Chapter 1: We Meet And We Meet Again
Brittany's POV
Acting has always been a passion of mine since I was a toddler and today marks a pivotal part in my small journey to where I am. Today is my first day at my new job and I'm really quite nervous. I've had a few minor roles before in television and a small part in a movie but I've never had a main role before. My mom didn't want me to be overworked when I was at school so she only let me audition for certain roles. I'm 8 years old now and I've managed to convince my mom to let me take on bigger roles so today starts that chapter of my life off.
Also, since I'm going to be spending a lot of my time working then my mom and the producers have set up on set tutoring for me alongside some of the other young actors. I am going to miss school a little bit since most of my friends are there but I'm looking forward to doing this TV show because I love acting. I'm just making my way to the tutoring classroom right now because I need to do a lesson before I'm allowed to start work.
"Hi" I say shyly to the brunette-haired girl sitting at one of the desks as I walk in.
"Hey" the brunette smiles while waving at me.
"I'm Brittany" I smile back.
"Brittany Pierce, right?" the girl asks.
"Yeah" I nod.
"I'm Santana Lopez" the girl introduces herself.
"Oh wow" I say a little starstruck. I can't believe I am actually sitting in class next to Santana Lopez. I knew the star of the show was played by Santana Lopez and I'd have had to meet her at some point but this has really thrown me off guard. The full first season of the show has already aired so I'm the new kid on the block who's joining the show starting at season 2 so this doubles the nerves I feel by meeting Santana first. Not only I am nervous to be doing something new but now I'm nervous that I mess up in front of the best young actress there is.
"Are you ok?" Santana asks me worriedly.
"Yeah, just a little nervous about today" I say honestly.
"Trust me, these classes are easy. I sometimes think the tutoring is a lot easier than actual school" Santana replies.
"Oh, I'm not worried about the curriculum, I'm nervous about coming into a show that has all of these established characters. You all did season one together so it's nerve wracking starting as the new kid" I explain.
"I wouldn't worry about it" Santana shrugs.
"So where are the other kids?" I ask as no one else seems to be here except Santana and I.
"I guess they must be in different grades" she shrugs.
"I'm 8 years old" I tell her.
"I know" Santana smiles. "I asked some of the crew about you because I wanted to know what the new girl would be like" she shrugs.
"That's a little intimidating knowing you know everything about me and I don't know much about you" I reply.
"Didn't you look me up before you came here?" she asks curiously.
"I'm not allowed too much time on the computer because I'm usually at school or working. When my parents do let me use the computer then I like to play games, I don't really search for people" I shrug.
"Ok" Santana nods. "I'm 8 too" she smiles.
We spend the next 10 minutes just talking to each other. We don't really talk about anything in particular, just whatever comes into our heads. Santana was mostly talking about how unhappy she was though that we were left sitting here doing nothing when we should be learning something or getting back on set to film something. I'm not going to lie; I don't really like being left here doing nothing either. Don't get me wrong, Santana seems so cool but it is a bit of a waste of time just sitting here not working nor doing school work.
"Sorry I'm late" a man says while rushing into the room. "You must be Brittany, I'm Adam" he says as he shakes my hand.
"We're going to be late for filming if we don't get class finished so can we just start now" Santana says unamused. Ordinarily I would think it was a little rude to speak to an adult like this but Santana does have a point.
"Yes, I'm sorry" Adam apologises. "Ok, what are we doing today?" he says to himself as he gets quite flustered trying to find his lesson plan for the day.
"We're working on numbers this morning and then we're doing reading later this afternoon once we've done some filming. Well that is supposed to be the plan but poor Brittany and I will likely be fired before season two even starts production since we've done no school work so far" Santana states while glaring at Adam.
"Santana, I am well aware I am late but I don't want any bad behaviour today from you" Adam points out in a way which is meant to sound authoritative I think but it really comes out a bit shaky and scared.
"Whatever" Santana rolls her eyes. "As soon as class is over I'm going to complain to my mom and the production team because this isn't professional" she whispers to me. I'm not going to lie; I did think it would be more professional myself.
