New Start

ASHLEY

I layed in my bed watching the minutes pass by, before my alarm would go off. It was a new school year, and a fresh start for me. I was going into my senior year of high school. My high school experience was suppose to be a good one, at lease that's one everyone says. Mine was full of revealing secrets that eventually led me to see a therapist once a week. Freshman year I realized I was more into girls then my handsome boyfriend at the time, he also realized he liked my sister more then me. Sophomore year I was introduced to alcohol, weed, and some other things like sex. That year was a lot of fun. I even got closer to my sister, and met some pretty cool people. Everything was going great, then a knock at the door happen. Two things happen. I saw my father get angry for the first time, and then saw him cry for the first time also.

The lady that was at the door was Christine Davies, my biological mother. For 16 years of my life my father and mother have been Ralfie and Amy Davies. Turns out my mother left when I was just a week old, apparently she couldn't handle being a mother. My father and her broke up a few months before and that's when he met Amy. When they both realized Christine wasn't coming back, Amy agreed to raise me as her own. She didn't want me to grow up without a mother, and she was already having my fathers baby. Kyla Davies is biologically my half sister, but I wouldn't ever call her that. They knew they would have to tell me the truth eventually, but it killed my dad to have to sit me down and tell me. He knew he should have told me sooner, but the time was never right.

I was 16 and found out my parents, and my life was made up from a lie. I couldn't look at Amy and not think about her not being my mother. I wanted answers, I wanted to know why I wasn't good enough for my mother. I couldn't take the pain, and the anger I was feeling. I started to lash out, and that made my parents to put me in therapy. I didn't blame them, some nights they would sit up waiting for me to come home. Every time there phones would go off they were afraid it was the call to say I went to far and was gone for good.

What made me stop? I did push it to far, and needed my stomach pump. I woke up to find my family crying, and begging me to stop. My little sister wouldn't leave my side, she was afraid she was going to leave me for good. I agreed to enter a program for teens who struggle with substance abuse, and for mental health. I spent the whole summer working, and helping others around our community. I met some really cool people, and started a friendship with Spencer Carlin. Her parents ran the program, and she helped out. After there oldest overdosed, they wanted to help others before it was too late. She went to our high school, and was even friends with Kyla and Aiden. I just was in my own world to give her the time of day.

BEEP BEEP BEEP

I shut off my alarm, and sit up on my bed. A new year. A new me.