Authors note: Hello readers! This is my first fanfic so please be gentle lol I love constructive criticism so don't be afraid to Review! Now I have a very dark mind as you can see so this will be rated M. There also may possibly be some smut in the future but no promises! Please enjoy!

Ch 1: No Sleep

Sleep never came easy for him, he always felt as though his mind was always moving a thousand miles per hour. Gajeel never had been a heavy sleeper, even during his days with Metalicana he would lay awake listening to the deep and loud breaths of his adoptive father. He remembered the feeling as he struggled to keep warm against the dragons cold hard body. Metalicana never babied him as a boy and did not give a rats ass on whether he froze to death or not. The harsh cold nights from back then made him appreciate the roof that was over his head, of course he had earned said roof through hard work. The apartment was big enough for him and his cat and even had an extra bedroom which to him was a waste of space. At the moment the room held heaps of scrap metal for when Gajeel was in need of a late night snack.

Gajeel glanced to the foot of the bed where his partner and friend lay curled up into a tight ball. Gajeel loved that fur ball that slept soundly, he was one of the only people that he would trust with his life, lily had been nothing but a friend to Gajeel, ignoring his dark and terrifying demeanor. Gajeel couldn't really label anyone else in Fairy Tail as a friend, it's not like he wanted to anyways, they were all a bunch of idiots. Well.. of course not all of them were horrible. An image of a young girl with pale blue hair came to his mind. Levy, he thought to himself, he can't remember the last time he said her name, he couldn't say it due to the fact that he loved how angry she would get when he called her shrimp or shorty. Aside from Lily the shrimp was the first person that ever greeted him without the smell of anger rolling off in waves. However, He did smell one thing from her and that was, fear.

"W-welcome to Fairy Tail," Levy reached her hand out, it trembled along with her whole body. Gajeel stared at her for what seemed like hours and gave a low grunt turning away from her. Even as he retreated he could smell the fear following him like a ghost coming to haunt him. It wasn't till after his encounter with her two little love sick puppies and the lightning Dragon slayer that he could tell she wasn't as fearful as she was before. Levy just happened to be one of the only members in the guild that didn't get completely on his nerves. He….even had some feelings towards the young script mage at least that's what Lily tried to explain to him. Recently anytime Levy came near him or even said his name he felt his heart beat a little faster, this confused him to no end. Did he even have the right to feel this way towards her?

Again, sleep never came easy to him, the horrible images of Levy's mangled body kept him up through the night. That night he saw the blue haired girl and her two teammates he could hardly contain his excitement. He had thought of all the sick, twisted and torturous things he would do to the three fairies, especially the girl. He really was a fucked up sadist back then, he remembered pinning Jet and Droy to the tree and then going on to torture Levy to his heart's content. His nightmares replaying every single moment of his horrendous crime .

"Please…. w-why are you doing this?" Levy said through her heavy breathing, fear and pain moving throughout her shivering body. This man had hurt her and her friends, Jet and Droy had been knocked out long ago leaving her to fend for herself. The Man walked up to her, he was tall and terrifying, his many piercings gleamed under the once beautiful moonlight. Levy tried her best to move away from the hand that reached down to her grabbing a fistful of her soft blue locks that had been clumped together by blood. Levy let out a squeal as she was lifted by her hair to face the black haired monster. "Isn't it obvious? I want a war with you pathetic fairies and destroying your guildhall simply just wasn't enough." Levy's eyes widened at she reached up to grasp his fists that were holding her hair hoping to relieve the pain in her scalp. "It was you..You destroyed our guildhall? Who are you!" Gajeel tossed her onto the floor like a rag doll her body landing on the rough terrain. "I am Gajeel the Iron Dragon Slayer of Phantom Lord." He grinned devilishly he looked like a demon as stalked towards her once again his arm turning into an iron rod. "Y-you will never beat us, we are Fairy Tail and we don't give up so easily." Levy stood to her feet as she felt a burning pain right under her left breast 'A broken rib?' Levy thought to herself, she was in so much pain she wanted to just lay down and let it go but she was a Fairy Tail mage she had to be strong for her friends. "Well well well so you want to go against ME you fairy bitch? You can't beat me, we both know that I've already won." Gajeel had began feel a feeling of pride in the girl she was going against him and that made him oh so excited. Thrusting her hands forward Levy mustered up all her strength "Solid Script: Fire!" Fire flew towards the iron man in the form of words. He lifted his arms to block the attack the fire burning him slightly."Wow that actually burns a bit GeeHee, I didn't think you had it in you!" Levy fell to the ground again she had nothing left in her she was so tired she just couldn't fight not anymore.

"What done already? Hmmmmmm how about we shake things up a bit?" Gajeels iron first made contact with her cheek levy falling to her back hard enough to turn the ground to rubble. Levy let out a silent scream her hand flying up to cup her cheek bone. 'No… it can't end like this..dammit im getting dizzy.' Her eyesight began to get fuzzy as she stared at the moon, tears were welling up in her eyes, she didn't want to die. She felt a heavy weight on her body the man straddled her as he held her arms above her head. "What a shame to ruin such a pretty face." Gajeels clawed nails scrapped against her cheek leaving small bloodied scratches in their wake moving them down over her chest and down to her pale belly that still had flawless pale skin. Levy shivered as he ran his claws along her toned belly. The hand holding her arms felt her pulse quicken making Gajeel smirk. "Gee hee now this, is just perfect." Gajeel pulled away from her wrists wrapping his hand around her neck standing and carrying her to the tree in the middle of the park. He slammed her against the tree her head knocking into the trunk he pinned her there in a crucifix before he did the same with Jet to her Left and Droy to her right. Levy began to fall in and out of consciousness until she felt something cool against her abdomen looking down she saw him his hands on her stomach painting..the Phantom Lord insignia. Levy instantly began to struggle she pulled at her restraints her shoulders screaming in discomfort. "Stop it you fairy bitch!" His claws digging into her waist making levy whimper. "And done!" Gajeel stepped away admiring his work, and licking his lips. Gajeel turned around and as he walked away he heard a faint whisper "You're a monster."

He had no right, to love her, and not only that but she would never love him back.