Eventually Adam gets himself together and finds his lesson plan and the class begins. Santana and I both seem to breeze through our work which is pretty cool. I've always been good with numbers and Santana seems exactly the same so we managed to finish class on time even when we started it late. Santana then shows me where the bathroom is so I can quickly go before we then head onto set and start filming. I've only just met Santana today but I think she's the coolest person ever. I really hope she wants to be my friend because I'd like to be hers.
"Ok everyone, that is a wrap for today. We'll see you all for the same again tomorrow" one of the crew members tells us all.
"You're a really great actress" I tell Santana as I hurriedly follow her back to the dressing rooms.
"Thanks" she smiles. "I actually thought you were pretty good too" she adds.
"Thank you" I say while blushing slightly. If the star of the show thinks I'm good then surely I must be somewhat good, right? "Can I ask you a question?" I say nervously.
"Sure" Santana shrugs.
"This might sound weird and childish but I guess that doesn't matter since we are children but anyway" I say while shaking my head to stop myself from rambling on to something else. "It might sound lame but I think you're really cool Santana and I'm going to be here for a while and we're going to work together a lot so will you be my friend?" I ask, trembling slightly in case I'm making a big fool of myself right now.
"I'll be your friend" Santana smiles at me, her big brown eyes sparkling in the light.
"Really?" I ask surprised. I thought I was being a total idiot a second ago.
"Yeah, you seem cool and talented so I can be friends with you" she smiles again.
"You think I'm cool?" I ask in amazement. I always find I'm a bit of a dork and the least cool person in the room.
"Yeah so I'll see you at work tomorrow, friend" Santana smirks. "My mom is waiting so I need to go" she adds before waving at me and then taking off. I literally do a little celebration dance before getting my things and going to meet my mom to go home.
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I've been working on the show for about 6 months now and everything is going great. My grades are looking good all thanks to the on-set tutoring and the show seems to be going from strength to strength. I've had a lot of fun filming and Santana and I have become like best friends so I'm super happy every Monday morning I wake up because I get to see my best friend for the whole day. Friday afternoons aren't too great though because we don't work weekends so it means as soon as I leave work on a Friday then I have to wait two whole days before seeing Santana again. Sometimes I do hang out with friends from when I used to go to school but it's just not the same. They don't work in the same business as I do, in fact they don't even work, so they don't understand some things the same way as Santana and I do.
"Ok everyone, that is a wrap for today so have a good weekend and we'll see you bright and early Monday morning" the crew tells us all.
"I guess I'll see you Monday Britt" Santana smiles at me as we get ready to go home. She's starting calling me Britt and I think it's pretty cool. She's the only one that I allow to call me Britt so it's like our little best friend thing between the two of us.
"It sucks we need to wait 2 days but I guess it has to happen" I sigh. "Actually, maybe I have a way we can hang out for longer" I say as an idea pops into my head.
"What is it?" Santana asks excitedly.
"Just wait and see" I say before running over to my mom. "Mom, can Santana come to dinner tonight?" I ask pleadingly.
"Oh, I'm not sure sweetheart, I'll need to ask her mom" my mom replies.
"Ok well do it now before they leave" I say while pointing to Santana and her mom.
"Don't speak to me like that Brittany" my mom warns me.
"Sorry mommy, I just want Santana to come to our house for dinner and to play tonight" I say.
"Ok, let's go and see if we can make that happen" my mom says as she smiles at me. We then go and talk to Santana and her mom.
"I don't see why Santana can't hang out tonight" Maribel smiles.
"Is there anything I need to know because we've not had Santana over before?" my mom asks.
"She doesn't have any dietary requirements" I tell my mom.
"Ok but I think we'll let Maribel answer that question" my mom says with a chuckle.
"No, no dietary requirements or anything like that" Maribel replies. "We are going to visit her grandparents tomorrow so I don't really want her out too late though" she adds.
"No that's completely ok" my mom smiles. "We'll just get some dinner and the girls can play or watch a movie for a little while and then we'll bring Santana home" she says.
"Can't we have a sleepover mommy and Maribel can pick her up in the morning to go to her grandparent's house?" I ask.
"Yeah I want to do that mom" Santana says excitedly.
"Sweetheart I'm not sure about you sleeping over because it's a long drive tomorrow to see grandma and grandpa so I need you well rested. If you stay with Brittany then you might end up staying up all night talking" Maribel points out.
