it all seem more intimate.
James let out a short laugh as he crossed the room to get the condoms and lube from Kendall's bag. As he walked back to the bed, those butterflies were swarming again in Kendall's stomach. James put the foil packets and bottle of lube down then surprised Kendall by laying down on top of him, rather than going back to what he'd been doing.
He kissed Kendall slowly and passionately, and Kendall knew James had realized he was nervous again. The feel of James' body against his was incredible. He never wanted to go another night without feeling that again. His body relaxed into the mattress, and he slid his fingers through James' dark hair, tilting his head slightly to deepen the kiss. A soft gasp escaped when James pushed their cocks together. He gripped Kendall's thighs, pushing them back toward his chest. James pumped his hips, creating friction as he thrust against Kendall.
With a growl deep in James' chest-unlike anything Kendall had ever heard before-James pushed his whole body down the length of Kendall's. He swallowed Kendall's cock, making his eyes cross. He worked him fast and furious with his mouth then abruptly released his cock and moved down to work his hole. His movements were primal and fierce, and Kendall fucking loved it.
"Shit, James." Kendall could barely hold himself back from release. He never imagined it would be like this.
James let go of one of Kendall's legs, and he watched as James slowly put his own finger in his mouth, getting it wet. Then without saying a word, James leaned back down and brushed over Kendall's hole with both his tongue and finger. Kendall pulled up the leg that James had released, giving him as much access as he needed. His wicked tongue made Kendall feel things he'd never felt before.
James kept his tongue on Kendall while he patted the mattress, finding the lube next to him. Kendall held on to his own legs, pulling them back as James put lube on his fingers. The first penetration Kendall ever felt was James' fantastic finger. He slowly pushed it in, and a mixture of discomfort and pleasure washed over him. There was a lot of pressure and it was unlike anything he'd ever felt...and he didn't want James to stop.
Slowly, James slid in another one, and again, there was that uncomfortable pressure, followed by slow-spreading pleasure. Kendall cursed when James' tongue decided to join the party. Kendall was gripping his own thighs, holding on for dear life, never wanting it to end. By the time James got three fingers in, Kendall was practically begging for more. Fuck it, he'd beg if he had to.
He didn't have to.
James slipped his fingers out and began to fuck Kendall with his tongue. Kendall was breathing so hard he thought he might hyperventilate. If James kept this up, he was going to come. He was damn near begging again when James stopped.
This time, when he opened his eyes, the nervousness didn't come back as James put the condom on. He wanted this so fucking bad nothing could shake him. James lined himself up and looked back up at Kendall. There was question in his eyes and he hesitated, but Kendall simply nodded his head and lifted his hips to put a pillow underneath him.
For the rest of his life, Kendall would never forget the moment when James pushed inside of him for the first time. It was the sweetest kind of pain, and emotionally, he felt on the edge. The burning stretch of his body wrapped around James' hard shaft took him to a place he'd never been before. James took his time, letting Kendall adjust, gradually working himself in until their connection was complete. Kendall tried to control his breathing through the pain and focused on James. They stared at each other, connected in a way Kendall had never been connected to anyone else.
Kendall reached up and placed both of his hands on James' face. Kissing him softly, he whispered, "I love you so much."
James' arms were shaking as he held himself above Kendall, holding himself back from thrusting just yet. His voice was trembling as he said, "I love you, too." Then, as if he'd been holding his breath, he released a long sigh and began to move.
His movements were slow, taking his time, going easy on Kendall. It wasn't long before the pain fell away, and all Kendall was left with was an unbelievable feeling. James was on his knees in front of him, pumping his hips while he held onto Kendall's thighs. His muscles flexed with every movement. His chest moved in and out with every panting breath.
He's so beautiful, and he's all mine.
"Holy shit," Kendall cried out as bolts of electricity coursed throughout his body. He didn't want to come yet, but that sure as hell made him damn near close.
"Ah. There it is," James said on a sigh. "That's how I feel every time you're inside me. I know you know it's there, and what it does to me...how I react to it." James brushed up against it again, and Kendall moaned. "You're an excellent marksman. Had no idea what I was feeling on the other end, though, did you?" James thrust back in and rubbed up against his prostate again.
Kendall arched his back and begged, "Do it again. Please, do it...Oh fuck…" He was a mumbling mess of raw need.
