A/N: Alas we have come to the final chapter of I'll Be. I've had such a great time rewriting this story I'm so sad to see it's over. But I am excited for what's coming up next in this series. If you guys want me to put back up the original version of this story let me know and I will do so in a separate entry. That way you guys have the opportunity to read both versions. I'd like to thank all my wonderful reviewers and followers in this story. Especially: G-T. Azar, legoboyaz1, VoodooClown17, Alexpv22, and DarkHazen. Anyway I hope you guys enjoy the last part of "I'll Be" and I hope you guys will like the sequel I have planned. Please review and let me know what you think. Love, Ellivia22

Disclaimer: If I owned Teen Titans I would've had BB and Rae's relationship develop in the show and start the build up sooner. If you know what I mean :)

I'll Be

Part XV

Raven

Small projections of black aura surround me. In these small projections are my books, which I place in a large black bag. I found a spell in The Book of Azar that enlarged the bag and make it seem like a bottomless pit. This way I can bring everything with me and not have to worry about carrying too much. Once all my books are in the bag I use a simple shrinking spell to insert the bookcase as well.

I glance around my nearly empty room. It looks twice its size now that my bed, dresser, and bookcase are now safely in my enchanted bag. I glance at my watch. 3:15AM. Originally I was going to start the packing tomorrow morning, but my emotions are so unsettled I find it impossible to sleep. Not even a two hour meditation session helped. So I decided to get a head start. Besides I know that the sooner we leave, the happier Garfield will be. Before we leave though I have to say a proper goodbye to my friends and soon to be former teammates. That will probably be the hardest thing I'll ever have to do.

Suddenly I feel really strange on the inside. My heart squeezes painfully in my chest. I struggle to breathe. Sweat rolls down my flushed face. I close my eyes tight. Random images flash in my mind: Claws, Blood, Fury, Horror, Agony, Death. And pain-intense pain and loss. I slide to the ground and wait for the intense sensation to pass. I've gone through this many times. Someone is having a nightmare. Judging by the images that I've seen Garfield is the victim. I sigh, wiping the sweat off my forehead. Of all the Titans, he's the one who has nightmares the most. I wish I could just take them away, but there are some scars that will stay with him forever. I hope with all my heart that this past month won't be one of them.

I decide to take a quick break from packing. I'll check on Garfield, make myself a cup of tea, then attempt to fall asleep again. If not I'll resume the packing.

When I reach Garfield's room a few minutes later I don't even bother knocking, just in case he's still asleep. Instead I phase through the wall to find his room empty. He must've gone to the bathroom or something. I'll just wait for him to come back.

Looking around his room it's apparent to me that Garfield already started packing as well. His room looks even more bare than the night I stopped him from his suicide attempt. The drawers to his dresser are open and empty. So is his closet. Can't say I'm surprised. I know how desperate he wants to leave. I decide to sit on his bed and wait for him to return.

A piece of paper on his pillow catches my eye. Curiously I pick it up. It's a note to me. My stomach tightens reading the words on the page. I feel sick. Oh no. He didn't! He wouldn't leave without me! I have to find him and fast! I hope with all my heart that he hasn't gone too far.

Lucky for me Garfield hasn't gone too far. I find the green changeling right outside the large doors in front of the tower. He's walking slowly down the long road towards the city. Feeling his emotions I know that he's struggling with an internal conflict and reliving his nightmare over and over again. A tattered brown suitcase is clutched in his hand. Cold wind hits me hard, making me shiver, but I ignore it. I have only one thing on my mind: preventing Garfield from leaving for Africa without me.

Gravis vidulus I chant under my breath. The suitcase instantly becomes encased in black aura. This particular spell makes the enchanted object become heavier every minute. Hopefully he won't transform into something capable of carrying such a weight. Otherwise I'll have to find a more direct approach. I wait patiently, not saying a word.

Garfield stops walking ten minutes later. I can feel his strain as he struggles to carry the suitcase. I watch him glance down at the suitcase surrounded by black aura. His entire body freezes.

I use all the internal strength I have to force my tone to be normal. "Gar, why are you leaving without me?"