"I can sleep in the car tomorrow" Santana shrugs.
"You don't have a change of clothes or anything for tomorrow. We also don't know if Brittany and her parents have plans tomorrow" Maribel replies.
"No plans" I say loudly.
"We don't have any plans so Santana is more than welcome to stay tonight" my mom tells Maribel.
"Please mom" Santana pleads.
"Ok you can stay tonight" Maribel replies so Santana and I jump up and down excitedly. "I want you to come home with me just now though and we'll get you some things like a change of clothes and then I'll drop you off at Brittany's house in 20 minutes or so, ok?" she adds.
"Ok" Santana nods.
"That gives Brittany some time to tidy her room before she has a guest over" my mom teases me.
Santana and her mom head home to get Santana ready and my mom drives me home. By the time we get home and fill my dad in on the plans and I get a chance to quickly tidy up, Santana arrives. Her parents say goodnight to her and then leave so my parents sort out dinner for me, my best friend and my siblings and then we all eat together. Santana and I then head up to my room and spend time together. We play games, watch movies and just have a lot of fun while eating junk food.
"Tonight has been so much fun" Santana tells me as she gets comfortable on my bed to settle with another movie and some popcorn.
"I've enjoyed it and it's going to be cool to have you spend the night" I smile.
"I don't get to do this very much and hang out with friends or have sleepovers" Santana says sadly.
"Do you not?" I say surprised. Santana is amazing so why wouldn't she do this all the time with all of her friends.
"No" she shrugs. "I could probably count on one hand the number of true friends I really have. Sometimes I'll hang out with those friends but they're not in the acting business like me and you so it can be hard sometimes to get time to see them since we have different schedules" she adds.
"I can relate to that. I have a small group of good friends too and sometimes I could go weeks without seeing them" I agree. "That's why I am so glad we're best friends now" I smile.
"Me too" Santana smiles back while turning around to hug me.
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Santana, myself and the rest of the cast have just wrapped filming of season two of the show so we're about to go on TV and promote the season finale. It's quite an interesting end to the season because we've already been picked up for season three so the crew could afford to be a bit ruthless since they knew it wasn't the end. As much as I'm looking forward to being on TV and getting to talk about my character, today is a little bittersweet. The show has a short hiatus between seasons so I'm not sure if I'm going to see Santana much during the break. Even if we did persuade our parents to let us hang out, it would be nowhere near the five days a week we get at the moment.
"Are you ok Brittany, you've been staring at the wall for a while now" Santana asks as she comes over to me in her cute little dress. I too am all dressed in a little flowery number.
"Yeah, I'm just sad" I say with a sigh.
"About us not seeing each other as much since we take a break in filming?" she asks.
"Yeah, you feel the same?" I ask hopefully. I'm not hopeful Santana is sad but it would be nice to know she feels as close to me as I do to her.
"Yeah but my mom said we can hang out sometimes. Plus, with the schools also on their summer break then we might be able to hang out with our other friends" she tells me.
"Yeah, that's true" I nod with a smile. I'm not exactly smiling on the inside though. In theory it sounds good to hang out with my old friends but what I really want is to hang out with my best friend.
"Ok, we need to go now" Santana says while taking my hand and pulling me with her as the main cast goes out on stage for the interview.
All of us get sat down in the seats provided and the audience gives us all a round of applause as we get settled. The host of the show introduces us and the rest of the cast before giving the audience a brief description of the show. He then talks to a few of the adult cast members before turning to Santana and I. Since Santana is the star of the show then he talks to her in depth first before turning back to me again.
"Now Brittany, you only just joined the show in season two and you were only to have a few scenes an episode but it seems like you've had quite the positive feedback because you're on the show a lot more permanently than initially planned" the host says.
"Yeah and it's been so much fun" I smile.
"Has it been fun working alongside Santana because she's quite talented" the host asks.
"Santana is the best" I smile while looking over at my best friend.
"Don't get me wrong, you're quite talented too" the host adds. "Has you been getting a lot of good reviews for your character or do you not really look into that stuff?" he asks.
"I get a lot of fan mail for a young kid" I smile.
"She gets more than me sometimes" Santana teases me.
