Chapter 1 – Fallout

Alec came down the stairs to find Magnus at the kitchen table with a cup of coffee in his hands. There was no steam, the cup was cold, and Magnus was staring off into the backyard. Alec could see the coffee pot and the light was off meaning the auto shutoff had already turned the pot off.

Last night after Cecily announced her pregnancy, the party broke up. Raphael and Stephen left in their completely packed car to their road trip with Max to a week in New York City. Anna and Cecily had gone back to Raphael and Stephen's apartment. They were supposed to come back here, but after Alec and Magnus' lack of response, Anna quickly announced she was exhausted and dragged Cecily to the car and off to the apartment. Alec wanted to stop them, but after a minute he thought maybe a night to sleep on it was best. He sent a message to both girls saying he loved them and wished them both to come to breakfast very quickly after they left.

Max did his brotherly duty and sent Alec and Magnus a few texts explaining somethings and that was all the communication they had last night.

It was early, but Alec woke up and Magnus was gone, so he went on the hunt for his husband. He leaned against the door jamb and just watched Magnus unmoving, holding onto his cold coffee. Alec came forward slipping the cup from Magnus' hands and going to the sink. He poured out the cup and the pot to start fresh. It was too early for breakfast, but it was never too early or too late for coffee, so he started a fresh pot. They would need their wits about them to discuss the situation at hand. Neither did much talking last night, both had been lost in their own mental world.

"Alexander?"

"Yes, baby?" He answered from over his shoulder; his voice was slightly higher than normal and held a sickly sweet tone to it.

Magnus sighed, "I was drinking that."

"No you weren't," Alec sighed, "It was full and ice cold." He went about what he needed to do for a fresh pot, "I'll make us more and then we can talk about what we should have talked about last night."

"We should have said something, but I was in shock."

"I know. I was too." Alec still had his back to Magnus, but he knew Magnus hadn't moved from the table, "We were not the greatest parents last night."

They didn't say anything after that while Alec went back to work, he didn't have much to do but wait for the pot to fill with the fresh, dark liquid. Alec went to the fridge to pull out Magnus' creamer and added the right amount and the touch of sugar, before putting both items away. He poured their cups and went to the table for his seat, "Here." He pushed Magnus' doctored cup towards him while keeping his black coffee to himself, "Drink it this time."

"Cecily is brilliant and almost done with school, she will be able to finish, find a job, and be a parent." Magnus pointed out.

"Yes," Alec nodded, "Which is what we should have said last night."

"It's going to be hard." Magnus pointed out, "It was hard on both of us. She shouldn't have had it this hard."

Alec took Magnus' hand in his, giving it a squeeze before intertwining their fingers, "I know baby, but this is her path."

"Alec-"

"We will continue to pay for her apartment while she is in school, as promised. However, as the original agreement when she graduates, we will only cover Anna's side of the rent. That will not change." Alec cut Magnus off. He wasn't sure when the girls would be over and they really did have things they needed to discuss, "I will help my baby girl, I will help all of my children whenever I can, but Cecily is a grown woman and she needs to come up with a plan on what she's going to do. We will not help beyond college as we have always stated."

Magnus nodded, "I agree."

"It's going to be hard, but she's going to be a parent. She has to figure it out." Alec frowned, "It's tough, but we will never be far aware."

"I'm disappoint-"

"Stop." Alec let go of Magnus' hand and held it his own up in the air to cut him off, "You can't- We can't- I don't-"

They both look over to the entryway when they heard the front door open and close and quiet voices talking behind them; the girls had come home.

Alec leaned over and gave Magnus a deep kiss, "I love you and remember to be proud of girls even if disappointed in a life choice. We've all make mistakes, but a child is never one of them." He whispered before standing up and going out into the living room to greet Cecily and Anna with a hug and kiss. He ushered them into the kitchen so they could greet Magnus in the same fashion.

"What do my girls want?" Alec asked, "Pancakes, eggs, bacon-" He went to the fridge to look to see what he even had, he was sure he had all those things.

"Bacon," Anna answered.

Magnus grinned at her, "As if you would want anything else." He looked at Cecily who had hardly said hello to either of them, just took a seat at her normal place at the table, "And Cece wants her usual pancakes, right?"

"Yeah, chocolate chip?" She asked in a small voice.

Alec looked at her with a frown, "Oh no, I think your father ate all of them." He looked at the list taped to the fridge, "They are on my list to get." He tapped it, "I also only have turkey bacon."

Anna scrunched up her face, "What is wrong with you? How dare you defile the term bacon in such a manner?"

Magnus stood up, "I'll run to the store real quick." He walked out of the kitchen before anyone else could say a word.

Alec frowned at all of them, "You all ask too much of me."

"Turkey bacon." Anna shook her head, "How dare you!"

That got a laugh out of Cecily, her first one since last night. She then took a deep breath to calm herself and went into the story she knew her parents were waiting to hear. She only got a sentence in before Alec reminded her to look up and see that Magnus wasn't there and she should wait so she wouldn't have to tell the story twice.

…

"Babe-"

"She'll be fine." Alec cut him off.

Magnus threw his phone on their bed, "She doesn't have a plan." He was pissed, and he had time to think about it after the girls finally left to return to school.

"And I did," Alec argued back at Magnus, throwing his own phone down. "I literally lied to the cops and ran to the store for a car seat and diapers, which were the wrong size, by the way." Alec pointed at Magnus as if that would prove any point he was trying to make. "I had no plan, I had no time to figure it out. I had nothing." He lowered his voice. They were alone, but he didn't want his voice to carry across the house, "I couldn't even get my siblings to help me. Jace moved out. Izzy wouldn't speak to me. Cecily is in a much better place than I ever was. Not all of us have the option to be married and secure when having a child."

