~The inner workings of Lily Evans twisted mind~
Disclaimer: I don't own any of J.K.'s characters or the song 'behind blue eyes' by Limp Bizkit.
A/n: Ok. I really did like the ending after I read it a few times but I had a really good idea and people were complaining that I didn't finish it right. Well this is the final actual last chapter. I hope you like it! Tell me what you think.
~*~*~*~**~*~* chapter 20 ~*~*~*~
This is Cornelius Fudge. Yes I did kill Lily Evans first child. And id I had to do it all over again I would do it exactly the same. The bitch had it coming. You would have done the same thing if you had been in my shoes. No, you don't think so? Well you don't know the half of it. You don't care either. I'm the bad guy.
No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes
Yes, if you asked me again I would deny it. Hell, if you asked me half of the shit I'd done were true, I'd call you crazy. This is as truthful as you get. And half of it's a lie! I can't help it anymore. I lie so much I don't even know what's true anymore. I'm on everyone's most hated list because of it and I'd do it all the same if I could.
And no one knows
What it's like to be hated
To be fated to telling only lies
Yes I have dreams. I have dreams that none of it ever happened. I dream that I'm actually a good man that people see. But I'm not. I don't have much of a conscience anymore. I gave it up when I wanted to become the Minister of Magic. You can't have a child unless you are married if you want that and I sure wasn't going to marry Lily Evans.
But my dreams they aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be
You think that I practically raped her don't you? Well I didn't. She actually came on to me. I was only getting some fun. No one was going to find out. That was my vengeance. She wanted the kid, I didn't. I couldn't have kids. It could never get out that I knocked someone up half my age. So I did what I had to.
My love is vengeance
That's never free
It's all her fault! You don't get that do you? No, of course not because I'm the bad guy. How could I forget. I had strong feelings for her. He red hair flying around. Her sparkling green eyes. And then she came up to me! She wanted me! How was I suppose to say no that? But you wouldn't understand.
No one knows what its like
To feel these feelings
Like i do, and i blame you!
I was so mad when I found out. She's lucky I didn't kill her too! I wanted to. The little vixen wanted to play me. She wanted me to get mad! I did. But she didn't know that because I was calm on the outside. Nothing phased me. I always keep my anger in. I only do what I have to.
No one bites back as hard
On their anger
None of my pain and woe
Can show through
You say you feel pity for her but what about me? Did you think I wanted to kill my own child? No, I didn't. But that's how I was raised. If you didn't want something a cretin way you had to fix it, In this case, fix them. I couldn't talk to anyone for days after that. I was defreated.But you couldn't undersatnd that. I'm the bad guy. I don't feel.
Discover l.i.m.p. say it
No one knows what its like
To be mistreated, to be defeated
Behind blue eyes
You want me to say sorry? You want me to say that I regretted it and that it would never happen again. You want me to tell you say that there is nothing to worry about? Well fuck you then! I'm not sorry, I don't regret it, and you have to worry. That telling the straight truth.
No one knows how to say
That they're sorry and don't worry
I'm not telling lies
So yea. You can criticize me. You can say that I don't deserve anything. But I don't care. You can go a ahead. Because to you I will always be a bad guy no matter what.
No one knows what its like
To be the bad man, to be the sad man
Behind blue eyes.
A/n: Tell me what you think. I came up with this idea while I was listening to this song. I did something like this for one of my other fics. Then I came up with it being in the "bad guy's" POV.
Disclaimer: I don't own any of J.K.'s characters or the song 'behind blue eyes' by Limp Bizkit.
A/n: Ok. I really did like the ending after I read it a few times but I had a really good idea and people were complaining that I didn't finish it right. Well this is the final actual last chapter. I hope you like it! Tell me what you think.
~*~*~*~**~*~* chapter 20 ~*~*~*~
This is Cornelius Fudge. Yes I did kill Lily Evans first child. And id I had to do it all over again I would do it exactly the same. The bitch had it coming. You would have done the same thing if you had been in my shoes. No, you don't think so? Well you don't know the half of it. You don't care either. I'm the bad guy.
No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes
Yes, if you asked me again I would deny it. Hell, if you asked me half of the shit I'd done were true, I'd call you crazy. This is as truthful as you get. And half of it's a lie! I can't help it anymore. I lie so much I don't even know what's true anymore. I'm on everyone's most hated list because of it and I'd do it all the same if I could.
And no one knows
What it's like to be hated
To be fated to telling only lies
Yes I have dreams. I have dreams that none of it ever happened. I dream that I'm actually a good man that people see. But I'm not. I don't have much of a conscience anymore. I gave it up when I wanted to become the Minister of Magic. You can't have a child unless you are married if you want that and I sure wasn't going to marry Lily Evans.
But my dreams they aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be
You think that I practically raped her don't you? Well I didn't. She actually came on to me. I was only getting some fun. No one was going to find out. That was my vengeance. She wanted the kid, I didn't. I couldn't have kids. It could never get out that I knocked someone up half my age. So I did what I had to.
My love is vengeance
That's never free
It's all her fault! You don't get that do you? No, of course not because I'm the bad guy. How could I forget. I had strong feelings for her. He red hair flying around. Her sparkling green eyes. And then she came up to me! She wanted me! How was I suppose to say no that? But you wouldn't understand.
No one knows what its like
To feel these feelings
Like i do, and i blame you!
I was so mad when I found out. She's lucky I didn't kill her too! I wanted to. The little vixen wanted to play me. She wanted me to get mad! I did. But she didn't know that because I was calm on the outside. Nothing phased me. I always keep my anger in. I only do what I have to.
No one bites back as hard
On their anger
None of my pain and woe
Can show through
You say you feel pity for her but what about me? Did you think I wanted to kill my own child? No, I didn't. But that's how I was raised. If you didn't want something a cretin way you had to fix it, In this case, fix them. I couldn't talk to anyone for days after that. I was defreated.But you couldn't undersatnd that. I'm the bad guy. I don't feel.
Discover l.i.m.p. say it
No one knows what its like
To be mistreated, to be defeated
Behind blue eyes
You want me to say sorry? You want me to say that I regretted it and that it would never happen again. You want me to tell you say that there is nothing to worry about? Well fuck you then! I'm not sorry, I don't regret it, and you have to worry. That telling the straight truth.
No one knows how to say
That they're sorry and don't worry
I'm not telling lies
So yea. You can criticize me. You can say that I don't deserve anything. But I don't care. You can go a ahead. Because to you I will always be a bad guy no matter what.
No one knows what its like
To be the bad man, to be the sad man
Behind blue eyes.
A/n: Tell me what you think. I came up with this idea while I was listening to this song. I did something like this for one of my other fics. Then I came up with it being in the "bad guy's" POV.