"It's pretty cool for people to like me" I say. I joined the cast late and there are bigger stars on the show than me so I'm humbled for people to like me and my character. "Santana is the real talent though" I state.
"Oh stop" Santana says while playfully pushing me.
The host talks a bit more to the other cast members again before asking some questions about what to expect from the last episode of the season. We weren't allowed to tease too much but we did get to divulge some information about it. We then got to sign some autographs which was so cool but so weird at the same time. I've never really signed autographs before so my hand did get a little sore by the end. It was really nice though to know that I have some fans and that they appreciate my acting.
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I'm in a bit of a weird point in my life right now because everything is changing. I'm only 10 years old now and my life is changing so fast. We've just finished season 3 of the TV show which was exciting to shoot but apparently there isn't going to be another season so after season 3 airs, the show is finished. It's been so much fun working with everyone and I'm going to miss them all but I'll miss Santana the most. We've become best friends over the last 2 years and now everything has to change. We both need to find other jobs so I guess we probably won't see each other for a while now. The only positive aspect at the moment is that a few other TV shows have spoken to my mom and would like me to audition so I'm hoping something good comes from that.
"Hey Santana, guess what?" I say excitedly as I run onto set.
"What?" she asks excitedly back.
"I have two more auditions next week" I tell her.
"That's amazing Brittany, I'm so happy for you" Santana smiles.
"What about you?" I ask.
"I only have 1 audition at the moment" Santana replies with a sigh.
"That's still great Santana" I smile.
"I can't put all of my eggs in one basket though so I'd have felt better with a back-up plan or something" she replies.
"I know but this audition is for the part alongside the part I'm going for so we're destined to get it together because we've already worked together and everyone can see how good we are" I say optimistically. I don't know how it happened but two parts for the same show came up and we both managed to get an audition.
"Ok" Santana smiles. "Thanks for boosting my mood Britt, you're the bestest friend ever" she says while hugging me.
"I'm only a good friend to you because you're an even more amazing friend to me" I smile back. "Anyway, we have a few things to wrap up so we better get back to work now" I say.
"Yeah, let's go" she agrees and then we get back to work.
After everything is wrapped up and some of the cast and crew say some final words, the show ends. We all say our goodbyes and get ready to head to whatever we're all doing next. Santana and I are just getting our personal belongings before we go to meet our moms to head home. We kinda wanted to hang out together tonight but we've got some lines to learn for our auditions next week and since we have no job now then it's important we do well next week.
"We'll see each other soon because we're both meant to get these parts" I tell Santana.
"Ok" she smiles. I lean in and we hug each other until our moms have to pry us apart so we can go home.
"Come on girls, let's get home" my mom says.
"I'll arrange a playdate for you with Susan the next chance we get when you're both free so don't worry" Maribel tells Santana.
"We're not tiny kids' mom, we don't need playdates arranged for us. We can call each other sometime ourselves or you could just buy me a cell phone and I could keep in touch with Brittany all the time" Santana shrugs.
"Santana, I've spoken to your dad and we might see about getting you your own phone but it would be for emergencies not for talking all night on the phone" Maribel says seriously.
"Fine" Santana huffs. We then say goodbye to each other again before we both leave in different directions. I'm not going to lie; I do have a slight tear in my eye because everything just seems too final to me.
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It's been a long few weeks of auditioning and sucking up to people but I think things are finally looking up. I've been called to come in to talk to some producers about a show I auditioned for and surely it has to be good because they don't call you to come in to say you didn't get the part. Things are also looking especially good because it's the show Santana got to audition for too so if I get it then I'm praying Santana does too.
"Thank you for coming in today Brittany" the man smiles. "Please, take a seat" he tells my mom and I so we sit down.
"I was a bit worried when I didn't hear from anyone for a while" I say nervously.
"Well worry no more, you've got the part" he smiles.
"Well done sweetheart" my mom says while hugging me tightly.
"This is amazing" I say while fighting the urge to jump up and down.
"We thought you nailed the audition and we knew there was no better person for the part so congratulations" the man says.
"I'm guessing Santana got the part too, right?" I say excitedly. "Mom can we call her when we get home?" I ask as I turn to look at my mom.
"Oh, did no one tell you Brittany, Santana passed on the role" the man states.