Beast Boy

I sigh, dropping the suitcase. I was really hoping to be long gone before Rachel woke up. "How did you know?" I ask, keeping my back to her.

"I felt your nightmare so I came to check on you." Rachel says, struggling to keep her voice in her usual monotone. "Now answer me: why are you attempting to leave without me?!"

"Because I'm trying to protect you," I answer shortly.

"Protect me from what?"

"The Beast." Finally I have the courage to turn around and face my girlfriend. I already feel the guilt building inside and increase rapidly seeing the hurt on Rachel's face. I'm starting to regret even thinking about leaving her behind. I force myself to stay strong. I will keep her safe, even if I end up breaking her heart in the process. "I won't let him hurt you."

She takes a cautious step towards me. I want to take a step back, but my feet remain rooted on the ground. "Garfield, you are not dangerous. Neither is your Beast form. All he has done is save me. There is nothing you need to protect me from."

"I may be able to control the Beast now, but what if the antidote wears off? What if I start to lose control?! I could hurt you. Or worse." I flinch once again seeing the terrible scenes from my nightmares in my mind. The vivid wounds on Rachel's body. It's a nightmare that will haunt me for the rest of my days. My voice cracks. "Or worse-I could unintentionally kill you." Rachel takes another step closer. I start to sweat and shake from nerves and longing. I so badly want her to come with me to Africa, but I'm so afraid of what would happen if I lost control "I know that the Beast has saved you on multiple occasions. I know that he is very protective of you, but I still have this horrible feeling that I would kill you and lose the one person I love the most. I-I don't trust myself."

"You may not trust yourself, but I trust you. You know how hard it is for me to trust people. I trust you, Garfield Logan. If there ever comes a time where you are unable to control the Beast we can work on a solution together. Perhaps I can have Cyborg make up an extra antidote for us to take with us."

With each word Rachel comes closer and closer to me. She's so close now I can feel her body heat. I don't feel the cold as strongly. She's so close I feel my resistance fading fast. I try to leave, but find that once again I can't move. I can't tear my eyes away from the pleading expression on her pale face. "Rachel d-don't do this to me! The closer you get, the harder it will be for me to leave without you. I need to get out of here before you get hurt. Please!" I visibly cringe. I just gave her an advantage. Hopefully she won't notice.

Gently Rachel places her hand on my cheek after taking one last step. I close my eyes. Immediately I start to relax just from feeling her soft hand against my skin. She's so warm. "That's why I've been coming closer-to make sure you don't leave without me."

Before I can react Rachel presses her lips against mine. I try to protest, but she deepens the kiss. I try to pull away, try to resist her, but I can't. Instead I feel myself getting lost in the smell of lavender and the taste of strawberries. Her love surrounds me, enveloping me like a warm blanket. I forget all about my nightmare and plans on leaving alone. All I can think about is the girl I love as her arms wrap around my neck. Reluctantly my arms circle her waist. I pull her close to me, allowing myself to kiss her back. I shouldn't be doing this. It's not safe. Then again, I can't feel the Beast as strongly. It's as if being near Rachel is helping him stay calm. Maybe Rachel is right. As long we are together I will be able to control the Beast.

Once we are out of air we break apart. I watch a silent tear fall down her cheek, followed by another. "I love you, Gar. P-please don't leave without me."

I am still overwhelmed by her intense kiss. I give Rachel a toothy smile, running my gloved hand through her short violet hair. "Thank you Rachel," I whisper, hugging her tightly.

"For what?"

"For loving so much." I answer, kissing her again.

After a few minutes Rachel lets go of her tight grip on me. She smiles at me, taking my hand. "Come on let's go back inside. It's starting to get cold out here."

I attempt to walk with her, but find that I still can't move. It's as if my feet are glued to the ground. I glance down to see black aura surrounding my feet. I meet her intense gaze. "You weren't going to let me leave without you, were you?"

"Nope," Rachel answers, removing the spell off my feet. "I promised that I will always be by your side and I meant it."

Her words, though monotone, make me feel warm all over. "And that's one of the many reasons why I love you."