James was more than willing to oblige. Before long, he was thrusting faster and hitting that magnificent little gland over and over again. He reached between them and began to stroke Kendall. That was all it took. Kendall's body shook, and he came so hard he thought he was going to pop a vein. James cried out, and Kendall could feel his cock pulse inside of him. He thrust a couple more times before he collapsed on top of Kendall.
They were both trying to catch their breath. James slowly pulled out, grabbing a tissue from the nightstand to discard the condom, and then rolled onto the bed beside Kendall. Kendall rolled so they were facing each other. He had a feeling he was going to be tender for a while.
"That was intense," he whispered.
"And amazing?" James asked.
"Completely amazing." Kendall leaned in and kissed James then pulled him, rolling him on his back so James' head was on his chest. They lay like that for a few minutes, their breathing regulating. Kendall's mind wandered back over everything that had happened within the last few hours...the last week, really. He couldn't completely silence the guilt he still felt for the way he'd treated James or the fear that was creeping its way in. Would James ever regret everything he gave up for them?
"James?"
"Hmm?"
"I still can't believe what you did for me...for us. Are you sure you want to write your family off, though? I just...I never want you to regret the choice you made to protect me and Lily. I'm..." Shit, he was screwing this up. "I don't want you to regret all you lost or...I don't know…" He scrubbed a hand over his face then through his hair.
James placed a hand on Kendall's cheek. "I haven't lost anything. If anything, I've gained so much with you both in my life. I've always been a Diamond in name only. If I could get rid of that, too, I would," James said in a soft voice.
Kendall didn't know until that very moment, but the idea popped into his head so naturally, so loud and clear. He wanted forever with James. He knew he could raise Lily alone and had proven that, but he didn't want to go it alone anymore. Kendall hesitated for a second then said, "That's possible, you know."
James looked up at him in confusion. "What is?"
"Getting rid of your name," Kendall clarified. "James Knight is kinda sexy." He held his breath, worried he'd jumped the gun, but this time it was instinct he listened to, not fear. James had given up his entire life for him and his daughter. There was never going to be another person who would love them that much. And there was never going to be another person Kendall loved as much as he loved James.
James picked his head up and stared at Kendall in amazement.
Did he really just ask me…?
"Are you asking what I think you're asking? Because if you're not, I swear to God, I'll kick your ass, Kendall Donald Knight."
"Ooh, full name, huh? What exactly do you think I'm asking?" Kendall was teasing him now.
James sat up and slapped Kendall on his chest. "Oh, no. No sir. I'm not going to tell you what I think you're asking. You're going to ask, or I'm going to kick your ass."
Kendall was laughing at him now, and James was trying to hold back his own laughter and keep a straight face.
"You keep threatening to kick my ass, but I'm pretty sure I just handed it to you a minute ago," Kendall retorted.
James rolled his eyes and huffed out in annoyance. "If you're not going to take this seriously, then…" He tried to climb over Kendall to get off the bed, but Kendall pulled him down again.
"Marry me." Immediately, Kendall's expression turned to one of shy insecurity.
Two simple words and they'd changed James' life as soon as they were uttered. "Are...are you serious?"
Kendall released the breath he'd apparently been holding. "Very. Cut the last tie to the people you used to call family and take the name of your new family. Your real family. It feels right, James. At least, for me it does, but you have to make that decision." Kendall cupped James' face and was gently rubbing his cheek with his thumb. "You don't have to answer right now. Just think about it. I know I've given you reason to doubt me, but I can promise you...hard to get, easy to get...it makes no difference. The result is still the same. You're mine, and I'm yours. However long it takes for you to decide, I'll wait. We have forever, and I'm not going anywhere. Not without you."
James' heart melted right there on the bed, in a B&B on Cape Cod...the first of many new, happy memories they were going to build there. As far as James was concerned, time for thinking was done.
"Well, at least I know you're not marrying me for my money."
"Wait, so is that a yes?"
"Yes, that's a yes." James barely had the words out when Kendall pulled him back down and planted kisses all over his face. "I can't breathe! You're suffocating me! Ugh, is this what being married to you is going to be like?" James was laughing, turning his head so Kendall could kiss everywhere. "We clearly have to set some boundaries," James teased then yelped as Kendall tossed him on his back and lay on top of him.
"Till death do us part, pretty boy. Think you can handle that?" Kendall brushed their noses together and kissed him softly.
"Hmm...it will be my pleasure, Mr. Knight."
Four Months Later…
"I still think they should be hazel," James insisted.