"No, Santana wouldn't do that" I shake my head in disbelief. We really wanted to keep working together and this would have been the perfect way to do just that.
"She did, I'm sorry" the man shrugs.
"Maybe I shouldn't do this show either then" I say with a sigh.
"Brittany you're our star of the show, you have to do it" he states worriedly.
"The show seems good and I'm grateful for the role but the main driving force for me to do this was the thought of working with my best friend" I say sadly. This is the worst day ever.
"Apparently a better role came along that she just had to take so she's not really on our radar anymore. We have another actress lined up who is really talented that wants to work with you so it's going to be ok" the man states.
"I just wanted Santana" I say while turning to look at my mom who can clearly see the sadness on my face as she hugs me.
"Is there any chance we can think about this before accepting the role?" my mom asks.
"No, I'm sorry, we don't have time" the man shakes his head. "We need an answer now so we can start proceedings" he adds.
"I don't know what to do mom" I say conflicted. If I say yes then I'm contracted to the show so I can't break it but if I say no then I've given up an amazing acting opportunity.
"I'm not sure either sweetheart" my mom replies with a sigh.
"I suppose the clear message of today is that Santana is no longer doing the show so I guess that might be the sign that we weren't on the same wavelength" I point out. At the end of the day we're not working together because of Santana's choice so maybe I do just take the role since I love acting.
"Acting is what you love and I know it sucks you're not working together and it's became a weird situation but you didn't cause Santana to not take the role so I'm sure she can't be mad at you for taking it" my mom points out.
Whatever is going on with Santana, it really isn't my doing because I wanted us to work together so why should I pass on this great opportunity in the off chance my best friend still likes me. She said no to working with me so I can't screw this up when she clearly doesn't feel the same as me. If I pass too then I have lost Santana and a great chance whereas if I say yes then my hard work has meant something at least. I might call her later to find out what's going on and why she said no but right now, maybe I do need to put me first because the acting business is tricky so I should take every chance I get.
***12 YEARS LATER***
I feel like I'm a kid again because today is my first day at a new job in a long time. After getting a few gigs as a child, my mom wanted to make sure I had a good education behind me to fall back on so I went back to school permanently. I did some acting on the side during school but today is my first day starting a more long-term job because the TV show I'm in has been picked up for a full season. Between finishing school and now I've had a few acting roles but have had to keep a steady job too so I have quite a varied job history. I also have a semester at college behind me but I just didn't like it so I quit and kept trying to pursue acting.
I've just met with some of the crew and had a chance to talk to them and find out some important stuff so I'm now about to meet some of the cast. Not everyone from the cast is here yet but those who are, are all in another room hanging out before we get started. Once everyone has got here and met with the crew then I think we're all getting together and kicking off production of the new show. After getting a little lost as to where I'm going, I eventually find the room the cast is to wait in until everyone arrives.
"Uh…this is the right room to wait in, right?" I say to clarify as there only seems to be one person waiting at the moment.
"Yeah, this is the waiting room" the woman replies while turning around. "Holy shit" she mutters under her breath.
"Are you ok?" I ask confused. Why is she staring at me right now?
"Fine" the woman replies coldly while continuing to stare at me before looking away and sitting down on the empty couch.
"Hey, I'm Brittany by the way" I say cheerily while holding out my hand to the woman in front of me.
"I know who you are" the brunette tells me while making no movement to shake my hand. It actually looks like she is glaring at me for some reason.
"You do?" I ask confused.
"Yes, you're Brittany Pierce" she states.
"Yeah, and you are?" I say. I am really struggling to place this woman right now because she doesn't look familiar to me. Surely if she knows me though then I should know her.
"Seriously, you don't remember me?" she asks annoyed.
"I'm sorry" I apologise. I really don't want to hurt this lady's feelings but I honestly don't know who she is right now.
"Santana Lopez" the woman says with a sigh.
"No, you're not Santana Lopez. I know who Santana Lopez is" I say with a laugh. "Santana is tall and really skinny whereas you're like smaller than me and a little curvier I guess" I add. I certainly don't mean curvy as in she looks bad, I mean she doesn't look like the 10-year-old I knew.
