Hiya! This is my first fanfic. I've finally gotten the guts to post something so here goes nothing. Please note this story is rated M for future chapters. Also it will contain imprint bashing... Sorry ya'll but I can't stand the idea of choices being taken away from our favourite pack. Not to mention Leah was not given the ending she deserved... Hope you enjoy! ( note not a song fic, but may post lyrics that inspired the chapter)

P.s. if anyone catches a mistake please let me know. I am not known for my editing skills.

Don't you know I'm no good for you
I've learned to lose you, can't afford to
Tore my shirt to stop you bleedin'
But nothin' ever stops you leavin'

Quiet when I'm coming home and I'm on my own
I could lie, say I like it like that, like it like that
I could lie, say I like it like that, like it like that

Don't you know too much already
I'll only hurt you if you let me
Call me friend but keep me closer (Call me back)
And I'll call you when the party's over

Quiet when I'm coming home and I'm on my own
And I could lie, say I like it like that, like it like that
Yeah I could lie, say I like it like that, like it like that

But nothing is better sometimes
Once we've both said our goodbyes
Let's just let it go
Let me let you go

Quiet when I'm coming home and I'm on my own
I could lie, say I like it like that, like it like that
I could lie, say I like it like that, like it like that

Billie Eilish - When the party's over.

"What are you doing all the way out here?" Jacob's timbre voice rolled out into the night air like the waves crashing below Leah's feet. She was perched on the hard rock with her long tanned legs dangling over the edge of the stone cliff. They were swinging back and forth like she would when they were young and it reminded Jake of a simpler time.

"It was all getting to be a little much. I mean come on, obviously they are going to get married. They're imprints, soulmates." Leah sneered the last word. "Not sure why we need to throw a shindig every time this happens. Oh, Jared proposed. Big surprise. I'm just shocked, really." Leah rolled her eyes before turning her gaze back to the vast ocean, the atmosphere suddenly turning cold and sombre.

Jake paused before throwing a look over his shoulder, as if deciding whether to take the bait and sit with the she-wolf or to make a quiet escape. Probably thinking he could avoid her wrath Leah thought. Down on the beach he could see the party goers. His imprint seemed to be enjoying herself, if her giggles were anything to go by. He could just make out her profile leaning over Emily's small rounded stomach. The 10 month old who now sported a 12-year old's appearance seemed to be listening for a heartbeat of Sam's child. Deciding all was well, Jake slowly made his way beside Leah. Sitting cross legged, close enough to feel the warmth radiating off her bare shoulder. From the corner of his eye he took in her appearance.

Full lips parted and dragged down in the corners. High cheek bones, bronzed skin, lashes that framed her hazel eyes.

She was so fucking beautiful he thought to himself.

Leah pretended like she couldn't feel his dark gaze on her face, feeling her lashes flutter against her cheeks as she took in a deep breath. Jacob's scent surrounding her, she finally felt a moment of peace from the aching in her chest. Surprisingly Swan- or rather Cullen- came to mind. Bella was a lot of things. A lot of things Leah hated. But she was right, Jacob was like the sun. Her only source of warmth these days.

"Shouldn't you be over there with the spawn Jacob? She'll be waiting for you I'm sure. Hate to keep you." Leah slowly opened her eyes to peek over at him. He was all warmth, rich skin, square jaw. Strong features that displayed his status. Jacob was an alpha and he was everything a woman could want. But why did he insist on pushing her boundaries? Over the last year they had gotten closer and closer. He slowly but surely chipped away at her until having him around became less of an annoyance and more of a routine. That is, when he wasn't doting on his imprint.

"Listen beta of mine. No man gets left behind. Even if she insists on it." He joked while nudging her shoulder with his. "Plus, we have to show solidarity in front of the others. Can't have them thinking I want a new second in command."

"Yeah, I'm sure they are all just itching to take over that job Jacob. Who wouldn't love to listen to your bitching on a regular" Leah leaned back bracing herself on her arms. Why could he not just leave her be? Did he not see how hard it was getting for her? Every day was a struggle to keep her heart in check. Putting on the mask and acting like he didn't know her deepest darkest parts. He was always there. Her "friend". Pulling her closer and closer. Could he not see her walls crumbling down and her heart yearning for him? The way his yearned for the bronzed haired beauty.

Somehow over time Leah began to veiw him as more than a pack mate, more than a friend. They were constantly teetering on the edge of more only to be brought back by the cables tied to the hybrid. It was a rude reminder for Leah. Things were never going to be the way she wanted. Fate had other ideas. It always did.

" C'mon Lee, lets head back. I promise to stand with you in the back and feed you beer one bottle at a time." Jacob knew today would be hard for her. She wouldn't show it, but these parties always ate at her. He promised himself to split his focus. Keep an eye on Nessie and be sure to support Leah. So far he had done a pretty shitty job. He hadn't even noticed Leah had snuck off until Seth asked for her. The guilt was an unwelcome pain in his chest. He should have been more aware, Leah needed him and he was too focused on Nessie' s excitment to be joining the pack and giving Kim the present she picked out. As usual the his imprint's wants came first, they blidned him.

"Give me a few okay?" Leah tried her best to grin, knowing it came out more like a grimace. "I just need a few" She lied. No amount of time would make any of this okay. The pack had all began to settle down. Most finding their imprints even though the legends had made it seem so rare.

" Rare my ass " Leah thought. The legends had been wrong about a lot of things it seemed. Including the existence of a she-wolf.

Jacob threw one last fleeting glance at her before nodding and picking his 6'7 frame up off the ground with grace that would put any regular human to shame. He stood and hesitated before heading back knowing he wouldn't convince Leah to follow.

Leah waited until the last of his warmth disappeared from the air around her. Slowly, the sinking feeling in her stomach bubbled up and her throat seemed to close. The grief reared its ugly head in her soul as she heard the party slowly start to wind down. She could just make out the sounds of some of the couples quietly try and sneak off. Probably in attempt to get out of cleaning up. Leah rolled her eyes before focusing her hearing on something or rather someone else.

She could hear the laugh that sounded like bells in the wind and the deep warm chuckle that followed it. Jacob was always in bright spirits around his imprint. All of them were. It was imprint magic. Nothing like what Leah had to offer.

Slowly the beach was vacated, and Leah regretted not leaving earlier. The quiet was always worse than the noise. It was another reminder that she was alone. Would be alone. Forever.

That was her sacrifice.