Quick note: I "just" started with PD! I'm only in the middle of season 4 and I already saw a bit of season 7.

7x09 killed me and I can not wait any second longer to see if Jay survives. I don't want to fall in love with the show any more than I already am, when Jay dies… I would also stop watching…

Anyway after the little clip of 7x10 I had this little one shot in my head. Hope you like it.

I'm German, so I have a bit of a different writing style. Sorry in advance if not everything is 100% correct. 3

Everyone was in the waiting room. Hailey sat next to Adam, she was devastated. She almost lost Jay before, only there he luckily wore a vest and the bullet didn't go through but now… Now he was in the hospital fighting for his life and she just had to sit there and wait. She couldn't do anything.

Will entered the room. Voight, Adam and Hailey stood up and walked towards him. "Hey everybody, so I just talked to Dr. Marcel. He said the bullet graced the artery. They're still trying to repair it."

"Will, is he going to be okay?", Voight asked

Will took a deep breath before he answered "He lost a lot of blood…" You could see in his face that he was really worried. He just lost his dad not too long ago and now he might lose Jay. He couldn't lose his younger brother now.

"The surgery will still take a couple hours.", Will added.

Voight turned around to the group of policemen, who were all waiting for news on their colleague. "Okay, listen up. The surgery still takes a bit longer. I want you all to get back to work or home. I will call you as soon as we know more. I know it's hard. It's hard for all of us but we still need to do our work."

Everyone agreed and slowly left the hospital. Hailey and Adam stayed with Voight.

"We're not walking out of here before we know if he makes it out of this surgery alive!", Adam said, sitting down again.

"I can bring you all some coffee, if you need anything.", Will offered.

"We're fine. Thanks."

The hours went by very slowly. The clock was ticking and ticking and nothing happened. Some people walked into the waiting room and went back outside a bit later.

Hailey couldn't wait any second longer. She'd been shaking and rubbing her hands, which were still covered in his blood, for the past four hours and one little spot was already bleeding. "Oh god, come on guys, can you tell me how you can keep so calm here? I'm about to run into the OR and see if my partner is still alive.", Hailey almost screamed and got up from her chair.

"Hey, hey! Shh.. Come on, sit back down." , Adam took her arm softly and guided her back into the chair. "It's okay, let it all out. I get you! He's my partner, too!" He pulled her into a hug and she started crying.

"Do you want me to get Will for an update?", Voight asked.

She just shook her head. At this point she was so scared that Will wouldn't come back inside because he himself was sitting somewhere crying over his dead brother. No, she couldn't think like this now. Jay was still alive. She could feel it.

"Anything we can bring you to calm down? Coffee?", Adam asked. Hailey again just shook her head. All she wanted now was for Jay to be alive.

A while later, at this point no one really knew how long they had waited, Will entered the room.

All three stood up and looked at him with hopeful glances.

"So…. Jay is out of surgery. He…. It's still critical for the next 48 hours. We… Dr. Marcel had to put him into a medically induced coma. I'm sorry." Will himself had changed into civil clothes. The hospital moved all his shifts so he could be with his brother.

"Can we see him?" Hailey asked. Adam still had a comforting arm around her.

"Sadly no visitors are allowed. But Hailey or Voight you can quickly go see him.", Will said. "I just want to warn you. He is intubated. A machine is breathing for him. He has at least three IVs for blood and fluids hanging…. He is also really pale because of the blood loss." He added under his breath "He looks horrible."

"It's okay. I'll wait outside the room. I think that is enough for me. Thanks Will!", Adam said and they all followed the doctor upstairs to the ICU.

Outside Jay's room, the curtains were closed, only the door was open and you could already see the machines inside. Will waited a second to collect his energy before he stepped inside. This was the first time he went into the room too. After Dr. Marcel told him how the surgery went, he just walked past quickly and then went down to the waiting area to tell the team.

Jay was laying liveless in his bed. He was covered up to his belly with a simple white blanket. On his chest was a big white bandage with a little spot of blood on it. Wires were coming from his body to the machine that read his vitals. On the right side of his chest was a little tube. It was filled with blood. His mouth was covered with the breathing tube. His eyes were closed and his face looked awfully pale. The cuts and bruises from the beating he took before were stitched up and some were also covered with small white bandages.

The only indication that Jay was still alive was the monitor beeping in a slow rhythm. The other sound came from the breathing machine. It pumped fresh air into his lungs, that's when his chest would rise a bit and then fall back down again. The noise was horrifying.

Will took a small plastic bag out of his pocket. He stood next to the bed while Hailey stood at the end of the bed. Voight was behind her. The plastic bag contained something small and silver. Will looked at the thing in his hands and then at his little brother. "This is the bullet. We had to remove it… Most of the times we can leave the bullets inside the patient but this was definitely not the case here."

"Can I have it?", Voight asked.

"It belongs to Jay…"

"I'll give it to him when he wakes up."

Will gave the bag to Voight. Yet he never left sight of his little brother.

Hailey looked at the bag quickly and then realized everything. This is the bullet that almost killed her partner. Up to now everything was just blurred but now reality was coming back to her. Jay was laying there not even breathing on his own, barely hanging in and fighting for his life. It came all to her in a rush of emotions of anger and sadness. She didn't know what was happening to her but her legs gave up and Voight caught her. She started crying and her breaths came in short and laboured.

She was having a panic attack.

Voight hugged her and moved her out of the room. Will followed them and closed the door behind him so they wouldn't see Jay anymore.

"Natalie! Bring her something!", Will yelled at her colleague who was just passing by. "Hailey, take deep breaths. It's all going to be okay."

The next thing Hailey remembered was her waking up in a hospital room with a breathing mask on her and her team and Will standing next to her looking worried.

