Hey Adora,
It's been a while hasn't it?
You haven't changed much
Still working out,
Still being yourself, strong and so self-confident.

Hey Adora,
I know it's a poker face,
I know deep down, you doubted, deep down you questioned yourself.
But it's all cleared out now,
You can shine as bright as your heart does.

Hey Adora,
I've been good on my own,
I've lived for myself, I've made some friends, I've achieved some goals.
Not the ones I pictured a few years ago,
But you're familiar with change of plans too, aren't you?

To be honest Adora,
I didn't think we'd change so much,
I didn't think we'd change that way.
It's like I'm living a different life,
Or more like I've been hiding from myself all these years.

Hey Adora,
Do you remember the first day we met?
If there's such a thing as love at first sight, then it wasn't what I felt when you flashed your blue eyes over mine.
In fact, I don't even recall a first glance. I don't remember a first word.
Our bond was much stronger than that.

It's true Adora,
Our connection built itself, our friendship grew over time.
You became the one I felt most comfortable around, the presence I searched for in a new place, the gaze that made me relax in a group of people.
Before I knew what was happening,
You became the person I longed for.

I didn't want to love you Adora,
To be fair, I didn't want to love girls in the first place.
I fought it alright, I brushed it off whenever I checked you out, I've always been good at denying truths.
But I couldn't chase from my mind that drunken night when you sat on my lap, and all I wanted to do was kiss you everywhere.
I got smitten, I got confused, I got lost on you.

Hey Adora,
I don't think you fully realize how awful it was,
To fall in love with your straight best friend, and see her kiss boys at parties, when all you really wanted was to be the one in her arms,
And then beating yourself up for feeling this sinful desires,
Because you weren't ready to accept them yet.

But hey Adora,
It got better over time didn't it?
I learned to like myself the way I was, I finally met with peace the part of me that I had forced in the darkness of my subconscious for years.
I even accepted that you'd never be more than my best friend, and I was fine with that.
Until you came out as well.

Oh Adora,
Have you ever been burnt by that desperate flame of hope raging in your heart?
Have you ever heard that delusional voice whispering that maybe after all, your feelings could meet a match?
The straight best friend I'd fallen in love with was not so straight after all.
It was like waking up in a Netflix show full of queer princesses, right?

But life is not that simple, is it Adora?
You were just as lost as I'd been, discovering that new side of you, making sense of your past, testing yourself with pretty girls around you…
I could wait, I could hope, there was nothing wrong with that.
What was wrong with dreaming that you might like me the way I did?
You did look like you enjoyed it when we kissed.

But why Adora?
Why did you kiss me right after telling me you never saw me like that?
Why did you flirt with me after seeing me cry for you, wasted at another plastered party?
Why did you feel the need to tell me about your secret fling with Scorpia that lasted so long it might have started before I even came out to you?
Why did it suddenly feel like I never really knew you?

I fought myself Adora,
I tried to be strong, I tried to detach myself, I promise.
But it seems I could only stare at the moth burning its wings, never really trying to extinguish the flame.
We kept pulling each other in that confusing world of desire, stretching the line of our friendship until it broke.
At least, it broke for me.

Once again Adora,
I denied that new truth.
Craving so hard something I could never reach, I kept hurting myself in your arms.
It takes two persons to make that kind of mistake, you told me.
How many mistakes did it take for you to realize you'd never love me?

Hey Adora,
It sounds like I blame you, but I really don't.
I was weak, you were confused.
You knew I liked you, and you liked me too somehow.
Just not the way you thought it could be.

We had history Adora,
Even if our embraces ended a while ago,
Our friendship had to be preserved.
That's what we told each other,
After you announced me you fell in love with another one.

Hey Adora
I think it's time to stop.
We took some distance for the sake of our friendship,
And I thought I could move past this.
I promise I did try my best.

Don't be sad, Adora.
You have your girlfriend now.
You have another life, new friends and new goals.
I have to keep going too, I can't live in our past,
I can't let the remnant of our broken friendship imprison my heart in a vain cage of hope.

We have to let go Adora,
For the sake of both of us,
For the serenity of our minds and our hearts.

Adora,
We won't see each other anymore, w e won't talk anymore,
Because it has become too much for me.

But don't worry Adora,
I'll always love you somehow,
Even if it's a memory of you.

Goodbye Adora,
You know I'll miss you.

Catra.