It is not like what I've expected; It's not like what I imagined.

Every person who told me how it'll happen tends to say:

"There will be music."

"There will be fun."

"Both parties will sing praises for each other as they explore."

"Lots and lots of swearing"

But right now none of that is happening, it was gradual for the both of us, like a crawling feeling that was in the back of our heads suddenly burst forth for this moment.

And we went for it.

There is no beauty in it, no blinding flashes that will stage us and us alone.

It almost felt animalistic, savage ,and not human, yet it felt...right.

Not wrong at all, it was something.

Both of us are silent and naked, no music to accompany us, no situation to latch on too, just us and us alone.

It feels...lonely from our nakedness and cold from our nervousness, there is no "heat of love" that will comfort us as we do this, only us and us alone.

'what were we doing earlier?' is a thought that cross my mind, we were just talking about anything, then suddenly we're kissing and now beneath the white intimacy we both created.

"I'm cold" muttered the person in front of me.

"Me too" I whispered back, then we kissed for the umpteenth time.

Aimlessly we started this 'Forbidden act'; thus, aimlessly we continue, no directions to begin with, no manual to be read through, just us exploring what we can, journeying through unknown territories which is ourselves.

There is...nervousness, but there is no worry.

"I will hurt you..." I whispered to her "I don't want to see you cry; I don't want to hurt you"

"You already did, and still I love you for it" she said

And thus like a key opening a lock, we begin.

There is no music, no moans, no swearing, nor hurtful sentences ; no romance, no ravishings, no sweet nothings.

Just both of us accepting each other, our flaws, faults, and being.

"Hachiman..." she whispered in my ears as she signalled her final act "...I love you"

"I too, love you" I whispered before kissing her.

And both of us did.

None of us spoke after that, instead the silence spoke for it.

An hour and a half later she looked at me with her wide teary eyes.

"Im happy, Hachi..." She said with a smile

"I'm happy too...Haruno"

And both of us slept, in comfort knowing, that both of us will be here in the waking hours

End of oneshot. Let me know what you think in the reviewsand sorry for the long hiatus, been busy with my life and all.