Bill sat at his desk finishing up the last outline for his next novel when he heard a loud bang on his door.

"I'll get it!" He called to Audra.

He quickly rushed to the door to find Richie standing there a mess. His hair and clothes were disheveled.

"Rich? What are you doing here, don't you have a make-up show in Reno tomorrow?"

"I didn't know who else to come to, can we please talk?" He glanced at Audra who had appeared behind him, "alone?"

"Sure, yeah."

After Bill led Richie into his study, Richie broke down completely. He just began sobbing.

"Hey hey hey," Bill put a hand on his shoulder, "what's wrong?"

"I saw him," he closed his eyes for a second and a tear fell down his cheek, "Eddie. I kissed him, I swear I did, tell me I'm not spiralling...please tell me I'm not going insane...please."

He sobbed harder as Bill pulled him into a hug.

"You're not crazy, I saw Stan," he confessed.

"What?" Richie stepped out of their embrace.

"The night we all got the calls from Mike, I saw him. I didn't say anything because I didn't want you guys to think I was crazy. He came to me in here actually. Told me he was sorry."

"Sorry?"

"Sorry he wasn't coming back. I bet he's fuming after Eddie told him we bullied It to death," he chuckled a bit.

"Yeah," Richie chuckled too, "he wouldn't of needed us. Could've done it singlehandedly."

"You know I loved him?"

"Stanley? All of us did."

"No, like...I was in love with him. When we were kids we used to hangout without you guys all the time. Audra doesn't even know this, but we kissed a few times. We dated."

"No way!"

"Yes way. It all ended when he moved. He never called again. I was so upset, I thought he hated me and god I hated him. Now I wish I never was angry, I want him back more than anything. I do love Audra, but I don't think my feelings for Stanley will ever go away. Oh and by the way," a smile grew across Bills face, "it doesn't take a genius to figure out you're in love with one Eddie Kaspbrak."

"Yeah," he said in a small voice, "I always have been and I didn't get to tell him until it was too late. Remember when we we were younger and we told each other our biggest fears?"

"Yeah, you said clowns."

"Well, I kinda lied about that. My biggest fear was you guys finding out I was gay. I knew about my sexuality for a while and I tried to repress it. For so long I tried to pretend I didn't like boys," his voice became for shaky, "I was scared I'd end up missing or dead. I knew what Derry did to people like me and my parents...I don't want to even think about what they would have done."

"It's ok," Bill comforted.

"No, it's not ok. I've been living a lie since forever. I didn't even tell you guys until now."

Bill and Richie continued their conversation about their lost loves. Little did they know, both Stanley and Eddie were there too.

"I should have told him," Eddie said.

Stanley put a hand on his shoulder, "at least he knows now."

"Yeah I guess," he looked down.

"Bill, do you remember that one time I told you guys my mom caught me sneaking out so that's why I didn't go to the quarry with you?"

"Yeah, Mikey and his girlfriend kissed for the first time."

"Still pissed I missed that, anyway I was actually at Eddies. We watched Nightmare on Elm Street and he was shitting himself," he laughed a bit, "I'll never forget his reaction to that one girl being thrown around her bedroom."

"Can't believe you bailed on us to scare the shit out of Eddie."

"Scaring him wasn't my intention, I just wanted to be with him."

"So what happened, when you saw him? Like Eddie, what'd he say?" Bill changed the subject.

Richie looked down and squeezed his eyes shut for a second. He didn't want to talk about it, but Bill deserves to know.

"I was at the kissing bridge," he opened his eyes, "finishing a carving I did years ago while talking to him thinking he couldn't hear me. I heard him behind me so I turned and surely enough, he was there. I hugged him and he told me he loved me."

"That's not all, I remember you saying he kissed you earlier."

"Well yeah. Stanley interrupted us though which was very rude," Richie raised his voice a bit, "you hear that Staniel! It was very rude!"

Stanley sighed.

"Yeah," Eddie agreed with Richie, "it was kinda rude."

Audra knocked on the door.

"You guys done in there? Dinner is ready! Richie you're welcome to stay," she called.

"Let's go eat," Bill smiled, patting Richie on the back.

"Let's," he smiled back.

I didn't realise so many people were following this story! Sorry this chapter is short, I just wanted to get something out.