I stay staring at the closed wooden door in utter shock.
Blood is rushing to my ears making an enormously loud roaring noise, the sound of my brother yelling is muffled and I can't tear my eyes away from the wood grain pattern on the door.

There is a massive crash that jolts me out of my stupor, Hiram has thrown a chair at the wall in his anger. it's just what I needed to get myself together.
My mind is racing a hundred miles a minute but I can process anything, I just need to get out of here. I straighten myself up in my chair and turn back around to face my father, the current bane of my existence.
He sits there at his desk like he hasn't just dropped the worlds biggest shit on my life, like he hasn't just told me that I mean nothing more to him than just a business pawn to hand off to a man that finds me equally not worth his time. A man that he himself had swore that if he ever laid eyes on Thomas Shelby again he'd teach him you don't mess with his daughter heart. Apparently I'm not worth that effort either.

The noise was becoming to much in my fathers office, both Harry and Hiram trying to get father to see reason, father yelling back to get them to take orders and not question him and me just sitting there, staring, staring at Henry. It's getting to much and I honestly don't want to deal with this right now.

"Shut up" my voice croaks as I try to get them to quiet down so I can think, they don't listen.

Hiram was being held back my harry now, it wont do Hiram any good to get physical with father but he is past solid reasoning, he was already angry before we came in to the meeting, now his completely lost his shit.

"I SAID SHUT THE FUCK UP!" I screamed.

Dead silence finally meet my ears and I bask in it for a brief second.

"Father" I pause before taking a deep breath and continuing, "May I be excused from the meeting?" in a move I know I will pay greatly for later, I leaped up and out of my chair and was heading for the door before he could even utter a reply, and any reply he did have was drowned out by the slamming of the door closed on my way out.

I make hast down the hallway, I have a specific destination in mind, the liquor cabinet, I don't even pause as I come across the double doors the lead to the family sitting room, I slam the doors open and head full stride to the cabinet, I had tunnel vision with only my destination in mind but I forgot that this is the sitting room, the same sitting room the fucking Shelby's were told to wait in, so imagine my delight when I hear a throat clearing behind me while I'm trying to decide whether I want the large bottle of gin or the large bottle of whisky.

"Might as well have both" I mumble to myself as I grab both selections of drinks and slowly pivot around to face the Shelbys.

My gaze trails across all three individuals slowly trying to find any prominent changes from the last time i saw each of them and feel great disappointment when there isn't any, I was hoping they would of all aged horribly, say maybe 30 years in only a 4 year period, as a form of karma at the very least. but I don't even get that.

They are spaced around the back of the room with Thomas, standing behind the lounge near the window and his ever steel blue eyes focused in on me, his face impossible to read, and I honestly don't care to. Arthur to his right seated in the arm chair his gaze moving between myself and Thomas like he wants to say something but he doesn't know who to or what to say, and John, he had made himself completely comfortable on the lounge, lent back with arms spread along the back and man spreading with a cigarette hanging from his lips, not a care in the world.

I don't say a single word, I just start walking towards the Shelbys. The room is thick with tension while they try to work out what happening, what will I is fun.

I walk until I'm standing directly in front of John and just stare at him until he starts shifting uncomfortably, before reaching behind me to place the bottles of alcohol down on the coffee table that sits in front of the lounge.

"Hiya Hild... uhhh how you been?" John confusingly mutters out while throwing a glance out to Arthur as if to say, the fuck she doing?

I have a feeling they had this whole thing planned out, like they thought they knew exactly how all this was going to go down. "Oh it was all just a big misunderstanding" they'd say "It will be like just picking up from where you two left off". Boy where they wrong. They haven't changed but I sure have.

Quick as lightning I snatch the cigarette out from johns lips and take a deep inhale with it. I watch as johns eyes go wide and I can feel the burning gaze of Thomas drilling holes into me but I refused to make eye contact.

"You got more of these?" I ask john, while making a gesture with the smoke to show what I mean.

"Here you can have mine" Arthur pipes up as he leans over to fetch his container of smokes from his trouser pockets to then hand over to me.

I hold my gaze with Arthur just a tad longer than usual, just to keep this uncomfortable atmosphere I've created for them going, watching as their minds try to work out whats happening and how they should approach the situation.

I finally break my gaze and pocket the smokes before I start to hear noises coming down the hall.

With one last inhale of the smoke I stole from john I snatch up one of the bottles of alcohol and with the other hand flick the remained of the cigarette at Thomas. Take that fucker. I then scoop up the other bottle with my now free hand and jet out of the room before I can see any of the Shelby's reaction and more importantly before my family enters the room to see I'm still in the house.

I practically sprint out of the house and straight to my car parked out the front, I throw myself into the drivers seat and chuck the bottles into my passenger side.

"Definitely a two bottle problem" I huff to myself as I start the car and peal out of the driveway onto the street and the fuck away from that house and the people in it.

Author Note:

Hey guys, sorry its been a while but I've been quiet busy and i just haven't worked out yet how to balance everything but I'm working on it I promise, but just keep in mind I probably won't ever be pumping out a chapter a week haha sorry!

Also sorry for any Grammar issues or even any plot holes, I wrote a majority of it in the middle of the night when I was dead tired but couldn't sleep.

Anyway I hope you enjoy it!