Magnus glared at him, "My marriage was anything but secure and you know that." He quipped back.

"Cecily will be perfectly fine. She has a support system far beyond what either of us ever had and that can be better than a boyfriend." Alec sigh, losing steam over their fight.

Magnus took a minute before moving on to his next statement, "I'm allowed to feel disappointed, Alexander."

"Yes, you are." He agreed, "Stop calling me that."

Magnus shook his head, "I know you are all about babies, and I am too, but she went to a party, got drunk, and got pregnant. She got blackout drunk, Alec, and that is not okay." He was using his hands to talk now, pointing and gesturing all over, "We raised her better than that."

"Everyone makes mistakes Magnus, but a child isn't one of them. You are right, you have the right to feel whatever you want, but don't think you have a right to take it out on anyone." Alec wasn't going to let Magnus have this fight.

"So, I just have to sit by and be okay with everything?" He questioned.

"No," Alec sighed, "But you need to support your children. And we both know some times that means doing things you don't like."

"I will support her. I will always support her. But I am disappointed in her."

Magnus spoke with a definite sadness in his voice that broke Alec's heart, "Baby," Alec stepped around their bed to take his husband into his arms for a long hug, a deep hug, a hug that would hopefully cure-all, "I know. I know." He repeated. He had high hopes that he could help heal his husband's heart.

Magnus finally pulled back, "Hugs don't fix everything."

"But they are nice." He countered.

Magnus laughed, he pulled Alec into a kiss, "You know what else feels nice."

"That doesn't feel nice." He poked Magnus in the ribs, "That feels amazing."

"Let's try that." Magnus surprised Alec but pushing hard on his hips and got him to land with a bounce on the bed, "It will perk me up." He stepped up to Alec who had set up on the bed already, putting his pants right in Alec's face.

Alec locked eyes on Magnus, he wasn't perked up. He had some work ahead of him. This wasn't normal, normal Magnus. Alec looked up at Magnus, "I'm not sure now is the right time for us to-"

Magnus leaned forward and took Alec's mouth in a bruising kiss. He bit Alec's bottom lip before forcing his tongue inside at Alec's moan. Alec brought his hands up to lock in Magnus' hair, taking the hint for what it was, Magnus wants him and Alec always wanted Magnus.

…

Magnus made his way out of the shower to find his husband sleeping once again.

It was the middle of Sunday afternoon and Alec was sound asleep. Magnus had cleaned them up after another round of lovemaking before he decided a shower would be a good idea to clear his head. Alec was awake when he went into the shower, but apparently, that didn't last long.

Magnus was confused and didn't know what he was thinking. Cecily was her own women but having Max tell them the story and Cecily confirm it this morning was like a stab to his heart, his little girl did something very dangerous. He was confused and conflicted and it seemed like he was the only one who felt that way.

"You're not." Alec's sleepy voice called to him.

Magnus looked at Alec to see him staring back at him, "Huh?"

Alec grinned, stretching with a yawn, his nap was short but worth it, "You were talking out loud. Confused and conflicted. You aren't the only one who feels that way."

Magnus dropped his towel from his waist and climbed into bed with an equally as naked Alec, "You don't seem to feel that way."

"It's okay to have those feelings Magnus, nothing you feel is wrong." Alec sat up against this headboard, their deep blue sheets pooling at his waist, "I was wrong for what I said earlier, and I'm sorry."

Magnus nodded, taking his spot next to Alec. He lowers his head to rest it against Alec's, "What are we going to do?"

"Nothing." Alec sighed, "Our children are all old enough to make their own way and they need to make those decisions on their own. Cecily is no different, she needs to decide what to do." He twisted to get a kiss from Magnus, "I love you."

"I love you too," Magnus whispered.

"No one should tell you how to feel and I think I did that." Alec went on, "I think we need to give Cecily time to work out her own plans then let her come to us."

Magnus shifted, but didn't move away from Alec, "What if we give her too much time?"

"Then Cecily will have something else to figure out."

"We just have to sit back let her come to us." Magnus twisted to be able to look Alec in the eye, "Just wait."

Alec nodded, "She's an adult and a mother." He stated as if that was all the explanation they needed, "Magnus, what was the first thing you did when Camille told you that you were going to be a father?" He was surprised that he had never asked that question before.

Magnus frowned, "Panicked."

Alec laughed, "Okay, after that."

"Camille began bargaining and I had to come up with answers." Magnus sighed, "She really was terrible from the beginning."

"Yes, but you have to come up with the answers and you did. It might have taken you years to find your way to me, but you did. Look at all the plans and answers we've come up with over the years." Alec sighed, "We got somethings wrong, but we got a lot of them right. You married Camille because you knew at that moment it would be best for Raphael. Not you, but Raphael."

"Ale-"

"Listen, you are an amazing father and husband. You have thought our children well and they are all something to be proud of. Cecily will do well, we just have to give her that time. It's okay that we are not okay with this overnight." Alec put his hands on either side of Magnus' face, "You made choices you had to for Raphael and Cecily will do the same. We may not like them or agree but those are Cecily's choices to make."

"And if I'm scared for her?" Magnus asked.

"I am too." Alec crushed his lips to Magnus' for a quick searing kiss, "But she will do what is right and we have to believe in that." He didn't pull back far, just enough to see Magnus' eye, "You are the best man I know, everything you feel is okay."

"Why do you always seem perfect?" Magnus asked honestly, with a touch of awe to his voice.

Alec laughed, "I'm not." He kissed Magnus again, pulling back quickly again, "Neither of us is, but we are perfect for each other."

Magnus smiled, "Lay with me?" He questioned.

"Always."