"I am her you ass. I grew up and got boobs and a butt" she tells me. "I drunk a lot of coffee growing up too so I'm not as tall as I could be now. I was tall for my age when we were younger but the coffee sort of stunted my growth" she adds.
"But…"
"I am the same person Brittany but why am I so surprised you don't recognise me. You've always been so self-involved so no wonder you don't know what else is happening round about you" Santana replies.
"I just can't believe you're Santana Lopez" I say in awe. I have not seen her in years so I suppose a part of me wouldn't remember her but another part of me just can't believe this could be the same girl.
"Like I say, I grew up to be a woman who invested in a pair of hair straighteners. Also, my mom finally gave in and let me start shaving my legs" Santana shrugs.
"Ok" I laugh. Even though our moms managed our young careers and introduced us to the world of acting, they still knew we were just children at the end of the day so they didn't force anything upon us. They especially didn't make us do adult things so 8-year olds really had no business shaving their legs to look a certain way for the cameras.
"You don't look too much different from when we were kids. A little taller maybe and older I guess with more womanly features since we are women now" she states. A small hint of a smile appearing on her face as she talks.
"Now that I'm really getting a chance to look at you, I can see that little Santana in you" I smile.
"What are you doing here anyway Brittany?" Santana asks questioningly. That small smile now suddenly nowhere to be seen.
"I've just been cast as one of the main characters" I shrug.
"Are you fucking serious?" Santana asks outraged.
"Yeah" I nod confused.
"I am one of the main characters" she tells me.
"Oh, that's so cool. At least we'll both know someone on the show then" I smile.
"No, it's not cool actually" Santana sighs.
"Fine" I sigh. "Fuck you I guess then" I say while shaking my head in annoyance. I thought since we were grownups now then we could at least move on from whatever happened in the past. Santana was the one who disappeared without a word but you don't see me acting childish about it so why is she being so rude to me.
Do you know from that day 12 years ago when I found out about the new show I booked, I never once heard from Santana? She quite literally disappeared from my life. A part of me wanted to call her so badly when I got home to see what happened but another part of me couldn't bring myself to do it because I was worried she wouldn't pick up and then I would really know she wasn't going to be my best friend anymore. However, as the days went on, they turned to months and then suddenly a year went by and I guess we both moved on because I put the memories to the back of my head and lived my life. It just became so long from seeing or hearing from each other that it didn't feel important anymore to find out what happened. I have no idea what the hell happened from Santana's end though because one day we're promising to keep in touch and then the next she vanishes. My mom was going to call Maribel to see how things were because they became close friends over the years but I didn't want her to because then she would know why Santana hated me so I had to forget about everything.
"Don't you tell me to fuck off" Santana states annoyed.
"You are the one who is being rude to me. I thought we could be civil now that we're both grownups but I guess not" I say while rolling my eyes.
"I will never be civil to you Brittany Pierce" Santana shakes her head at me. "As far as I'm concerned you are…"
"Ok ladies I just want to update you on a slight issue" one of the production staff says, interrupting Santana and I in our argument. It's probably for the best though because Santana might regret what she was going to say and to be honest I don't want to hear the end of the sentence.
"Sure, what's up?" I say confused.
"There was something wrong with our emailing system so a lot of the other cast aren't expected to be here for another half an hour so I'm afraid there is going to be some waiting about at the moment until they get here" he tells us.
"Really?" Santana asks annoyed. I'm a little annoyed myself that we need to wait around now.
"As soon as everyone is here, we'll start" the production member says before leaving again.
"This is just fantastic, it's brilliant really" Santana says sarcastically. "I finally think I am getting somewhere in life and then this shit happens to ruin it all" she sighs. I'm a little amused at the fact she swears now. I mean I do too but the little 10-year-old Santana never swore, our parents would kill us if we did.
"That's a little extreme Santana, everyone will be here within half an hour so I would hardly think it's a major setback" I say honestly. We're just getting a little held back; nothing is exactly ruined I wouldn't say.
"I wasn't talking about the rest of the cast being late. I was talking about you being here. I finally think my life is turning around and then you pop up unannounced to steal the show" Santana sighs.
