Barry You Saved Me

After watching episode 6-8 "The Last Temptation of Barry Allen Part 2." This line really struck me, and the possible meaning behind it.

"You know, when you first came into my life, I had lost faith in just about everything. You saved my life, Barry." Caitlin

So this is what I think it could possibly mean. Regarding what Caitlin's state of mind may have been in the days and weeks after the particle accelerator explosion.

Central City was in chaos, the hospital over run with injuries. STAR Labs was closed off. No one could get in other than emergency personnel and hazmat teams. Dr. Caitlin Snow had finally made it back to her apartment. What should have been a great day in science with the activation of the particle accelerator had turned into a nightmare. Everything had been going right when it was turned on. Then forty five minutes later everything went wrong. Her fiance Ronnie Raymond went into the pipeline for the particle accelerator. He went to try and shut it down manually. She knew he had too. He was the only one that could. But she didn't want him to go. She wanted him to be by her side for the rest of their lives. Caitlin didn't let people in easily. Her often cold and standoffish nature had given her a reputation as an ice queen. But Ronnie had broken through that cold. He had warmed her heart. But now he was gone. He was dead. She and Cisco had sat outside the blast door as the explosion happened. She knew logically Cisco had to seal that door. Seal Ronnie in. If not everyone in STAR labs would now be dead. Her boss Dr. Harrison Wells was in the hospital injured.

Cisco hadn't wanted to leave her alone. But she couldn't be around anyone right now. She locked herself in her apartment she only left to attend Ronnie's funeral. Three weeks past but nothing could pull Caitlin out of the depression she had begun in sink into. Cisco came by and tried to bring her out of it. But nothing he did helped. Then a month after the particle accelerator explosion Caitlin sat in her dark apartment. A razor sharp knife within easy reach. In her hands were a pen and pad of paper. She had just finished writing a letter each to Cisco and her mother. Even though she had rarely spoken to her mother and could count the number of times she had seen her since she had left for college on one hand.

She had just picked up the knife and was heading for the bathroom to climb into the tub. If she was going to do this then she would make cleaning up after her easy on whoever had to do it. Her cell phone rang. She almost ignored it. But she saw that it was her boss, Dr. Wells. Sighing she picked up the phone and answered it.

"Hello?"

"Dr. Snow, I need your help."

"Dr. Wells now really isn't a good time."

"Caitlin, I understand that you are hurting. But there is a young man Barry Allen that needs your medical expertise. The hospital can't help him. But you and I can save his life."

"What is wrong with him?"

"He is in a coma. He was hit by lightning from the storm that the dark matter released in the explosion seeded. Dr. Snow, I need you to help me bring him back to full health."

Caitlin looked at the knife she had laid down when she answered her phone. Sighing and making a decision she spoke.

"Where are we treating him?"

"STAR Labs."

"I will be there in an hour."

"Thank you Dr. Snow."

Caitlin headed into her bathroom showered and dressed. She put on light make up hoping to hide at least some of the dark circles under her eyes. Putting on her coat she headed for STAR Labs. When she arrived who she guessed was Barry was being pushed into the med bay. She briefly met Barry's foster father Detective Joe West and Joe's daughter Iris. She then went to work checking Barry's vitals. Over the next nine months Caitlin took care of Barry. Barry without knowing it had given her a reason to live. Even though he was in a coma, he had just become her hero. He had saved her life and didn't even know it. In fact it wouldn't be until nearly seven years later that she would tell him that he had saved her life. Not until the night the sky above Central City and the rest of earth turned red with an approaching wave of anti matter. Anti matter that was slowly wiping out the multiverse. The crisis they had been warned about for years by a news paper in the time vault brought back by an evil speedster from the future. A crisis that it seemed that was destined to take her hero from her. If that happened she would go on living if she survived, she would be the hero he believed she could be. Because Central City even without the Flash would still need a hero, she knew that Ralph would be here too but she and Frost weren't going to let Barry down. As she now looked at the red sky over Central City from the lounge of STAR Labs she knew if that paper in the time vault that Thawne had brought back with him was right then it was only a matter of time before she lost her best friend and hero in more ways then one.