"You passed out. Keep the mask on if you still feel short of breath. That panic attack really got you. I gave you something. It will help. Don't worry, you can leave later with Adam and Voight." Will explained.

"Is that serious?"

"Panic attacks can be serious and harmful to your body but that was your first time, right?" Will said and Hailey nodded. "Yeah, if you're experiencing more of those attacks we can make some further tests but other than that, you're good for now."

"Thank you, Will!", Adam said.

Later that night everyone left. Adam offered to take Hailey with him, she shouldn't be alone. Will wouldn't leave the hospital. He sat next to Jay's bed in one of those uncomfortable chairs. He didn't care. All he wanted was for his brother to be alright. He just sat there for hours. He didn't say anything, he didn't do anything. Will just sat there and looked at his younger brother and prayed.

Natalie made her last round before going home and found Will in Jay's room. Will fell asleep with his head in his arms on the bed next to Jay's legs.

"Oh Will…", she smiled, got a thin blanket from the shelf and carefully covered Will's shoulders and back with it.

She went over to the other side of the bed to look at Jay's vitals. "You're improving slightly! That is great. Have a good night, my Halstead brothers." Natalie said into the room and walked out with a smile.

Dr. Marcel stood outside and waited for Natalie. "So, he is improving.", he heard her say it.

"Yeah. Slightly but the vitals are improving."

"That is great."

"I know you did everything you could do. I'm sure he'll be alright. I don't think Will could handle losing Jay right now."

"Let's just not think about this. Let's just hope Jay makes it through the night."

He felt some tapping but it wasn't enough to alert Will. He just thought he imagined it. A few moments later he felt it again. Will opened his eyes and got up slowly. He yawned and protruded himself. His back was sore from sleeping in such an uncomfortable position. He looked at Jay.

"Good morning, brother.", he said and wanted to walk over to the monitor to look at this brothers vitals but he noticed Jay's finger moving.

"Jay? Hey, can you hear me?", he took his hand carefully. "If you can hear me, squeeze my hand."

Nothing happened.

Dr. Marcel came into the room. "Good morning, Halstead."

"He moved his finger!", Will said.

"Really?", Dr. Marcel moved over to the monitor to check everything.

"He did it twice or three times now but I just asked him to squeeze my hand and nothing happened ."

"Will. I'm sorry, it doesn't look like he will wake up any time soon. I'm actually happy he made it through the night."

"But I know he moved!" Will was so sure. He felt it, he saw it.

"I'm sorry, Will. Maybe you should get out of here for a moment, get something to eat and drink. Maybe even go home. You know we'll notify you as soon as anything happens. You've been here long enough. You need to rest yourself."

Dr. Marcel had already one food out of the door when Jay moved his fingers again. Will almost screamed at his colleague. The doctor turned around to see it. He almost dropped his iPad to move next to Jay's bed.

"Jay?", he did a light test to see if his eyes reacted to the light.

First nothing happened but then he squeezed the hand very slightly.

Will and Dr. Marcel looked and smiled at each other.

It took Jay a moment to open his eyes and leave them fully open. He still had the breathing tube in which made him panic.

"Jay. Keep calm! We'll remove the tube in a second, okay? Keep calm. I'm right here." Will said.

Dr. Marcel checked everything and gave the okay to remove the tube.

Jay coughed as soon as the tube was removed.

"Welcome back, Jay.", Dr. Marcel said as he traded the big tube for a small nasal cannula.

"h…hurts…", Jay said quietly.

"Your throat?"

Jay nodded.

"That is normal after being intubated. It'll get better soon. Do you feel any more pain?"

Jay moved his head carefully to the side.

"That is great. Do you remember what happened?"

"Shot… Hai… Hailey?", he asked.

"I'll inform Hailey in a second. They are all alright.", Dr. Marcel said and left Will alone with his brother for a moment.

"You scared the hell out of me, you know that right?!", Will said.

"Sorry."

"Don't just say 'sorry'! I'm just so happy you're back and made it through the night.", Will smiled.

"Hailey and Voight will be here in five minutes.", Dr. Marcel quickly informed the Halstead brothers while walking by the room.

"Angela?"

"You're really asking about that woman? The woman who shot you, even though you've done so much for her?"

"She alive?"

"Yes. Sadly. We removed the bullet from her stomach and she is still here. After that she'll be in custody. She almost killed you! Voight wants her locked up for the rest of her life."

"Good. I'm sorry."

"It's all good, Jay. You rest up and get better! I won't leave your side!"

"Please do when Hailey comes.", Jay said. His voice got better with every word.

"I will, gotta run to the toilet anyway.", Will laughed.

"JAY!", Hailey came into the room and immediately walked to the bed and took his hand.

"Hey.", he said quietly and smiled at her.

"I'm so happy you are alive! Oh god I was so worried!", she said. Jay noticed the watery eyes and the dark circles under her eyes.

"You good?", he asked.

"Yeah! Now that I know you are!" she grinned and a few tears rolled down her cheek. Jay slowly moved his heavy arm up to her face to wipe away the tears.

Voight entered the room quietly. "Welcome back, Jay."

"Sarg." Jay greeted him.

"I have something for you."

Jay looked at him with a big question mark on his face.

Voight pulled a necklace out of his pocket. On the necklace was a small silver thing. Jay couldn't figure out what it was for the moment. Voight walked to his bed and placed the necklace into his hand. "They had to remove the bullet. Alvin was always wearing the one bullet that almost killed him around his neck. Maybe you want that too."

Jay took a good look at the bullet. "Wow." He was shocked. This little thing almost killed him. All just because he wanted to help a family out. "Thank you."