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"Bella," she turned her head and looked at her brother.

"Jasper." She rushed into her brother's arms, letting the tears she'd been holding back finally flow freely.

"Oh Bella." He held his sister close.

"They're gone." She whispered. "They're both gone."

"I know , I know." Jasper said his own anguish making the words hard to speak.

"What am I going to do?"

"you're going to come back to Texas with me, that's what you're going to do." Jasper said pulling her back so he could look into her eyes.

She swallowed "I've never lived anywhere but New York." She whispered.

"Yeah I know you city girl." Jasper tried to joke, "but you visited me on the ranch with mom a few times."

"Yeah she hated the ranch." Bella chuckled.

"That she did." He sighed sadly. He'd never see his mother's bright vivacious smile again. He'd never hear his step father laugh. His sister was broken and he didn't know how to pick up the pieces of himself let alone her. "I'm sorry I couldn't get here sooner Bells." He whispered.

"You got here as fast as you could." She shook her head, trying to expunge his guilt for taking over a day to get to New York after her parents had been murdered in cold blood.

"No god damn it I should have checked my messages." Jasper railed against himself. He'd been with Alice and he'd shut off his phone.

"Jasper look at me." Bella demanded. Jasper looked up at her. "I don't blame you, and you can't blame yourself. Who we need to blame is the son of a bitch who shot them."

"Do we know who did it?" he asked leading his sister over to a couch.

Bella swallowed and nodded. "Yes." She whispered. "It was an old collar of dads. He had just gotten out of jail and he broke into the house. Shot them well they were sleeping." She shivered. "I can't go back there Jas."

"And you don't have too. Some of your dad's fellow officers packed up the house for you. All your boxes will go to the ranch and Renee and Charlies things will be also go there but be placed in storage until you're ready to go through them."

"I found them." Bella whispered. She closed her eyes trying to block out the pictures of her dead parents. Blood so much blood. She remembered screaming and stumbling. She remembered shaking fingers dialing 911. She remembered running back to her best friends house. She'd been staying there ever since.

"I'm just glad you weren't there." Jasper whispered. "If he had lost her too he wasn't sure what he would do.

"Are you sure your dad and the Cullen's are okay with me coming to Blue Sky?"

"Of course they are. They wouldn't have it any other way." Jasper assured her. His father was the foreman at the Cullen Ranch Blue Sky. Jasper had been raised their after his father and mother split up. Now he worked as an under foreman.

"I hate being such a burden I wish I could just move out on my own. Angela said I could live with her the last year of school." Bella said, she had just finished her junior year the week prior.

"No way." Jasper shook his head. "You are coming with me and you're lucky if I ever let you out of my sight. I can't lose you to Bella."

Bella watched her brother. Well they weren't that close growing up being eight years apart in age and living in different states the majority of the time. She knew she'd be lost without him right now. "The funeral is tomorrow I didn't want to drag it out. The police helped me set it up fast." She swallowed. "The Webbers said you could stay here tonight we can leave for the airport right after the funeral I don't want to be here any more then I Have to really." She sighed. Even though she'd said she wanted to stay in New York to finish her education she wasn't sure she'd ever be able to fully breath in this city again.

"Okay," Jasper agreed. "Do you have clothes and everything you'll need?"

"Yes." Bella licked her lips. "I have some things enough to get me though till the rest of my things get to Texas. Angela even gave me a black dress to wear." She bit her lip.

"Bella why don't you get some sleep it's getting late and you look exhausted.

"I can't sleep the nightmares." She said looking down at her feet.

"Come here." He pulled her to his side and laid her head down on his shoulder. "Sleep." He whispered.

She tried she really did but she woke up three times gasping and tears running down her face. Each time Jasper was there to sooth her and hold her, to let her know she wasn't alone.

After he'd gotten her back asleep the third time Jasper sat and watched her. He'd nodded to the Webber's as they'd came into the house one by one a few hours ago. They'd given him gentle smiles. Mrs. Webber bringing him a blanket to wrap around himself and Bella at one point.

"Thank you." He had whispered trying to not wake Bella. He now wrapped that blanket around her shoulders. "Oh Bella." He whispered. Tomorrow was going to be tough, tomorrow was going to be pain and despair, tomorrow he would bury his mother and step father and take his sister to Texas. Tomorrow stared a new chapter of his life.

