Actually I don't know if there's anybody here reading this. I know the show has ended long ago, but don't know how I managed to fall back into the Rizzles hole. So I had feelings and a song called "Cuando estes triste" de Amaia inspired me to write this. Hope you like it and sorry about the mistakes you may found or the poorly gramatics, it's been to long since i've written anything, and mostly in english. Thanks for reading

Disclaimer: I don't own any of the characters mentioned in this story nor I take profit for it.

It had been a week since that day. The walls had fallen down and their feelings weren't confined inside of them anymore. At least it had seem like that at the moment.

"I love you" she declared "I love you and I need to tell you" Maura said between sobs. The image of that man today at the morgue saying that he had never said it to his best friend made her realize that she didn't want to ever find herself in that position.

"Maur, darling" Jane said as she approached to her and placed her hands on her shoulders "I love you too, you're my best friend" the brunette added as trying not to get her hopes up about the meaning of the doctor's words.

"No" she stated strongly. "You don't get it. I LOVE you" she was crying hard now, and it broke Jane's heart to see her like this "I love you and I don't want to regret not saying it to you, and I get it if you don't feel the same way about…"

Jane closed the space between them and she lifted Maura's chin to kiss her. She kissed her softly, as trying to prove her with that kiss that she felt the same way. She parted her face just inches away just to say "I love you too. I do."

The change in their relationship felt so natural to both of them that it was almost unquestionable that it had been the right call to be true to how they felt. They had spent the days they had off from work after finishing the case they'd been working on at Maura's house. It was not much different to all the other days off they had share together, with exception of the closeness that now they could share and did not repress; sleeping together, kissing, hugging, caressing, exploring how their bodies reacted to their seem fine, more than fine actually; Jane and Maura felt joyful and excited to finally give their relationship a try. But things seemed to change on their last day off.

Jane had gotten up early and had prepared breakfast for Maura. They spend the morning reading the news, deciding the menu for lunch and bickering about whether it was nicer going for a run at the Public Garden or at the esplanade.

"Since you like science so much why don't we test each other theories?" jocked the brunette as she chugged down the last bits of a tost.

"Well, we can not test them using the scientific method since it's not an objective fact rather than subjective preferences. But we could research for statistic data of the amount of people that go to each place for…" the blonde stopped as Jane kissed her quickly to make her silence.

"Maur, let's just go for a run there later" she said as she chuckled.

The run wasn't really long since Maura's house was near to both places so they weren't tired but decided to sit on a bench for a while and watch the river. The afternoon was ending and the sun was starting to set.

Maura rested her head on Jane's shoulder, a gesture she had done so many times before that it wasn't new to them, but never in public. The brunette looked down and tugged softly Maura's side to make her look upward. She stared at her, taking in every inch of her face; her freckles, the thousands tones of green in her eyes, the dimple in her left cheek. She didn't know why but it make her dizzy. It was like looking the sea from a cliff, she wanted to jump but was afraid to do it. Why? If they had already taken the most difficult step and everything seemed fine.

Jump she heard in her mind, and she did.

"I love you" she said

"I love you too" the blonde replied as she lifted her head to kiss Jane, but the detective moved her head and the kiss that was aimed to her lips ended landing on her cheek instead. Jane's mind was playing tricks on her, and just as she had jumped from the clift with a rope tied to her and she ended up hitting the rocks instead of the water.

Maura was puzzled by that reaction, she separated her body from Jane's just to take a better look at her face, but she had focused her eyes on the floor.

"Is everything ok?" she asked, placing her hands on Jane's to stop her from rubbing the scars on her palms.

"Yeah" she said as she stood up. Her hands rubbed her face, she wanted to hit herself. The brunette looked at Maura but didn't bear to look her in the eyes. "Let's get back" she added as she turned around and started running immediately.
It took some seconds for Maura to start running behind her, as she was left baffled about what had just happened.

It was half an hour later as they arrived at Maura's house. Jane had run fast, as trying to leave something behind. Maura had been a few meters behind all the way, not because she couldn't keep up with the velocity but because she knew that Jane was using the run as a coping mechanism, but she didn't knew exactly for what. Had she done something wrong? Had she offended her in any way?

"Jane, what's wrong?" she asked as she placed a hand on Jane's shoulder as she slowly eased her breathing.

"Nothing" she replayed, looking at her and facing the ground again. "Nothing. I'm sorry, Maur."

"It's ok" she stated as she turned to open the door "but you know you can tell me anything" Jane didn't reply and just followed her inside the house.

"I'll go take a shower" the brunette stated as she passed by Maura and started to climb the stairs. She wanted to follow her, she needed to know what was going on inside her head, but knew that it was better to give Jane time to open up on her own and to force her or she would close herself even more.

An hour had gone by and Jane had not come down so Maura decided to go check on her to see if everything was ok. She found her lying on her bed with some pijamas on and her hair still wet from the shower.
"Jane, honey" she said softly as she approached, but she realized the detective was asleep. Maura decided to let her rest and went back downstairs to pour herself a glass of wine.

She sat on the couch and turned on the TV. She hoped for the voice from the news channel to distract her, but it was impossible. Her mind kept playing the moment in the bench over and over again. She dissected every word, gesture and look but didn't find anything out of their "new" normal. It was Jane who said "I love you" and then turned her face when she leaned in to kiss her. Why would she reject her like that? It didn't make sense. They had kiss before, multiple times during the week.

The blonde decided that it was better to stop conjecturing in her mind, after all she was never one to guess or jump into conclusions. She turned off the TV and made her way to the bedroom. She took off her clothes and let the in the chair next to the bed, put on her pijamas and slide into bed with Jane.

As she felt the weight on the bed the brunette opened her eyes a little. "It's me" Maura said as they had been sharing a bed for years now. She resisted the urged to tuck on of Jane's curls behind her ear; she didn't want to make her feel uncomfortable with her touch after what had happened earlier. But it was Jane who got closer to her and gesture to let her rest her head on her chest. Maura settled herself so the brunette could do it and gave her a little nod as if saying it was ok.

As she put her head on Maura's chest and felt the rhythm of her heartbeat she felt all her feelings erupt inside her. Why couldn't she enjoy this? What had change that had made her so fearful?. Tears started to flow from her face.

The wet feeling in her skin made Maura look down just to see Jane crying in silence. It broke her heart to see her like that.

"Oh, Jane" she said as she run her thumb across her cheek to dry the tears that were falling. "Tell me what's wrong, please." Her hand caressing the back of her partner. But Jane didn't say anything, she just pressed herself closer to Maura, as if trying to fuse their bodies together.

She felt so vulnerable. Was love supposed to feel like this? Shouldn't she be happy and giggling in bed with Maura instead of crying and feeling miserable? What had change today?

And in that moment it hit her. It weren't her feelings for Maura what made her afraid, it was feeling exposed, unprotected, at sight of everybody to judge them.

"I love you and I'm sorry" she let out as she started sobbing. "I'm so sorry" she repeated

Maura hold her even closer to her, feeling how her body trembled with each sob inside her embrace.
"Darling" she said as she tried to look at her face, but the detective hid it deeper into the blonde's neck. "Talk to me. Please" she insisted softly.
But Jane kept only repeating that she was sorry and that she loved her like a mantra until all of her energy was drained from crying and she fell asleep in Maura's arms.

Ok, so next chapter (the final one) would be up soon 'cuz i've already started writting it, and i don't want to lose the inspiration before finishing the story. I hoped you liked it, and thanks for reading until the end!