"I love you too."

We share one last intense kiss. I pick up my much lighter suitcase. Without another word we walk towards the large double doors in front of the entrance to the tower.

BAM!

Without warning Rachel goes flying forward. I yelp as her hand is ripped violently out of mine. She hits the ground hard with a started cry.

"RACHEL!" I yell, running over to her.

My senses kick up to high gear. We're under attack. By whom? My question is answered when I turn to face the villain who hurt my girlfriend from behind. I feel my blood start to boil in fury. All of a sudden I have the strong desire to rip Rachel's attacker to shreds. I immediately recognize the newly repaired robot suit and mechanical muscles. Adonis.

"The little green wimp and the hot babe! Just the ones I've been looking for! Now that I'm out of prison I can finally kill the freak and have the girl as my own!"

I stand protectively over Rachel, who is struggling to stand up. I fall into a ready stance, raising my fists. "I won't let you get near her," I growl.

Let me out an angry voice growls in my head. This is the first time I hear the Beast speak in my mind. It's deep and threatening. I'll deal with him.

No way! I argue back silently. Rachel might get hurt.

That seems to have shut up the Beast for now. I charge the man in the robot suit in the form of an elephant. Unfortunately Adonis is ready for me. He knocks me aside easily. I don't let that deter me. I shift into a lion and start swiping my large paws at my enemy. I dig my claws into his metal "muscles" in an attempt to break apart the armor. Before Adonis manages to push me aside again I notice with satisfaction that some of his armor is dented and marked up.

Rachel seems to finally get her strength back. She rises high in the air, throwing the large rocks on the side of the path and other objects at Adonis. I use this distraction as an advantage to plan a sneak attack. I turn into a small mouse. I scurry behind Adonis. All I have to do is get behind him and-.

Right as I turn into a kangaroo to kick him with my large feet Adonis turns swiftly, grabbing me by my large tail. As if it is no effort at all he swings me as hard and fast as he can. "Enjoy your flight!"

"BEAST BOY!" Rachel yells.

I try to stop myself, but I'm moving so fast it's becoming impossible. I close my eyes as I feel myself go through the window of the Tower, the glass digging into my skin. I go through a wall into a room, not stopping until I hit something hard and metal. Then everything goes black...

When I come to I find myself crumpled in a heap in the middle of the gym of Titan's Tower. My head is throbbing and I feel incredibly dizzy and nauseous. I think I'm going to puke. Everything is fuzzy. I feel as though a chunk of my life has been erased. What in the hell happened? Why am I in the gym? I lean over and puke on the carpet. It doesn't make me feel any better. If anything I feel worse. My stomach is churning.

I see Cyborg running by the gym. "Cy!" I call, making him stop fast. "What's going on?"

"Adonis is attacking the Tower. Raven is trying to fend him of until we can get there." Cyborg says quickly.

Adonis? Who's Adonis? That name sounds vaguely familiar, but I can't place him. Is he a villain we've faced before? If so, why don't I remember him? My brain hurts just trying to figure that out. It doesn't matter. Raven is in trouble. I have to protect her. After all, she's the girl I secretly love. Without thinking twice I follow Cyborg out of the gym and to the battle scene.

Raven

This guy just refuses to give up I think in exasperation. I've been throwing everything I can get my hands on and use lightning and beams of aura in attempt to stop Adonis. Unfortunately it would seem his suit is more durable this time, despite the scratches and dents Garfield made before he was tossed into the Tower. He hasn't come back yet. I hope he's okay.

"Titan's Go!" Robin yells from behind me. I sigh in relief seeing Garfield with the rest of the team in the form of a large grizzly bear. I'm so glad he's okay, however, I can't help but feel like something is off about him. He doesn't seem as furious at Adonis like he usually is. Also I feel a major migraine radiating off of him. I'll have to check on him once we take this villain down.