"What's wrong with green?" Kendall asked from the driver's seat.
"There is absolutely nothing wrong with green. What's wrong with hazel?" James challenged back.
"Ugh...nothing, dear," Kendall groaned, patronizing him.
James smacked his arm and warned, "Don't you 'nothing, dear' me."
"It's not nice to hit," Lily scolded.
Immediately, Kendall agreed, pushing James' buttons.
"Yeah, it's not nice to hit. You should say sorry." James narrowed his eyes at the man in response.
"I like purple. Can they be purple?" Lily asked.
James and Kendall looked at each other and laughed.
"Uh, honey, I don't think-" Kendall started to say, but Lily continued to talk over him.
"I think purple would be really pretty. Brandon at school said that his sister's hair died and now it's purple."
"You mean she dyed it," James corrected as he turned in his seat to look at her.
"Yeah, it died." Lily stretched her neck and looked out the window. "Are we there yet, Daddy?"
Kendall turned the wheel and drove into Esposito's parking lot. "Yeah, Lilypop, we're here."
"Do you think Grammy and Pop are already here?" she asked.
James scanned the cars and spotted Kendall's parents' car. "Yes, they're here, honey." He got out of the truck and opened the back door for Lily. "You should have your boots on, Lilypop," James said as he picked them up off the floor of the truck. She kicked them off every time she got in her car seat. Once the pink and yellow polka dot boots were back on, James lifted her out of the truck.
James stretched one hand out to Kendall and the other one to Lily and, hands joined, they walked into the restaurant. The sound of voices talking and laughing was coming from the back room, and as they entered, they were greeted with cheers of congratulations.
Dak, Jett, and Logan came right over, and Dak immediately pulled James into a tight hug. "I thought you guys were right behind us. What took you so long?"
"We had to go back to the courthouse for Lily's dolphin," James answered.
Lucy approached the group, squatting down to hug Lily. The little girl had stolen all of their hearts. "Hey, squirt. What's everyone talking about?"
"Daddy and Daddy J were talking about the colors again," Lily said, rolling her eyes just like her grandma. "I told them purple is a pretty color." The group laughed, but James was a little teary.
Daddy J.
Would he ever get used to Lily calling him that? At least without crying? The first time she did, he'd gotten all choked up. Then he had to assure her that they were happy tears, not sad and that he loved it when she called him Daddy J. They'd just filed the papers after the ceremony to make it official. James was going to adopt Lily. They would truly be a family. He'd really be her daddy, and for the rest of his life, he'd make sure she knew she was loved.
"Seriously? Just married and you're already arguing?" Dak teased.
James turned to Kendall and smiled. "There's no argument. Kendall seems to forget that this time around, it'll be my swimmers winning the race. Regardless of the donor we choose, there's still a good chance the baby will have my dark hair and my hazel eyes." He kissed his husband, knowing full well that it didn't really matter to either of them what the baby looked like. They just loved pressing each other's buttons. The important thing to James...what he couldn't get over...was that there would be someone who was a part of him, his flesh and blood, who would love him unconditionally.
Kendall wrapped James in his arms and said, "If he does have dark hair and hazel eyes, we'll love him just as much as we love Lily."
"Although, unfortunately, honey, it's not possible for him to have purple eyes." James bent over and picked Lily up as she frowned.
"A boy?" Logan asked and all heads turned to Kendall and James.
James looked into Kendall's eyes. "We've been in the habit of referring to our next child as a boy, but who knows? We'll be happy either way." He set his daughter-I have a daughter-back down, and she took off across the room to her grandparents.
Jett gave Kendall a horrified look, and jokingly asked, "So, you're telling me there could be another James Knight in our future?"
"Afraid so," Kendall replied, then flinched when James hit him on the chest. "Seriously, though, he or she will be perfect. We're going through an agency for a surrogate. Who knows? Maybe this time next year we'll have another member in our family." Kendall cupped James' cheek, rubbing his thumb and forth, and placed a soft kiss on his cheek.
"Ugh...there they go again," Lucy groaned. "Seriously, what's happening to all the men in my life? All lovey-dovey and shit."
"Aw, Red, are you jealous?" Jett released.
"I think she's jealous," Logan added.
"Do you need some loving, Red?" Dak asked.
"She most certainly does," James declared, and with that, all five men surrounded her in a big group hug.
"Ugh! Too much love!" Lucy said through laughter. "Too. Much. Love!"
