I decided to continue with this story and maybe finish it before the end of the month (if everything goes right). I kinda lost my inspiration and track of where I wanted the story to head, but now I think I can give a nice ending to it. Thanks to everyone who haven't forgotten about it!
It took Judy about three months to decorate and furnish the apartment in a way she was finally comfortable with and three more months to get used to living there with Little Judy. More than once the rabbit had found herself walking in the direction of her old apartment after leaving work just to turn and head in the right direction, luckily that didn't happen anymore.
Mrs. Miller had been a huge help in her life not only because she watched Little Judy, but because she cooked for her and took care of the needs of the little shrew in a way Judy couldn't because of her size.
Koslov, on the other hand, was hired as a bodyguard although his biggest duty was as a chauffeur. Judy couldn't think of even looking for a different mammal for the role of security when she and Nick were not around.
Everyday she would get home, thank Mrs. Miller for her help, see her out and basically dedicate her evening to her goddaughter. The little one had already learned to walk and was beginning to talk. She was a handful and more often than not left Judy feeling more tired than when she did a double shift at the ZPD.
She didn't mind though. The bond they already had grew stronger for obvious reasons. In fact, it looked like Little Judy had already forgotten about her real family. Judy didn't want that to happen and had framed several pictures of them that she showed to the toddler everyday. The rabbit knew those pictures probably didn't mean anything to her right now but once her goddaughter was old enough, she would talk to her about them and maybe at the right time explain to her what happened to her parents and grandparents.
Those were conversations that she didn't want to think about right now.
On the weekends, Nick would stay over regardless if they had to go to work or not. Judy noticed that her little namesake would be even more cheerful than normal when Nick was around. The fox was great with her in every aspect whether the three of them were playing, learning something new or just watching a kid's show, the little shrew always seem happier to have both of them with her.
Judy had thought about asking Nick to move in with them permanently but was afraid to do it. Even when Nick had told her countless times that she was the love of his life and he wanted to be with her forever, she still considered it a big deal and didn't want her fox to feel pressured. She felt bad enough that because of her, they only went out on dates once every two weeks or when Mrs. Miller could stay overnight to be with Little Judy. But then again, it looked like Nick didn't really care about the way they were dating. He had been so supporting and understanding throughout the whole process of adapting to her new life that she couldn't bring herself to ask for what seemed like more from him.
That's why she felt very surprised when she was the one who brought it up during dinner at her place one Saturday night. Maybe it was the fact that she really, really wanted to be with Nick everyday or maybe it was because she was a selfish mammal and wanted more from the poor fox.
Whatever her intentions were, she was even more surprised to hear the fox's response.
"I'm not sure that would be the best idea, Carrots," he said looking at his plate, fidgeting with his fork.
Judy felt a pinch in her stomach that wasn't related to her food at all. It was obvious to her that Nick didn't want to take that step because why would he?
"I understand," she said trying not to sound so beaten. "It's a lot to ask. I'm sorry."
"No," Nick said.
She was confused when she looked up at him and saw his serious expression. He sighed sounding frustrated, put his fork down and looked at her.
"Judy, I can't move in with you if you keep looking at me like that," he said and then when he saw her face full with confusion, he continued. "You look at me as if you're afraid of losing me to every minor detail. We've been dating for six, wonderful may I add, months and I've had the best time of my life, but everytime you ask something from me, no matter how little it is, you handle it with kid gloves. I'm not going to run away or feel overwhelmed if you ask a favor from me, you know? We can't live together if you think I'm doing it out of pity."
The rabbit thought about it for a few seconds. Was she making a big deal out of nothing? It was true that she tried to ask as little as possible from him and it was true she felt guilty but it never occurred to her that he'd be not ok with that. Of course it was silly to blame herself for something Nick was doing willingly. If he had a problem he could have easily walk away at any time. But he had chosen to stay with her knowing well what he was getting into. Judy felt so silly a chuckle escaped her throat.
"You're right," she told him not caring about filtering her words anymore but still looking down afraid of not being able to speak if she looked at him. "I want you to move in with us because you bring light into this place, Nick. I… we are happier with you around. I love it when you stay here because it feels like we're a family and when you go back to your place is as if an important part of ourselves goes with you and I hate it. When you're not here this place doesn't feel as homely.
"If you feel like it's too soon or that you're not ready I'll totally understand but if you want to live here with us, I'll know you'll be doing it because you want to and not because you feel pressured."
When she looked at him he was smiling widely. The same kind of smile he gave her when she was once putting his police badge on his chest for the first time.