The next morning the Webbers and Bella and Jasper went to the grave site. The grave yard was filled with Renee's friends and Charlie's fellow officers. "They were really loved." Bella said.

"Yes they were." Jasper agreed. Just then he spotted someone he wasn't expecting. "Dad, I wasn't expecting you."

"Of course I came son. Renee was once my wife and even though we didn't see eye to eye most of the time she was still your mother, for that I'll always be grateful to her. "Bella." He looked over at the young woman by his sons side.

"Thank you for coming Peter it means a lot." She smiled weakly.

"Oh it's not just me." He smiled.

"Who else came?" Jasper asked looking around.

"All of them." He waved and a bunch of people came forward. One short pixie like girl with a black pony tail came forward and kissed Jasper before turning to Bella.

"Hi I'm Alice. I've heard so much about you I know we're going to be great friends. I'm sorry for your loss."

Bella watched this woman with wide eyes. "Um…."

"Alice you're scarring her." Jasper said.

"Sorry." Alice blushed. Then he looked behind her.

"Carlisle, Esme, Emmett, Rose, Edward. You guys didn't all have to come.

"Of course we did. You're family." Esme said.

"But who is watching the ranch."

"Riley." Carlisle assured him.

Bella's eyes were glued to a man. She believed Jasper had called him Edward, but no that couldn't be the Edward she remembered. Of course last time she'd been there she'd been ten and he'd been a twenty one year old but even then he wasn't as filled out as he was now. The years really had filled out Edward Cullen. She shook her head. How could she be thinking about how cute Edward was, for one he was way to old for her. For anther this was her parents funeral. A solemn day.

As people started to leave that day. Bella stood by the freshly dug graves. "I love you." She whispered on the wind. She didn't know when she'd be back here again. If she'd ever come back again. Jasper stood by her side and she knew people were waiting for them.

"Are you ready." Jasper asked gently. She could almost feel him vibrate like he wanted to jump out of his skin.

"Yeah lets go." She sighed. She turned to leave but turned back at the last second. One last look.

"I'm going to miss you Bella." Angela flung her arms around her.

"I'm going to be lost without you." Bella clung to her friend. "I don't know what I would have done without you and your family the last few days."

"You're always welcome back." Angela assured her. Bella just nodded.

"We have Bella's things in the car." Mr. Webber told the gathered group. "Just let me go and get them." A few moments later he came back with her one lonely suitcase.

"Thank you." Peter nodded at the other man. "Okay I guess this is good of time as any to get to the airport our flight leaves in a few hours." He sighed heavily.

The group made their way to the airport and sooner then she realized Bella was loaded onto a plane and they were taking off. Of to a new foreign life. She leaned her head against the window. What was she going to do in Texas. She closed her eyes. Maybe she could outrun the nightmares. She could only hope because she was exhausted.

She looked across the aisle at Jasper who was sitting by Alice. She wished he was sitting by her but she was glad he had someone to lean on. She had to remember she wasn't the only one to lose parents that bloody night. She shivered, as images came back to her mind. Blood so much blood. Would she ever be able to block it out.

"Are you okay?" she looked up to see Edward looking over at her. He had been sitting beside her but she hadn't been paying much attention to him.

"No." she shook her head.

"I'm sorry." He whispered

She just shrugged. "No way to be okay. I need to learn to live with that."

"I think you'll like the Ranch you always seemed to enjoy it as a kid."

She scrunched up her nose. "Thanks for reminding me I'm so young."

They spent the rest of the plane ride talking about nothing of consequence and Bella was happy to get her mind off of everything that had happened the last few days.

Finally they landed in Texas, and headed toward her new home. "Time for a fresh start." She mumbled to herself as the Blue sky ranch sign came into sight. No point looking back.

A/N so I thought I'd start this story. Not sure where it will go but it will be olderward. 11 years difference but nothing will happen until Bella turns eighteen. Jasper is her half brother through Renee. Also cowboyward. LOL hope you enjoy. Drop a review if you did and tell me what you'd like to see next. Your suggestion just might be worked in. ;)