"What exactly have I done wrong Santana?" I ask. I'm getting the feeling she doesn't really like me all that much and I don't know why. The last time we physically saw each other we were on good terms and to be honest, Santana is the one that had the problem. One day we were best friends and the next she vanished from my life and now has the audacity to act like it's my fault. I was heartbroken when Santana didn't take that role to work with me again.
"Don't act like you don't know" Santana says while rolling her eyes at me.
"I'm sorry but I actually don't know what I did" I say confused.
"That just says everything about you then. All you ever think about is yourself and never about anyone else. Of course you don't know what you did because all you thought about was Brittany" she states.
"That is not true at all" I say surprised. What she is implying could not be further from the truth because Santana was my best friend. I felt so close to her and I would never have wanted to affect our friendship.
"Look, I am not here to argue with you. I am here to do a job so if it's all the same to you, I'd rather we didn't speak to each other unless we're on set and have to do a scene together" Santana sighs.
"Seems extravagant but fine" I sigh too. I am honestly so confused by everything and a little hurt that she blames me for something I didn't do but there is nothing I can do right now.
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I've been working on the new show for a good number of weeks now and everything seems to be going well. All the cast and crew are great and production is coming along just nicely. My only concern at the moment is Santana. Well I don't exactly mean I am concerned about her; I mean I am concerned about our situation. I still have no clue how we ended up to where we are now. She still doesn't talk to me outside of work and if she talks to me at all on set then it's a necessity. We work well during scenes together since we're acting but as soon as 'cut' is yelled, she goes back to ignoring me and keeping away from me. I'm just walking into work right now when one of the assistants comes running over to me.
"Hey Brittany" he replies nervously.
"Hey, what's up?" I smile.
"We've had a slight issue with some of the trailers this morning due to some bad drainage problems so we're having to get people to share trailers for a few days maybe even a week" Scott explains.
"Wait…seriously?" I say panicked. I don't want to seem like a diva who needs their own trailer and can't share but this isn't ideal. I use my trailer for rest and running lines so I need the peace and quiet and I won't have that if I'm in with someone else.
"Don't worry it's not your trailer" he replies.
"I'm still going to have to share with someone though since they'll be in my trailer, right?" I ask with a sigh.
"Yeah, I'm sorry" Scott nods. "We're trying to get the problems sorted as quickly as possible though so I'm hoping it takes no more than a week" he adds.
"A week is still a long time but ok" I shrug. Like I say it's not ideal but what else could we do?
"Anyway, I just wanted to let you know and I'll see you on set soon" Scott says before leaving. I then continue on my way to my trailer. Luckily enough when I get there no one else is in it yet so I can have a quick tidy up to make room for my colleague.
"Oh, for fuck's sake" I groan when the door opens.
"You've got to be fucking kidding me" Santana states while shaking her head in annoyance.
"Why are you so surprised, this is my trailer?" I ask confused. I didn't know who was bunking in with me but Santana should know which trailer she was sent to so why is she acting like she didn't know I would be inside.
"I didn't know it was your trailer now, did I?" she replies with a sigh.
"Did my name on the door not give it away at all?" I ask smartly. "Or perhaps the fact we have been working together for weeks now so we all know whose trailer is whose?" I add.
"I don't take anything to do with you Brittany so no, I didn't know this was yours and no I did not read the name on the door when I walked in" Santana replies.
"I guess we'll just need to make the best of a really bad situation here" I sigh. "I've made some room on this side of the trailer for any of your stuff you want to sit down and there are some cushions here you can have to get comfortable when you're in here" I say.
"I don't want anything of yours" Santana tells me.
"Perhaps you should turn around and walk back out the door then because this is my trailer so if you don't want anything of mine then you shouldn't be in here" I point out.
"You don't own the trailer Brittany so it's not really yours" Santana shrugs.
"Look, can you and I not just cut out this childish crap. We have to work together so can we not be a bit less mean to one another. I really don't know what I did years ago to upset you but clearly it was something and clearly you have no thoughts to bring me up to speed so let's just try and work together please and forget about the past for the moment" I state.
"I don't want to be your friend Brittany" Santana shakes her head.
"Yeah I got that loud and clear so I'm not asking you to. I just think we could be a little more professional during working hours" I say sadly. It is evident Santana hates me and I can't help feeling hurt by that because she was my closest friend for those two years and I don't know where it all went wrong.