"No such thing," Kendall said, before gathering James in his arms and planting a breath-stealing kiss on his lips. The whole room erupted in applause and whistles. "Now, how about we get this party started?"
James and Kendall walked over to Kendall's parents first. They were immediately hugged within an inch of their lives by Jennifer. She pulled James aside, looked at him, and, with both hands on his face, said, "You were always meant to be a part of this family. The ceremony today made it legal, but you've been ours for so much longer. Never forget that, and always know you have a mother and father who love you. We may not be blood, but you're ours all the same, and we love you just the way you are."
James couldn't hold back the tears, hearing those words. The words he'd wanted to hear his whole life. You are enough the way you are. All he could manage was a nod of his head as the tears fell. He wrapped her in another hug feeling, for the first time, a mother's genuine love.
"Okay, Mom," Kendall said, rubbing James' back. "How about you not make my husband a sobbing, runny nose mess before we make our way around the room?"
James hit the back of his hand against Kendall's stomach. "Shut up. I am not a mess." He wiped his tears away using a napkin Kendall handed him.
"You're perfect, pretty boy," Kendall said, giving James a quick kiss.
They each took one of Lily's hands and started their walk around the room, greeting guests as a true family. It was overwhelming for James as he looked at everyone who had come out today to celebrate the two of them. Charlie had closed the diner, Emily and Roger had offered their rooms at the B&B to some of Kendall's extended family for the weekend. This time of year was slow anyway. James realized for the first time how far he'd come in a year.
After they'd cut the cake and each had a piece, Kendall went to catch up with his cousin. James stood on the side of the room, taking it all in.
"Still can't believe it, huh?" Logan squeezed James' shoulder and smiled softly. "It's real. This is all real, and you deserve every second of it."
"You never did doubt this for me, did you? You might be the only person who truly believed from the very beginning that I could have all this. Hell, I didn't even believe it." James reached up and squeezed Logan's hand that was still on his shoulder.
Logan shrugged his shoulders and looked over at Jett and Dak. Then he looked at Kendall before turning back to James. "I'm a sucker for happy endings."
"I want you to get your happy ending, though," James said. "Maybe with a certain shy hottie?"
Logan let out a soft laugh. "You don't give up, do you?"
"You didn't give up on me. I say all's fair." James smiled at his friend.
"Who knows what this year will bring. Stay tuned." Logan winked at James before walking to join Dak, Jett, and Jett's family at their table.
Strong arms wrapped around James from behind, and he sank back into that heavenly body he knew so well.
"What was all that about?"
"He deserves to be happy. Logan puts so much faith in others, but I have a feeling he has less faith in himself than he's willing to admit."
"You should've seen him before I went to Cape Cod to find you. I really thought for a split second there that he was going to kick my ass." Kendall laughed before nuzzling James' neck.
"Logan? That man doesn't have a violent bone in his body." James chuckled.
"I don't know. I wouldn't mess with someone he loves. I have a feeling he wouldn't take too kindly to that."
"Hmm…" James turned in Kendall's arms and kissed him. "I can't wait to have you all to myself. Only a couple more hours before your parents take Lily for four glorious days, and we are off to the Cape."
"Why did we decide to go to Cape Cod when it's still cold?" Kendall laughed.
"Because it's our place now. I'm filling my favorite place with new, happy memories with you. Plus, it's not like we'll be leaving our bed at all."
Kendall pulled James closer and kissed his neck. "We won't?"
"Oh no. In fact, I'm not sure why we even bothered to pack clothes. I intend on keeping you naked the entire time." James nipped at Kendall's earlobe.
"And what do you plan on doing to me?" Kendall asked, and as James whispered his plans in his husband's ear, Kendall said in a low, husky voice, "Oh my Gucci."
Done! So there you have it! Kames got their happy ending and are officially a family! Not going to lie, I got a little emotional writing that ending. :P
I'd love to hear your thoughts on the chapter and story in general, as well as if you happened to have any favorite parts/moments!
Again, I hope you all enjoyed and that you all are staying safe and healthy out there! I would like to thank you all again for your support! This has been another fun ride and I can't thank you all enough for reading and sharing your thoughts and just your support in general. And although I'm sad to see this story end, it means that Twin Flames will be getting regular updates now, so for those of you reading that story, the next chapter of that will more than likely be up early next week! Again, thank you all so much for everything. :)
-Epically Obsessed