Like last time we battled Adonis in the lab he is faring well against the five of us even though he's outnumbered. Garfield manages to do more damage to the robot suit while in his bear form. It's starting to crumble piece by piece. I still feel like something is wrong with him. It's time to end this. Now. I catch Starfire's eye when she comes close beside me. She nods. "Azarath Metrion Zinthos!" I chant. Black aura shoots from my hands, colliding with Starfire's starbolt. The power goes fast, hitting Adonis in the chest, narrowly missing Robin as he attacks the larger villain with his martial arts combos. With a groan Adonis hits the ground, badly dazed. Before he can get back up Cyborg hits him with his sonic cannon to keep on the ground. Finally his armor gives out, breaking apart leaving Adonis vulnerable once more. Robin slaps the cuff on him.

"BOOYAH!" Cyborg says energetically.

"It's time to go back to jail where you belong," Robin says in an authoritative voice, forcing Adonis to his feet. Then he leads the villain away.

I float down to the ground beside Garfield, who is rubbing the back of his head. "Are you okay?" I ask in concern.

"Yeah. Who was that guy?"

I stare at my green boyfriend. "What do you mean, Garfield?"

"Why did that big guy come to the tower? What did he want?" He stares at me. "And how do you know my real name is Garfield?"

Cyborg answers before I have a chance to say anything. "It's nice hearing you joke again, BB," Cyborg says. "It'll be something I can remember you by when you guys leave."

The confusion on Garfield's face becomes more apparent with each passing second. It's becoming clear to me that he's not joking. "Leave? Where are we going?" His voice drops to a terrified squeak as a devastated expression forms on his pale green face. "A-am I being kicked off the team?"

"No Friend," Starfire says, speaking for the first time. "You and Raven are leaving us. Remember?"

Garfield shakes his head. "I have no idea what you guys are a talking about. I would never leave the team. You guys are my best friends and the only family I have. "

Cyborg, Starfire, and I look at each other in confusion, then back at our green teammate. Everything is starting to make sense. That's why Garfield seemed off when he came back to battle Adonis and why the pain in his head is increasing rapidly. I also feel nausea and dizziness. Did he hit his head when Adonis threw him? To answer my own question I walk behind the changeling. Then I see it. A large lump is on the back of his head, his emerald hair is matted in dark red blood. My heart sinks to my stomach. Oh no. It can't be. He doesn't have...

"What is the last thing you do remember?" Cyborg asks.

Garfield struggles for a few minutes before speaking. "Watching the newest episode of Clash of the Planets with you then going to bed."

"He's bleeding. He must've hit his head when Adonis threw him." I quickly inform Cyborg. "Beast Boy, what month is it?"

Garfield whirls around fast to glare at me angrily. "I know it's the middle of June, Raven. You don't need to insult my intelligence!" I flinch hearing his hostile tone. The last time he talked to me like that was before he attempted suicide.

A stunned silence fills the air. "BB, it's the beginning of December." Cyborg says.

Garfield stares at all of us. I know he doesn't want to believe us. He starts to sway. "Ugh I don't feel so good." He turns to the side, falling to his knees. I watch him retch on the rocks beside the path we're standing on.

"Come on," Cyborg says, gently helping the green boy to his feet once he's finished puking. "Let's go to the medical ward. I want to check you out."

Starfire follows the boys back to the Tower. I stay right where I am. Once I am alone the reality hits me like a ton of bricks. Garfield doesn't have a simple concussion. He has amnesia. He doesn't remember anything from the past six months. While in many ways that could be considered a blessing, it is the worst possible thing that could happen to me. That means he doesn't remember our relationship. He doesn't remember our love or plans for the future in Africa.

I crumple to the ground the tears falling steadily down my face. My chest constricts as I struggle to breathe. I am unable to hold back the sobs. In one instant all my hopes and dreams have been taken away from me.

My heart is breaking.

The End...for now

Coming up next: "Trust Me."

Summery: Due to an accident during battle Beast Boy doesn't remember any of the events of the past six months-including his relationship with Raven. While the other Titans use this time to try to make up to Beast Boy for everything they've done to him, Raven struggles with a broken heart. And Slade is still out there...waiting for his apprentice. Will Beast Boy remember his past and rekindle his relationship with Raven? Will the Titans be able to restore trust in the green changeling? BBxRae, some RobStar later.