"Fine" Santana huffs.
"I was just about to read over my lines again for today and we're in quite a few scenes together so do you want to run lines with me. I always find it easier to practice with someone than on my own" I say. I've always preferred it that way and I think Santana does to.
"Don't push it Brittany" Santana warns. "I am coming around to the idea of being civil but we're still not friends who run lines so no, I do not want to" she adds.
"Ok" I nod. Every time she shoots me down, I just feel so deflated and sad. I don't know why I find it so hard to swallow that she doesn't like me. I'm an adult and I haven't seen her since we were kids so why does this bother me so much. I should just move the hell on like I did for the previous 12 years.
"I think I'm just going to wait on set until my scene is ready to start" Santana states.
"Ok well I'll see you soon then because we have a scene in not too long" I smile.
"Yeah, whatever" Santana says and then abruptly leaves. I stay in my trailer for a little while going over my lines until I'm called onto set to start one of my scenes.
"Ok, places people" a crew member shouts and then we get the scene started. It really doesn't take long at all to shoot because once Santana and I switch our acting caps on, we get it done. For the whole-time shooting, we forget about everything from the past and focus on work so it's like we never had an issue in the first place.
"You delivered that last line perfectly" I compliment Santana as the scene ends.
"We work together, I don't work for you so don't tell me how I did during the scene because it really is no business of yours" she snaps.
"I was just giving you a compliment. I didn't mean it to come off as if I had asked you previously to do something a certain way" I sigh. Seriously what is wrong with me, why do I keep trying with Santana when it's clear it's never going to work out.
"Complimenting me won't make me forgive you for the past" she assures me.
"Not to be rude or conceited but I don't need forgiven. I didn't do anything wrong" I shrug.
"You didn't, ok" Santana says in disbelief.
"Unless we're talking about the last day on set when we were kids and I stole your fries then sure, I did do something wrong" I nod.
"You know that's not what I would be mad at so grow up Brittany" she glares at me.
"Trust me honey, I've grown up" I state.
"Don't call me honey" she shakes her head at me but I just ignore the comment.
"If anyone has to grow up then it's you because you're being very childish with the way you act around me. Is it not clear to you that I have no idea what I did to upset you?" I ask. I'm sick and tired of going around in circles about this supposed thing I did to her.
"You're playing a game Brittany and I don't want to play with you. You can pretend you don't know but I know you know" Santana tells me.
"We were best friends; do you honestly think I could hurt you purposely?" I question.
"I don't know Brittany. I thought you would never hurt me but you did so I just don't know you at all anymore. In fact, I don't think I ever really knew the real you" she shrugs.
"We were fucking 8 years old when we met, how bad could I have been?" I say while rolling my eyes. Fair enough if we only just met a year ago and she thought I was a mischievous bitch playing a game to screw her over but she knew me as a child. How would an 8-year-old know the kind of things to do that would mess with something. I mean I know kids bully other kids but this is different because neither of us are bullies. It seems to me like Santana thinks I was pretending to be her friend or something. I just wasn't clever as an 8-year-old to really do something like that.
"I don't want to talk about this with you" she sighs.
"Well I want to because I am done with the games. Just tell me what the hell I did and maybe I can explain" I say, getting slightly angry. It's just honestly gone on too long now. She either needs to tell me her problem or she buries it and we can move the hell on.
"Is there a problem between the two of you?" one of the producers asks us.
"No, no problem" Santana smiles.
"Everything is fine" I nod. We've both got our best acting faces on right now.
"Good, keep the volume down then because we're about to start another scene" he says before walking away.
"This isn't over" I whisper to Santana. I will figure out this mess.
"Whatever" she shrugs at me.
It's such a blessing that we're both great actors because none of this would have been possible. We wouldn't be able to work together if we couldn't act so well because you would see in our faces just how frustrated we were. Santana frustrated at the fact she needs to see me again and me frustrated at the fact I have no idea what the hell happened. I've always found Santana talented in her work but even more so now just by how quickly she can go from hating me to looking like she loves me. We're supposed to be friends and like each other on the show so it is a complete 180 compared to real life.
Let me know what you think of the new story and if it's worth continuing. What do you think happened with Santana during the 12 years and why is she so mad at Brittany?